`Well,mother,dobequiet!——Ihatetobelectured!——I’mnotgoingtomarryyet,Itellyou;but——dearme!mayn’tIenjoymyselfatall?’
`Yes,mydearboy,butnotinthatway。Indeedyoushouldn’tdosuchthings。Youwouldbewrongingthegirl,ifshewerewhatsheoughttobe;butIassureyousheisasartfulalittlehussyasanybodyneedwishtosee;andyou’llgetentangledinhersnaresbeforeyouknowwhereyouare。AndifyoudomarryherGilbert,you’llbreakmyheart——sothere’sanendofit。’
`Well,don’tcryaboutit,mother,’saidI,forthetearsweregushingfromhereyes;`there,letthatkisseffacetheoneIgaveEliza;
don’tabuseheranymore,andsetyourmindatrest;forI’llpromiseneverto——thatis,I’llpromiseto——tothinktwicebeforeItakeanyimportantstepyouseriouslydisapproveof。’
Sosaying,Ilightedmycandle,andwenttobed,considerablyquenchedinspirit。
TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter5CHAPTER5TheStudioITwasaboutthecloseofthemonth,that,yieldingatlengthtotheurgentimportunitiesofRose,IaccompaniedherinavisittoWildfellHall。Tooursurprise,wewereusheredintoaroomwherethefirstobjectthatmettheeyewasapainter’seasel,withatablebesideitcoveredwithrollsofcanvas,bottlesofoilandvarnish,palette,brushes,paints,etc。Leaningagainstthewallwereseveralsketchesinvariousstagesofprogression,andafewfinishedpaintingsmostlyoflandscapesandfigures。
`Imustmakeyouwelcometomystudio,’saidMrsGraham;`thereisnofireinthesitting-roomto-day,anditisrathertoocoldtoshowyouintoaplacewithanemptygrate。’
Anddisengagingacoupleofchairsfromtheartisticallumberthatusurpedthem,shebidusbeseated,andresumedherplacebesidetheeasel——notfacingitexactly,butnowandthenglancingatthepictureuponitwhilesheconversed,andgivingitanoccasionaltouchwithherbrush,asifshefounditimpossibletoweanherattentionentirelyfromheroccupationtofixituponherguests。ItwasaviewofWildfellHall,asseenatearlymorningfromthefieldbelow,risingindarkreliefagainstaskyofclearsilveryblue,withafewredstreaksonthehorizon,faithfullydrawnandcoloured,andveryelegantlyandartisticallyhandled。
`Iseeyourheartisinyourwork,MrsGraham,’observedI:`I
mustbegyoutogoonwithit;forifyousufferourpresencetointerruptyou,weshallbeconstrainedtoregardourselvesasunwelcomeintruders。’
`Oh,no!’。repliedshe,throwingherbrushontothetable,asifstartledintopoliteness。`Iamnotsobesetwithvisitors,butthatIcanreadilyspareafewminutestothefewthatdofavourmewiththeircompany。
`Youhavealmostcompletedyourpainting,’saidI,approachingtoobserveitmoreclosely,andsurveyingitwithagreaterdegreeofadmirationanddelightthanIcaredtoexpress。`AfewmoretouchesintheforegroundwillfinishitIshouldthink——ButwhyhaveyoucalleditFernleyManor,Cumberland,insteadofWildfellHall,——shire?’Iasked,alludingtothenameshehadtracedinsmallcharactersatthebottomofthecanvas。
ButimmediatelyIwassensibleofhavingcommittedanactofimpertinenceinsodoing;forshecolouredandhesitated;butafteramoment’spause,withakindofdesperatefrankness,shereplied,——
`BecauseIhavefriends——acquaintancesatleast——intheworld,fromwhomIdesiremypresentabodetobeconcealed;andastheymightseethepicture,andmightpossiblyrecognizethestyleinspiteofthefalseinitialsIhaveputinthecorner,Itaketheprecautiontogiveafalsenametotheplacealso,inordertoputthemonawrongscent,iftheyshouldattempttotracemeoutbyit。’
`Thenyoudon’tintendtokeepthepicture?’saidI,anxioustosayanythingtochangethesubject。
`No;Icannotaffordtopaintformyownamusement。’
`MammasendsallherpicturestoLondon,’saidArthur;`andsomebodysellsthemforherthere,andsendsusthemoney。’
Inlookingroundupontheotherpieces,IremarkedaprettysketchofLindenhopefromthetopofthehill;anotherviewoftheoldhall,baskinginthesunnyhazeofaquietsummerafternoon;andasimplebutstrikinglittlepictureofachildbroodingwithlooksofsilent,butdeepandsorrowoverhandfulo~witheredBowers,withglimpsesofdarklowhillsandautumnalfieldsbehindit,andadullbecloudedskyabove。
`Youseethereisasaddearthofsubjects,’observedthefairartist。`Itooktheoldhallonceonamoonlightnight,andIsupposeI
musttakeitagainonasnowywinter’sday,andthenagainonadarkcloudyevening;forIreallyhavenothingelsetopaint。Ihavebeentoldthatyouhaveafineviewoftheseasomewhereintheneighbourhood——Isittrue?——andisitwithinwalkingdistance?’
