Thenextstroketookhimonthelips,knockingoutatoothandsendinghimbackwards。
ThenIcaughthimbythelegandbeathimmostunmercifully,notupontheheadindeed,fornowthatIwasvictorIdidnotwishtokillonewhomIthoughtamadmanasIwouldthatIhaddone,butoneveryotherpartofhim。
IndeedIthrashedhimtillmyarmswerewearyandthenIfelltokickinghim,andallthewhilehewrithedlikeawoundedsnakeandcursedhorribly,thoughhenevercriedoutoraskedformercy。
AtlastIceasedandlookedathim,andhewasnoprettysighttosee——
indeed,whatwithhiscutsandbruisesandthemireoftheroadway,itwouldhavebeenhardtoknowhimforthegallantcavalierwhomIhadmetnotfiveminutesbefore。
Butuglierthanallhishurtswasthelookinhiswickedeyesashelaythereonhisbackinthepathwayandglaredupatme。
’Now,friendSpaniard,’Isaid,’youhavelearnedalesson;andwhatistheretohindermefromtreatingyouasyouwouldhavedealtwithmewhohadneverharmedyou?’andItookuphisswordandheldittohisthroat。
’Strikehome,youaccursedwhelp!’heansweredinabrokenvoice;
’itisbettertodiethantolivetoremembersuchshameasthis。’
’No,’Isaid,’Iamnoforeignmurderertokilladefencelessman。
Youshallawaytothejusticetoanswerforyourself。
Thehangmanhasaropeforsuchasyou。’
’Thenyoumustdragmethither,’hegroaned,andshuthiseyesasthoughwithfaintness,anddoubtlesshewassomewhatfaint。
NowasIponderedonwhatshouldbedonewiththevillain,itchancedthatIlookedupthroughagapinthefence,andthere,amongtheGrubswellOaksthreehundredyardsormoreaway,IcaughtsightoftheflutterofawhiterobethatIknewwell,anditseemedtomethatthewearerofthatrobewasmovingtowardsthebridgeofthe’watering’asthoughshewerewearyofwaitingforonewhodidnotcome。
ThenIthoughttomyselfthatifIstayedtodragthismantothevillagestocksorsomeothersafeplace,therewouldbeanendofmeetingwithmylovethatday,andIdidnotknowwhenImightfindanotherchance。
NowIwouldnothavemissedthathour’stalkwithLilytobringascoreofmurderous-mindedforeignerstotheirdeserts,and,moreover,thisonehadearnedgoodpaymentforhisbehaviour。
SurelythoughtI,hemightwaitawhiletillIhaddonemylove-making,andifhewouldnotwaitIcouldfindameanstomakehimdoso。
Nottwentypacesfromusthehorsestoodcroppingthegrass。
Iwenttohimandundidhisbridlerein,andwithitfastenedtheSpaniardtoasmallwaysidetreeasbestIwasable。
’Now,hereyoustay,’Isaid,’tillIamreadytofetchyou;’andI
turnedtogo。
ButasIwentagreatdoubttookme,andoncemoreIrememberedmymother’sfear,andhowmyfatherhadriddeninhastetoYarmouthonbusinessaboutaSpaniard。
Nowto-dayaSpaniardhadwanderedtoDitchingham,andwhenhelearnedmynamehadfallenuponmemadlytryingtokillme。
Wasnotthisthemanwhommymotherfeared,andwasitrightthatIshouldleavehimthusthatImightgomayingwithmydear?
Iknewinmybreastthatitwasnotright,butIwassosetuponmydesireandsostronglydidmyheartstringspullmetowardsherwhosewhiterobenowflutteredontheslopeoftheParkHill,thatIneverheededthewarning。
WellhaditbeenformeifIhaddoneso,andwellforsomewhowereyetunborn。
Thentheyhadneverknowndeath,norIthelandofexile,thetasteofslavery,andthealtarofsacrifice。
HavingmadetheSpaniardasfastasIcould,hisarmsbeingboundtothetreebehindhim,andtakinghisswordwithme,IbegantorunhardafterLilyandcaughthernottoosoon,forinonemoreminuteshewouldhaveturnedalongtheroadthatrunstothewateringandoverthebridgebytheParkHillpathtotheHall。
Hearingmyfootsteps,shefacedabouttogreetme,orratherasthoughtoseewhoitwasthatfollowedher。
Thereshestoodintheeveninglight,aboughofhawthornbloominherhand,andmyheartbeatyetmorewildlyatthesightofher。
Neverhadsheseemedfairerthanasshestoodthusinherwhiterobe,alookofamazeuponherfaceandinhergreyeyes,thatwashalfrealhalffeigned,andwiththesunlightshiftingonherauburnhairthatshowedbeneathherlittlebonnet。
Lilywasnoround-checkedcountrymaidwithfewbeautiessavethoseofhealthandyouth,butatallandshapelyladywhohadripenedearlytoherfullgraceandsweetness,andsoitcameaboutthatthoughwewerealmostofanage,yetinherpresenceIfeltalwaysasthoughIweretheyounger。
Thusinmyloveforherwasmingledsometouchofreverence。
’Oh!itisyou,Thomas,’shesaid,blushingasshespoke。
’I
thoughtyouwerenot——ImeanthatIamgoinghomeasitgrowslate。
Butsay,whydoyourunsofast,andwhathashappenedtoyou,Thomas,thatyourarmisbloodyandyoucarryaswordinyourhand?’
