thiseffect。“
“Certainly;ifshemustsin,shehadbetterdosowithsomereason。“
Whilethesegentlemenwerethusdisposingofme,whatwasI
doing?
Alone,inmyroom,Iwaitedtheresultoftheirconference
withmortalimpatience。
ThecharacterIhadtoplaywasasuperb
one,andatthemomentwasabouttoenteronthestage,Ifeltall
thedifficultiesofmypart。
IfearedIshouldnotsucceed,butfail
amidtheinsultinghissesoftheVersaillesparty。
Myfearsatoncedisappeared,andthenIpicturedmyselfsitting
onathrone,magnificentlyattired;myimaginationwanderedin
alltheenchantmentsofgreatness;——then,asiffromremorse,I
recalledmypastlife。
TheformerloverofNicholasblushed
beforethefuturemistressofLouisXV。
Athousanddifferent
reflectionscrowdeduponme,andmingledinmybrain。
Iftolive
istothink,Ilivedawholeageinonequarterofanhour。
At
lengthIheardsomedoorsopen,acarriagerolledaway,andcomte
Jeanenteredmychamber。
“Victory!“
criedhe,embracingmewithtransport。
“Victory!my
dearJeanne,to-morrowyousupwiththeking。“
OnthisinformationIturnedpale,mystrengthforsookme,andI
wascompelledtositdown,orrathertofallintoachair;for,
accordingtoJeanJacquesRousseau,mylegsshookunderme
。
This,however,wastheonlymovementofweakness
whichIbetrayed。
WhenIrecoveredalittle,thecomteJeantold
metheconversationhehadhadwithLebel。
Ijokedaboutthetitle
ofbarondeGonesse,andIpromisedtotreatthekingasif
ignorantofhisincognito。
Onethingonlymademeuneasy,and
thatwassuppingwiththeducdeRichelieu,whohadseenme
beforeatmadamedeLagarde’s;buttheideathathewouldnot
remembermegavemerenewedcourage。
Onsoimportantanoccasion,comteJeandidnotforgettorepeat
hisinstructionsoveragain。
Thesearenearlyhiswords,forI
thinkIlearntthembyheart。
“Rememberthatitisonyourfirstinterviewthatyoursafety
depends。
Lethimlearn,throughyou,thoseuttertendernesses
whichhavebeensoughtforhiminvainheretofore。
Heislike
themonarchofold,whowaswillingtopaythehalfofhiscrown
foranunknownpleasure。
Lebelisweariedinseekingeveryweek
fornewfruit。
Heisquitedisposedtoserveyou,andwillsecond
youinthebestmanner。
Youareabouttobecomethecentreof
attractiontoallcourtiers,andnoble。
Youmust
expectthattheywillendeavortocryyoudown,becauseyouwill
havecarriedofffromthemagemtowhicheveryfamilyhasits
pretensions。
Youmustatfirststandfirmlybeforethestorm,but
afterwardyouwillfindallenlistthemselvesunderyourbanner,
whohavenowife,sister,nordaughter;thatis,allwhohaveno
mistresstooffertotheking。
Youmustattachthesetoyouby
placeandfavor:theymustbefirstthoughtof,andthenyoumust
thinkofyourselfandme,mydeargirl。“
“Allthisiswellenough,“Ireplied,“butasyetIamnothing。“
“!
