`Heisagoodman,MrHuntingdon。IwishIcouldsayhalfasmuchforyou。’
`Oh,Iforgot,youareasaint,too。Icraveyourpardon,dearest——butdon’tcallmeMrHuntingdon,mynameisArthur。’
`I’llcallyounothing——forI’llhavenothingatalltodowithyou,ifyoutalkinthatwayanymore。Ifyoureallymeantodeceivemyauntasyousay,youareverywicked;andifnot,youareverywrongtojestonsuchasubject。’
`Istandcorrected,’saidhe,concludinghislaughwithasorrowfulsigh。`Now,’resumedhe,afteramomentarypause,`letustalkaboutsomethingelse。Andcomenearertome,Helen,andtakemyarm;andthenI’llletyoualone。Ican’tbequietwhileIseeyouwalkingthere。’
Icomplied;butsaidwemustsoonreturntothehouse。
`Noonewillbedowntobreakfastyet,forlongenough,’heanswered。
`Youspokeofyourguardiansjustnow,Helen;butisnotyourfatherstillliving?’
`Yes,butIalwayslookuponmyuncleandauntasmyguardians,fortheyareso,indeed,thoughnotinname,Myfatherhasentirelygivenmeuptotheircare。IhaveneverseenhimsincedearmammadiedwhenI
wasaverylittlegirl,andmyaunt,atherrequest,offeredtotakechargeofme,andtookmeawaytoStaningley,whereIhaveremainedeversince;
andIdon’tthinkhewouldobjecttoanythingforme,thatshethoughtpropertosanction。’
`Butwouldhesanctionanythingtowhichshethoughtpropertoobject?’
`No,Idon’tthinkhecaresenoughaboutme。’
`Heisverymuchtoblame——buthedoesn’tknowwhatanangelhehasforhisdaughter——whichallthebetterforme,as,ifhedid,hewouldnotbewillingtopartwithsuchatreasure。’
`AndMrHuntingdon,’saidI,`IsupposeyouknowIamnotanheiress?’
Heprotestedhehadnevergivenitathought,andbeggedIwouldnotdisturbhispresentenjoymentbythementionofsuchuninterestingsubjects,Iwasgladofthisproofofdisinterestedaffection;forAnnabellaWilmotistheprobableheiresstoallheruncle’swealth,inadditiontoherlatefather’sproperty,whichshehasalreadyinpossession。
Inowinsisteduponretracingourstepstothehouse;butwewalkedslowly,andwentontalkingasweproceeded。Ineednotrepeatallwesaid:
letmeratherrefertowhatpassedbetweenmyauntandme,afterbreakfast,whenMrHuntingdoncalledmyuncleaside,nodoubttomakehisproposals,andshebeckonedmeintoanotherroom,wheresheoncemorecommencedasolemnremonstrancewhich,however,entirelyfailedtoconvincemethatherviewofthecasewaspreferabletomyown。
`Youjudgehimuncharitably,aunt,Iknow,’saidI。`Hisveryfriendsarenothalfsobadasyourepresentthem。ThereisWalterHargrave,Milicent’sbrother,forone:heisbutalittlelowerthantheangels,ifhalfshesaysofhimistrue。Sheiscontinuallytalkingtomeabouthim,andlaudinghismanyvirtuestotheskies。’
`Youwillformaveryinadequateestimateofaman’scharacter,’
repliedshe,`ifyoujudgebywhatafondsistersaysofhim。Theworstofthemgenerallyknowhowtohidetheirmisdeedsfromtheirsister’seyes,andtheirmother’stoo。’
`AndthereisLordLowborough,’continuedI,`quiteadecentman。’
`Whotoldyouso?LordLowboroughisadesperateman。Hehasdissipatedhisfortuneingamblingandotherthings,andisnowseekinganheiresstoretrieveit。ItoldMissWilmotso;butyou’reallalike:
shehaughtilyansweredshewasverymuchobligedtome,butshebelievedsheknewwhenamanwasseekingherforherfortune,andwhenforherself;
sheflatteredherselfshehadhadexperienceenoughinthosematterstobejustifiedintrustingtoherownjudgment——andasforhislordship’slackoffortune,shecarednothingaboutthat,asshehopedherownwouldsufficeforboth;andasforhiswildness,shesupposedhewasnoworsethanothers——besideshewasreformednow——Yes,theycanallplaythehypocritewhentheywanttotakeinafond,misguidedwoman!’
