JustinhadoncecomebacktoEdgewood,anditwasthebitterestdropinhercupofbitternessthatshewasspendingthatwinterinBerwick(where,sotheneighbourstoldhim,shewasagreatfavouriteinsociety,andwasreceivingmuchattentionfromgentlemen),sothatshehadneverheardofhisvisituntilthespringhadcomeagain。Partedfriendsdidnotkeepupwithoneanother’saffairsbymeansofepistolarycommunication,inthosedays,inEdgewood;itwasnotthecustom。SpokenwordsweredifficultenoughtoJustinPeabody,andwrittenwordswerequiteimpossible,especiallyiftheyweretobeusedtodefinehishalf—
consciousdesiresandhisfluctuationsofwill,ortorecounthisdisappointmentsanddiscouragementsandmistakes。
CHAPTERIV
ItwasSaturdayafternoon,thetwenty—fourthofDecember,andthewearysistersoftheDorcasbandrosefromtheirbruisedkneesandremovedtheirlittlestoresofcarpet—tacksfromtheirmouths。
Thiswasafemininecustomoflongstanding,andasnovillagedressmakerhadeverdiedofpinsinthedigestiveorgans,sowerenosymptomsofcarpet—tackseverdiscoveredinanyDorcas,livingordead。Menwonderedatthehabitandreviledit,butstoodconfoundedinthepresenceofitsindubitableharmlessness。
Theredingraincarpetwasindeedverywarm,beautiful,andcomfortingtotheeye,andthesistersweresuitablygratefultoProvidence,anddevoutlythankfultothemselves,thattheyhadbeenenabledtobuy,sew,andlaysomanyyardsofit。Butastheystoodlookingattheircompletedtask,itwascruellytruethattherewasmuchlefttodo。
Theaisleshadbeenpainteddarkbrownoneachsideoftheredstripsleadingfromthedoorstothepulpit,buttherestofthechurchfloorwas"athingofshredsandpatches。"Eachmemberofthecarpetcommitteehadpaid(asamatterofpride,howeverillshecouldaffordit)threedollarsandsixty—sevencentsforsufficientcarpettolayinherownpew;butthesebrilliantspotsofconscientiouseffortonlymadethestretchesofbare,unpaintedfloormoreevident。Andthatwasnotall。Tracesofformerspasmodicandindividualeffortsdesecratedthepresentideals。
Thedoctor’spewhadapinkandblueBrusselsonit;thelawyer’s,stripedstair—carpeting;theBrownsfromDeerwandersportedstrawmattingandwerenotabashed;whiletheGreens,theWhites,theBlacksandtheGreysdisplayedfloorcoveringsasdissimilarastheirnames。
"Inevernoticeditbefore!"exclaimedMariaSharp,"butitain’tChristian,thatfloor!it’sheathenishandungodly!"
"Formercy’ssake,don’tswear,Maria,"saidMrs。Millernervously。
"We’vedoneourbest,andlet’shopethatfolkswilllookupandnotdown。Itisn’tasiftheyweregoingtosetinthechandelier;
they’llhavesomethingelsetothinkaboutwhenNancygetsherhemlockbranchesandwhitecarnationsinthepulpitvases。ThismorningmyAbnerpickedofftwopinksfromtheplantI’vebeennursinginmydining—roomforweeks,tryingtomakeitbloomforChristmas。Islappedhishandsgood,andit’sbeenhauntingmeeversincetothinkIhadtocorrecthimthedaybeforeChristmas——
Come,Lobelia,wemustbehurrying!"
"Onethingcomfortsme,"exclaimedtheWidowBuzzell,asshetookherhammerandtackspreparatorytoleaving;"andthatisthattheMethodistmeetin’—houseain’tgotanycarpetatall。"
"Mrs。Buzzell,Mrs。Buzzell!"interruptedtheminister’swife,withasmilethattookthestingfromherspeech。"ItwillbelikepunishinglittleAbnerMiller;ifwethinkthosethoughtsonChristmasEve,weshallsurelybehauntedafterward。"
"Andanyway,"interjectedMariaSharp,whoalwayssavedthesituation,"youjustwaitandseeiftheMethodistsdon’tsaythey’dratherhavenocarpetatallthanhaveonethatdon’tgoalloverthefloor。Iknow’em!"andsheputonherhoodandblanket—
shawlasshegaveonelastfondlookattheimprovements。
"I’mgoinghometogetmysupper,andcomebackafterwardtolaythecarpetinmypew;mybeansandbrownbreadwillbejustrightbynow,andperhapsitwillrestmealittle;besides,Imustfeed’Zekiel。"
AsNancyWentworthspoke,shesatinacornerofherownmodestrearseat,lookingalittlepaleandtired。Herwavingdarkhairhadloosenedandfallenoverhercheeks,andhereyesgleamedfromunderitwistfully。NowadaysNancy’seyesneverhadthesparkleofgazingintothefuture,butalwaystheliquidsoftnessthatcomesfromlookingbackward。
"Thechurchwillberealcoldbythen,Nancy,"objectedMrs。
Burbank。——"Good—night,Mrs。Baxter。"
"Oh,no!Ishallbebackbyhalf—pastsix,andIshallnotworklong。DoyouknowwhatIbelieveI’lldo,Mrs。Burbank,justthroughtheholidays?ChristmasandNewYear’sbothcomingonSundaythisyear,there’llbeagreatmanyouttochurch,notcountingthestrangersthat’llcometothespecialserviceto—
morrow。Insteadofputtingdownmyownpewcarpetthat’llneverbenoticedhereintheback,I’lllayitintheoldPeabodypew,fortheredaisle—stripleadsstraightuptoit;theministersalwaysgoupthatside,anditdoeslookforlorn。"
"That’sso!Andallthemorebecausemypew,that’sexactlyoppositeintheleftwing,isnewcarpetedandcushioned,"repliedthepresident。"Ithinkit’srealgenerousofyou,Nancy,becausetheRiverborofolks,knowingthatyou’reamemberofthecarpetcommittee,willbesuretonotice,andthinkit’squeeryouhaven’tmadeanefforttocarpetyourownpew。"
"Nevermind!"smiledNancywearily。"RiverborofolksnevergotobedonSaturdaynightswithoutwonderingwhatEdgewoodisthinkingaboutthem!"
