Then,Thomas,maythecurseofGodrestuponyoutillyoufindhimandfinishthatwhichyoubeganto-day。’
’Sparetocurseme,father,whoamaccursedbymyownconscience。
TurnyourhorsesratherandrideforYarmouth,fortherehisshipliesandthitherhehasgonewithtwohours’start。
Perhapsyoumaystilltraphimbeforehesetssail。’
Withoutanotherwordmyfatherandbrotherwheeledtheirhorsesroundanddepartedatfullgallopintothegloomofthegatheringnight。
Theyrodesofiercelythat,theirhorsesbeinggood,theycametothegatesofYarmouthinlittlemorethananhourandahalf,andthatisfastriding。
Butthebirdwasflown。
Theytrackedhimtothequayandfoundthathehadshippedawhilebeforeinaboatwhichwasinwaitingforhim,andpassedtohisvesselthatlayintheRoadsatanchorbutwiththemostofhercanvasset。
Instantlyshesailed,andnowwaslostinthenight。
ThenmyfathercausednoticetobegiventhathewouldpayrewardoftwohundredpiecesingoldtoanyshipthatshouldcapturetheSpaniard,andtwostartedonthequest,buttheydidnotfindherthatbeforemorningwasfaronherwayacrossthesea。
SosoonastheyhadgallopedawayIcalledtogetherthegroomsandotherservingmenandtoldthemwhathadchanced。
Thenwewentwithlanterns,forbynowitwasdark,andcametothethickbrushwoodwherelaythebodyofmymother。
Idrewnearthefirst,forthemenwereafraid,andsoindeedwasI,thoughwhyIshouldfearherlyingdeadwholivinghadlovedmetenderly,Idonotknow。
YetIknowthis,thatwhenIcametothespotandsawtwoeyesgloweringatmeandheardthecrashofbushesassomethingbrokethem,Icouldalmosthavefallenwithfear,althoughIknewwellthatitwasbutafoxorwanderinghoundhauntingtheplaceofdeath。
StillIwenton,callingtheotherstofollow,andtheendofitwasthatwelaidmymother’sbodyuponadoorwhichhadbeenliftedfromitshinges,andboreherhomeforthelasttime。
Andtomethatpathisstillahauntedplace。
ItisseventyyearsandmoresincemymotherdiedbythehandofJuandeGarciahercousin,yetoldasIamandhardenedtosuchsadscenes,Idonotlovetowalkthatpathaloneatnight。
Doubtlessitwasfancywhichplaysusstrangetricks,stillbutayearago,havinggonetosetaspringeforawoodcock,IchancedtopassbyyonderbigoakuponaNovembereve,andIcouldhaveswornthatIsawitallagain。
Isawmyselfalad,mywoundedarmstillboundwithLily’skerchief,climbingslowlydownthehill-side,whilebehindme,groaningbeneaththeirburden,weretheformsofthefourservingmen。
Iheardthemurmuroftheriverandthewindthatseventyyearsagowhisperedinthereeds。
Isawthecloudedskyflawedhereandtherewithblue,andthebrokenlightthatgleamedonthewhiteburdenstretcheduponthedoor,andtheredstainatitsbreast。
Ay,IheardmyselftalkasIwentforwardwiththelantern,biddingthemenpasstotherightofsomesteepandrottenground,anditwasstrangetometolistentomyownvoiceasithadbeeninyouth。
Well,well,itwasbutadream,yetsuchslavesarewetothefearsoffancy,thatbecauseofthedead,I,whoamalmostoftheirnumber,donotlovetopassthatpathatnight。
Atlengthwecamehomewithourburden,andthewomentookitweepingandsetabouttheirtaskwithit。
AndnowImustnotonlyfightmyownsorrowsbutmuststrivetosoothethoseofmysisterMary,whoasIfearedwouldgomadwithgriefandhorror。
Atlastshesobbedherselfintoatorpor,andIwentandquestionedthemenwhosatroundthefireinthekitchen,fornonesoughttheirbedsthatnight。
FromthemIlearnedthatanhourormorebeforeImettheSpaniard,arichly-dressedstrangerhadbeenseenwalkingalongthechurch-path,andthathehadtiedhishorseamongsomegorseandbramblesonthetopofthehill,wherehestoodasthoughindoubt,tillmymothercameout,whenhedescendedandfollowedher。
AlsoIlearnedthatoneofthemenatworkinthegarden,whichisnotmorethanthreehundredpacesfromwherethedeedwasdone,heardcries,buthadtakennonoteofthem,thinkingforsooththatitwasbuttheplayofsomeloverfromBungayandhislasschasingeachotherthroughthewoods,astothishouritistheirfashiontodo。