`Well,Ithinkhe’saboutasgoodassheis,’saidI。ButwhenMrHuntingdonismarried,hewon’thavemanyopportunitiesofconsortingwithhisbachelorfriends;——andtheworsetheyare,themoreIlongtodeliverhimfromthem。’
`Tobesure,mydear;andtheworseheis,Isuppose,themoreyoulongtodeliverhimfromhimself。’
`Yes,providedheisnotincorrigible——thatis,themoreIlongtodeliverhimfromhisfaults——togivehimanopportunityofshakingofftheadventitiousevilgotfromcontactwithothersworsethanhimself,andshiningoutintheuncloudedlightofhisowngenuinegoodness——todomyutmosttohelphisbetterselfagainsthisworse,andmakehimwhathewouldhavebeenifhehadnot,fromthebeginning,hadabad,selfish,miserlyfather,who,togratifyhisownsordidpassions,restrictedhiminthemostinnocentenjoymentsofchildhoodandyouth,andsodisgustedhimwitheverykindofrestraint;——andafoolishmotherwhoindulgedhimtothetopofhisbent,deceivingherhusbandforhim,anddoingherutmosttoencouragethosegermsoffollyandviceitwasherdutytosuppress,——andthen,suchasetofcompanionsasyourepresenthisfriendstobe——’
`Poorman!’saidshe,sarcastically,`hiskindhavegreatlywrongedhim!’
`Theyhave!’criedI——`andtheyshallwronghimnomore——wifeshallundowhathismotherdid!’
`Well!’saidshe,afterashortpause。“Imustsay,Helen,Ithoughtbetterofyourjudgmentthanthis——andyourtastetoo。HowyoucanlovesuchamanIcannottell,orwhatpleasureyoucanfindinhiscompany:
for“Whatfellowshiphathlightwithdarkness?orhethatbelievethwithaninfidel?”’
`Heisnotaninfidel;——andIamnotlight,andheisnotdarkness,hisworstandonlyviceisthoughtlessness。’
`Andthoughtlessness,’pursuedmyaunt,mayleadtoeverycrime,andwillbutpoorlyexcuseourerrorsinthesightofGod。MrHuntingdon,Isuppose,isnotwithoutthecommonfacultiesofmen:heisnotsolightheadedastobeirresponsible:hisMakerhasendowedhimwithreasonandconscienceaswellastherestofus;theScripturesareopentohimaswellastoothers;——and“Ifhehearnotthem,neitherwillhehearthoughonerosefromthedead。”And,remember,Helen,’continuedshe,solemnly,`“Thewickedshallbeturnedintohell,andtheythatforgetGod“!’Andsuppose,even,thatheshouldcontinuetoloveyou,andyouhim,andthatyoushouldpassthroughlifetogetherwithtolerablecomfort,——howwillitbeintheend,whenyouseeyourselvespartedforever:you,perhaps,takenintoeternalbliss,andhecastintothelakethatburnethwithunquenchablefire——thereforeverto——’
`Notforever,’Iexclaimed,`“onlytillhehaspaidtheuttermostfarthing“;for“Ifanyman’sworkabidenotthefire,heshallsufferloss,yethimselfshallbesaved,butsoasbyfire。”andHethat“isabletosubdueallthingstoHimself,willhaveallmentobesaved。”and“willinthefulnessoftime,gathertogetherinoneallthingsinChristJesus,whotasteddeathforeveryman,andinwhomGodwillreconcileallthingstoHimself,whethertheybethingsinearthorthingsinheaven。”’
`Oh,Helen!wheredidyoulearnallthis?’
`IntheBible,aunt。Ihavesearcheditthrough,andfoundnearlythirtypassages,alltendingtosupportthesametheory。’
`AndisthattheuseyoumakeofyourBible?Anddidyoufindnopassagestendingtoprovethedangerandthefalsityofsuchabelief?’
`No:Ifound,indeed,somepassagesthat,takenbythemselves,mightseemtocontradictthatopinion;buttheywillallbearadifferentconstructiontothatwhichiscommonlygiven,andinmosttheonlydifficultyisinthewordwhichwetranslate“everlasting“or“eternal“:Idon’tknowtheGreek,butIbelieveitstrictlymeans“forages。”andmightsignifyeither“endless“or“long-enduring。”Andasforthedangerofthebelief,Iwouldnotpublishitabroad,ifIthoughtanypoorwretchwouldbelikelytopresumeuponittohisowndestruction,butitisagloriousthoughttocherishinone’sownheart,andIwouldnotpartwithitforalltheworldcangive!’