Theminister’swifestoodatherwindowwatchingNancyasshepassedtheparsonage。
"Howwasted!Howwasted!"shesighed。"Goinghometoeatherlonelysupperandfeed’Zekiel……Icanbearitfortheothers,butnotforNancy……Nowshehaslightedherlamp,nowshehasputfreshpineonthefire,fornewsmokecomesfromthechimney。
WhyshouldIsitdownandservemydearhusband,andNancyfeed’Zekiel?"
TherewassometruthinMrs。Baxter’sfeeling。Mrs。Buzzell,forinstance,hadthreesons;MariaSharpwasabsorbedinherlamefatherandherSunday—schoolwork;andLobeliaBrewsterwouldnothaveconsideredmatrimonyablessing,evenunderthemostfavourableconditions。ButNancywasframedandplannedforotherthings,and’Zekielwasaninsufficientchannelforhersoft,womanlysympathyandherbrightactivityofmindandbody。
’Zekielhadlosthistailinamowing—machine;’Zekielhadtheasthma,andtheimmersionofhisnoseinmilkmadehimsneeze,sohewaswonttosliphispawinandoutofthedishandlickitpatientlyforfiveminutestogether。Nancyoftenwatchedhimpityingly,givinghimkindandgentlewordstosustainhisfaintingspirit,butto—nightshepaidnoheedtohim,althoughhesneezedviolentlytoattractherattention。
Shehadputhersupperonthelightedtablebythekitchenwindowandwaspouringouthercupoftea,whenaboyrappedatthedoor。
"Here’sapaperandaletter,MissWentworth,"hesaid。"It’sthesecondthisweek,andtheythinkovertothestorethatthatBerwickwidowermustbesettin’upandtakin’notice!"
Shehadindeedreceivedaletterthedaybefore,anunsignedcommunication,consistingonlyofthewords,"SecondEpistleofJohn。Verse12。"
ShehadtakenherBibletolookoutthereferenceandfoundittobe:—
"Havingmanythingstowriteuntoyou,Iwouldnotwritewithpaperandink;butItrusttocomeuntoyou,andspeakfacetoface,thatourjoymaybefull。"
TheenvelopewaspostmarkedNewYork,andshesmiled,thinkingthatMrs。Emerson,acharmingladywhohadspentthesummerinEdgewood,andhadsungwithherinthevillagechoir,wascomingback,asshehadpromised,tohaveasleighrideandseeEdgewoodinitswinterdress。Nancyhadalmostforgottenthefirstletterintheexcitementsofherbusyday,andnowherewasanother,fromBostonthistime。Sheopenedtheenvelopeandfoundagainonlyasinglesentence,printed,notwritten。(Lestsheshouldguessthehand,shewondered?)
"SecondEpistleofJohn。Verse5。"
"AndnowIbeseechthee,lady,notasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee,butthatwhichwehadfromthebeginning,thatweloveoneanother。"
WasitMrs。Emerson?Coulditbe——anyoneelse?Wasit—?No,itmighthavebeen,yearsago;butnotnow;notnow!——Andyet;hewasalwayssodifferentfromotherpeople;andonce,inchurch,hehadhandedherthehymn—bookwithhisfingerpointingtoacertainverse。
ShealwaysfanciedthathersecretfidelityofheartrosefromthefactthatJustinPeabodywas"different。"Fromthehouroftheirfirstacquaintance,shewasevercomparinghimwithhiscompanions,andalwaystohisadvantage。Solongasawomanfindsallmenverymuchalike(asLobeliaBrewsterdid,savethatsheallowedsometobeworse!),sheisinnodanger。Butthemomentinwhichsheperceivesanddiscriminatessubtledifferences,marvellingthattherecanbetwoopinionsaboutaman’ssuperiority,thatmomentthemiraclehashappened。
"AndnowIbeseechthee,lady,notasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee,butthatwhichwehadfromthebeginning,thatweloveoneanother。"
No,itcouldnotbefromJustin。Shedrankhertea,playedwithherbeansabstractedly,andnibbledhersliceofsteamingbrownbread。
"NotasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee。"
No,notanewone;twelve,fifteenyearsold,thatcommandment!
