lovedherwellandIwasfaithfulinmyoathtoher,indeed,notuntilshewasdeaddidIknowhowdearshehadgrowntome。
Itistruethattherewasagreatgulfbetweenuswhichwidenedwiththeyears,thegulfofbloodandfaith,forIknewwellthatshecouldnotaltogetherputawayheroldbeliefs,anditistruethatwhenI
sawherleadingthedeathchant,agreathorrortookmeandforawhileIloathedher。
ButthesethingsImighthavelivedtoforgive,fortheywerepartofherbloodandnature,moreover,thelastandworstofthemwasnotdonebyherownwill,andwhentheyweresetasidethereremainedmuchthatIcouldhonourandloveinthememoryofthismostroyalandbeautifulwoman,whoforsomanyyearswasmyfaithfulwife。
SoIthoughtinthathourandsoI
thinktothisday。
Shesaidthatwepartedforever,butItrustandIbelievethatthisisnotso。
Surelythereisforgivenessforusall,andaplacewherethosewhowerenearanddeartoeachotherontheearthmayoncemorerenewtheirfellowship。
AtlastIrosewithasightoseekhelp,andasIroseIfeltthattherewassomethingsetaboutmyneck。
ItwasthecollarofgreatemeraldswhichGuatemochadgiventome,andthatIhadgiventoOtomie。
ShehadsetittherewhileIslept,andwithitalockofherlonghair。
Bothshallbeburiedwithme。
Ilaidherintheancientsepulchreamidthebonesofherforefathersandbythebodiesofherchildren,andtwodayslaterI
rodetoMexicointhetrainofBernalDiaz。
AtthemouthofthepassIturnedandlookedbackupontheruinsoftheCityofPines,whereIhadlivedsomanyyearsandwhereallIlovedwereburied。
LongandearnestlyIgazed,asinhishourofdeathamanlooksbackuponhispastlife,tillatlengthDiazlaidhishanduponmyshoulder:
’Youarealonelymannow,comrade,’hesaid;’whatplanshaveyouforthefuture?’
’None,’Ianswered,’excepttodie。’
’Nevertalkso,’hesaid;’why,youarescarcelyforty,andIwhoamfiftyandmoredonotspeakofdying。
Listen;youhavefriendsinyourowncountry,England?’
’Ihad。’
’Folklivelonginthosequietlands。
Goseekthem,IwillfindyouapassagetoSpain。’
’Iwillthinkofit,’Ianswered。
IntimewecametoMexico,anewandastrangecitytome,forCorteshadrebuiltit,andwheretheteocallihadstood,upwhichI
wasledtosacrifice,acathedralwasbuilding,whereofthefoundationswerefitlylaidwiththehideousidolsoftheAztecs。
Theplacewaswellenough,butitisnotsobeautifulastheTenoctitlanofMontezuma,noreverwillbe。
Thepeopletoowerechanged;thentheywerewarriorsandfree,nowtheyareslaves。
InMexicoDiazfoundmealodging。
Nonemolestedmethere,forthepardonthatIhadreceivedwasrespected。
AlsoIwasaruinedman,nolongertobefeared,thepartthatIhadplayedinthenochetristeandinthedefenceofthecitywasforgotten,andthetaleofmysorrowswonmepityevenfromtheSpaniards。
IabodeinMexicotendays,wanderingsadlyaboutthecityanduptothehillofChapoltepec,whereMontezuma’spleasure-househadbeen,andwhereIhadmetOtomie。
Nothingwasleftofitsgloriesexceptsomeoftheancientcedartrees。
OntheeighthdayofmystayanIndianstoppedmeinthestreet,sayingthatanoldfriendhadchargedhimtosaythatshewishedtoseeme。
IfollowedtheIndian,wonderingwhothefriendmightbe,forIhadnofriends,andheledmetoafinestonehouseinanewstreet。
HereIwasseatedinadarkenedchamberandwaitedthereawhile,tillsuddenlyasadandsweetvoicethatseemedfamiliartome,addressedmeintheAztectongue,saying,’Welcome,Teule。’
Ilookedandtherebeforeme,dressedintheSpanishfashion,stoodalady,anIndian,stillbeautiful,butveryfeebleandmuchworn,asthoughwithsicknessandsorrow。
