Shesmiled,andoncemorebidmego,——and,atlength,Ijudgeditprudenttoobey;andshere-enteredthehouse,andIwentdownthehill。
ButasIwent,thetrampofhorses’hoofsfellonmyear,andbrokethestillnessofthedewyevening;and,lookingtowardsthelane,Isawasolitaryequestriancomingup。Incliningtoduskasitwas,Iknewhimataglance:
itwasMrLawrenceonhisgreypony。Iflewacrossthefield——leapedthestonefence——andthenwalkeddownthelanetomeethim。Onseeingme,hesuddenlydrewinhislittlesteed,andseemedinclinedtoturnback,butonsecondthought,apparentlyjudgeditbettertocontinuehiscourseasbefore。Heaccostedmewithaslightbow,and,edgingclosetothewall,endeavouredtopasson——butIwasnotsominded:seizinghishorsebythebridle,Iexclaimed:——
`Now,Lawrence,Iwillhavethismysteryexplained!Tellmewhereyouaregoing,andwhatyoumeantodo——atonce,anddistinctly!’
`Willyoutakeyourhandoffthebridle?’saidhe,quietly——`you’rehurtingmypony’smouth。’
`Youandyourponybe——’
`Whatmakesyousocoarseandbrutal,Markham?I’mquiteashamedofyou。’
`Youanswermyquestions——beforeyouleavethisspot!Iwillknowwhatyoumeanbythisperfidiousduplicity?’
`Ishallanswernoquestionstillyouletgothebridle,——ifyoustandtillmorning。’
`Nowthen,’saidI,unclosingmyhand,butstillstandingbeforehim。
`Askmesomeothertime,whenyoucanspeaklikeagentleman,’
returnedhe,andhemadeanefforttopassmeagain;butIquicklyrecapturedthepony,scarcelessastonishedthanitsmasteratsuchuncivilusage。
`Really,MrMarkham,thisistoomuch!’saidthelatter。`CanInotgotoseemytenantonmattersofbusiness,withoutbeingassaultedinthismannerby——’
`Thisisnotimeforbusiness,sir!——I’lltellyou,now,whatIthinkofyourConduct。’
`You’dbetterdeferyouropiniontoamoreconvenientseason,’
interruptedhe,inalowtone——`here’sthevicar。’
Andintruth,thevicarwasjustbehindme,ploddinghomewardfromsomeremotecornerofhisparish。Iimmediatelyreleasedthesquire;
andhewentonhisway,salutingMrMillwardashepassed。
`What,quarrelling,Markham?’criedthelatter,addressinghimselftome,——`andaboutthatyoungwidowIdoubt,’headded,reproachfullyshakinghishead。`Butletmetellyou,youngmanhereheputhisfaceintominewithanimportant,confidentialair,`the’snotworthit!’andheconfirmedtheassertionbyasolemnnod。
`MrMILLWARD!’Iexclaimed,inatoneofwrathfulmenacethatmadethereverendgentlemanlookround——aghast——astoundedatsuchunwontedinsolence,andstaremeintheface,withalookthatplainlysaid:`What,thistome!’ButIwastooindignanttoapologize,ortospeakanotherwordtohim:Iturnedaway,andhastenedhomewards,descendingwithrapidstridesthesteep,roughlane,andleavinghimtofollowashepleased。
TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter11CHAPTER11TheVicarAgainYoumustsupposeaboutthreeweekspassedover。MrsGrahamandIwerenowestablishedfriends——orbrotherandsister,asweratherchosetoconsiderourselves。ShecalledmeGilbert,bymyexpressdesire,andIcalledherHelen,forIhadseenthatnamewritteninherbooks。Iseldomattemptedtoseeherabovetwiceaweek;andstillImadeourmeetingsappeartheresultofaccidentasoftenasIcould——forIfounditnecessarytobeextremelycareful——and,altogether,Ibehavedwithsuchexceedingproprietythatsheneverhadoccasiontoreprovemeonce。YetIcouldnotbutperceivethatshewasattimesunhappyanddissatisfiedwithherself——orherposition,andtrulyImyselfwasnotquitecontentedwiththelatter:thisassumptionofbrotherlynonchalancewasveryhardtosustain,andIoftenfeltmyselfamostconfoundedhypocritewithitall;Isawtoo,orratherIfelt,that,inspiteofherself,`Iwasnotindifferenttoher。”asthenovelheroesmodestlyexpressit,andwhileIthankfullyenjoyedmypresentgoodfortune,Icouldnotfailtowishandhopeforsomethingbetterinfuture;butofcourse,Ikeptsuchdreamsentirelytomyself。
`Whereareyougoing,Gilbert?’saidRose,oneevening,shortlyaftertea,whenIhadbeenbusywiththefarmallday,`Totakeawalk,’wasthereply。
`Doyoualwaysbrushyourhatsocarefully,anddoyourhairsonicely,andputonsuchsmartnewgloveswhenyoutakeawalk?’
