DuringthatmealBernalDiazspokeofourfirstmeetingonthecauseway,andofhowIhadgoneneartokillinghiminerror,thinkingthathewasSarceda,andthenheaskedmewhatwasmyquarrelwithSarceda。
InasfewwordsaspossibleItoldhimthestoryofmylife,ofalltheevilthatdeGarciaorSarcedahadworkeduponmeandmine,andofhowitwasthroughhimthatIwasinthislandthatday。
Helistenedamazed。
’HolyMother!’hesaidatlength,’Ialwaysknewhimforavillain,butthat,ifyoudonotlie,friendWingfield,hecouldbesuchamanasthis,Ididnotknow。
Nowbymyword,hadIheardthistaleanhourago,Sarcedashouldnothaveleftthiscamptillhehadanswereditorclearedhimselfbycombatwithyou。
ButIfearitistoolate;hewastoleaveforMexicoattherisingofthemoon,tostirupmischiefagainstmebecauseIgrantedyouterms——notthatIfearhimthere,wherehisreputeissmall。’
’Idonotlieindeed,’Ianswered。
’MuchofthistaleIcanproveifneedbe,andItellyouthatIwouldgivehalfthelifethatislefttometostandfacetofaceinopenfightwithhimagain。
Everhehasescapedme,andthescorebetweenusislong。’
NowasIspokethusitseemedtomethatacoldanddreadfulairplayeduponmyhandsandbrowandawarningsenseofpresentevilcreptintomysoul,overcomingmesothatIcouldnotstirorspeakforawhile。
’Letusgoandseeifhehasgone,’saidDiazpresently,andsummoningaguard,hewasabouttoleavethechamber。
ItwasatthismomentthatIchancedtolookupandseeawomanstandinginthedoorway。
Herhandrestedonthedoorpost;herhead,fromwhichthelonghairstreamed,wasthrownback,andonherfacewasalookofsuchanguishthatatfirst,somuchwasshechanged,IdidnotknowherforOtomie。
WhenIknewher,Iknewall;onethingonlycouldconjureuptheterrorandagonythatshoneinherdeepeyes。
’Whathaschancedtoourson?’Iasked。
’DEAD,DEAD!’sheansweredinawhisperthatseemedtopiercemymarrow。
Isaidnothing,formyhearttoldmewhathadhappened,butDiazasked,’Dead——why,whathaskilledhim?’
’DeGarcia!
Isawhimgo,’repliedOtomie;thenshetossedherarmshigh,andwithoutanothersoundfellbackwardstotheearth。
InthatmomentIthinkthatmyheartbroke——atleastIknowthatnothinghashadthepowertomovemegreatlysince,thoughthismemorymovesmedaybydayandhourbyhour,tillIdieandgotoseekmyson。
’Say,BernalDiaz,’Icried,withahoarselaugh,’didIlietoyouconcerningthiscomradeofyours?’
Then,springingoverOtomie’sbodyIleftthechamber,followedbyBernalDiazandtheothers。
WithoutthedoorIturnedtothelefttowardsthecamp。
Ihadnotgoneahundredpaceswhen,inthemoonlight,Isawasmalltroopofhorsemenridingtowardsus。
ItwasdeGarciaandhisservants,andtheyheadedtowardsthemountainpassontheirroadtoMexico。
I
wasnottoolate。
’Halt!’criedBernalDiaz。
’Whocommandsmetohalt?’saidthevoiceofdeGarcia。
’I,yourcaptain,’roaredDiaz。
’Halt,youdevil,youmurderer,oryoushallbecutdown。’
Isawhimstartandturnpale。
’Thesearestrangemanners,senor,’hesaid。
’OfyourgraceIask——“
AtthismomentdeGarciacaughtsightofmeforthefirsttime,forIhadbrokenfromtheholdofDiazwhoclutchedmyarm,andwasmovingtowardshim。
Isaidnothing,buttherewassomethinginmyfacewhichtoldhimthatIknewall,andwarnedhimofhisdoom。
Helookedpastme,butthenarrowroadwasblockedwithmen。
I
drewnear,buthedidnotwaitforme。
Onceheputhishandonthehiltofthesword,thensuddenlyhewheeledhishorseroundandfleddownthestreetofXaca。
DeGarciafled,andIfollowedafterhim,runningfastandlowlikeahound。
Atfirsthegainedonme,butsoontheroadgrewrough,andhecouldnotgallopoverit。
Wewereclearofthetownnow,orratherofitsruins,andtravellingalongalittlepathwhichtheIndiansusedtobringdownsnowfromXacainthehotweather。
Perhapstherearesomefivemilesofthispathbeforethesnowlineisreached,beyondwhichnoIndiandaredtosethisfoot,forthegroundabovewasholy。
Alongthispathhewent,andIwascontenttoseeit,forIknewwellthatthetravellercannotleaveit,sinceoneithersideliewater-coursesandcliffs。
MileaftermiledeGarciafollowedit,lookingnowtotheleft,nowtotheright,andnowaheadatthegreatdomeofsnowcrownedwithfirethattoweredabovehim。
Butheneverlookedbehindhim;heknewwhatwasthere——deathintheshapeofaman!