’DoyounotknowMarina,Teule?’shesaidagain,butbeforethewordshadleftherlipsIknewher。
’Well,Iwillsaythis,thatI
shouldscarcelyhaveknownYOU,Teule。
Troubleandtimehavedonetheirworkwithbothofus。’
Itookherhandandkissedit。
’WherethenisCortes?’Iasked。
Nowagreattremblingseizedher。
’CortesisinSpain,pleadinghissuit。
Hehaswedanewwifethere,Teule。
Manyyearsagoheputmeaway,givingmeinmarriagetoDonJuanXaramillo,whotookmebecauseofmypossessions,forCortesdealtliberallywithme,hisdiscardedmistress。’
Andshebegantoweep。
ThenbydegreesIlearnedthestory,butIwillnotwriteithere,foritisknowntotheworld。
WhenMarinahadservedhisturnandherwitwasofnomoreservicetohim,theconquerordiscardedher,leavinghertowitherofabrokenheart。
Shetoldmeallthetaleofheranguishwhenshelearnedthetruth,andofhowshehadcriedtohimthatthenceforthhewouldneverprosper。
Norindeeddidhedoso。
Fortwohoursormorewetalked,andwhenIhadheardherstoryI
toldhermine,andsheweptforme,sincewithallherfaultsMarina’sheartwasevergentle。
Thenwepartednevertomeetagain。
BeforeIwentshepressedagiftofmoneyonme,andIwasnotashamedtotakeitwhohadnone。
ThisthenwasthehistoryofMarina,whobetrayedhercountryforherlove’ssake,andthistherewardofhertreasonandherlove。
ButIshallalwaysholdhermemorysacred,forshewasagoodfriendtome,andtwiceshesavedmylife,norwouldshedesertme,evenwhenOtomietauntedhersocruelly。
NowonthemorrowofmyvisittoMarina,theCaptainDiazcametoseemeandtoldmethatafriendofhiswasincommandofacarakwhichwasduetosailfromtheportofVeraCruzforCadizwithintendays,andthatthisfriendwaswillingtogivemeapassageifIwishedtoleaveMexico。
IthoughtforawhileandsaidthatI
wouldgo,andthatverynight,havingbidfarewelltotheCaptainDiaz,whommayGodprosper,forhewasagoodmanamongmanybadones,Isetoutfromthecityforthelasttimeinthecompanyofsomemerchants。
Aweek’sjourneytookussafelydownthemountainstoVeraCruz,ahotunhealthytownwithanindifferentanchorage,muchexposedtothefiercenortherlywinds。
HereIpresentedmylettersofrecommendationtothecommanderofthecarak,whogavemepassagewithoutquestion,Ilayinginastockoffoodforthejourney。
Threenightslaterwesetsailwithafairwind,andonthefollowingmorningatdaybreakallthatwasleftinsightofthelandofAnahuacwasthesnowycrestofthevolcanOrizaba。
Presentlythatvanishedintotheclouds,andthusdidIbidfarewelltothefarcountrywheresomanythingshadhappenedtome,andwhichaccordingtomyreckoningIhadfirstsightedonthisverydayeighteenyearsbefore。
OfmyjourneytoSpainIhavenothingofnotetotell。
Itwasmoreprosperousthansuchvoyagesoftenare,andwithintenweeksofthedateofourliftinganchoratVeraCruz,weletitdropintheharbourofCadiz。
HereIsojournedbuttwodays,forasitchancedtherewasanEnglishshipintheharbourtradingtoLondon,andinherItookapassage,thoughIwasobligedtosellthesmallestoftheemeraldsfromthenecklacetofindthemeanstodoso,themoneythatMarinagavemebeingspent。
Thisemeraldsoldforagreatsum,however,withpartofwhichIpurchasedclothingsuitabletoapersonofrank,takingtherestofthegoldwithme。
Igrievedtopartwiththestoneindeed,thoughitwasbutapendanttothependantofthecollar,butnecessityknowsnolaw。
Thependantstoneitself,afinegemthoughflawed,IgaveinafteryearstohergraciousmajestyQueenElizabeth。