"Thatweloveoneanother。"
Whowasspeaking?Whohadwrittenthesewords?ThefirstlettersoundedjustlikeMrs。Emerson,whohadsaidshewasaverypoorcorrespondent,butthatsheshouldjust"dropdown"onNancyoneofthesedays;butthissecondletternevercamefromMrs。Emerson。——
Well,therewouldbeanexplanationsometime;apleasantone;onetosmileover,andtell’Zekielandrepeattotheneighbours;butnotanunexpected,sacred,beautifulexplanation,suchaoneastheheartofawomancouldimagine,ifshewereyoungenoughandhappyenoughtohope。
Shewashedhercupandplate;replacedtheuneatenbeansinthebrownpot,andputthemawaywiththeroundloaf,foldedthecloth(LobeliaBrewstersaidNancyalways"setouthermealsasifshewasentertainin’companyfromPortland"),closedthestovedampers,carriedthelightedlamptoasafecornershelf,andlifted’Zekieltohiscushiononthehigh—backedrocker,doingallwiththeniceprecisionoflonghabit。Thenshewrappedherselfwarmly,andlockingthelonelylittlehousebehindher,setouttofinishherworkinthechurch。
CHAPTERV
AtthisprecisemomentJustinPeabodywaseatinghisownbeansandbrownbread(articlesofdietofwhichhisDetroitlandladywaslamentablyignorant)atthenewtavern,notfarfromthemeeting—
house。
ItwouldnotbefairtohimtosaythatMrs。Burbank’sletterhadbroughthimbacktoEdgewood,butithadcertainlyacceleratedhissteps。
ForthefirstsixyearsafterJustinPeabodylefthome,hehaddriftedaboutfromplacetoplace,savingeverypossibledollarofhisuncertainearningsintheconscioushopethathecouldgobacktoNewEnglandandaskNancyWentworthtomarryhim。TheWestwasprosperousandprogressive,buthowheyearned,inidlemoments,forthegrimmerandmoresterilesoilthathadgivenhimbirth!
Thencamewhatseemedtohimabrilliantchanceforaluckyturnofhissavings,andheinvestedtheminanenterprisewhich,wonderfullyasitpromised,failedwithinsixmonthsandlefthimpenniless。Atthatmomenthedefinitelygaveupallhope,andforthenextfewyearsheputNancyasfaraspossibleoutofhismind,inthefullbeliefthathewasactinganhonourablepartinrefusingtodragherintohistangledandfruitlesswayoflife。
Ifsheeverdidcareforhim,——andhecouldnotbesure,shewasalwayssoshy,——shemusthaveoutgrownthefeelinglongsince,andbelivinghappily,oratleastcontentedly,inherownway。Hewasgladinspiteofhimselfwhenheheardthatshehadnevermarried;
butatleasthehadn’titonhisconsciencethatHEhadkepthersingle!
OntheseventeenthofDecember,Justin,hisbusinessdayover,waswalkingtowardthedrearyhouseinwhichheateandslept。Asheturnedthecorner,heheardonewomansaytoanother,astheywatchedamanstumblingsorrowfullydownthestreet:"Goinghomewillbetheworstofallforhim——tofindnobodythere!"Thatwaswhatgoinghomehadmeantforhimthesetenyears,butheafterwardfeltitstrangethatthisthoughtshouldhavestruckhimsoforciblyonthatparticularday。Enteringtheboarding—house,hefoundMrs。Burbank’sletterwithitsEdgewoodpostmarkonthehalltable,andtookituptohisroom。Hekindledalittlefireintheair—tightstove,watchingtheflamecreepfromshavingstokindlings,fromkindlingstosmallpine,andfromsmallpinetotheround,hardwoodsticks;thenwhentheresultseemedcertain,heclosedthestovedoorandsatdowntoreadtheletter。Whereuponallmannerofstrangethingshappenedinhisheadandheartandfleshandspiritashesattherealone,hishandsinhispockets,hisfeetbracedagainstthelegsofthestove。
Itwasacoldwinternight,andthesnowandsleetbeatagainstthewindows。Helookedabouttheuglyroom:atthewashstandwithitssquareofoilclothinfrontanditsdetestablebowlandpitcher;attherigoursofhiswhiteironbedstead,withthevalleyinthemiddleofthelumpymattressandthedarnsintherumpledpillowcases;atthedullphotographsofthelandlady’shideoushusbandandchildrenenshrinedonthemantelshelf;lookedattheabominationofdesolationsurroundinghimuntilhissoulsickenedandcriedoutlikeachild’sforsomethingmorelikehome。Itwasasifaspringthawhadmeltedhisice—boundheart,andonthecrestofawaveitwasdriftingoutintothemilderwatersofsomeunknownsea。Hecouldhavelaidhisheadinthekindlapofawomanandcried:"Comfortme!GivemecompanionshiporIdie!"