`Notalways。’
`You’regoingtoWildfellHall,aren’tyou?’
`Whatmakesyouthinkso?’
`Becauseyoulookasifyouwere——butIwishyouwouldn’tgosooften。’
`Nonsense,child!Idon’tgoonceinsixweeks——whatdoyoumean?’
`Well,butifIwereyou,Iwouldn’thavesomuchtodowithMrsGraham。’
`WhyRose,areyou,too,givingintotheprevailingopinion?’
`No,’returnedshe,hesitatingly——`butI’veheardsomuchaboutherlately,bothattheWilsons’andthevicarage;——andbesides,mammasays,ifshewereaproperperson,shewouldnotbelivingtherebyherself——anddon’tyourememberlastwinter,Gilbert,allthataboutthefalsenametothepicture;andhowsheexplainedit——sayingshehadfriendsoracquaintancesfromwhomshewishedherpresentresidencetobeconcealed,andthatshewasafraidoftheirtracingherout;——andthen,howsuddenlyshestartedupandlefttheroomwhenthatpersoncame——whomshetookgoodcarenottoletuscatchaglimpseof,andwhoArthur,withsuchanairofmystery,tolduswashismamma’sfriend?’
`Yes,Rose,Irememberitall;andIcanforgiveyouruncharitableconclusions;forperhaps,ifIdidnotknowhermyself,Ishouldputallthesethingstogether,andbelievethesameasyoudo;butthankGod,I
doknowher;andIshouldbeunworthythenameofaman,ifIcouldbelieveanythingthatwassaidagainsther,unlessIhearditfromherownlips——I
shouldassoonbelievesuchthingsofyou,Rose。’
`Oh,Gilbert!’
`Well,doyouthinkIcouldbelieveanythingofthekind,——whatevertheWilsonsandMillwardsdaredtowhisper?’
`Ishouldhopenotindeed!’
`Andwhynot?——BecauseIknowyou——well,andIknowherjustaswell。’
`Oh,no!youknownothingofherformerlife;andlastyearatthistime,youdidnotknowthatsuchapersonexisted。’
`Nomatter。Thereis’suchathingaslookingthroughaperson’seyesintotheheart,andlearningmoreoftheheight,andbreadth,anddepthofanother’ssoulinonehour,thanitmighttakeyoualifetimetodiscover,ifheorshewerenotdisposedtorevealit,——orifyouhadnotthesensetounderstandit。’
`Thenyouaregoingtoseeherthisevening?’
TobesureIam!’
`Butwhatwouldmammasay,Gilbert?’
`Mammaneedn’tknow。’
`Butshemustknowsometime,ifyougoon’
`Goon!——there’snogoingoninthematter——MrsGrahamandIaretwofriends——andwillbe;andnomanbreathingshallhinderit,——orhasarighttointerferebetweenus。’
`Butifyouknewhowtheytalk,youwouldbemorecareful——forhersakeaswellasforyourown。JaneWilsonthinksyourvisitstotheoldhallbutanotherproofofherdepravity——’
`ConfoundJaneWilson!’
`AndElizaMillwardisquitegrievedaboutyou。’
`Ihopesheis。’
`ButIwouldn’tifIwereyou。’
`Wouldn’twhat?——HowdotheyknowthatIgothere?’
`There’snothinghidfromthem:theyspyouteverything。’
`Oh,Ineverthoughtofthis!——Andsotheydaretoturnmyfriendshipintofoodforfurtherscandalagainsther!——Thatprovesthefalsehoodoftheirotherlies,atallevents,ifanyproofwerewanting——Mindyoucontradictthem,Rose,wheneveryoucan。’
`Buttheydon’tspeakopenlytomeaboutsuchthings:itisonlybyhintsandinnuendoes,andbywhatIhearotherssay,thatIknowwhattheythink。’
`Wellthen,Iwon’tgotoday,asit’sgettinglatish。Butoh,deucetaketheircursedenvenomedtongues!’Imuttered,inthebitternessofmysoul。
Andjustatthatmoment,thevicarenteredtheroom:wehadbeentoomuchabsorbedinourconversationtoobservehisknock。AlterhiscustomarycheerfulandfatherlygreetingofRose,whowasratherafavouritewiththeoldgentleman,heturnedsomewhatsternlytome:——
`Well,sir!’saidhe,`you’requiteastranger。Itis-let-me-see,’
hecontinued,slowly,ashedepositedhisponderousbulkinthearmchairthatRoseofficiouslybroughttowardshim,`itisjustsix——weeks——bymyreckoning,sinceyoudarkened——my——door!’Hespokeitwithemphasis,andstruckhisstickonthefloor。
`Isit,sir?’saidI。
`Ay!Itisso!’Headdedanaffiramatorynod,andcontinuedtogazeuponmewithakindofiratesolemnity,holdinghissubstantialstickbetweenhisknees,withhishandsclaspeduponitshead。
`Ihavebeenbusy,’Isaid,foranapologywasevidentlydemanded。
`Busy!’repeatedhe,derisively。
`Yes;youknowI’vebeengettinginmyhay:andnowtheharvestisbeginning。’
`Humph!’
