Thanksgivingwasanappreciatedfestival,butitinnowaycameuptoChristmas。Christmaswasanoccasionofliterallydeliriousjoy。Intheeveningwehungupourstockings——orratherthebiggeststockingswecouldborrowfromthegrown-ups——andbeforedawnwetroopedintoopenthemwhilesittingonfather’sandmother’sbed;andthebiggerpresentswerearranged,thoseforeachchildonitsowntable,inthedrawing-room,thedoorstowhichwerethrownopenafterbreakfast。I
neverknewanyoneelsehavewhatseemedtomesuchattractiveChristmases,andinthenextgenerationItriedtoreproducethemexactlyformyownchildren。
Myfather,TheodoreRoosevelt,wasthebestmanIeverknew。Hecombinedstrengthandcouragewithgentleness,tenderness,andgreatunselfishness。Hewouldnottolerateinuschildrenselfishnessorcruelty,idleness,cowardice,oruntruthfulness。Aswegrewolderhemadeusunderstandthatthesamestandardofcleanlivingwasdemandedfortheboysasforthegirls;thatwhatwaswronginawomancouldnotberightinaman。Withgreatloveandpatience,andthemostunderstandingsympathyandconsideration,hecombinedinsistenceondiscipline。Heneverphysicallypunishedmebutonce,buthewastheonlymanofwhomIwaseverreallyafraid。Idonotmeanthatitwasawrongfear,forhewasentirelyjust,andwechildrenadoredhim。Weusedtowaitinthelibraryintheeveninguntilwecouldhearhiskeyrattlinginthelatchofthefronthall,andthenrushouttogreethim;andwewouldtroopintohisroomwhilehewasdressing,tostaythereaslongaswewerepermitted,eagerlyexamininganythingwhichcameoutofhispocketswhichcouldberegardedasanattractivenovelty。Everychildhasfixedinhismemoryvariousdetailswhichstrikeitasofgraveimportance。Thetrinketsheusedtokeepinalittleboxonhisdressing-tablewechildrenalwaysusedtospeakofas“treasures。”Theword,andsomeofthetrinketsthemselves,passedontothenextgeneration。Myownchildren,whensmall,usedtotroopintomyroomwhileIwasdressing,andthegraduallyaccumulatingtrinketsinthe“ditty-box“——thegiftofanenlistedmaninthenavy——
alwaysexcitedrapturousjoy。Onoccasionsofsolemnfestivityeachchildwouldreceiveatrinketforhisorher“veryown。”Mychildren,bytheway,enjoyedonepleasureIdonotrememberenjoyingmyself。
WhenIcamebackfromriding,thechildwhobroughtthebootjackwoulditselfpromptlygetintotheboots,andclumpupanddowntheroomwithadelightfulfeelingofkinshipwithJackoftheseven-leaguestrides。
ThepunishingincidentIhavereferredtohappenedwhenIwasfouryearsold。Ibitmyeldersister’sarm。Idonotrememberbitingherarm,butIdorememberrunningdowntotheyard,perfectlyconsciousthatIhadcommittedacrime。FromtheyardIwentintothekitchen,gotsomedoughfromthecook,andcrawledunderthekitchentable。InaminuteortwomyfatherenteredfromtheyardandaskedwhereIwas。
Thewarm-heartedIrishcookhadacharacteristiccontemptfor“informers。”butalthoughshesaidnothingshecompromisedbetweeninformingandherconsciencebycastingalookunderthetable。Myfatherimmediatelydroppedonallfoursanddartedforme。Ifeeblyheavedthedoughathim,and,havingtheadvantageofhimbecauseI
couldstandupunderthetable,gotafairstartforthestairs,butwascaughthalfwayupthem。Thepunishmentthatensuedfittedthecrime,andIhope——andbelieve——thatitdidmegood。
Ineverknewanyonewhogotgreaterjoyoutoflivingthandidmyfather,oranyonewhomorewhole-heartedlyperformedeveryduty;andnoonewhomIhaveevermetapproachedhiscombinationofenjoymentoflifeandperformanceofduty。Heandmymotherweregiventoahospitalitythatatthattimewasassociatedmorecommonlywithsouthernthannorthernhouseholds;and,especiallyintheirlateryearswhentheyhadmoveduptown,intheneighborhoodofCentralPark,theykeptacharming,openhouse。
