havejustgiventhemtheliedirect,byperformingmyEaster
devotionspublicly;thusprovingtoallmylively
desiretoterminatemylongcareerinthereligioninwhichIwas
born;andIhavefulfilledthisimportantactafteradozen
consecutiveattacksoffever,whichmademefearIshoulddie
beforeIcouldassureyouofmyrespectandmydevotion。“
Thisapologygavemerealpleasure。
Ipretendedtobelievethe
sincerityofhimwhoaddressedme,altho’hehadnotconvinced
meofhisinnocence;andIwrotethefollowingreplytoM。de
Voltaire,whichasillypridedictatestometocommunicateto
you,inconjunctionwiththeletterofthephilosopher:
“MONSIEUR:——Evenwereyouculpablefromtoomuchfriendship
towardsthoseyoucherish,Iwouldpardonyouasarecompensefor
theletteryouaddresstome。
Thisoughtthemoretocharmme,as
itgivesmethecertaintythatyouhadbeenunworthilycalumniated。
Couldyouhavesaid,undertheveilofsecrecy,thingsdisagreeable
toagreatking,forwhom,incommonwithallFrance,youprofess
sincerelove?
Itisimpossible。
Couldyou,withgaietyofheart,
woundafemalewhoneverdidyouharm,andwhoadmiresyour
splendidgenius?
Infact,couldthoseyoucallyourfriendshave
stoopedsolowasnottohavefearedtocompromiseyou,bymaking
youplayapartunworthyofyourelevatedreputation?
Allthese
suppositionswereunreasonable:Icouldnotforamomentadmitthem,
andyourtwolettershaveentirelyjustifiedyou。
Icannowgive
myselfupwithoutregrettomyenthusiasmforyouandyourworks。
Itwouldhavebeentoocruelformetohavelearntwithcertainty
thathewhomIregardedasthefirstwriteroftheagehadbecome
mydetractorwithoutmotive,withoutprovocation。
Thatitisnotso
IgivethankstoProvidence。
“M。theducd’Aiguillondidnotdeceiveyouwhenhetoldyou
thatIfedonyoursublimepoetry。
Iaminliteratureaperfect
novice,andyetamsensibleofthetruebeautieswhichabound
inyourworks。
Iamtobeincludedamongstthestoneswhich
wereanimatedbyAmphion:thisisoneofyourtriumphs;butto
thisyoumustbeaccustomed。
“Believealsothatallyourfriendsarenotintheenemy’scamp。
Therearethoseaboutmewholoveyousincerely,M。deChauvelin,
forinstance,MM。deRichelieuandd’Aiguillon:thislattereulogizes
youincessantly;andifalltheworldthoughtashedoes,youwould
behereinyourplace。
Butthereareterribleprejudiceswhichmy
candorwillnotallowmetodissemble,whichyouhavetoovercome。
Thereiswhocomplainsofyou,andthisonemustbewonover
toyourinterests。
Hewishesyoutotestifymorevenerationfor
whathevenerateshimself;thatyourattacksshouldnotbeso
vehementnorsoconstant。
Isitthenimpossibleforyoutocomply
hiswishesinthisparticular?
Besurethatyouonly,insettingno
boundsinyourattacksonreligion,doyourselfavastmischiefwith
thepersoninquestion。
“ItwillappearstrangethatIshouldholdsuchlanguagetoyou:
Ionlydoittoserveyou:donottakemystatementsunkindly。
havenowafavortoaskofyou;whichis,toincludemeinthelist
ofthosetowhomyousendthefirstfruitsofthebrilliant
productionsofyourpen。
Thereisnonewhoismoredevotedto
you,andwhohasamoreardentdesiretoconvinceyouofthis。
“Iam,,withreal
attachment,etc。“
IshowedthislettertoM。deRichelieu。
“Why,“heinquired,’haveyounotassuredhimastoyourindiscretion,
whichhefears?“
“Becausehisfearseemedtomeunjust,andIleaveyoutorepresent
metohimasIam;andnow,“Iadded,“itdoesnotappeartome
necessaryforthekingtoknowanythingofthis。“
“Youthinkwisely,madame;whatmostdispleasedhimwastosee
madamedePompadourinregularcorrespondencewithM。deVoltaire。“
Ihaverelatedtoyouthisepisodeofmyhistory,thatitmay
recompenseyouforthetiresomedetailsofmypresentation。
resumemyrecital。
ItoldyouthatM。deMaupeouhadtoldme
thathewouldendeavortobringmadamelamarechaledeMirepoix,
andintroducehertome,trustingtothefriendshipshehadevinced
formadamedePompadourduring,thewholetimeofthefavorand
lifeofherwhoprecededmeintheaffectionsofLouisXV。
I
found,tomysurprise,thathesaidnothingtomeconcerningit
forseveraldays,whensuddenlymadamelamarechaledeMirepoix
wasannounced。
AtthisnameandthistitleIrosequiteinafluster,without
clearlyknowingwhatcouldbetheobjectofthisvisit,forwhich
Iwasunprepared。
Themarechale,whofollowedcloselyonthe
valet’sheels,didnotgivemetimeformuchreflection。
Shetook
mereally,andIhadnottimetogoandmeether。
“Madamelamarechale,“saidI,accostingher,“whatluckychance
bringsyoutoaplacewherethedesiretohaveyoursocietyissogreat?“
“Itisthefeelingofrealsympathy,“shereplied,withagracious
smile;“forIalsohavelongedforaconsiderabletimetovisit
you,andhaveyieldedtomywishesassoonasIwascertainthat
myadvanceswouldnotberepulsed。“
“Ah,madame。,“saidI,“hadyouseriouslyanysuchfear?
