`WhathaveIdonetooffendyou?’saidshe,moreplaintively。
`IwishIknew。’
`Come,takeyourtea,Eliza,anddon’tbefoolish,’respondedI,handingherthesugarandcream。
Justthen,therearoseaslightcommotionontheothersideofme,occasionedbyMissWilson’scomingtonegotiateanexchangeofseatswithRose。
`Willyoubesogoodastoexchangeplaceswithme,MissMarkham?’
saidshe,`forIdon’tliketositbyMrsGraham。Ifyourmammathinkspropertoinvitesuchpersonstoherhouse,shecannotobjecttoherdaughter’skeepingcompanywiththem。’
ThislatterclausewasaddedinasortofsoliloquywhenRosewasgone;butIwasnotpoliteenoughtoletitpass:
`Willyoubesogoodastotellmewhatyoumean,MissWilson?’
saidI。
Thequestionstartledheralittle,butnotmuch。
`WhyMrMarkham,’repliedshe,coolly,havingquicklyrecoveredherself-possession,`itsurprisesmeratherthatMrsMarkhamshouldinvitesuchapersonasMrsGrahamtoherhouse;butperhapssheisnotawarethatthelady’scharacterisconsideredscarcelyrespectable。’
`Sheisnot,noramI;andtherefore,youwouldobligemebyexplainingyourmeaningalittlefurther。’
`Thisisscarcelythetimeortheplaceforsuchexplanations;
butIthinkyoucanhardlybesoignorantasyoupretend:youmustknowheraswellasIdo。’
`IthinkIdo,perhapsalittlebetter;andtherefore,ifyouwillinformmewhatyouhaveheard,orimaginedagainsther,Ishall,perhaps,beabletosetyouright。’
`Canyoutellme,then,whowasherhusband;orifsheeverhadany?’
Indignationkeptmesilent。AtsuchatimeandplaceIcouldnottrustmyselftoanswer。
`Haveyouneverobserved,’saidEliza,`whatastrikinglikenessthereisbetweenthatchildofhersand——`
`Andwhom?’demandedMissWilson,withanairofcold,butkeenseverity。
Elizawasstartled:thetimidlyspokensuggestionhadbeenintendedformyearalone。
`Oh,Ibegyourpardon!’pleadedshe,`Imaybemistaken——perhapsIwasmistaken。’Butsheaccompaniedthewordswithaslyglanceofderisiondirectedtomefromthecornerofherdisingenuouseye。
`There’snoneedtoaskmypardon,’repliedherfriend;
`butIseenooneherethatatallresemblesthatchild,excepthismother;
andwhenyouhearill-naturedreports,MissEliza,Iwillthankyou——thatis,Ithinkyouwilldowelltorefrainfromrepeatingthem。IpresumethepersonyoualludetoisMrLawrence;butIthinkIcanassureyouthatyoursuspicions,inthatrespect,areutterlymisplaced;andifhehasanyparticularconnectionwiththeladyatallwhichnoonehasarighttoassert,atleasthehaswhatcannotbesaidofsomeotherssufficientsenseofproprietytowithholdhimfromacknowledginganythingmorethanabowingacquaintanceinthepresenceofrespectablepersons——hewasevidentlybothsurprisedandannoyedtofindherhere。’
`Goit!’criedFergus,whosatontheothersideofEliza,andwastheonlyindividualwhosharedthatsideofthetablewithus;`goitlikebricks!mindyoudon’tleaveheronestoneuponanother。’
MissWilsondrewherselfupwithalookoffreezingscorn,butsaidnothing。Elizawouldhavereplied,butIinterruptedherbysaying,ascalmlyasIcould,thoughinatonewhichbetrayed,nodoubt,somelittleofwhatIfeltwithin,——
`Wehavehadenoughofthissubject:ifwecanonlyspeaktoslanderourbetters,letusholdourtongues。’
`Ithinkyou’dbetter,’observedFergus;`andsodoesourgoodparson:hehasbeenaddressingthecompanyinhisrichestveinallthewhile,andeyeingyou,fromtimetotime,withlooksofsterndistaste,whileyousatthere,irreverentlywhisperingandmutteringtogether;andoncehepausedinthemiddleofastory——orasermon,Idon’tknowwhich,andfixedhiseyesuponyou,Gilbert,asmuchastosay——“WhenMrMarkhamhasdoneflirtingwiththosetwoladiesIwillproceed!”’