Myfatherworkedhardathisbusiness,forhediedwhenhewasforty-
six,tooearlytohaveretired。Hewasinterestedineverysocialreformmovement,andhedidanimmenseamountofpracticalcharitableworkhimself。Hewasabig,powerfulman,withaleonineface,andhisheartfilledwithgentlenessforthosewhoneededhelporprotection,andwiththepossibilityofmuchwrathagainstabullyoranoppressor。Hewasveryfondofridingbothontheroadandacrossthecountry,andwasalsoagreatwhip。Heusuallydrovefour-in-hand,orelseaspiketeam,thatis,apairwithathirdhorseinthelead。I
donotsupposethatsuchateamexistsnow。Thetrapthathedrovewealwayscalledthehighphaeton。Thewheelsturnedunderinfront。I
haveityet。Hedrovelong-tailedhorses,harnessedlooseinlightAmericanharness,sothatthewholerighadnopossibleresemblancetoanythingthatwouldbeseennow。Myfatheralwaysexcelledinimprovingeverysparehalf-hourorthree-quartersofanhour,whetherforworkorenjoyment。Muchofhisfour-in-handdrivingwasdoneinthesummerafternoonswhenhewouldcomeoutonthetrainfromhisbusinessinNewYork。Mymotherandoneorperhapstwoofuschildrenmightmeethimatthestation。Icanseehimnowgettingoutofthecarinhislinenduster,jumpingintothewagon,andinstantlydrivingoffatarattlingpace,thedustersometimesbagginglikeaballoon。
Thefour-in-hand,ascanbegatheredfromtheabovedescription,didnotinanywayinhiseyesrepresentpossiblepageantry。Hedroveitbecausehelikedit。Hewasalwayspreachingcautiontohisboys,butinthisrespecthedidnotpracticehispreachingovermuchhimself;
and,beinganexcellentwhip,helikedtotakechances。Generallytheycameoutallright。Occasionallytheydidnot;buthewasevenbetteratgettingoutofascrapethanintoit。OncewhenweweredrivingintoNewYorklateatnighttheleadersstopped。Heflickedthem,andthenextmomentwecoulddimlymakeoutthattheyhadjumped。Itthenappearedthatthestreetwasclosedandthataboardhadbeenplacedacrossit,restingontwobarrels,butwithoutalantern。Overthisboardtheleadershadjumped,andtherewasconsiderableexcitementbeforewegottheboardtakenoffthebarrelsandresumedourway。
WheninthecityonThanksgivingorChristmas,myfatherwasveryapttodrivemymotherandacoupleoffriendsuptotheracingparktotakelunch。ButhewasalwaysbackintimetogotothedinnerattheNewsboys’Lodging-House,andnotinfrequentlyalsotoMissSattery’sNightSchoolforlittleItalians。Ataveryearlyagewechildrenweretakenwithhimandwererequiredtohelp。HewasastaunchfriendofCharlesLoringBrace,andwasparticularlyinterestedintheNewsboys’
Lodging-HouseandinthenightschoolsandingettingthechildrenoffthestreetsandoutonfarmsintheWest。WhenIwasPresident,theGovernorofAlaskaunderme,GovernorBrady,wasoneoftheseex-
newsboyswhohadbeensentfromNewYorkoutWestbyMr。Braceandmyfather。Myfatherwasgreatlyinterestedinthesocietiestopreventcrueltytochildrenandcrueltytoanimals。OnSundayshehadamissionclass。OnhiswaytoitheusedtodropuschildrenatourSunday-schoolinDr。Adams’sPresbyterianChurchonMadisonSquare;I
rememberhearingmyaunt,mymother’ssister,sayingthatwhenhewalkedalongwithuschildrenhealwaysremindedherofGreatheartinBunyan。UnderthespurofhisexampleItaughtamissionclassmyselfforthreeyearsbeforegoingtocollegeandforallfouryearsthatI
wasincollege。IdonotthinkImademuchofasuccessofit。ButtheotherdayongettingoutofataxiinNewYorkthechauffeurspoketomeandtoldmethathewasoneofmyoldSunday-schoolpupils。I
rememberedhimwell,andwasmuchpleasedtofindthathewasanardentBullMooser!