Thewindhowledinthechimneyandrattledtheloosewindow—sashes;
thesnow,freezingasitfell,dashedagainsttheglasswithhard,cuttinglittleblows;atleast,thatisthewayinwhichthewindandsnowflatteredthemselvestheyweremakingexistencedisagreeabletoJustinPeabodywhenhereadtheletter;butneverwereelementsmoremistaken。
ItwasaJuneSundayintheboarding—housebedroom;andforthatmatteritwasnottheboarding—housebedroomatall:itwastheoldOrthodoxchurchonToryHillinEdgewood。
Thewindowswerewideopen,andthesmellofthepurplecloverandthehummingofthebeesweredriftingintothesweet,widespaceswithin。JustinwassittingintheendofthePeabodypew,andNancyWentworthwasbesidehim;Nancy,coolandrestfulinherwhitedress;dark—hairedNancyundertheshadowofhershirredmuslinhat。
Rise,mysoul,andstretchthywings,Thybetterportiontrace。
Themelodeongavethetune,andNancyandhestoodtosing,takingthebookbetweenthem。Hishandtouchedhers,andasthemusicofthehymnroseandfell,thefutureunrolleditselfbeforehiseyes;
afutureinwhichNancywashisweddedwife;andthehappyyearsstretchedonandoninfrontofthemuntiltherewasarowoflittleheadsintheoldPeabodypew,andmotherandfathercouldlookproudlyalongthelineattheyoungthingstheywerebringingintothehouseoftheLord。
TherecallingofthatvisionworkedlikemagicinJustin’sblood。
Hissoulroseandstretcheditswingsand"traceditsbetterportion"vividly,ashesprangtohisfeetandwalkedupanddownthebedroomfloor。Hewouldgetafewdays’leaveandgobacktoEdgewoodforChristmas,tojoin,withalltheoldneighbours,intheserviceatthemeeting—house;andinpursuanceofthisresolve,heshookhisfistinthefaceofthelandlady’shusbandonthemantelpieceanddaredhimtoprevent。
Hehadasalaryoffiftydollarsamonth,withsomeveryslightprospectofanincreaseafterJanuary。Hedidnotseehowtwopersonscouldeat,anddrink,andlodge,anddressonitinDetroit,butheproposedtogiveNancyWentworththerefusalofthatmagnificentfuture,thatbrilliantandtemptingoffer。Hehadexactlyonehundreddollarsinthebank,andsixtyorseventyofthemwouldbespentinthejourneys,countingtwohappy,blessedfaresbackfromEdgewoodtoDetroit;andifhepaidonlyhisownfareback,hewouldthrowthepriceoftheotherintothepondbehindtheWentworthhouse。HewoulddropanothertendollarsintotheplateonChristmasDaytowardtherepairsonthechurch;ifhestarved,hewoulddothat。Hewasafailure。Everythinghishandtouchedturnedtonaught。Helookedhimselffullintheface,recognizinghisweakness,andinthissupremestmomentofrecognitionhewasastrongermanthanhehadbeenanhourbefore。
Hisdroopingshouldershadstraightened;therestlesslookhadgonefromhiseyes;hissombrefacehadsomethingofreposeinit,thereposeofasettledpurpose。Hewasafailure,butperhapsifhetooktherisks(andifNancywouldtakethem——butthatwasthetrouble,womenweresounselfish,theywerealwayswillingtotakerisks,andoneoughtnottoletthem!),perhapshemightdobetterintryingtomakealivingfortwothanhehadinworkingforhimselfalone。Hewouldgohome,tellNancythathewasanunluckygood—for—naught,andaskherifshewouldtryherhandatmakinghimover。
CHAPTERVI
ThesewerethereasonsthathadbroughtJustinPeabodytoEdgewoodontheSaturdayafternoonbeforeChristmas,andhadtakenhimtothenewtavernonToryHill,neartheMeeting—House。
Nobodyrecognizedhimatthestationornoticedhimatthetavern,andafterhissupperheputonhisovercoatandstartedoutforawalk,aimlesslyhopingthathemightmeetafriend,orfailingthat,intendingtocallonsomeofhisoldneighbours,withtheviewofhearingthevillagenewsandsecuringsomeinformationwhichmighthelphimtodecidewhenhehadbetterlayhimselfandhismisfortunesatNancyWentworth’sfeet。Theywereprettyfeet!
Herememberedthatfactwellenoughunderthemagicalinfluenceoffamiliarsightsandsoundsandodours。Hewasrestless,miserable,anxious,homesick——notforDetroit,butforsomeheretoforeunimaginedgood;yet,likeBunyan’sshepherdboyintheValleyofHumiliation,hecarried"theherbcalledHearts—easeinhisbosom,"
forhewasatlastlovingconsciously。
Howwhitetheoldchurchlooked,andhowgreentheblinds!Itmusthavebeenpaintedverylately:thatmeantthattheparishwasfairlyprosperous。Therewerenewshuttersinthebelfrytower,too;herememberedtheformeropenspaceandtherustybell,andhelikedthechange。Didthechimneyusetobeinthatcorner?No;
buthisfatherhadalwayssaiditwouldhavedrawnbetterifithadbeenputthereinthebeginning。Newshingleswithinayear:thatwasevidenttoapractisedeye。Hewonderedifanythinghadbeendonetotheinsideofthebuilding,buthemustwaituntilthemorrowtosee,for,ofcourse,thedoorswouldbelocked。No;theoneattherightsidewasajar。Heopeneditsoftlyandsteppedintothetinysquareentrythatherecalledsowell——theonethroughwhichtheSunday—schoolchildrenranouttothestepsfromtheircatechism,apparentlyenjoyingthesunshineafteraspelloforthodoxy;thelittleentrywherethevillagegirlscongregatedwhilewaitingforthelastbelltoring——theymadeasoftblurofpinkandblueandbuff,alittleflutterofcurlsandbraidsandfansandsunshades,inhismind’seye,asheclosedtheouterdoorbehindhimandgentlyopenedtheinnerone。Thechurchwasfloodedwithmoonlightandsnowlight,andtherewasonelampburningatthebackofthepulpit;acandle,too,onthepulpitsteps。Therewasthetip—tap—tipofatack—hammergoingoninadistantcorner。WassomebodyhangingChristmasgarlands?Thenewredcarpetattractedhisnotice,andashegrewaccustomedtothedimlight,itcarriedhiseyealongtheaislehehadtrodsomanyyearsofSundays,totheoldfamiliarpew。Thesoundofthehammerceasedandawomanrosefromherknees。Astrangerwasdoingforthefamilyhonourwhatheoughthimselftohavedone。Thewomanturnedtoshakeherskirt,anditwasNancyWentworth。Hemighthaveknownit。Womenwerealwaysfaithful;theyalwaysrememberedoldlandmarks,olddays,oldfriends,oldduties。HisfatherandmotherandEstherwereallgone;whobutdearNancywouldhavemadetheoldPeabodypewrightandtidyfortheChristmasfestival?Blessherkindwomanlyheart!
