Nothingcanmakemanlookondeathlovingly,andthatawaitingmewasonefromwhichthebravestwouldshrink,yetIfeltthatOtomiehadspokentruth,andthat,terribleasitseemed,itmightprovelessterriblethanlifehadshewnitselftobe。
Anunnaturalcalmfelluponmysoullikesomedensemistuponthefaceoftheocean。
Beneaththatmistthewatersmightfoam,aboveitthesunmightshine,yetaroundwasonegreypeace。
InthishourIseemedtostandoutsideofmyearthlyself,andtolookonallthingswithanewsense。
Thetideoflifewasebbingawayfromme,theshoreofdeathloomedverynear,andI
understoodthen,asinextremeoldageIunderstandto-day,howmuchmorepartwemortalshaveindeaththaninthisshortaccidentoflife。
Icouldconsiderallmypast,Icouldwonderonthefutureofmyspirit,andevenmarvelatthegentlenessandwisdomoftheIndianwoman,whowasabletothinksuchthoughtsandutterthem。
Well,whateverbefell,inonethingIwouldnotdisappointher,I
woulddiebravelyasanEnglishmanshoulddo,leavingtheresttoGod。
Thesebarbariansshouldneversayofmethattheforeignerwasacoward。
WhowasIthatIshouldcomplain?
DidnothundredsofmenasgoodasIwasperishdailyinyondersquare,andwithoutamurmur?
Hadnotmymotherdiedalsoatthehandofamurderer?
Wasnotthatunhappylady,IsabelladeSiguenza,walledupalivebecauseshehadbeenmadenoughtoloveavillainwhobetrayedher?
Theworldisfullofterrorsandsorrowssuchasmine,whowasI
thatIshouldcomplain?
SoImusedontillatlengththedaydawned,andwiththerisingsunrosetheclamourofmenmakingreadyforbattle。
Fornowthefightragedfromdaytoday,andthiswastobeoneofthemostterrible。
ButIthoughtlittlethenofthewarbetweentheAztecsandtheSpaniards,whomustpreparemyselfforthestruggleofmyowndeaththatwasnowathand。
CHAPTERXXI
THEKISSOFLOVE
Presentlytherewasasoundofmusic,and,accompaniedbycertainartists,mypagesentered,bearingwiththemapparelmoregorgeousthananythatIhadwornhitherto。
First,thesepageshavingstrippedmeofmyrobes,theartistspaintedallmybodyinhideousdesignsofred,andwhite,andblue,tillIresembledaflag,notevensparingmyfaceandlips,whichtheycolouredwithcarminehues。
Overmyheartalsotheydrewascarletringwithmuchcareandmeasurement。
Thentheydidupmyhairthatnowhunguponmyshoulders,afterthefashioninwhichitwaswornbygeneralsamongtheIndians,tyingitonthetopofmyheadwithanembroideredribbonredincolour,andplacedaplumeofcock’sfeathersaboveit。
Next,havingarrayedmybodyingorgeousvestmentsnotunlikethoseusedbypopishpriestsatthecelebrationofthemass,theysetgoldenearringsinmyears,goldenbraceletsonmywristsandankles,androundmyneckacollarofpricelessemeralds。
Onmybreastalsotheyhungagreatgemthatgleamedlikemoonlitwater,andbeneathmychinafalsebeardmadefrompinkseashells。
ThenhavingtwinedmeroundwithwreathsofflowerstillIthoughtofthemaypoleonBungayCommon,theyrestedfromtheirlabours,filledwithadmirationattheirhandiwork。
Nowthemusicsoundedagainandtheygavemetwolutes,oneofwhichImustholdineitherhand,andconductedmetothegreathallofthepalace。
Hereanumberofpeopleofrankweregathered,alldressedinfestalattire,andherealsoonadaistowhichI
wasled,stoodmyfourwivescladintherichdressesofthefourgoddessesXochi,Xilo,Atla,andClixto,afterwhomtheywerenamedforthedaysoftheirwifehood,AtlabeingtheprincessOtomie。
WhenIhadtakenmyplaceuponthedais,mywivescameforwardonebyone,andkissingmeonthebrow,offeredmesweetmeatsandmealcakesingoldenplatters,andcocoaandmescalingoldencups。
