KNEWthathewasmine,bodyandmind,andthathemustanswerandtruly,sosurelyashemustdiewhenIchosetokillhim。
  Hetriedtoshuthislips,buttheyopenedofthemselvesandwordbywordthetruthwasdraggedfromhisblackheartasthoughhestoodalreadybeforethejudgmentseat。
  ’Ilovedyourmother,mycousin,’hesaid,speakingslowlyandpainfully;’fromachildIlovedheronlyintheworld,asIlovehertothishour,butshehatedmebecauseIwaswickedandfearedmebecauseIwascruel。
  Thenshesawyourfatherandlovedhim,andbroughtabouthisescapefromtheHolyOffice,whitherIhaddeliveredhimtobetorturedandburnt,andfledwithhimtoEngland。
  IwasjealousandwouldhavebeenrevengedifImight,buttherewasnoway。
  Iledanevillife,andwhennearlytwentyyearshadgoneby,chancetookmetoEnglandonatradingjourney。
  BychanceIlearnedthatyourfatherandmotherlivednearYarmouth,andIdeterminedtoseeher,thoughatthattimeIhadnothoughtofkillingher。
  Fortunefavouredme,andwemetinthewoodland,andIsawthatshewasstillbeautifulandknewthatI
  lovedhermorethaneverbefore。
  Igaveherchoicetoflywithmeortodie,andafterawhileshedied。
  Butassheshrankupthewoodedhillsidebeforemysword,ofasuddenshestoodstillandsaid:
  ’“Listenbeforeyousmite,Juan。
  Ihaveadeathvision。
  AsIhavefledfromyou,soshallyouflybeforeoneofmybloodinaplaceoffireandrockandsnow,andasyoudrivemetothegatesofheaven,soheshalldriveyouintothemouthofhell。“’
  ’Insuchaplaceasthis,cousin,’Isaid。
  ’Insuchaplaceasthis,’hewhispered,glancinground。
  ’Continue。’
  Againhestrovetobesilent,butagainmywillmasteredhimandhespoke。
  ’ItwastoolatetospareherifIwishedtoescapemyself,soI
  killedherandfled。
  Butterrorenteredmyheart,terrorwhichhasneverleftittothishour,foralwaysbeforemyeyeswasthevisionofhimofyourmother’sblood,beforewhomIshouldflyasshefledbeforeme,whoshalldrivemeintothemouthofhell。’
  ’Thatmustbeyonder,cousin,’Isaid,pointingwiththeswordtowardthepitofthecrater。
  ’Itisyonder;Ihavelooked。’
  ’Butonlyforthebody,cousin,notforthespirit。’
  ’Onlyforthebody,notforthespirit,’herepeatedafterme。
  ’Continue,’Isaid。
  ’AfterwardsonthatsamedayImetyou,ThomasWingfield。
  Alreadyyourdeadmother’sprophecyhadtakenholdofme,andseeingoneofherbloodIstrovetokillhimlestheshouldkillme。’
  ’Ashewilldopresently,cousin。’
  ’Ashewilldopresently,’herepeatedlikeatalkingbird。
  ’YouknowwhathappenedandhowIescaped。
  IfledtoSpainandstrovetoforget。
  ButIcouldnot。
  OnenightIsawafaceinthestreetsofSevillethatremindedmeofyourface。
  Ididnotthinkthatitcouldbeyou,yetsostrongwasmyfearthatIdeterminedtoflytothefarIndies。
  YoumetmeonthenightofmyflightwhenIwasbiddingfarewelltoalady。’
  ’OneIsabelladeSiguenza,cousin。
  Ibadefarewelltoherafterwardsanddeliveredherdyingwordstoyou。
  Nowshewaitstowelcomeyouagain,sheandherchild。’
  Heshudderedandwenton。
  ’Intheoceanwemetagain。
  Youroseoutofthesea。
  Ididnotdaretokillyouatonce,Ithoughtthatyoumustdieintheslave-holdandthatnonecouldbearwitnessagainstmeandholdmeguiltyofyourblood。
  Youdidnotdie,eventheseacouldnotdestroyyou。
  ButIthoughtthatyouweredead。
  IcametoAnahuacinthetrainofCortesandagainwemet;thattimeyounearlykilledme。
  AfterwardsIhadmyrevengeandI
  torturedyouwell;Imeanttomurderyouonthemorrow,thoughfirstIwouldtortureyou,forterrorcanbeverycruel,butyouescapedme。
  Longyearspassed,Iwanderedhitherandthither,toSpain,backtoMexico,andelsewhere,butwhereverIwentmyfear,theghostsofthedead,andmydreamswentwithme,andIwasneverfortunate。
  OnlytheotherdayIjoinedthecompanyofDiazasanadventurer。
  NottillwereachedtheCityofPinesdidIlearnthatyouwerethecaptainoftheOtomie;itwassaidthatyouwerelongdead。
  Youknowtherest。’
  ’Whydidyoumurdermyson,cousin?’