Shelookedjustthesametohimaswhenhelastsawher。
Mercifullyheseemedtohaveheldinremembrancealltheseyearsnotsomuchheryouthfulbloomashergeneralqualitiesofmindandheart:hercheeriness,herspirit,herunflaggingzeal,herbrightwomanliness。Hergreydresswasturnedupinfrontoveracrimsonmoreenpetticoat。Shehadonacosyjacket,afurturbanofsomesortwitharedbreastinit,andhercheekswereflushedfromexertion。"Sweetrecords,andpromisesassweet,"hadalwaysmetinNancy’sface,andeitherhehadforgottenhowprettyshewas,orelseshehadabsolutelygrownprettierduringhisabsence。
Nancywouldhavechosenthesuprememomentofmeetingverydifferently,butshemightwellhavechosenworse。Sheunpinnedherskirtandbrushedthethreadsoff,smoothedthepewcushionscarefully,andtookalaststitchintheraggedhassock。ShethenliftedtheBibleandthehymn—bookfromtherack,andputtingdownabitofflannelonthepulpitsteps,tookaflatironfromanoil—
stove,andopeningtheancientbooks,pressedoutthewell—thumbedleavesonebyonewithinfinitecare。Afterreplacingthevolumesintheiraccustomedplace,shefirstextinguishedtheflameofherstove,whichshetuckedoutofsight,andthenblewoutthelampandthecandle。Thechurchwasstilllightenoughforobjectstobeseeninashadowyway,liketheobjectsinadream,andJustindidnotrealizethathewasamanintheflesh,lookingatawoman;
spying,itmightbe,uponherprivacy。Hewasonepartofadreamandsheanother,andhestoodasifwaiting,andfearing,tobeawakened。
Nancy,havingdoneall,cameoutofthepew,andstandingintheaisle,lookedbackatthesceneofherlabourswithprideandcontent。Andasshelooked,somedesiretostayalittlelongerinthedearoldplacemusthavecomeoverher,orsomedreadofgoingbacktoherlonelycottage,forshesatdowninJustin’scornerofthepewwithfoldedhands,hereyesfixeddreamilyonthepulpitandherearshearing:"NotasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee,butthatwhichwehadfromthebeginning。"
Justin’sgrasponthelatchtightenedashepreparedtoclosethedoorandleavetheplace,buthisinstinctdidnotwarnhimquicklyenough,afterall,for,obeyingsomeuncontrollableimpulse,Nancysuddenlyfellonherkneesinthepewandburiedherfaceinthecushions。
Thedreambroke,andinaninstantJustinwasaman——worsethanthat,hewasaneavesdropper,ashamedofhisunsuspectedpresence。
Hefelthimselfstanding,withcoveredheadandfeetshod,intheholytempleofawoman’sheart。
Buthisinvoluntaryirreverencebroughtabundantgracewithit。
Theglimpseandtherevelationwroughttheirmiraclessilentlyandirresistibly,notbytheslowprocessesofgrowthwhichNaturedemandsforherenterprises,butwiththesuddenswiftnessofthespirit。InaninstantchangeshadtakenplaceinJustin’ssoulwhichhisso—called"experiencingreligion"twenty—fiveyearsbackhadbeenpowerlesstoeffect。Hehadindeedbeenbaptizedthen,buttherecordingangelcouldhavebornewitnessthatthissecondbaptismfructifiedthefirst,andbecametherealheraldofthenewbirthandthenewcreature。
CHAPTERVII
JustinPeabodysilentlyclosedtheinnerdoor,andstoodintheentrywithhisheadbentandhisheartinawhirluntilheshouldhearNancyrisetoherfeet。HemusttakethisHeaven—sentchanceoftellingherall,buthowdoitwithoutalarmingher?
Amoment,andherstepsoundedinthestillnessoftheemptychurch。
Obeyingthefirstimpulse,hepassedthroughtheouterdoor,andstandingonthestep,knockedonce,twice,threetimes;then,openingitalittleandspeakingthroughthechink,hecalled,"IsMissNancyWentworthhere?"
"I’mhere!"inamomentcameNancy’sanswer,andthen,withalittlewonderingtremorinhervoice,asifahintofthetruthhadalreadydawned:"What’swanted?"