Icameondoggedly,savingmystrength。
IwassurethatImustcatchhimatlast,itdidnotmatterwhen。
Atlengthhereachedthesnow-linewherethepathended,andforthefirsttimehelookedback。
ThereIwassometwohundredpacesbehindhim。
I,hisdeath,wasbehindhim,andinfrontofhimshonethesnow。
Foramomenthehesitated,andIheardtheheavybreathingofhishorseinthegreatstillness。
Thenheturnedandfacedtheslope,drivinghisspursintothebrute’ssides。
Thesnowwashard,forherethefrostbitsharply,andforawhile,thoughitwassosteep,thehorsetravelledoveritbetterthanhehaddonealongthepathway。
Now,asbefore,therewasonlyoneroadthathecouldtake,forwepassedupthecrestofaridge,apleatasitwereinthegarmentofthemountain,andoneithersideweresteepsofsnowonwhichneitherhorsenormanmightkeephisfooting。
Fortwohoursormorewefollowedthatridge,andaswewentthroughthesilenceofthehauntedvolcan,andthelonelinessofitseternalsnows,itseemedtomethatmyspiritenteredintothespiritofmyquarry,andthatwithitseyesIsawallthatwaspassinginhisheart。
Toamansowrongedthedreamwaspleasantevenifitwerenottrue,forIreadtheresuchagony,suchblackdespair,suchhauntingmemories,suchterrorofadvancingdeathandofwhatlaybeyondit,thatnorevengeofman’scouldsurpasstheirtorment。
Anditwastrue——Iknewthatitwastrue;hesufferedallthisandmore,forifhehadnoconscience,atleasthehadfearandimaginationtoquickenandmultiplythefear。
Nowthesnowgrewsteeper,andthehorsewasalmostspent,forhecouldscarcelybreatheatsogreataheight。
InvaindiddeGarciadrivehisspursintoitssides,thegallantbeastcoulddonomore。
Suddenlyitfelldown。
Surely,Ithought,hewillawaitmenow。
ButevenIhadnotfathomedthedepthofhisterrors,fordeGarciadisengagedhimselffromthefallenhorse,lookedtowardsme,thenfledforwardonhisfeet,castingawayhisarmourashewentthathemighttravelmorelightly。
Bythistimewehadpassedthesnowandwerecometotheedgeoftheicecapthatismadebythemeltingofthesnowwiththeheatoftheinnerfires,orperhapsbythatofthesuninhotseasons,I
knownot,anditsfreezinginthewintermonthsorinthecoldofthenights。
AtleastthereissuchacaponXaca,measuringnearlyamileindepth,whichliesbetweenthesnowandtheblackrimofthecrater。
UpthisiceclimbeddeGarcia,andthetaskisnotoftheeasiest,evenforoneofuntroubledmind,foramanmuststepfromcracktocrackorneedletoneedleofroughice,thatstanduponthesmoothsurfacelikethebristlesonahog’sback,andwoetohimifonebreakorifheslip,forthen,ashefalls,veryshortlythefleshwillbefiledfromhisbonesbythethousandsofsword-likepointsoverwhichhemustpassinhisdescenttowardsthesnow。
Indeed,manytimesIfearedgreatlylestthisshouldchancetodeGarcia,forIdidnotdesiretolosemyvengeancethus。
ThereforetwicewhenIsawhimindangerIshoutedtohim,tellinghimwheretoputhisfeet,fornowIwaswithintwentypacesofhim,and,strangetosay,heobeyedmewithoutquestion,forgettingeverythinginhisterrorofinstantdeath。
ButformyselfIhadnofear,forIknewthatIshouldnotfall,thoughtheplacewasonewhichIhadsurelyshrunkfromclimbingatanyothertime。