’Ihavenobreathtospeakyet,’Ianswered。
’ComebacktothehawthornsandIwilltellyou。’
’No,Imustbewendinghomewards。
Ihavebeenamongthetreesformorethananhour,andthereislittlebloomuponthem。’
’Icouldnotcomebefore,Lily。
Iwaskept,andinastrangemanner。
AlsoIsawbloomasIran。’
’Indeed,Ineverthoughtthatyouwouldcome,Thomas,’sheanswered,lookingdown,’whohaveotherthingstodothantogooutmayinglikeagirl。
ButIwishtohearyourstory,ifitisshort,andIwillwalkalittlewaywithyou。’
Soweturnedandwalkedsidebysidetowardsthegreatpollardoaks,andbythetimethatwereachedthem,IhadtoldherthetaleoftheSpaniard,andhowhestrovetokillme,andhowIhadbeatenhimwithmystaff。
NowLilylistenedeagerlyenough,andsighedwithfearwhenshelearnedhowcloseIhadbeentodeath。
’Butyouarewounded,Thomas,’shebrokein;’see,thebloodrunsfastfromyourarm。
Isthethrustdeep?’
’Ihavenotlookedtosee。
Ihavehadnotimetolook。’
’Takeoffyourcoat,Thomas,thatImaydressthewound。
Nay,I
willhaveitso。’
SoIdrewoffthegarment,notwithoutpain,androlleduptheshirtbeneath,andtherewasthehurt,acleanthrustthroughthefleshypartofthelowerarm。
Lilywasheditwithwaterfromthebrook,andbounditwithherkerchief,murmuringwordsofpityallthewhile。
Tosaytruth,Iwouldhavesufferedaworseharmgladly,ifonlyIcouldfindhertotendit。
Indeed,hergentlecarebrokedownthefenceofmydoubtsandgavemeacouragethatotherwisemighthavefailedmeinherpresence。
Atfirst,indeed,Icouldfindnowords,butassheboundmywound,Ibentdownandkissedherministeringhand。
Sheflushedredastheeveningsky,thefloodofcrimsonlosingitselfatlastbeneathherauburnhair,butitburneddeepestuponthewhitehandwhichIhadkissed。
’Whydidyoudothat,Thomas?’shesaid,inalowvoice。
ThenIspoke。
’IdiditbecauseIloveyou,Lily,anddonotknowhowtobeginthetellingofmylove。
Iloveyou,dear,andhavealwayslovedasIalwaysshallloveyou。’
’Areyousosureofthat,Thomas?’shesaid,again。
’ThereisnothingelseintheworldofwhichIamsosure,Lily。
WhatIwishtobeassureofisthatyoulovemeasIloveyou。’
Foramomentshestoodquiet,herheadsunkalmosttoherbreast,thenshelifteditandhereyesshoneasIhadneverseenthemshinebefore。
’Canyoudoubtit,Thomas?’shesaid。
AndnowItookherinmyarmsandkissedheronthelips,andthememoryofthatkisshasgonewithmethroughmylonglife,andiswithmeyet,when,oldandwithered,Istanduponthebordersofthegrave。
Itwasthegreatestjoythathasbeengiventomeinallmydays。
Toosoon,alas!itwasdone,thatfirstpurekissofyouthfullove——andIspokeagainsomewhataimlessly。
’Itseemsthenthatyoudolovemewholoveyousowell。’
’Ifyoudoubteditbefore,canyoudoubtitNOW?’sheansweredverysoftly。
’Butlisten,Thomas。
Itiswellthatweshouldloveeachother,forwewereborntoit,andhavenohelpinthematter,evenifwewishedtofindit。
Still,thoughlovebesweetandholy,itisnotall,forthereisdutytobethoughtof,andwhatwillmyfathersaytothis,Thomas?’