"You’rewanted,Nancy,wantedbadly,byJustinPeabody,comebackfromtheWest。"
Thedooropenedwide,andJustinfacedNancystandinghalf—waydowntheaisle,hereyesbrilliant,herlipsparted。AweekagoJustin’sapparitionconfrontingherintheemptyMeeting—Houseafternightfall,evenhadshebeenpreparedforitasnow,byhisvoice,wouldhaveterrifiedherbeyondmeasure。Nowitseemedalmostnaturalandinevitable。Shehadspenttheselastdaysinthechurchwherebothofthemhadbeenyoungandhappytogether;
thetwolettershadbroughthimvividlytomind,andherlabourintheoldPeabodypewhadbeenonelongexcursionintothepastinwhichhewasthemostprominentandthebest—lovedfigure。
"IsaidI’dcomebacktoyouwhenmyluckturned,Nancy。"
Theseweresopreciselythewordssheexpectedhimtosay,shouldsheeverseehimagainfacetoface,thatforanadditionalmomenttheybutheightenedhersenseofunreality。
"Well,theluckhasn’tturned,afterall,butIcouldn’twaitanylonger。Haveyougivenathoughttomealltheseyears,Nancy?"
"Morethanone,Justin";fortheverylookuponhisface,thetendernessofhisvoice,theattitudeofhisbody,outranhiswordsandtoldherwhathehadcomehometosay,toldherthatheryearsofwaitingwereoveratlast。
"Yououghttodespisemeforcomingbackagainwithonlymyselfandmyemptyhandstoofferyou。"
Howeasyitwastospeakhisheartoutinthisdimandquietplace!
Howtongue—tiedhewouldhavebeen,sittingontheblackhairclothsofaintheWentworthparlourandgazingattheopensoapstonestove!
"Oh,menaresuchfools!"criedNancy,smilesandtearsstrugglingtogetherinherspeech,asshesatdownsuddenlyinherownpewandputherhandsoverherface。
"Theyare,"agreedJustinhumbly,"butI’veneverstoppedlovingyou,wheneverI’vehadtimeforthinkingorloving。AndIwasn’tsurethatyoureallycaredanythingaboutme;andhowcouldIhaveaskedyouwhenIhadn’tadollarintheworld?"
"Thereareotherthingstogiveawomanbesidesdollars,Justin。"
"Arethere?Well,youshallhavethemall,everyoneofthem,Nancy,ifyoucanmakeupyourmindtodowithoutthedollars;fordollarsseemtobejustwhatIcan’tmanage。"
Herhandwasinhisbythistime,andtheyweresittingsidebysideinthecushionless,carpetlessWentworthpew。Thedoorstoodopen;thewintermoonshoneinuponthem。Thatitwasbeginningtogrowcoldinthechurchpassedunnoticed。Thegraspofthewoman’shandseemedtogivethemannewhopeandcourage,andJustin’swarm,confiding,pleadingpressurebroughtbalmtoNancy,balmandhealingforthewoundsherpridehadsuffered;joy,too,half—
consciousstill,thatherlifeneednotbelivedtotheendinunfruitfulsolitude。Shehadwaited,"assomegreylakelies,fullandsmooth,awaitingthestarbelowthetwilight。"JustinPeabodymighthavebeennootherwoman’sstar,buthewasNancy’s!
"JustyousittingbesidemeheremakesmefeelasifI’dbeenasleepordeadalltheseyears,andjustbornoveragain,"saidJustin。"I’veledarespectable,hard—working,honestlife,Nancy,"hecontinued,"andIdon’toweanymanacent;thetroubleisthatnomanowesmeone。I’vegotenoughmoneytopaytwofaresbacktoDetroitonMonday,althoughIwasterriblyafraidyouwouldn’tletmedoit。It’llneedagooddealofthinkingandplanning,Nancy,forweshallbeverypoor。"
Nancyhadbeenstoringupfidelityandaffectiondeep,deepinthehiveofherheartalltheseyears,andnowthehoneyofherhelpfulnessstoodreadytobegathered。
"CouldIkeephensinDetroit?"sheasked。"Icanalwaysmakethempay。"
"Hens——inthreerooms,Nancy?"
Herfacefell。"Andnoyard?"
"Noyard。"
Amoment’spause,andthenthesmilecame。"Oh,well,I’vehadyardsandhensforthirty—fiveyears。Doingwithoutthemwillbeachange。Icantakeinsewing。"
"No,youcan’t,Nancy。Ineedyourbackboneandwitsandpluckandingenuity,butifIcan’taskyoutositwithyourhandsfoldedfortherestofyourlife,asI’dliketo,youshan’tusethemforotherpeople。You’remarryingmetomakeamanofme,butI’mnotmarryingyoutomakeyouadrudge。"
Hisvoicerangclearandtrueinthesilence,andNancy’sheartvibratedatthesound。
"Oh,Justin,Justin!"shewhispered。"There’ssomethingwrongsomewhere,butwe’llfinditouttogether,youandI,andmakeitright。You’renotlikeafailure。Youdon’tevenLOOKpoor,Justin;thereisn’tamaninEdgewoodtocomparewithyou,orI
shouldbewashinghisdishesanddarninghisstockingsthisminute。
AndIamnotapauper!There’llbetherentofmylittlehouseandacarloadofmyfurniture,soyoucanputthethree—roomideaoutofyourmind,andyourfirmwillofferyoualargersalarywhenyoutellthemyouhaveawifetotakecareof。Oh,Iseeitall,anditisaseasyandbrightandhappyascanbe!"