AllthiswhilewehadbeentravellingtowardsXaca’sfierycrestbythebrightmoonlight,butnowthedawnbrokesuddenlyonthemountaintop,andtheflamediedawayintheheartofthepillarofsmoke。
Itwaswonderfultoseetheredglorythatshoneupontheice-cap,andonustwomenwhocreptlikefliesacrossit,whilethemountain’sbreastandtheworldbelowwereplungedintheshadowsofnight。
’Nowwehaveabetterlighttoclimbby,comrade!’IcalledtodeGarcia,andmyvoicerangstrangelyamongtheicecliffs,whereneveraman’svoicehadechoedbefore。
AsIspokethemountainrumbledandbellowedbeneathus,shakinglikeawind-tossedtree,asthoughinwrathatthedesecrationofitssacredsolitudes。
Withtherumblingcameashowerofgreyashesthatraineddownonus,andforalittlewhilehiddeGarciafrommysight。
Iheardhimcalloutinfear,andwasafraidlesthehadfallen;butpresentlytheashesclearedaway,andIsawhimstandingsafelyonthelavarimthatsurroundsthecrater。
Now,Ithought,hewillsurelymakeastand,forcouldhehavefoundcourageithadbeeneasyforhimtokillmewithhissword,whichhestillwore,asIclimbedfromtheicetothehotlava。
Itseemedthathethoughtofit,forheturnedandglaredatmelikeadevil,thenwentonagain,leavingmewonderingwherehebelievedthathewouldfindrefuge。
Somethreehundredpacesfromtheedgeoftheice,thesmokeandsteamofthecraterroseintotheair,andbetweenthetwowaslavasohotthatinplacesitwasdifficulttowalkuponit。
Acrossthisbed,thattrembledasIpassedoverit,wentdeGarciasomewhatslowly,fornowhewasweary,andI
followedhimatmyease,gettingmybreathagain。
PresentlyIsawthathehadcometotheedgeofthecrater,forheleanedforwardandlookedover,andIthoughtthathewasabouttodestroyhimselfbyplungingintoit。
Butifsuchthoughtshadbeeninhismind,heforgotthemwhenhehadseenwhatsortofnestthiswastosleepin,forturning,hecamebacktowardsme,swordup,andwemetwithinadozenpacesoftheedge。
Isaymet,butintruthwedidnotmeet,forhestoppedagain,welloutofreachofmysword。
Isatdownuponablockoflavaandlookedathim;itseemedtomethatIcouldnotfeastmyeyesenoughuponhisface。
Andwhatafaceitwas;thatofamorethanmurdererabouttomeethisreward!
WouldthatIcouldpainttoshowit,fornowordscantellthefearfulnessofthoseredandsunkeneyes,thosegrinningteethandquiveringlips。
Ithinkthatwhentheenemyofmankindhascasthislastdieandwonhislastsoul,hetoowilllookthusashepassesintodoom。
’Atlength,deGarcia!’Isaid。
’Whydoyounotkillmeandmakeanend?’heaskedhoarsely。
’Whereisthehurry,cousin?
ForhardontwentyyearsIhavesoughtyou,shallwethenpartsosoon?
Letustalkawhile。
Beforeweparttomeetnomore,perhapsofyourcourtesyyouwillanswermeaquestion,forIamcurious。
Whyhaveyouwroughttheseevilsonmeandmine?
Surelyyoumusthavesomereasonforwhatseemstobeanemptyandfoolishwickedness。’
Ispoketohimthuscalmlyandcoldly,feelingnopassion,feelingnothing。
ForinthatstrangehourIwasnolongerThomasWingfield,Iwasnolongerhuman,Iwasaforce,aninstrument;I
couldthinkofmydeadsonwithoutsorrow,hedidnotseemdeadtome,forIpartookofthenaturethathehadputoninthischangeofdeath。
IcouldeventhinkofdeGarciawithouthate,asthoughhealsowerenothingbutatoolinsomeotherhand。
Moreover,I