`Yes,ifyoudon’tobjecttowalkingfourmiles,——ornearlyso——littleshortofeightmilesthereandback——andoverasomewhatrough,fatiguingroad。’
`Inwhatdirectiondoesitlie?’
IdescribedthesituationaswellasIcould,andwasenteringuponanexplanationofthevariousroads,lanes,andfieldstobetraversedinordertoreachit,thegoingsstraighton,andturningstotheright,andtheleft,whenshecheckedmewith,——
`Oh,stop!——don’ttellmenow:IshallforgeteverywordofyourdirectionsbeforeIrequirethem。Ishallnotthinkaboutgoingtillnextspring;andthen,perhaps,Imaytroubleyou。Atpresentwehavethewinterbeforeus,and——’
Shesuddenlypaused,withasuppressedexclamation,startedupfromherseat,andsaying,`Excusemeonemoment,’hurriedfromtheroom,andshutthedoorbehindher。
Curioustoseewhathadstartledherso,Ilookedtowardsthewindow,——forhereyeshadbeencarelesslyfixeduponitthemomentbefore——andjustbeheldtheskirtsofaman’scoatvanishingbehindalargehollybushthatstoodbetweenthewindowandtheporch。
`It’smamma’sfriend,’saidArthur。
RoseandIlookedateachother。
`Idon’tknowwhattomakeofher,atall,’whisperedRose。
Thechildlookedatheringravesurprise。Shestraightwaybegantotalktohimonindifferentmatters,whileIamusedmyselfwithlookingatthepictures。TherewasoneinanobscurecomerthatIhadnotbeforeobserved。Itwasalittlechild,seatedonthegrasswithitslapfullofflowers。Thetinyfeaturesandlarge,blueeyes,smilingthroughashockoflightbrowncurls,shakenovertheforeheadasitbentaboveitstreasure,boresufficientresemblancetothoseoftheyounggentlemanbeforeme,toproclaimitaportraitofArthurGrahaminhisearlyinfancy。
Intakingthisuptobringittothelight,Idiscoveredanotherbehindit,withitsfacetothewall。Iventuredtotakethatuptoo。Itwastheportraitofagentlemaninthefullprimeofyouthfulmanhood——handsomeenough,andnotbadlyexecuted;but,ifdonebythesamehandastheothers,itwasevidentlysomeyearsbefore;fortherewasfarmorecarefulminutenessofdetail,andlessofthatfreshnessofcolouringandfreedomofhandling,thatdelightedandsurprisedmeinthem。Nevertheless,Isurveyeditwithconsiderableinterest。Therewasacertainindividualityinthefeaturesandexpressionthatstampedit,atonce,asuccessfullikeness。Thebright,blueeyesregardedthespectatorwithakindoflurkingdrollery——youalmostexpectedtoseethemwink;thelips——alittletoovoluptuouslyfull——seemedreadytobreakintoasmile;thewarmlytintedcheekswereembellishedwithaluxuriantgrowthofreddishwhiskers;whilethebrightchestnuthair,clusteringinabundant,wavycurls,trespassedtoomuchupontheforehead,andseemedtointimatethattheownerthereofwasprouderofhisbeautythanhisintellect——asperhaps,hehadreasontobe;——andyethelookednofool。
Ihadnothadtheportraitinmyhandstwominutesbeforethefairartistreturned。
`Onlysomeonecomeaboutthepictures,’saidshe,inapologyforherabruptdeparture:`Itoldhimtowait。’
`Ifearitwillbeconsideredanactofimpertinence,’saidI,`topresumetolookatapicturethattheartisthasturnedtothewall;
butmayIask’——
`Itisanactofverygreatimpertinence,sir;andtherefore,Ibegyouwillasknothingaboutit,foryourcuriositywillnotbegratified,’
repliedshe,attemptingtocoverthetartnessofherrebukewithasmile;——butIcouldsee,byherflushedcheekandkindlingeye,thatshewasseriouslyannoyed。
`Iwasonlygoingtoaskifyouhadpaintedityourself,’saidI,~yresigningthepictureintoherhands;forwithoutagrainofceremony,shetookitfromme;andquicklyrestoringittothedarkcorner,withitsfacetothewall,placedtheotheragainstitasbefore,andthenturnedtomeandlaughed。