Justinputhisarmaroundheranddrewherclose,withsuchathrobofgratitudeforherbeliefandtrustthatitmovedhimalmosttotears。
Therewasalongpause:thenhesaid:—
"NowIshallcallforyouto—morrowmorningafterthelastbellhasstoppedringing,andwewillwalkuptheaisletogetherandsitintheoldPeabodypew。Weshallbeanine—days’wonderanyway,butthiswillbeequaltoanannouncement,especiallyifyoutakemyarm。Wedon’teitherofusliketobestaredat,butthiswillshowwithoutawordwhatwethinkofeachotherandwhatwe’vepromisedtobetoeachother,andit’stheonlythingthatwillmakemefeelsureofyouandsettledinmymindafterallthesemistakenyears。Haveyougotthecourage,Nancy?"
"Ishouldn’twonder!IguessifI’vehadcourageenoughtowaitforyou,I’vegotcourageenoughtowalkuptheaislewithyouandmarryyoubesides!"saidNancy。——"Nowitistoolateforustostayhereanylonger,andyoumustseemeonlyasfarasmygate,forperhapsyouhaven’tforgottenyethowinterestedtheBrewstersareintheirneighbours。"
TheystoodatthelittleWentworthgateforamoment,handcloseclaspedinhand。Thenightwasclear,theairwascoldandsparkling,butwithnothingofbitternessinit;theskywassteelyblueandtheeveningstarglowedandburnedlikeatinysun。Nancyrememberedtheshepherd’ssongshehadtaughttheSunday—schoolchildren,andrepeatedsoftly:—
ForImysheepwaswatchingBeneaththesilentskies,Whensudden,fartoeastward,Isawastararise;
ThenallthepeacefulheavensWithsweetestmusicrang,Andglory,glory,glory!
Thehappyangelssang。
SoIthisnightamjoyful,ThoughIcanscarcetellwhy,ItseemethmethatgloryHathmetusverynigh;
Andwe,thoughpoorandhumble,Havepartinheavenlyplan,For,bornto—night,thePrinceofPeaceShallruletheheartofman。
Justin’sheartmeltedwithinhimlikewaxtothewoman’svisionandthewoman’stouch。
"Oh,Nancy,Nancy!"hewhispered。"IfIhadbroughtmybadlucktoyoulong,longago,wouldyouhavetakenmethen,andhaveIlostyearsofsuchhappinessasthis?"
"Therearesomethingsitisnotbestforamantobecertainabout,"saidNancy,withawisesmileandalastgood—night。
CHAPTERVIII
"Ringout,sweetbells,O’erwoodsanddellsYourlovelystrainsrepeat,WhilehappythrongsWithjoyoussongsEachaccentgladlygreet。"
ChristmasmorningintheoldToryHillMeeting—Housewasfeltbyallofthepersonswhowerepresentinthatparticularyeartobeamostexcitingandmemorableoccasion。
Theoldsextonquiteoutdidhimself,foralthoughhehadrungthebellformorethanthirtyyears,hehadneverfeltgreaterprideorjoyinhistask。WasnothissonJohnhomeforChristmas,andJohn’swife,andagrandchildnewlynamedNathanielforhimself?
Weretherenotspareribsandturkeysandcranberriesandmincepiesonthepantryshelves,andbarrelsofrosyBaldwinsinthecellarandbottlesofmother’srootbeerjustwaitingtogiveaholidaypop?Thebellitselfforgotitsageandthesuspicionofacrackthatdulleditsvoiceonadampday,and,inspiredbythebright,frostyair,thesexton’sinspiringpull,andtheChristmasspirit,gaveoutnothingbutjoyoustones。
Ding—dong!Ding—dong!Itfiredtheambitionsofstarscholarsabouttorecitehymnsandsingsolos。Itthrilledlittlegirlsexpectingdollsbeforenight。Itexcitedbeyondbearingdozensoflittleboysbeingbuttonedintorefractoryovercoats。Ding—dong!
Ding—dong!Mothers’fingerstrembledwhentheyheardit,andmothers’voicescried:"Ifthatisthesecondbell,thechildrenwillneverbereadyintime!Wherearetheovershoes?Wherearethemittens?Hurry,Jack!Hurry,Jennie!"Ding—dong!Ding—dong!
"Where’sSally’smuff?Where’sfather’sfurcap?Isthesleighatthedoor?Arethehotsoapstonesin?Haveallofyouyourmoneyforthecontributionbox?"
Ding—dong!Ding—dong!Itwasablithebell,asweet,truebell,aholybell,andtoJustin,pacinghistavernroom,astoNancy,tremblinginhermaidenchamber,itrangaChristmasmessage:—
Awake,gladheart!Ariseandsing;
ItisthebirthdayofthyKing!
ThecongregationfilledeveryseatintheoldMeeting—House。
AsMariaSharphadprophesied,therewasoneill—naturedspinsterfromarivalvillagewhodeclaredthatthechurchfloorlookedlikeJoseph’scoatlaidoutsmooth;butinthegeneralchorusofadmiration,approval,andgoodwill,thisenviousspeech,thoughrepeatedfrommouthtomouth,leftnosting。
Anotheritemofinterestlongrecalledwasthefactthatonthataugustandunapproachabledaythepulpitvasesstooderectandempty,thoughNancyWentworthhadfilledthemeverySundaysinceanyonecouldremember。Thisinstance,thoughfeltatthetimetobeofmysterioussignificanceifthecausewereeverrevealed,paledintonothingnesswhen,aftertheringingofthelastbell,NancyWentworthwalkeduptheaisleonJustinPeabody’sarm,andtheytooktheirseatssidebysideintheoldfamilypew。
("Andconsid’ableclose,too,thoughtherewasplentyo’room!")
