saysthealderman,takinghimshort,’nowyoucontradict
yourself,forjustnowyousaidshewasintheshopwithher
backtoyou,anddidnotseeyoutillyoucameuponher。’
Now
itwastruethatmybackwaspartlytothestreet,butyetasmy
businesswasofakindthatrequiredmetohavemyeyesevery
way,soIreallyhadaglanceofhimrunningover,asIsaid
before,thoughhedidnotperceiveit。
Afterafullhearing,thealdermangaveitashisopinionthat
hisneighbourwasunderamistake,andthatIwasinnocent,
andthegoldsmithacquiescedinittoo,andhiswife,andso
Iwasdismissed;butasIwasgoingtodepart,Mr。Alderman
said,’Buthold,madam,ifyouweredesigningtobuyspoons,
Ihopeyouwillnotletmyfriendherelosehiscustomerby
themistake。’
Ireadilyanswered,’No,sir,I’llbuythespoons
still,ifhecanmatchmyoddspoon,whichIbroughtfora
pattern’;andthegoldsmithshowedmesomeoftheverysame
fashion。
Soheweighedthespoons,andtheycametofive-and-thirty
shillings,soIpullsoutmypursetopayhim,inwhichIhad
neartwentyguineas,forIneverwentwithoutsuchasum
aboutme,whatevermighthappen,andIfounditofuseat
othertimesaswellasnow。
WhenMr。Aldermansawmymoney,hesaid,’Well,madam,
nowIamsatisfiedyouwerewronged,anditwasforthis
reasonthatImovedyoushouldbuythespoons,andstayed
tillyouhadboughtthem,forifyouhadnothadmoneytopay
forthem,Ishouldhavesuspectedthatyoudidnotcomeinto
theshopwithanintenttobuy,forindeedthesortofpeople
whocomeuponthesedesignsthatyouhavebeencharged
with,areseldomtroubledwithmuchgoldintheirpockets,
asIseeyouare。’
Ismiled,andtoldhisworship,thatthenIowedsomethingof
hisfavourtomymoney,butIhopedhesawreasonalsoin
thejusticehehaddonemebefore。
Hesaid,yes,hehad,but
thishadconfirmedhisopinion,andhewasfullysatisfiednow
ofmyhavingbeeninjured。
SoIcameoffwithflyingcolours,
thoughfromanaffairinwhichIwasattheverybrinkof
destruction。
Itwasbutthreedaysafterthis,thatnotatallmadecautious
bymyformerdanger,asIusedtobe,andstillpursuingthe
artwhichIhadsolongbeenemployedin,Iventuredintoa
housewhereIsawthedoorsopen,andfurnishedmyself,as
Ithoughverilywithoutbeingperceived,withtwopiecesof
floweredsilks,suchastheycallbrocadedsilk,veryrich。
It
wasnotamercer’sshop,norawarehouseofamercer,but
lookedlikeaprivatedwelling-house,andwas,itseems,
inhabitedbyamanthatsoldgoodsfortheweaverstothe
mercers,likeabrokerorfactor。
ThatImaymakeshortofthisblackpartofthisstory,Iwas
attackedbytwowenchesthatcameopen-mouthedatmejust
asIwasgoingoutatthedoor,andoneofthempulledme
backintotheroom,whiletheothershutthedooruponme。
Iwouldhavegiventhemgoodwords,buttherewasnoroom
forit,twofierydragonscouldnothavebeenmorefurious
thantheywere;theytoremyclothes,bulliedandroaredasif
theywouldhavemurderedme;themistressofthehousecame
next,andthenthemaster,andalloutrageous,forawhileespecially。
Igavethemasterverygoodwords,toldhimthedoorwas
open,andthingswereatemptationtome,thatIwaspoorand
distressed,andpovertywaswhenmanycouldnotresist,and
beggedhimwithtearstohavepityonme。
Themistressof
thehousewasmovedwithcompassion,andinclinedtohave
letmego,andhadalmostpersuadedherhusbandtoitalso,
butthesaucywencheswererun,evenbeforetheyweresent,
andhadfetchedaconstable,andthenthemastersaidhecould
notgoback,Imustgobeforeajustice,andansweredhiswife
thathemightcomeintotroublehimselfifheshouldletmego。
Thesightoftheconstable,indeed,struckmewithterror,and
IthoughtIshouldhavesunkintotheground。
Ifellinto
faintings,andindeedthepeoplethemselvesthoughtIwould
havedied,whenthewomanarguedagainforme,andentreated
herhusband,seeingtheyhadlostnothing,toletmego。
I
offeredhimtopayforthetwopieces,whateverthevaluewas,
thoughIhadnotgotthem,andarguedthatashehadhisgoods,
andhadreallylostnothing,itwouldbecrueltopursuemeto
death,andhavemybloodforthebareattemptoftakingthem。
IputtheconstableinmindthatIhadbrokenodoors,nor
carriedanythingaway;andwhenIcametothejustice,and
pleadedtherethatIhadneitherbrokenanythingtogetin,nor
carriedanythingout,thejusticewasinclinedtohavereleased
me;butthefirstsaucyjadethatstoppedme,affirmingthatI