to-morrowyouwillbeeverything,“criedcomte
Jean,withhisdeterminedenergy。
“Butwemustthinkabout
thismorrow。
Makehaste,noblecomtesse;gotoallthemilliners,
seekwhatiselegantratherthanwhatisrich。
Beaslovely,
pleasing,andgayaspossible;thisisthemainpoint,andGod
willdoalltherest。“
Hepronouncedthisblasphemyinalaughingtone,andIconfessI
couldnothelpjoininginthelaugh,andthenhastenedtocomply
withhisdirections。
Aslightpreface——ArrivalatVersailles————Portrait
oftheking——TheducdeRichelieu——ThemarquisdeChauvelin——The
ducdelaVauguyon-Supperwiththeking——Thefirstnight——The
followingday——ThecuriosityofcomteJean——Presentsfromthe
king——Howdisposedof
Thechancesagainstoursucceedinginourenterprisewereatleast
athousandtoone。
Theseauponwhich,trustingtothefavorable
influenceofmyleadingstar,wewereabouttoventure,wasfilled
withrocksandshoalswhichthreatenedthepoormarinerwhoshould
directhisbarknearthem。
Inthefirstplace,Ihadtodreadmy
obscurebirth,aswellasthemannerinwhichmylifehadbeen
passed;andstillmorehadItofeartheindifferentreputationof
comteJean。
Therewasmorethansufficientinallthistodisturb
aheadfarstrongerthanIcouldboast。
However,thankstomy
thoughtfulness,notroublesomethoughtsinterferedtobreakmy
restonthenightprecedingadaysoimportanttome,andIsleptas
tranquillyasthoughuponwakingIhadnootheroccupationformy
timethanawalkontheboulevards,oradrivetotheBoisdeBoulogne。
ComteJean,however,hadpassedaverydifferentnight;foronce,
thewhisperingsofambitionhadovercomeevenhisnatural
indifferenceandcarelessness,andtiredoftossingupona
sleeplesspillow,hearoseatthefirstbreakofday,reproached
meforslumberingsolong,andallowedmeneitherpeacenor
resttillIjoinedhimdressedforourjourney。
Atlength,we
setoutaccordingtoouragreementwithLebel;Iwasclosely
muffledupinmylarge——thecarriagerolledalongtill
wereachedVersailles,wherewehadforthelastmonthengageda
lodging,whichmightbeusefultousinallevents;wealighted,
andaftervainlyseekingafewmoments’repose,proceededon
foottoLebel,inwhoseapartmentsweweretoattireourselvesin
asuitablemanner。
“Youarewelcome,“saidthecomte,“prayconsideryourselfas
athome。“
“Iacceptyouraugury,“repliedI,“itwouldbeamusingenough
tofindthatmyyoungprophethadpredictedrightly。“
“Wellthen,“saidmyconductor,laughing,“Irecommendyouto
manageasliponthestaircase,itwouldbetakingpossession
afterthemanneroftheancients。“
“No,no,Ithankyou,“answeredI;“nofallsifyouplease,they
arenotpropitiousinFrance。“
Whilstwewerethusspeaking,wewerecrossingalongsuiteof
chambers,andreachedtheoneatwhichwewereexpected。
We
knockedcautiouslyatadoor,whichwasopenedtouswithequal
caution。
Scarcelyhadweentered,thanLebelcameeagerlyforward
toreceiveus。
“Ah,madame!“
criedhe,“Ibegantofearyoumightnotcome,
youhavebeenlookedforwithanimpatience——“
“Whichcanhardlyequalmine,“interruptedI;“foryouwere
preparedforyourvisitor,whilstIhaveyettolearnwhoisthe
friendthatsokindlydesirestoseeme。“
“Itisbetteritshouldbeso,“addedLebel;“donotseekeither
toguessordiscovermore,thanthatyouwillheremeetwith
somecheerfulsociety,friendsofmine,whowillsupatmyhouse,
butwithwhomcircumstancespreventmysittingdownattable。“
“How!“saidI,withaffectedsurprise,“notsupwithus?“
“Evenso,“repliedLebel;andthenaddedwithalaugh,“and
Isitdowntosuppertogether!
Whatanidea!
No!
youwillfind
thatjustastheguestsareabouttositdownattable,Ishall
suddenlybecalledoutoftheroom,andshallonlyreturnat
thecloseoftherepast。“
Allthiswasbutofsmallimporttome。
Nevertheless,Iaffected
toregrettheunavoidableabsenceofLebel。
Infact,Ibelieve
thatthefirstbreathinspiredatcourtisfraughtwithfalsehood
anddeceit,entirelydestructivetoeveryfeelingofnaturalcandor。
Lebel,withthemostceremoniousgallantry,conductedmetoa
privatedressing-room,whereIfoundseveralfemaleswaitingto
assistmeatmytoilet;Iabandonedmyselftotheircares,which
were,indeed,mostskilfullyexercisedinmybehalf。
Theywrought
wondersinmyappearance,bathingmeaftertheEasternfashion,
adorningmyhairandperson,tillIissuedfromtheirhandsblooming
andbeauteousasanhouri。
WhenIreturnedtotheroominwhichLebelwasexpectingme,his
surprisewasalmostoverpowering。
“Youare,indeed,“exclaimedhe,“thenewsunwhichistorise
uponVersailles。“
“Excellent!“
criedI,laughingextravagantly,“butliketheplanet
youarepleasedtocomparemewith,Imustreservemysplendid
risingtillIhaveobtainedfreshpowersfromtheaidofnight。“*
*,
isthewittyreplyintheoriginal,butwhichitis
impossibletorenderfullyandpiquantlythroughthe
dilutionofatranslation——tr。
Thecomteentered,andjoinedhiscongratulationsuponthebeauty
ofmyappearance;allatoncethehasty,soundofabell,violently
pulled,washeard。