  ’Washenotofyourmother’sblood,ofthebloodthatshouldbringmydoomuponme,anddidIoweyounorewardforalltheterrorsofthesemanyyears?
  Moreoverheisfoolishwhostrivestoslaythefatherandsparestheson。
  HeisdeadandIamgladthatIkilledhim,thoughhehauntsmenowwiththeothers。’
  ’Andshallhauntyoueternally。
  Nowletusmakeanend。
  Youhaveyoursword,useitifyoucan。
  Itwillbeeasiertodiefighting。’
  ’Icannot,’hegroaned;’mydoomisuponme。’
  ’Asyouwill,’andIcameathim,swordup。
  Heranfrombeforeme,movingbackwardsandkeepinghiseyesfixeduponmine,asIhaveseenaratdowhenasnakeisabouttoswallowit。
  Nowwewereupontheedgeofthecrater,andlookingoverI
  sawanawfulsight。
  Forthere,somethirtyfeetbeneathus,thered-hotlavaglowingsullenlybeneathashiftingpallofsmoke,rolledandspoutedlikeathingalive。
  Jetsofsteamflewupwardsfromitwithascreamingsound,linesofnoxiousvapours,many-
  coloured,creptandtwistedonitssurface,andahotandhorridstenchpoisonedtheheatedair。
  HereindeedwassuchagateasI
  couldwishfordeGarciatopassthroughtohisownabode。
  Ilooked,pointedwithmysword,andlaughed;helookedandshriekedaloud,fornowallhismanhoodhadlefthim,sogreatwashisterrorofwhatlaybeyondtheend。
  Yes,thisproudandhaughtySpaniardscreamedandweptandprayedformercy;hewhohaddonesomanyvillaniesbeyondforgiveness,prayedformercythathemightfindtimetorepent。
  Istoodandwatchedhim,andsodreadfulwashisaspectthathorrorstruckmeeventhroughthecalmofmyfrozenheart。
  ’Come,itistimetofinish,’Isaid,andagainIliftedmysword,onlytoletitfall,forsuddenlyhisbraingavewayanddeGarciawentmadbeforemyeyes!
  OfallthatfollowedIwillnotwrite。
  Withhismadnesscouragecamebacktohim,andhebegantofight,butnotwithME。
  Heseemedtoperceivemenomore,butneverthelesshefought,anddesperately,thrustingattheemptyair。
  Itwasterribletoseehimthusdoingbattlewithhisinvisiblefoes,andtohearhisscreamsandcurses,asinchbyinchtheydrovehimbacktotheedgeofthecrater。
  Herehestoodawhile,likeonewhomakesalaststandagainstoverpoweringstrength,thrustingandstrikingfuriously。
  Twicehenearlyfell,asthoughbeneathamortalwound,butrecoveringhimself,foughtonwithNothingness。
  Then,withasharpcry,suddenlyhethrewhisarmswide,asamandoeswhoispiercedthroughtheheart;hissworddroppedfromhishand,andhefellbackwardsintothepit。
  Iturnedawaymyeyes,forIwishedtoseenomore;butoftenI
  havewonderedWhoorWhatitwasthatdealtdeGarciahisdeathwound。
  ThusthendidIaccomplishthevengeancethatIhadsworntomyfatherIwouldwreakupondeGarcia,orrather,thusdidIwitnessitsaccomplishment,forintheendhedied,terriblyenough,notbymyhandbutbythoseofhisownfears。
  SincethenIhavesorrowedforthis,for,whenthefrozenandunnaturalcalmpassedfrommymind,Ihatedhimasbitterlyasever,andgrievedthatIlethimdieotherwisethanbymyhand,andtothishoursuchismymindtowardshim。
  Doubtless,manymaythinkitwicked,sincewearetaughttoforgiveourenemies,buthereIleavetheforgivenesstoGod,forhowcanIpardononewhobetrayedmyfathertothepriests,whomurderedmymotherandmyson,whochainedmeintheslave-shipandformanyhourstorturedmewithhisownhand?