OnboardtheEnglishshiptheythoughtmeaSpanishadventurerwhohadmademoneysintheIndies,andIdidnotundeceivethem,sinceIwouldbelefttomyowncompanyforawhilethatImightpreparemymindtoreturntowaysofthoughtandlifethatithadlongforgotten。
ThereforeIsatapartlikesomeprouddon,sayinglittlebutlisteningmuch,andlearningallIcouldofwhathadchancedinEnglandsinceIleftitsometwentyyearsbefore。
Atlengthourvoyagecametoanend,andonacertaintwelfthofJuneIfoundmyselfinthemightycityofLondonthatIhadneveryetvisited,andkneelingdowninthechamberofmyinn,IthankedGodthatafterenduringsomanydangersandhardships,ithadpleasedHimtopreservemetosetfootagainonEnglishsoil。
IndeedtothishourIcountitnothingshortofmarvellousthatthisfrailbodyofamanshouldsurviveallthesorrowsandrisksofdeathbysickness,hunger,battle,murder,drowning,wildbeasts,andthecrueltyofmen,towhichminehadbeenexposedformanyyears。
InLondonIboughtagoodhorse,throughthekindofficesofthehostofmyinn,andonthemorrowatdaybreakIsetoutupontheIpswichroad。
Thatverymorningmylastadventurebefellme,forasIjoggedalongmusingofthebeautyoftheEnglishlandscapeanddrinkinginthesweetairofJune,acowardlythieffiredapistolatmefrombehindahedge,purposingtoplundermeifIfell。
Thebulletpassedthroughmyhat,grazingtheskull,butbeforeIcoulddoanythingtherascalfled,seeingthathehadmissedhismark,andIwentonmyjourney,thinkingtomyselfthatitwouldindeedhavebeenstrange,ifafterpassingsuchgreatdangersinsafety,I
haddiedatlastbythehandofamiserablefoot-padwithinfivemilesofLondontown。
Irodehardallthatdayandthenext,andmyhorsebeingstoutandswift,byhalf-pastseveno’clockoftheeveningIpulledupuponthelittlehillwhenceIhadlookedmylastonBungay,whenIrodethenceforYarmouthwithmyfather。
Belowmelaytheredroofsofthetown;theretotherightweretheoaksofDitchinghamandthebeautifultowerofSt。Mary’sChurch,yonderthestreamofWaveneywandered,andbeforemestretchedthemeadowlands,purpleandgoldenwithmarshweedsinbloom。
Allwasasithadbeen,Icouldseenochangeatall,theonlychangewasinmyself。
Idismounted,andgoingtoapoolofwaterneartheroadwayIlookedatthereflectionofmyownface。
Iwaschangedindeed,scarcelyshouldI
haveknownitforthatoftheladwhohadriddenupthishillsometwentyyearsago。
Now,alas!theeyesweresunkenandverysorrowful,thefeaturesweresharp,andtherewasmoregreythanblackinthebeardandhair。
Ishouldscarcelyhaveknownitmyself,wouldanyothersknowit,Iwondered?
Wouldtherebeanytoknowitindeed?
Intwentyyearsmanydieandotherspassoutofsight;shouldIfindafriendatallamongtheliving?
SinceI
readtheletterswhichCaptainBellofthe’Adventuress’hadbroughtmebeforeIsailedforHispaniola,Ihadheardnotidingsfrommyhome,andwhattidingsawaitedmenow?
AboveallwhatofLily,wasshedeadormarriedorgone?
MountingmyhorseIpushedonagainatacanter,takingtheroadpastWaingfordMillsthroughthefordsandPirnhowtown,leavingBungayuponmyleft。
IntenminutesIwasatthegateofthebridlepaththatrunsfromtheNorwichroadforhalfamileormorebeneaththesteepandwoodedbankundertheshelterofwhichstandstheLodgeatDitchingham。
Bythegateamanloiteredinthelastraysofthesun。
Ilookedathimandknewhim;itwasBillyMinns,thatsamefoolwhohadlooseddeGarciawhenIlefthimboundthatImightruntomeetmysweetheart。
Hewasanoldmannowandhiswhitehairhungabouthiswitheredface,moreoverhewasuncleananddressedinrags,butIcouldhavefallenonhisneckandembracedhim,sorejoicedwasItolookoncemoreononewhomIhadknowninyouth。