OfthemescalIdrank,foritisaspiritandIneededinwardcomfort,buttheotherdaintiesIcouldnottouch。
Theseceremoniesbeingfinished,therewassilenceforawhile,tillpresentlyabandoffilthypriestsenteredatthefarendofthechamber,cladintheirscarletsacrificialrobes。
Bloodwasonthemeverywhere,theirlonglocksweremattedwithit,theirhandswereredwithit,eventheirfierceeyesseemedfullofit。
Theyadvancedupthechambertilltheystoodbeforethedais,thensuddenlytheheadpriestlifteduphishands,cryingaloud:
’Adoretheimmortalgod,yepeople,’andallthosegatheredthereprostratedthemselvesshouting:
’Weadorethegod。’
Thricethepriestcriedaloud,andthricetheyansweredhimthus,prostratingthemselvesateveryanswer。
Thentheyroseagain,andthepriestaddressedme,saying:
’Forgiveus,OTezcat,thatwecannothonouryouasitismeet,foroursovereignshouldhavebeenheretoworshipyouwithus。
Butyouknow,OTezcat,howsoreisthestraitofyourservants,whomustwagewarintheirowncityagainstthosewhoblasphemeyouandyourbrothergods。
Youknowthatourbelovedemperorlieswounded,aprisonerintheirunholyhands。
Whenwehavegratifiedyourlongingtopassbeyondtheskies,OTezcat,andwheninyourearthlypersonyouhavetaughtusthelessonthathumanprosperityisbutashadowwhichfleesaway;inmemoryofourloveforyouintercedeforus,webeseechyou,thatwemaysmitethesewickedonesandhonouryouandthembytheriteoftheirownsacrifice。
O
Tezcat,youhavedweltwithusbutalittlewhile,andnowyouwillnotsufferthatweholdyoulongerfromyourglory,foryoureyeshavelongedtoseethishappyday,anditiscomeatlast。
Wehavelovedyou,Tezcat,andministeredtoyou,grantinreturnthatwemayseeyouinyoursplendour,wewhoareyourlittlechildren,andtillwecome,watchwelloverourearthlywelfare,andthatofthepeopleamongwhomyouhavedeignedtosojourn。’
Havingspokensomesuchwordsasthese,thatattimescouldscarcelybeheardbecauseofthesobbingofthepeople,andofmywiveswhoweptloudly,exceptOtomiealone,thisvillainouspriestmadeasignandoncemorethemusicsounded。
Thenheandhisbandplacedthemselvesaboutme,mywivesthegoddessesgoingbeforeandafter,andledmedownthehallandontothegatewaysofthepalace,whichwerethrownwideforustopass。
Lookingroundmewithastonywonder,forinthismylasthournothingseemedtoescapemynotice,Isawthatastrangeplaywasbeingplayedaboutus。
SomehundredsofpacesawaytheattackonthepalaceofAxa,wheretheSpaniardswereentrenched,ragedwithfury。
BandsofwarriorswereattemptingtoscalethewallsandbeingdrivenbackbythedeadlyfireoftheSpaniardsandthepikesandclubsoftheirTlascalanallies,whilefromtheroofsofsuchoftheneighbouringhousesasremainedunburned,andmoreespeciallyfromtheplatformofthegreatteocalli,onwhichImustpresentlygiveuptheghost,arrows,javelins,andstoneswerepouredbythousandsintothecourtyardsandouterworksoftheSpanishquarters。
Fivehundredyardsawayorso,ragedthisstruggletothedeath,butaboutme,aroundthegatesofMontezuma’spalaceonthehithersideofthesquare,wasadifferentscene。
Hereweregatheredavastcrowd,amongthemmanywomenandchildren,waitingtoseemedie。
Theycamewithflowersintheirhands,withthesoundofmusicandjoyouscries,andwhentheysawmetheysetupsuchashoutofwelcomethatitalmostdrownedthethunderofthegunsandtheangryroarofbattle。
Nowandagainanill-aimedcannonballwouldploughthroughthem,killingsomeandwoundingothers,buttheresttooknoheed,onlycryingthemore,’Welcome,Tezcat,andfarewell。
Blessingsonyou,ourdeliverer,welcomeandfarewell!’