Hereourconferenceended,foritwasnowhightimetoprepareforchurch。Everyoneattendedthemorningservice,exceptmyuncle,whohardlyevergoes,andMrWilmot,whostayedathomewithhimtoenjoyaquietgameofcribbage。IntheafternoonMissWilmotandLordLowboroughlikewiseexcusedthemselvesfromattending;butMrHuntingdonvouchsafedtoaccompanyusagain。WhetheritwastoingratiatehimselfwithmyauntIcannottell,but,ifso,hecertainlyshouldhavebehavedbetter。Imustconfess,Ididnotlikehisconductduringserviceatall。Holdinghisprayer-bookupsidedown,oropenatanyplacebuttheright,hedidnothingbutstareabouthim,unlesshehappenedtocatchmyaunt’seyeormine,andthenhewoulddrophisownonhisbook,withapuritanicalairofmocksolemnitythatwouldhavebeenludicrous,ifithadnotbeentooprovoking。
Once,duringthesermon,afterattentivelyregardingMrLeightonforafewminutes,hesuddenlyproducedhisgoldpencilcaseandsnatchedupaBible。PerceivingthatIobservedthemovement,hewhisperedhewasgoingtomakeanoteofthesermon;butinsteadofthat——asIsatnexthim——I
couldnothelpseeingthathewasmakingacaricatureofthepreacher,givingtotherespectable,pious,elderlygentleman,theairandaspectofamostabsurdoldhypocrite。Andyet,uponhisreturn,hetalkedtomyauntaboutthesermonwithadegreeofmodest,seriousdiscriminationthattemptedmetobelievehehadreallyattendedandprofitedbythediscourse。
Justbeforedinnermyunclecalledmeintothelibraryforthediscussionofaveryimportantmatter,whichwasdismissedinfewwords。
`Now,Nell,’saidhe,`thisyoungHuntingdonhasbeenaskingforyou:whatmustIsayaboutit?Yourauntwouldanswer“No“——butwhatsayyou?’
`Isayyes,uncle,’repliedI,withoutamoment’shesitation;
forIhadthoroughlymadeupmymindonthesubject。
`Verygood!’criedhe。`Nowthat’sagoodhonestanswer——wonderfulforagirl!——Well,I’llwritetoyourfathertomorrow,He’ssuretogivehisconsent;soyoumaylookonthematterassettled。You’dhavedoneadealbetterifyou’dtakenWilmot,Icantellyou;butthatyouwon’tbelieve。Atyourtimeoflife,it’slovethatrulestheroast:atmine,it’ssolid,serviceablegold。Isupposenow,you’dneverdreamoflookingintothestateofyourhusband’sfinances,ortroublingyourheadaboutsettlements,oranythingofthatsort?’
`Idon’tthinkIshould。’
`Well,bethankful,then,thatyou’vewiserheadstothinkforyou。Ihaven’thadtime,yet,toexaminethoroughlyintothisyoungrascal’saffairs,butIseethatagreatpartofhisfather’sfinepropertyhasbeensquanderedaway;——butstill,Ithinkthere’saprettyfairshareofitleft,andalittlecarefulnursingmaymakeahandsomethingofityet;
andthenwemustpersuadeyourfathertogiveyouadecentfortune,ashehasonlyonebesidesyourselftocarefor;——and,ifyoubehavewell,whoknowsbutwhatImaybeinducedtorememberyouinmywill?’continuedbe,puttinghisfingertohisnose,withaknowingwink。
`Thanksuncle,forthatandallyourkindness,’repliedI。
`Well,andIquestionedthisyoungsparkonthematterofsettlements,’
continuedhe;andheseemeddisposedtobegenerousenoughonthatpoint——’
`Iknewhewould!’saidI。`Butpraydon’ttroubleyourhead——orhis,ormineaboutthat;forallIhavewillbehis,andallhehaswillbemine;andwhatmorecouldeitherofusrequire?’AndIwasabouttomakemyexit,buthecalledmeback。
`Stop,stop!’criedhe——`Wehaven’tmentionedthetimeyet。Whenmustitbe?YourauntwouldputitofftilltheLordknowswhen,butheisanxioustobeboundassoonasmaybe:he`won’thearofwaitingbeyondnextmonth;andyou,Iguess,willbeofthesamemind,so——’
`Notatall,uncle;onthecontrary,IshouldliketowaittillafterChristmas,atleast。’
`Oh!pooh,pooh!nevertellmethattale——Iknowbetter,’criedhe;andhepersistedinhisincredulity。Nevertheless,itisquitetrue。
Iaminnohurryatall。HowcanIbe,whenIthinkofthemomentouschangethatawaitsme,andofallIhavetoleave?Itishappinessenough,toknowthatwearetobeunited;andthathereallylovesme,andImaylovehimasdevotedly,andthinkofhimasoftenasIplease。
However,Iinsisteduponconsultingmyauntaboutthetimeofthewedding,forIdeterminedhercounselsshouldnotbeutterlydisregarded;
andnoconclusionsonthatparticulararecometoyet。
TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter21CHAPTER21OpinionsOCTOBER1st——Allissettlednow。Myfatherhasgivenhisconsent,andthetimeisfixedforChristmas,byasortofcompromisebetweentherespectiveadvocatesforhurryanddelay。MilicentHargraveistobeonebridesmaid,andAnnabellaWilmottheother——notthatIamparticularlyfondofthelatter,butsheisanintimateofthefamily,andIhavenotanotherfriend。
WhenItoldMilicentofmyengagement,sheratherprovokedmebyhermanneroftakingit。AlterstaringamomentInmutesurprise,shesaid——
`Well,Helen,IsupposeIoughttocongratulateyou——andIamgladtoseeyousohappy;butIdidnotthinkyouwouldtakehim;andI
can’thelpfeelingsurprisedthatyoushouldlikehimsomuch。’
`Whyso?’