  Rather,yearbyyear,doIhatehimmore。
  Iwriteofthisatsomelength,sincethematterhasbeenatroubletome。
  InevercouldsaythatIwasincharitywithallmenlivinganddead,andbecauseofthis,someyearssince,aworthyandlearnedrectorofthisparishtookuponhimselftorefusemetheritesofthechurch。
  ThenIwenttothebishopandlaidthestorybeforehim,anditpuzzledhimsomewhat。
  Buthewasamanoflargemind,andintheendherebukedtherectorandcommandedhimtoministertome,forhethoughtwithmethattheAlmightycouldnotaskofanerringman,thatheshouldforgiveonewhohadwroughtsuchevilsonhimandhis,eventhoughthatenemyweredeadandgonetojudgmentinanotherplace。
  Butenoughofthisquestionofconscience。
  WhendeGarciawasgoneintothepit,Iturnedmystepshomewards,orrathertowardstheruinedcitywhichIcouldseebeneathme,forIhadnohomeleft。
  NowImustdescendtheicecap,andthisI
  foundlesseasythanclimbingithadbeen,for,myvengeancebeingaccomplished,Ibecameasothermenare,andasadandwearyoneatthat,sosadindeedthatIshouldnothavesorrowedgreatlyifI
  hadmadeafalsestepupontheice。
  ButImadenone,andatlengthIcametothesnowwherethetravellingwaseasy。
  Myoathwasfulfilledandmyvengeancewasaccomplished,butasIwentIreckonedupthecost。
  Ihadlostmybetrothed,theloveofmyyouth;fortwentyyearsIhadlivedasavagechiefamongsavagesandmadeacquaintancewitheveryhardship,weddedtoawomanwho,althoughshelovedmedearly,anddidnotlacknobilityofmind,asshehadshowntheotherday,wasstillatheartasavageor,attheleast,athrallofdemongods。
  ThetribethatIruledwasconquered,thebeautifulcitywhereI
  dweltwasaruin,Iwashomelessandabeggar,andmyfortunewouldbegreatifintheissueIescapeddeathorslavery。
  AllthisI
  couldhaveborne,forIhadbornethelikebefore,butthecruelendofmylastsurvivingson,theonetruejoyofmydesolatelife,Icouldnotbear。
  Theloveofthosechildrenhadbecomethepassionofmymiddleage,andasIlovedthemsotheyhadlovedme。
  IhadtrainedthemfrombabyhoodtilltheirheartswereEnglishandnotAztec,asweretheirspeechandfaith,andthustheywerenotonlymydearchildren,butcompanionsofmyownrace,theonlyonesIhad。
  Andnowbyaccident,bysickness,andbythesword,theyweredeadthethreeofthem,andIwasdesolate。
  Ah!wethinkmuchofthesorrowsofouryouth,andshouldasweetheartgiveusthegobywefilltheworldwithmoansandswearthatitholdsnocomfortforus。
  Butwhenwebendourheadsbeforetheshroudedshapeofsomelostchild,thenitisthatforthefirsttimewelearnhowterriblegriefcanbe。
  Time,theytellus,willbringconsolation,butitisfalse,forsuchsorrowstimehasnosalves——Isayitwhoamold——astheyaresotheyshallbe。
  Thereisnohopebutfaith,thereisnocomfortsaveinthetruththatlovewhichmighthavewitheredontheearthgrowsfastestinthetomb,toflowergloriouslyinheaven;thatnoloveindeedcanbeperfecttillGodsanctifiesandcompletesitwithHissealofdeath。
  IthrewmyselfdownthereuponthedesolatesnowsofXaca,thatnonehadtrodbefore,andweptsuchtearsasamanmayweepbutonceinhislifedays。
  ’OmysonAbsalom,myson,mysonAbsalom!wouldGodIhaddiedforthee,OAbsalom,myson,myson!’Icriedwiththeancientking——I
  whosegriefwasgreaterthanhis,forhadInotlostthreesonswithinasmanyyears?
  Thenrememberingthatasthiskinghadgonetojoinhissonlongcenturiesago,soImustonedaygotojoinmine,andtakingsuchcomfortfromthethoughtasmaybefoundinit,IroseandcreptbacktotheruinedCityofPines。
  ItwasnearsunsetwhenIcamethither,fortheroadwaslongandI
  grewweak。
  BythepalaceImettheCaptainDiazandsomeofhiscompany,andtheyliftedtheirbonnetstomeasIwentby,fortheyhadrespectformysorrows。
  OnlyDiazspoke,saying:
  ’Isthemurdererdead?’