Wewentslowlythroughthepress,treadingonapathofflowers,tillwecameacrossthecourtyardtothebaseofthepyramid。
Hereattheoutergatetherewasahaltbecauseofthemultitudeofthepeople,andwhilewewaitedawarriorthrusthiswaythroughthecrowdandbowedbeforeme。
GlancingupIsawthatitwasGuatemoc。
’Teule,’hewhisperedtome,"m.kanbaapp点com"’Ileavemychargeyonder,’andhenoddedtowardstheforcewhostrovetobreakawayintothepalaceofAxa,’tobidyoufarewell。
Doubtlessweshallmeetagainerelong。
Believeme,Teule,IwouldhavehelpedyouifIcould,butitcannotbe。
IwishthatImightchangeplaceswithyou。
Myfriend,farewell。
Twiceyouhavesavedmylife,butyoursIcannotsave。’
’Farewell,Guatemoc,’Ianswered’heavenprosperyou,foryouareatrueman。’
Thenwepassedon。
Atthefootofthepyramidtheprocessionwasformed,andhereoneofmywivesbademeadieuafterweepingonmyneck,thoughIdidnotweeponhers。
Nowtheroadtothesummitoftheteocalliwindsroundandroundthepyramid,evermountinghigherasitwinds,andalongthisroadwewentinsolemnstate。
Ateachturnwehaltedandanotherwifebademealastgood-bye,oroneofmyinstrumentsofmusic,whichIdidnotgrievetoseethelastof,orsomearticleofmystrangeattire,wastakenfromme。
Atlengthafteranhour’smarch,forourprogresswasslow,wereachedtheflattopofthepyramidthatisapproachedbyagreatstair,aspacelargerthantheareaofthechurchyardhereatDitchingham,andunfencedatitsloftyedge。
HereonthisdizzyplacestoodthetemplesofHuitzelandofTezcat,soaringstructuresofstoneandwood,withinwhichwereplacedthehorrideffigiesofthegods,anddreadfulchambersstainedwithsacrifice。
Here,too,weretheholyfiresthatburnedeternally,thesacrificialstones,theimplementsoftorment,andthehugedrumofsnakes’skin,butfortherestthespotwasbare。
Itwasbarebutnotempty,foronthatsideofitwhichlookedtowardstheSpanishquarterswerestationedsomehundredsofmenwhohurledmissilesintotheircampwithoutceasing。
Ontheothersidealsoweregatheredaconcourseofpriestsawaitingtheceremonyofmydeath。
Belowthegreatsquare,fringedroundwithburnt-outhouses,wascrowdedwiththousandsofpeople,someofthemengagedincombatwiththeSpaniards,butthelargerpartcollectedtheretowitnessmymurder。
Nowwereachedthetopofthepyramid,twohoursbeforemidday,fortherewerestillmanyritestobecarriedouterethemomentofsacrifice。
FirstIwasledintothesanctuaryofTezcat,thegodwhosenameIbore。
Herewashisstatueoridol,fashionedinblackmarbleandcoveredwithgoldenornaments。
Inthehandofthisidolwasashieldofburnishedgoldonwhichitsjewelledeyeswerefixed,readingthere,ashispriestsfabled,allthatpassedupontheearthhehadcreated。
Beforehimalsowasaplateofgold,whichwithmutteredinvocationstheheadpriestcleansedasI