wasgoingoutwiththegoods,butthatshestoppedmeand
pulledmebackasIwasuponthethreshold,thejusticeupon
thatpointcommittedme,andIwascarriedtoNewgate。
That
horridplace!myverybloodchillsatthementionofitsname;
theplacewheresomanyofmycomradeshadbeenlockedup,
andfromwhencetheywenttothefataltree;theplacewhere
mymothersufferedsodeeply,whereIwasbroughtintothe
world,andfromwhenceIexpectednoredemptionbutbyan
infamousdeath:
toconclude,theplacethathadsolong
expectedme,andwhichwithsomuchartandsuccessIhad
solongavoided。
Iwasnotfixedindeed;’tisimpossibletodescribetheterror
ofmymind,whenIwasfirstbroughtin,andwhenIlooked
arounduponallthehorrorsofthatdismalplace。
Ilookedon
myselfaslost,andthatIhadnothingtothinkofbutofgoing
outoftheworld,andthatwiththeutmostinfamy:
thehellish
noise,theroaring,swearing,andclamour,thestenchand
nastiness,andallthedreadfulcrowdofafflictingthingsthat
Isawthere,joinedtogethertomaketheplaceseemanemblem
ofhellitself,andakindofanentranceintoit。
NowIreproachedmyselfwiththemanyhintsIhadhad,asI
havementionedabove,frommyownreason,fromthesense
ofmygoodcircumstances,andofthemanydangersIhad
escaped,toleaveoffwhileIwaswell,andhowIhadwithstood
themall,andhardenedmythoughtsagainstallfear。
Itseemed
tomethatIwashurriedonbyaninevitableandunseenfate
tothisdayofmisery,andthatnowIwastoexpiateallmy
offencesatthegallows;thatIwasnowtogivesatisfactionto
justicewithmyblood,andthatIwascometothelasthourof
mylifeandofmywickednesstogether。
Thesethingspoured
themselvesinuponmythoughtsinaconfusedmanner,and
leftmeoverwhelmedwithmelancholyanddespair。
ThemIrepentedheartilyofallmylifepast,butthatrepentance
yieldedmenosatisfaction,nopeace,no,notintheleast,
because,asIsaidtomyself,itwasrepentingafterthepower
offurthersinningwastakenaway。
Iseemednottomournthat
Ihadcommittedsuchcrimes,andforthefactasitwasan
offenceagainstGodandmyneighbour,butImournedthatI
wastobepunishedforit。
Iwasapenitent,asIthought,not
thatIhadsinned,butthatIwastosuffer,andthistookaway
allthecomfort,andeventhehopeofmyrepentanceinmy
ownthoughts。
IgotnosleepforseveralnightsordaysafterIcameintothat
wretchedplace,andgladIwouldhavebeenforsometimeto
havediedthere,thoughIdidnotconsiderdyingasitoughtto
beconsideredneither;indeed,nothingcouldbefilledwith
morehorrortomyimaginationthantheveryplace,nothing
wasmoreodioustomethanthecompanythatwasthere。
Oh!
ifIhadbutbeensenttoanyplaceintheworld,andnotto
Newgate,Ishouldhavethoughtmyselfhappy。
Inthenextplace,howdidthehardenedwretchesthatwere
therebeforemetriumphoverme!
What!Mrs。Flanderscome
toNewgateatlast?
What!Mrs。Mary,Mrs。Molly,andafter
thatplainMollFlanders?Theythoughtthedevilhadhelped
me,theysaid,thatIhadreignedsolong;theyexpectedme
theremanyyearsago,andwasIcomeatlast?
Thenthey
floutedmewithmydejections,welcomedmetotheplace,
wishedmejoy,bidmehaveagoodheart,nottobecastdown,
thingsmightnotbesobadasIfeared,andthelike;thencalled
forbrandy,anddranktome,butputitalluptomyscore,for
theytoldmeIwasbutjustcometothecollege,astheycalled
it,andsureIhadmoneyinmypocket,thoughtheyhadnone。
Iaskedoneofthiscrewhowlongshehadbeenthere。
She
saidfourmonths。Iaskedherhowtheplacelookedtoher
whenshefirstcameintoit。
’Justasitdidnowtoyou,’says
she,dreadfulandfrightful’;thatshethoughtshewasinhell;
’andIbelievesostill,’addsshe,’butitisnaturaltomenow,I
don’tdisturbmyselfaboutit。’
’Isuppose,’saysI,’youarein
nodangerofwhatistofollow?’
’Nay,’saysshe,’foryouare
mistakenthere,Iassureyou,forIamundersentence,onlyI
pleadedmybelly,butIamnomorewithchildthanthejudge
thattriedme,andIexpecttobecalleddownnextsessions。’
This’callingdown’iscallingdowntotheirformerjudgment,
whenawomanhasbeenrespitedforherbelly,butprovesnot
tobewithchild,orifshehasbeenwithchild,andhasbeen
broughttobed。
’Well,’saysI,’areyouthuseasy?’
’Ay,’says
she,’Ican’thelpmyself;whatsignifiesbeingsad?
IfIam
hanged,there’sanendofme,’saysshe;andawaysheturns
dancing,andsingsasshegoesthefollowingpieceofNewgate