That
tellsmemuchlessofthemistrustyouhadofyourselfthanofthe
badopinionyouhadconceivedofme。
Thehonorofyourvisits——“
“Thehonorofmyvisits!
That’sadmirable!
Iwishtoobtaina
portionofyourfriendship,andtotestifytothekingthatIam
sincerelyattachedtohim。“
“Youoverwhelmme,madame,“criedI,muchdelighted,“andIbeg
youtogivemeyourconfidence。“
“Well,now,allisarrangedbetweenus:Isuityouandyouplease
me。
ItislongsinceIwasdesirousofcomingtoyou,butweare
allundertheyokeofthemustabsurdtyranny:soonweshallhave
nopermissiontogo,tocome,tospeak,toholdourtongues,without
firstobtainingtheconsentofacertainfamily。
Thisyokehas
weariedme;andonthefirstwordofthechancellorofFranceI
hastenedtoyou。“
“Ihadbeggedhim,madame,toexpresstoyouhowmuchIshouldbe
charmedtohaveyouwhenthekinggracedmewithhispresence。
He
likesyou,heisaccustomedtothedelightsofyoursociety;andI
shouldhavebeendeeplychagrinedhadIcomehereonlytodeprive
himofthatpleasure。“
“Heisagoodmaster,“saidthemarechale,“heisworthyofall
ourlove。
Ihavehadopportunitiesofknowinghimthoroughly,
forIwasmostintimatewithmadamedePompadour;andIbelieve
thatmyadvicewillnotbeuselesstoyou。“
“Iaskitofyou,madamelamarechale,foritwillbeprecioustome。“
“Sincewearefriends,madame,“saidshe,seatingherselfina
chair,“donotthinkillofmeifIestablishmyselfatmyease,
andtakemystationasinthedaysofyore。
Thekinglovesyou:
somuchthebetter。
Youwillhaveadoubleempireoverhim。
He
didnotlovethemarquise,andallowedhimselftobegovernedby
her;forwithhim——Iaskpardonofyourexcessivebeauty——custom
doesall。
Itisnecessary,mydearcountess,tousethedoublelever
youhave,ofyourowncharmsandhisconstantcustomtodo
to-morrowwhathedoesto-daybecausehedidityesterday,and
forthisyoulackneithergracenorwit。“
IhadheardagreatdealconcerningmadamedeMirepoix;butI
owntoyou,thatbeforeIheardherspeakIhadnoideawhatsort
ofapersonshewouldprove。
Shehadanairofsomuchfrankness
andtruth,thatitwasimpossiblenottobecharmedbyit。
Thegreater
partofthetimeIdidnotknowhowtodefendmyselffromher——at
oncesonaturalandsoperfidious;andoccasionallyIallowedmyself
toloveherwithallmyheart,somuchdidsheseemtocherishme
withallenthusiasm。
Shehaddepthofwit,apiquancyofexpression,
andknewhowtodisguisethoseinterestedadulationswithturns
sonobleandbeautifulthatIhavenevermet,neitherbeforenor
since,anywomanworthyofbeingcomparedwithher。
Shewas,
inhersingleself,awholesociety;andcertainlytherewasno
possibilityofbeingweariedwhenshewasthere。
Hertemperwas
mostequable,aqualificationrarelyobtainedwithoutalossof
warmthoffeeling。
Shealwayspleasedbecauseherbusinesswas
topleaseandnottolove;anditalwayssufficedhertorenderothers
enthusiasticandardent。
Exceptthistendencytoegotism,shewas
thecharmofsociety,thelifeofthepartywhomsheenlivenedby
herpresence。
Sheknewpreciselywhentomournwiththeafflicted,
andjokewiththemerry-hearted。
Thekinghadmuchpleasurein
hercompany:heknewthatsheonlythoughthowtoamusehim;and,
moreover,ashehadseenherfrommorningtilleveningwiththe
marquisedePompadour,herabsencefrommypartieswasinsupportable
tohim,andalmostcontrarytotherulesofetiquetteatthechateau。
Icannottellyouhowgreatwashissatisfaction,when,atthe
firstsupperwhichfollowedourintimacy,hesawherenter。