("AndnoonethatIeverheardofsomuchassuspicionedthattheyhadeverkeptcompany!")
("Anddoyous’posesheknewJustinwasexpectedbackwhenshescrubbedhispewa—Friday?")
("Andthisexplainstheemptypulpitvases!")
("AndIalwayssaidthatNancywouldmakearealhandsomecoupleifsheevergotanybodytocouplewith!")
DuringtheunexpectedandsolemnprocessionofthetwouptheaislethesopranoofthevillagechoirstoppedshortinthemiddleoftheDoxology,andthethreeothervoicescarriedittotheendwithoutanytreble。Also,amongthosepresentthereweresomewhocouldnotrememberafterwardtheprecisepetitionswaftedupwardintheopeningprayer。
AndcoulditbeexplainedotherwisethanbycheerfullyacknowledgingthebountyofanoverrulingProvidencethatNancyWentworthshouldhavehadanewwinterdressforthefirsttimeinfiveyears——awinterdressofdarkbrownclothtomatchherbeavermuffandvictorine?TheexistenceofthistoilettehadbeenknownanddiscussedinEdgewoodforamonthpast,anditwasthoughttobenothingmorethanapropertokenofrespectfromamemberofthecarpetcommitteetothegeneralmagnificenceofthechurchontheoccasionofitsreopeningafterrepairs。Indeed,youcouldhaveidentifiedeverymemberoftheDorcasSocietythatSundaymorningbythefreshnessofherapparel。Thebrowndress,then,wasgenerallyexpected;butwhythewhitecashmerewaistwithcollarandcuffsofpointlace,devisedonlyandsuitableonlyfortheminister’swedding,whereitfirstsawthelight?
"Thewhitewaistcanonlybeexplainedasshowingdistincthope!"
whisperedtheminister’swifeduringthereadingofthechurchnotices。
"Tomeitshowsmorethanhope;IamverysurethatNancywouldnevertakeanywearoutofthatlaceforhope;itmeanscertainty!"
answeredMaria,whowasalwaysstronginthepropheticline。
BysermontimeJustin’sidentityhaddawneduponmostofthecongregation。Astrangertoallbutoneortwoatfirst,hispresenceinthePeabodypewbroughthisfaceandfigureback,littlebylittle,tothemindsoftheoldparishioners。
Whenthecontributionplatewaspassed,thesextonalwaysbeganattheright—wingpews,asallthesextonsbeforehimhaddoneforahundredyears。EveryeyeinthechurchwasalreadyturneduponJustinandNancy,anditwaswithalmostagaspthatthoseinthevicinitysawatendollarbillfallintheplate。Thesextonreeled,or,ifthatistoointemperateawordforapillarofthechurch,thegoodmantottered,butcaughtholdofthepewrailwithonehand,and,puttingthethumbofhisotheroverthebill,proceededquicklytothenextpew,lestthestrangershouldthinkbetterofhisgift,ordemandchange,ashadoccasionallybeendoneintheoldentime。
Nancyneverflutteredaneyelash,butsatquietlybyJustin’ssidewithherbosomrisingandfallingunderthebeaverfurandhercoldhandsclaspedtightinthelittlebrownmuff。Farfromgrudgingthisappreciablepartoftheirslenderresources,shethrilledwithpridetoseeJustin’sofferingfallintheplate。
Justinwastooabsorbedinhisownthoughtstonoticeanything,buthismunificentcontributionhadamostunexpectedeffectuponhisreputation,afterall;foronthatday,andonmanyanotherlaterone,whenhissuddenmarriageanddeparturewithNancyWentworthwereunderdiscussion,theneighbourssaidtooneanother:—
"JustinmustbemakingmoneyfastoutWest!Heputtendollarsinthecontributionplatea—Sunday,andpaidtheministertenmorenextdayformarryin’himtoNancy;sothePeabodyluckhasturnedatlast!"which,asamatteroffact,ithad。
"Andallthetime,"saidthechairmanofthecarpetcommitteetothetreasureroftheDorcasSociety——"allthetime,littleassherealizedit,Nancywaslayingthecarpetinherownpew。Nowshe’smarriedtoJustinshe’llbethemakin’ofhim,orImissmyguess。
Youcan’tdoathingwithmenfolkswithoutthey’rerightalongsidewhereyoucankeepyoureyeandhandon’em。Justin’shandsomeandgoodandstiddy;allheneedissomenicewomantoputstarchintohim。TheEdgewoodPeabodysneverhadamiteo’stiffenin’in’em,—
—limpasdishrags,everyblessedone!NancyWentworthfairlyrustleswithstarch。Justinhadn’tbeenengagedtoherbutafewhourswhentheywalkeduptheaisletogether,butdidyounoticethewayhecarriedhishead?IdeclareIthought’twouldfalloffbehind!Ishouldn’twonderamitebuttheyprosperedandcomebackeverysummertosetintheoldPeabodyPew。"