Whatmorewassaidatthetea-tableIcannottell;norhowIfoundpatiencetosittillthemealwasover。Iremember,however,thatIswallowedwithdifficultytheremainderoftheteathatwasinmycup,andatenothing;
andthatthefirstthingIdidwastostareatArthurGraham,whosatbesidehismotherontheoppositesideofthetable,andthesecondtostareatMrLawrence,whosatbelow;and,first,itstruckmethattherewasalikeness;but,onfurthercontemplation,Iconcludeditwasonlyinimagination。
Both,itistrue,hadmoredelicatefeaturesandsmallerbonesthancommonlyfalltothelotofindividualsoftheroughersex,andLawrence’scomplexionwaspaleandclear,andArthur’sdelicatelyfair;butArthur’stiny,somewhatsnubbynosecouldneverbecomesolongandstraightasMrLawrence’s,andtheoutlineofhisface,thoughnotfullenoughtoberound,andtoofinelyconvergingtothesmall,dimpledchintobesquare,couldneverbedrawnouttothelongovaloftheother’s;whilethechild’shairwasevidentlyofalighter,warmertintthantheeldergentleman’shadeverbeen,andhislarge,clear,blueeyes,thoughprematurelyseriousattimes,wereutterlydissimilartotheshy,hazeleyesofMrLawrence,whencethesensitivesoullookedsodistrustfullyforth,aseverreadytoretirewithin,fromtheoffencesofatoorude,toouncongenialworld。WretchthatIwastoharbourthatdetestableideaforamoment!DidInotknowMrsGraham?HadInotseenher,conversedwithhertimeaftertime?WasInotcertainthatshe,inintellect,inpurityandelevationofsoul,wasimmeasurablysuperiortoanyofherdetractors;thatshewas,infact,thenoblest,themostadorable,ofhersexIhadeverbeheld,orevenimaginedtoexist?Yes,andIwouldsaywithMaryMillwardsensiblegirlasshewasthatifalltheparish,ay,oralltheworldshoulddinthesehorribleliesinmyears,Iwouldnotbelievethem;forIknewherbetterthanthey。
Meantime,mybrainwasonfirewithindignation,andmyheartseemedreadytoburstfromitsprisonwithconflictingpassions。IregardedmytwofairneighbourswithafeelingofabhorrenceandloathingIscarcelyendeavouredtoconceal:Iwasralliedfromseveralquartersformyabstractionandungallantneglectoftheladies;butIcaredlittleforthat:allI
caredabout,besidesthatonegrandsubjectofmythoughts,wastoseethecupstraveluptothetea-tray,andnotcomedownagain。IthoughtMrMillwardneverwouldceasetellingusthathewasnotea-drinker,andthatitwashighlyinjurioustokeeploadingthestomachwithslopstotheexclusionofmorewholesomesustenance,andsogivehimselftimetofinishhisfourthcup。
Atlengthitwasover;andIroseandleftthetableandtheguests,withoutawordofapology——Icouldenduretheircompanynolonger。Irushedouttocoolmybraininthebalmyeveningair,andtocomposemymind,orindulgemypassionatethoughtsinthesolitudeofthegarden。
Toavoidbeingseenfromthewindows,Iwentdownaquietlittleavenue,thatskirtedonesideoftheenclosure,atthebottomofwhichwasaseatemboweredinrosesandhoneysuckles。HereIsatdowntothinkoverthevirtuesandwrongsoftheladyofWildfellHall;butIhadnotbeensooccupiedtwominutes,beforevoicesandlaughter,andglimpsesofmovingobjectsthroughthetrees,informedmethatthewholecompanyhadturnedouttotakeanaIringinthegardentoo,However,Inestledupinacornerofthebower,andhopedtoretainpossessionofit,securealikefromobservationandintrusion。Butno——confoundit——therewassomeonecomingdowntheavenue!Whycouldn’ttheyenjoytheflowers。andsunshineoftheopengarden,andleavethatsunlessnooktome,andthegnatsandmidges?
Butpeepingthroughmyfragrantscreenofinterwovenbranchestodiscoverwhotheintruderswereforamurmurofvoicestoldmeitwasmorethanone,myvexationinstantlysubsided,andfarotherfeelingsagitatedmystillunquietsoul;fortherewasMrsGraham,slowlymovingdownthewalkwithArthurbyherride,andnooneelse。Whyweretheyalone?