’Idonotknow,Lily,andyetIcanguess。
Iamsure,sweet,thathewishesyoutotakemybrotherGeoffrey,andleavemeononeside。’
’Thenhiswishesarenotmine,Thomas。
Also,thoughdutybestrong,itisnotstrongenoughtoforceawomantoamarriageforwhichshehasnoliking。
Yetitmayprovestrongenoughtokeepawomanfromamarriageforwhichherheartpleads——perhaps,also,itshouldhavebeenstrongenoughtoholdmebackfromthetellingofmylove。’
’No,Lily,theloveitselfismuch,andthoughitshouldbringnofruit,stillitissomethingtohavewonitforeverandaday。’
’Youareveryyoungtotalkthus,Thomas。
Iamalsoyoung,Iknow,butwewomenripenquicker。
Perhapsallthisisbutaboy’sfancy,topasswithboyhood。’
’Itwillneverpass,Lily。
Theysaythatourfirstlovesarethelongest,andthatwhichissowninyouthwillflourishinourage。
Listen,Lily;Ihavemyplacetomakeintheworld,anditmaytakeatimeinthemaking,andIaskonepromiseofyou,thoughperhapsitisaselfishthingtoseek。
Iaskofyouthatyouwillbefaithfultome,andcomefairweatherorfoul,willwednoothermantillyouknowmedead。’
’Itissomethingtopromise,Thomas,forwithtimecomechanges。
StillIamsosureofmyselfthatIpromise——nayIswearit。
OfyouIcannotbesure,butthingsaresowithuswomenthatwemustriskalluponathrow,andifwelose,good-byetohappiness。’
Thenwetalkedon,andIcannotrememberwhatwesaid,thoughthesewordsthatIhavewrittendownremaininmymind,partlybecauseoftheirownweight,andinpartbecauseofallthatcameaboutintheafteryears。
AndatlastIknewthatImustgo,thoughweweresadenoughatparting。
SoItookherinmyarmsandkissedhersocloselythatsomebloodfrommywoundrandownherwhiteattire。
ButasweembracedIchancedtolookup,andsawasightthatfrightenedmeenough。
Forthere,notfivepacesfromus,stoodSquireBozard,Lily’sfather,watchingall,andhisfaceworenosmile。
Hehadbeenridingbyabridle-pathtothewateringford,andseeingacoupletrespassingbeneaththeoaks,dismountedfromhishorsetohuntthemaway。
Nottillhewasquiteneardidheknowwhomhecametohunt,andthenhestoodstillinastonishment。
LilyandIdrewslowlyapartandlookedathim。
Hewasashortstoutman,witharedfaceandsterngreyeyes,thatseemedtobestartingfromhisheadwithanger。
Forawhilehecouldnotspeak,butwhenhebeganatlengththewordscamefastenough。
AllthathesaidIforget,buttheupshotofitwasthathedesiredtoknowwhatmybusinesswaswithhisdaughter。
Iwaitedtillhewasoutofbreath,thenansweredhimthatLilyandIlovedeachotherwell,andwereplightingourtroth。
’Isthisso,daughter?’heasked。
’Itisso,myfather,’sheansweredboldly。
Thenhebrokeoutswearing。
’Youlightminx,’hesaid,’youshallbewhippedandkeptcoolonbreadandwaterinyourchamber。
Andforyou,myhalf-bredSpanishcockerel,knowonceandforallthatthismaidisforyourbetters。
Howdareyoucomewooingmydaughter,youemptypill-box,whohavenottwosilverpenniestorattleinyourpouch!
Gowinfortuneandanamebeforeyoudaretolookuptosuchasshe。’
’Thatismydesire,andIwilldoit,sir,’Ianswered。
’So,youapothecary’sdrudge,youwillwinnameandplace,willyou!
Well,longbeforethatdeedisdonethemaidshallbesafelyweddedtoonewhohasthemandwhoisnotunknowntoyou。
Daughter,saynowthatyouhavefinishedwithhim。’
’Icannotsaythat,father,’shereplied,pluckingatherrobe。
’IfitisnotyourwillthatIshouldmarryThomashere,mydutyisplainandImaynotwedhim。
ButIammyownandnodutycanmakememarrywhereIwillnot。
WhileThomaslivesIamsworntohimandtonootherman。’
’Attheleastyouhavecourage,hussey,’saidherfather。
’Butlistennow,eitheryouwillmarrywhereandwhenIwish,ortrampitforyourbread。
Ungratefulgirl,didIbreedyoutoflauntmetomyface?
Nowforyou,pill-box。