TrulyitseemedtomethatdayasthoughthisparishofDitchinghamweretheverynurseryoffools,ofwhomIwasthefirstandbiggest,andindeedthissamethoughthasstruckmesinceconcerningothermatters。
Atlengththemorningcame,andwithitmyfatherandbrother,whoreturnedfromYarmouthonhiredhorses,fortheirownwerespent。
IntheafternoonalsonewsfollowedthemthattheshipswhichhadputtoseaonthetrackoftheSpaniardhadbeendrivenbackbybadweather,havingseennothingofhim。
NowItoldallthestoryofmydealingswiththemurdererofmymother,keepingnothingback,andImustbearmyfather’sbitterangerbecauseknowingthatmymotherwasindreadofaSpaniard,I
hadsufferedmyreasontobeledastraybymydesiretowinspeechwithmylove。
NordidImeetwithanycomfortfrommybrotherGeoffrey,whowasfierceagainstmebecausehelearnedthatIhadnotpleadedinvainwiththemaidwhomhedesiredforhimself。
Buthesaidnothingofthisreason。
Alsothatnodropmightbelackinginmycup,SquireBozard,whocamewithmanyotherneighbourstoviewthecorpseandoffersympathywithmyfatherinhisloss,toldhimatthesametimethathetookitillthatIshouldwoohisdaughteragainsthiswish,andthatifIcontinuedinthiscourseitwouldstraintheirancientfriendship。
ThusIwashitoneveryside;bysorrowformymotherwhomIhadlovedtenderly,bylongingformydearwhomImightnotsee,byself-reproachbecauseIhadlettheSpaniardgowhenIheldhimfast,andbytheangerofmyfatherandmybrother。
Indeedthosedaysweresodarkandbitter,forIwasattheagewhenshameandsorrowstingtheirsharpest,thatIwishedthatIweredeadbesidemymother。
Onecomfortreachedmeindeed,amessagefromLilysentbyaservantgirlwhomshetrusted,givingmeherdearloveandbiddingmetobeofgoodcheer。
Atlengthcamethedayofburial,andmymother,wrappedinfairwhiterobes,waslaidtoherrestinthechancelofthechurchatDitchingham,wheremyfatherhaslongbeensetbesideher,hardbythebrasseffigiesthatmarktheburyingplaceofLily’sforefather,hiswife,andmanyoftheirchildren。
Thisfuneralwasthesaddestofsights,forthebitternessofmyfather’sgriefbrokefromhiminsobsandmysisterMaryswoonedawayinmyarms。
Indeedtherewerefewdryeyesinallthatchurch,formymother,notwithstandingherforeignbirth,wasmuchlovedbecauseofhergentlewaysandthegoodnessofherheart。
Butitcametoanend,andthenobleSpanishladyandEnglishwifewaslefttoherlongsleepintheancientchurch,wheresheshallrestonwhenhertragicstoryandherverynameareforgottenamongmen。
Indeedthisislikelytobesoon,forIamthelastoftheWingfieldsaliveintheseparts,thoughmysisterMaryhasleftdescendantsofanothernametowhommylandsandfortunegoexceptforcertaingiftstothepoorofBungayandofDitchingham。
WhenitwasoverIwentbackhome。
Myfatherwassittinginthefrontroomwellnighbesidehimselfwithgrief,andbyhimwasmybrother。
PresentlyhebegantoassailmewithbitterwordsbecauseIhadletthemurderergowhenGodgavehimintomyhand。
’Youforget,father,’sneeredGeoffrey,’Thomaswoosamaid,anditwasmoretohimtoholdherinhisarmsthantokeephismother’smurderersafely。
Butbythisitseemshehaskilledtwobirdswithonestone,hehassufferedtheSpanishdeviltoescapewhenheknewthatourmotherfearedthecomingofaSpaniard,andhehasmadeenmitybetweenusandSquireBozard,ourgoodneighbour,whostrangelyenoughdoesnotfavourhiswooing。’
’Itisso,’saidmyfather。
’Thomas,yourmother’sbloodisonyourhands。’
Ilistenedandcouldbearthisgoadinginjusticenolonger。
’Itisfalse,’Isaid,’Isayiteventomyfather。
ThemanhadkilledmymotherbeforeImethimridingbacktoseekhisshipatYarmouthandhavinglosthisway;howthenisherblooduponmyhands?