Justthenmymothercamein,andcreatedadiversioninmyfavourbyherloquaciousandanimatedwelcomeofthereverendguest。Sheregretteddeeplythathehadnotcomealittleearlier,intimefortea,butofferedtohavesomeimmediatelyprepared,ifhewoulddoherthefavourtopartakeofit。
`Notanyforme,Ithankyou,’repliedhe;`Ishallbeathomeinafewminutes。’
`Oh,butdostayandtakealittle!itwillbereadyinfiveminutes。’
Butherejectedtheofferwithamajesticwaveofthehand。
`I’lltellyouwhatI’lltake,MrsMarkham,’saidhe:`I’lltakeaglassofyourexcellentale。’
`Withpleasure!’criedmymother,proceedingwithalacritytopull。thebellandorderthefavouredbeverage。
`Ithought,’continuedhe,`I’djustlookinuponyouasIpassed,andtasteyourhome-brewedale。I’vebeentocallonMrsGraham。’
`Haveyouindeed?’
Henoddedgravely,andaddedwithawfulemphasis——
Ithoughtitincumbentuponmetodoso。’
`Really!’ejaculatedmymother。
`Whyso,MrMillward?’askedI。Helookedatmewithsomeseverity,andturningagaintomymother,repeated——
`Ithoughtitincumbentuponme!’andstruckhisstickontheflooragain。Mymothersatopposite,anawe-struckbutadmiringauditor。
`“MrsGraham。”saidI,’hecontinued,shakinghisheadashespoke,`“theseareterriblereports!”“Whatsir?”saysshe,affectingtobeignorantofmymeaning。“Itismy——duty——as——yourpastor。”saidI,“totellyoubotheverythingthatImyselfseereprehensibleinyourconduct,andallIhavereasontosuspect,andwhatotherstellmeconcerningyou“——SoI
toldher!’
`Youdidsir?’criedI,startingfrommyseat,andstrikingmyfistonthetable。Hemerelyglancedtowardsme,andcontinued——addressinghishostess:
`Itwasapainfulduty,MrsMarkham——butItoldher!’
`Andhowdidshetakeit?’askedmymother。
`Hardened,Ifear——hardened!’hereplied,withadespondentshakeofthehead;`andatthesametime,therewasastrongdisplayofunchastened,misdirectedpassions。Sheturnedwhiteintheface,anddrewherbreaththroughherteethinasavagesortofway;——butsheofferednoextenuationordefence;andwithakindofshamelesscalmness——shockingindeedtowitness,inonesoyoung——asgoodastoldmethatmyremonstrancewasunavailing,andmypastoraladvicequitethrownawayuponher——nay,thatmyverypresencewasdispleasingwhileIspokesuchthings。AndIwithdrewatlength,tooplainlyseeingthatnothingcouldbedone——andsadlygrievedtofindhercasesohopeless。ButIamfullydetermined,MrsMarkham,thatmydaughters——shall——not——consortwithher。Doyouadoptthesameresolutionwithregardtoyours!——Asforyoursons——asforyou,youngman,’hecontinued,sternlyturningtome。
`AsforME,sir,——’Ibegan,butcheckedbysomeimpedimentinmyutterance,andfindingthatmywholeframetrembledwithfury,Isaidnomore——buttookthewiserpartofsnatchingupmyhatandboltingfromtheroom,slammingthedoorbehindmewithabangthatshookthehousetoitsfoundationsandmademymotherscream——andgaveamomentaryrelieftomyexcitedfeelings。
ThenextminutesawmehurryingwithrapidstridesinthedirectionofWildfellHall——towhatintentorpurposeIcouldscarcelytel!,butImustbemovingsomewhere,andnoothergoalwoulddo——Imustseeher,too,andspeaktoher——thatwascertain,butwhattosayorhowtoact,Ihadnodefiniteidea。Suchstormythoughts——somanydifferentresolutions——crowdedinuponme,hatmymindwaslittlebetterthanachaosofconflictingpassions。
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