Mymother,MarthaBulloch,wasasweet,gracious,beautifulSouthernwoman,adelightfulcompanionandbelovedbyeverybody。Shewasentirely“unreconstructed“tothedayofherdeath。Hermother,mygrandmother,oneofthedearestofoldladies,livedwithus,andwasdistinctlyoverindulgenttouschildren,beingquiteunabletohardenherhearttowardsusevenwhentheoccasiondemandedit。TowardsthecloseoftheCivilWar,althoughaverysmallboy,Igrewtohaveapartialbutalertunderstandingofthefactthatthefamilywerenotoneintheirviewsaboutthatconflict,myfatherbeingastrongLincolnRepublican;andonce,whenIfeltthatIhadbeenwrongedbymaternaldisciplineduringtheday,IattemptedapartialvengeancebyprayingwithloudfervorforthesuccessoftheUnionarms,whenweallcametosayourprayersbeforemymotherintheevening。Shewasnotonlyamostdevotedmother,butwasalsoblessedwithastrongsenseofhumor,andshewastoomuchamusedtopunishme;butIwaswarnednottorepeattheoffense,underpenaltyofmyfather’sbeinginformed——hebeingthedispenserofseriouspunishment。Morningprayerswerewithmyfather。Weusedtostandatthefootofthestairs,andwhenfathercamedownwecalledout,“Ispeakforyouandthecubby-holetoo!”Therewerethreeofusyoungchildren,andweusedtositwithfatheronthesofawhileheconductedmorningprayers。Theplacebetweenfatherandthearmofthesofawecalledthe“cubby-hole。”Thechildwhogotthatplaceweregardedasespeciallyfavoredbothincomfortandsomehoworotherinrankandtitle。Thetwowhowerelefttositonthemuchwiderexpanseofsofaontheothersideoffatherwereoutsidersforthetimebeing。
MyauntAnna,mymother’ssister,livedwithus。Shewasasdevotedtouschildrenaswasmymotherherself,andwewereequallydevotedtoherinreturn。Shetaughtusourlessonswhilewewerelittle。SheandmymotherusedtoentertainusbythehourwithtalesoflifeontheGeorgiaplantations;ofhuntingfox,deer,andwildcat;ofthelong-
taileddrivinghorses,BooneandCrockett,andoftheridinghorses,oneofwhichwasnamedBuenaVistainafitofpatrioticexaltationduringtheMexicanWar;andofthequeergoings-onintheNegroquarters。Sheknewallthe“Br’erRabbit“stories,andIwasbroughtuponthem。Oneofmyuncles,RobertRoosevelt,wasmuchstruckwiththem,andtookthemdownfromherdictation,publishingthemin/Harper’s/,wheretheyfellflat。Thiswasagoodmanyyearsbeforeageniusarosewhoin“UncleRemus“madethestoriesimmortal。
Mymother’stwobrothers,JamesDunwoodieBullochandIrvineBulloch,cametovisitusshortlyafterthecloseofthewar。Bothcameunderassumednames,astheywereamongtheConfederateswhowereatthattimeexemptedfromtheamnesty。“UncleJimmy“Bullochwasadearoldretiredsea-captain,utterlyunableto“geton“intheworldlysenseofthatphrase,asvaliantandsimpleanduprightasoulaseverlived,averitableColonelNewcome。HewasanAdmiralintheConfederatenavy,andwasthebuilderofthefamousConfederatewarvesselAlabama。MyuncleIrvineBullochwasamidshipmanonthe/Alabama/,andfiredthelastgundischargedfromherbatteriesinthefightwiththe/Kearsarge/。BothoftheseuncleslivedinLiverpoolafterthewar。
MyuncleJimmyBullochwasforgivingandjustinreferencetotheUnionforces,andcoulddiscussallphasesoftheCivilWarwithentirefairnessandgenerosity。ButinEnglishpoliticshepromptlybecameaToryofthemostultra-conservativeschool。LincolnandGranthecouldadmire,buthewouldnotlistentoanythinginfavorofMr。
Gladstone。TheonlyoccasionsonwhichIevershookhisfaithinmewerewhenIwouldventuremeeklytosuggestthatsomeofthemanifestlypreposterousfalsehoodsaboutMr。Gladstonecouldnotbetrue。MyunclewasoneofthebestmenIhaveeverknown,andwhenI
havesometimesbeentemptedtowonderhowgoodpeoplecanbelieveofmetheunjustandimpossiblethingstheydobelieve,IhaveconsoledmyselfbythinkingofUncleJimmyBulloch’sperfectlysincereconvictionthatGladstonewasamanofquiteexceptionalandnamelessinfamyinbothpublicandprivatelife。
Iwasasickly,delicateboy,sufferedmuchfromasthma,andfrequentlyhadtobetakenawayontripstofindaplacewhereIcouldbreathe。OneofmymemoriesisofmyfatherwalkingupanddowntheroomwithmeinhisarmsatnightwhenIwasaverysmallperson,andofsittingupinbedgasping,withmyfatherandmothertryingtohelpme。Iwentverylittletoschool。Ineverwenttothepublicschools,asmyownchildrenlaterdid,bothatthe“CoveSchool“atOysterBayandatthe“FordSchool“inWashington。ForafewmonthsIattendedProfessorMcMullen’sschoolinTwentiethStreetnearthehousewhereI
wasborn,butmostofthetimeIhadtutors。AsIhavealreadysaid,myaunttaughtmewhenIwassmall。AtonetimewehadaFrenchgoverness,alovedandvalued“mam’selle。”inthehousehold。