Hadthepoisonofdetractingtonguesalreadyspreadthroughall?andhadtheyallturnedtheirbacksuponher?InowrecollectedhavingseenMrsWilson,intheearlypartoftheevening,edgingherchaircloseuptomymother,andbendingforward,evidentlyinthedeliveryofsomeimportant,confidentialintelligence;andfromtheincessantwaggingofherhead,thefrequentdistortionsofherwrinkledphysiognomy,andthewinkingandmalicioustwinkleofherlittleuglyeyes,Ijudgeditwassomespicypieceofscandalthatengagedherpowers;andfromthecautiousprivacyofthecommunication,Isupposedsomepersonthenpresentwasthelucklessobjectofhercalumnies;andfromallthesetokens,togetherwithmymother’slooksandgesturesofmingledhorrorandincredulity,InowconcludedthatobjecttohavebeenMrsGraham。Ididnotemergefrommyplaceofconcealment,tillshehadnearlyreaChedthebottomofthewalk,lestmyappearanceshoulddriveheraway;andwhenIdidstepforward,shestoodstillandseemedinclinedtoturnbackasitwas。
Oh,don’tletusdisturbyou,MrMarkham!’saidshe。`Wecameheretoseekretirementourselves;nottointrudeonyourseclusion。’
`Iamnohermit,MrsGraham——thoughIownitlooksratherlikeit,toabsentmyselfinthisuncourteousfashionfrommyguests。’
`Ifearedyouwereunwell,’saidshe,withalookofrealconcern。
`Iwasrather,butit’sovernow。Dositherealittle,andrest,andtellmehowyoulikethisarbour,’saidI,andliftingArthurbytheshoulders,Iplantedhiminthemiddleoftheseatbywayofsecuringhismamma,who,acknowledgingittobeatemptingplaceofrefuge,threwherselfbackinonecorner,whileItookpossessionoftheother。
Butthatwordrefugedisturbedme。Hadtheirunkindnessthenreallydrivenhertoseekforpeaceinsolitude?
`Whyhavetheyleftyoualone?’Iasked。
`ItisIwhohaveleftthem,’wasthesmilingrejoinder。`Iwasweariedtodeathwithsmalltalk——nothingwearsmeoutlikethat。Icannotimaginehowtheycangoonastheydo。’
Icouldnothelpsmilingattheseriousdepthofherwonderment。
`Isitthattheythinkitadutytobecontinuallytalking,’pursuedshe;`andsoneverpausetothink,butfillupwithaimlesstriflesandvainrepetitions,whensubjectsofrealinterestfailtopresentthemselves?——ordotheyreallytakeapleasureinsuchdiscourse?’
Verylikelytheydo,’saidI:`theirshallowmindscanholdnogreatideas,andtheirlightheadsarecarriedawaybytrivialitiesthatwouldnotmoveabetterfurnishedskill;——andtheironlyalternativetosuchdisCourseistoplungeoverheadandearsintothesloughofscandal——whichistheirchiefdelight。’
`Notallofthemsurely?’criedthelady,astonishedatthebitternessofmyremark。
`No,certainly;Iexoneratemysisterfromsuchdegradedtastes——andmymothertoo,ifyouincludedherinyouranimadversions。’
`Imeantnoanimadversionsagainstanyone,andcertainlyin-tendednodisrespectfulallusionstoyourmother。Ihaveknownsomesensiblepersonsgreatadeptsinthatstyleofconversation,whencircumstancesimpelledthemtoit;butitisagiftIcannotboastthepossessionof。Ikeptupmyattention,onthisoccasion,aslongasIcould,butwhenmypowerswereexhausted,Istoleaway,toseekafewminutes’reposeinthisquietwalk。1hatetalkingwherethereisnoexchangeofideasorsentiments,andnogoodgivenorreceived。’
`Well,’saidI,`ifeverItroubleyouwithmyloquacity,tellmesoatonce,andIpromisenottobeoffended;forIpossessthefacultyofenjoyingthecompanyofthoseI——ofmyfriendsaswellinsilenceasinconversation。’
`Idon’tquitebelieveyou;butifitwereso,youwouldexactlysuitmeforacompanion。’
`Iamallyouwish,then,inotherrespects?’
`No,Idon’tmeanthat。Howbeautifulthoselittleclustersoffoliagelook,wherethesuncomesthroughbehindthem!’saidshe,onpurposetochangethesubject。