ButIwasinnohumourforjesting。Icarelesslyturnedtothewindow,andstoodlookingoutuponthedesolategarden,leavinghertotalktoRoseforaminuteortwo;andthen,tellingmysisteritwastimetogo,shookhandswiththelittlegentleman,coollybowedtothelady,andmovedtowardsthedoor。But,havingbidadieutoRose,MrsGrahampresentedherhandtome,saying,withasoftvoice,andbynomeansadisagreeablesmile,——
`Letnotthesungodownuponyourwrath,MrMarkham。I’msorryIoffendedyoubymyabruptness。’
Whenaladycondescendstoapologize,thereisnokeepingone’sangerofcourse;sowepartedgoodfriendsforonce;andthistime,Isqueezedherhandwithacordial,notaspitefulpressure。
TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter6CHAPTER6ProgressionDuringthenextfourmonths,IdidnotenterMrsGraham’shouse,norshemine;butstilltheladiescontinuedtotalkabouther,andstillouracquaintancecontinued,thoughslowly,toadvance。Asfortheirtalk,Ipaidbutlittleattentiontothatwhenitrelatedtothefairhermit,Imean,andtheonlyinformationIderivedfromitwasthat,onefine,frostyday,shehadventuredtotakeherlittleboyasfarasthevicarage,andthat,unfortunately,nobodywasathomebutMissMillward;Inevertheless,shehadsatalongtime,and,byallaccounts,theyhadfoundagooddealtosaytoeachother,andpartedwithamutualdesiretomeetagain——ButMarylikedchildren,andfondmammaslikethosewhocandulyappreciatetheirtreasures。
ButsometimesIsawhermyself,——notonlywhenshecametochurch,butwhenshewasoutonthehillswithherson,whethertakingalong,purpose-likewalk,or——onspecialfinedays——leisurelyramblingoverthemoororthebleakpasture-landssurroundingtheoldhall,herselfwithabookinherhand,hersongambollingabouther;and,onanyoftheseoccasions,whenIcaughtsightofherinmysolitarywalksorrides,orwhilefollowingmyagriculturalpursuits,Igenerallycontrivedtomeetorovertakeher;forIratherlikedtoseeMrsGraham,andtotalktoher,andIdecidedlylikedtotalktoherlittlecompanion,whom,whenoncetheiceofhisshynesswasfairlybroken,Ifoundtobeaveryamiable,intelligent,andentertaininglittlefellow;andwesoonbecameexcellentfriends——howmuchtothegratificationofhismamma,Icannotundertaketosay。Isuspectedatfirst,thatshewasdesirousofthrowingcoldwateronthisgrowingintimacy——toquench,asitwere,thekindlingflameofourfriendship——butdiscovering,atlength,inspiteofherprejudiceagainstme,thatIwasperfectlyharmless,andevenwell-intentioned,andthat,betweenmyselfandmydog,hersonderivedagreatdealofpleasurefromtheacquaintance,thathewouldnototherwisehaveknown,sheceasedtoobject,andevenwelcomedmycomingwithasmile。
AsforArthur,hewouldshouthiswelcomefromafar,andruntomeetmefiftyyardsfromhismother’sside。IfIhappenedtobeonhorseback,hewassuretogetacanteroragallop;or,iftherewasoneofthedraughthorseswithinanavailabledistance,hewastreatedtoasteadyrideuponthat,whichservedhisturnalmostaswell;buthismotherwouldalwaysfollowandtrudgebesidehim——notsomuch,Ibelieve,toensurehissafeconduct,astoseethatIinstillednoobjectionablenotionsintohisinfantmind;forshewaseveronthewatch,andneverwouldallowhimtobetakenoutofhersight。Whatpleasedherbestofall,wastoseehimrompingandracingwithSancho,whileIwalkedbyherside——not,Ifear,forloveofmycompanythoughIsometimesdeludedmyselfwiththatidea,somuchasforthedelightshetookinseeinghersonthushappilyengagedintheenjoymentofthoseactivesports,soinvigoratingtohistenderframe,yetsoseldomexercisedforwantofplaymatessuitedtohisyears;and,perhaps,herpleasurewassweetened,notalittle,bythefactofmybeingwithherinsteadofwithhim;andthereforeincapableofdoinghimanyinjury,directlyorindirectly,designedlyorotherwise——smallthankstoherforthatsame。