AsformywooingofLilyBozard,thatismymatter,brother,andnotyours,thoughperhapsyouwishthatitwasyoursandnotmine。
Why,father,didyounottellmewhatyoufearedofthisSpaniard?
Iheardsomeloosetalkonlyandgavelittlethoughttoit,mymindbeingfullofotherthings。
AndnowIwillsaysomething。
YoucalleddownGod’scurseuponme,father,tillsuchtimeasIshouldfindthismurdererandfinishwhatIhadbegun。
Sobeit!
LetGod’scurserestuponmetillIdofindhim。
Iamyoung,butIamquickandstrong,andsosoonasmaybeI
startforSpaintohunthimtheretillIshallrunhimdownorknowhimtobedead。
Ifyouwillgivememoneytohelpmeonmyquest,sobeit——ifnotIgowithout。
IswearbeforeGodandbymymother’sspiritthatIwillneitherrestnorstaytillwiththeveryswordthatslewher,Ihaveavengedherblooduponhermurdererorknowhimdead,andifIsuffermyselftobeledastrayfromthepurposeofthisoathbyaughtthatis,thenmayaworseendthanhersovertakeme,maymysoulberejectedinheaven,andmynamebeshamefulforeverupontheearth!’
ThusIsworeinmyrageandanguish,holdingupmyhandtoheaventhatIcalledupontowitnesstheoath。
Myfatherlookedatmekeenly。
’Ifthatisyourmind,sonThomas,youshallnotlackformoney。
Iwouldgomyself,forbloodmustbewipedoutwithblood,butIamtoobrokeninmyhealth;alsoIamknowninSpainandtheHolyOfficewouldclaimmethere。
Go,andmyblessinggowithyou。
Itisrightthatyoushouldgo,foritisthroughyourfollythatourenemyhasescapedus。’
’Yes,itisrightthatheshouldgo,’saidGeoffrey。
’Yousaythatbecauseyouwishtoberidofme,Geoffrey,’I
answeredhotly,’andyouwouldberidofmebecauseyoudesiretotakemyplaceatthesideofacertainmaid。
Followyournatureanddoasyouwill,butifyouwouldoutwitanabsentmannogoodshallcometoyouofit。’
’Thegirlistohimwhocanwinher,’hesaid。
’Thegirl’sheartiswonalready,Geoffrey。
Youmaybuyherfromherfatherbutyoucanneverwinherheart,andwithoutaheartshewillbebutapoorprize。’
’Peace!nowisnotimeforsuchtalkofloveandmaids,’saidmyfather,’andlisten。
ThisisthetaleoftheSpanishmurdererandyourmother。
Ihavesaidnothingofitheretofore,butnowitmustout。
WhenIwasaladithappenedthatIalsowenttoSpainbecausemyfatherwilledit。
IwenttoamonasteryatSeville,butIhadnolikingformonksandtheirways,andIbrokeoutfromthemonastery。
ForayearormoreImademylivingasIbestmight,forIfearedtoreturntoEnglandasarunaway。
StillImadealivingandnotabadone,nowinthiswayandnowinthat,butthoughIamashamedtosayit,mostlybygaming,atwhichIhadgreatluck。
OnenightImetthismanJuandeGarcia——forinhishatehegaveyouhistruenamewhenhewouldhavestabbedyou——atplay。
Eventhenhehadanevilfame,thoughhewasscarcelymorethanalad,buthewashandsomeinperson,sethighinbirth,andofapleasingmanner。
Itchancedthathewonofmeatthedice,andbeinginagoodhumour,hetookmetovisitatthehouseofhisaunt,hisuncle’swidow,aladyofSeville。
Thisaunthadonechild,adaughter,andthatdaughterwasyourmother。
Nowyourmother,LuisadeGarcia,wasaffiancedtohercousinJuandeGarcia,notwithherownwillindeed,forthecontracthadbeensignedwhenshewasonlyeightyearsold。