shallprayforyou。“
Theeyesofthemother,openedbysofirmahand,tookinwithoneretrospectiveglancethewholecourseofherlife。Illuminedbythisflashoflight,shesawherinvoluntarywrong-doingandburstintotears。Theoldpriestwassodeeplymovedattherepentanceofabeingwhohadsinnedsolelythroughignorance,thathelefttheroomhastilylestsheshouldseehispity。
Josephreturnedtohismother’sroomabouttwohoursafterherconfessorhadlefther。Hehadbeentoafriendtoborrowthenecessarymoneytopayhismostpressingdebts,andhecameinontiptoe,thinkingthathismotherwasasleep。Hesatdowninanarmchairwithoutherseeinghim;buthesprangupwithacoldchillrunningthroughhimasheheardhersay,inavoicebrokenwithsobs,——
“Willheforgiveme?“
“Whatisit,mother?“heexclaimed,shockedatthestrickenfaceofthepoorwoman,andthinkingthewordsmustmeanthedeliriumthatprecedesdeath。
“Ah,Joseph!canyoupardonme,mychild?“shecried。
“Forwhat?“hesaid。
“Ihaveneverlovedyouasyoudeservedtobeloved。“
“Oh,whatanaccusation!“hecried。“Notlovedme?Forsevenyearshavewenotlivedalonetogether?Allthesesevenyearshaveyounottakencareofmeanddoneeverythingforme?DoInotseeyoueveryday,——hearyourvoice?Areyounotthegentleandindulgentcompanionofmymiserablelife?Youdon’tunderstandpainting?——Ah!butthat’sagiftnotalwaysgiven。IwassayingtoGrassouonlyyesterday:’WhatcomfortsmeinthemidstofmytrialsisthatIhavesuchagoodmother。Sheisallthatanartist’swifeshouldbe;sheseestoeverything;shetakescareofmymaterialwantswithoutevertroublingorworryingme。’“
“No,Joseph,no;youhavelovedme,butIhavenotreturnedyouloveforlove。Ah!wouldthatIcouldlivealittlelonger——Givemeyourhand。“
Agathetookherson’shand,kissedit,helditonherheart,andlookedinhisfacealongtime,——lettinghimseetheazureofhereyesresplendentwithatendernessshehadhithertobestowedonPhilippeonly。Thepainter,wellfittedtojudgeofexpression,wassostruckbythechange,andsawsoplainlyhowtheheartofhismotherhadopenedtohim,thathetookherinhisarms,andheldherforsomemomentstohisheart,cryingoutlikeonebesidehimself,——“Mymother!
oh,mymother!“
“Ah!IfeelthatIamforgiven!“shesaid。“Godwillconfirmthechild’spardonofitsmother。“
“Youmustbecalm:don’ttormentyourself;hearme。Ifeelmyselflovedenoughinthisonemomentforallthepast,“hesaid,ashelaidherbackuponthepillows。
Duringthetwoweeks’strugglebetweenlifeanddeath,thereglowedsuchloveineverylookandgestureandimpulseofthesoulofthepiouscreature,thateacheffusionofherfeelingsseemedliketheexpressionofalifetime。Themotherthoughtonlyofherson;sheherselfcountedfornothing;sustainedbylove,shewasunawareofhersufferings。D’Arthez,MichelChrestien,FulgenceRidal,PierreGrassou,andBianchonoftenkeptJosephcompany,andsheheardthemtalkingartinalowvoiceinacornerofherroom。
“Oh,howIwishIknewwhatcoloris!“sheexclaimedoneeveningassheheardthemdiscussingoneofJoseph’spictures。
Joseph,onhisside,wassublimelydevotedtohismother。Heneverleftherchamber;answeredtendernessbytenderness,cherishingheruponhisheart。Thespectaclewasneverafterwardsforgottenbyhisfriends;andtheythemselves,abandofbrothersintalentandnobilityofnature,weretoJosephandhismotherallthattheyshouldhavebeen,——friendswhoprayed,andtrulywept;notsayingprayersandsheddingtears,butonewiththeirfriendinthoughtandaction。
Joseph,inspiredasmuchbyfeelingasbygenius,divinedintheoccasionalexpressionofhismother’sfaceadesirethatwasdeephiddeninherheart,andhesaidonedaytod’Arthez,——
“ShehaslovedthatbrigandPhilippetoowellnottowanttoseehimbeforeshedies。“
JosephbeggedBixiou,whofrequentedtheBohemianregionswherePhilippewasstilloccasionallytobefound,topersuadethatshamelesssontoplay,ifonlyoutofpity,alittlecomedyoftendernesswhichmightwrapthemother’sheartinawinding-sheetofillusivehappiness。Bixiou,inhiscapacityasanobservingandmisanthropicalscoffer,desirednothingbetterthantoundertakesuchamission。WhenhehadmadeknownMadameBridau’sconditiontotheComtedeBrambourg,whoreceivedhiminabedroomhungwithyellowdamask,thecolonellaughed。
“Whatthedevildoyouwantmetodothere?“hecried。“Theonlyservicethepoorwomancanrendermeistodieassoonasshecan;shewouldberatherasorryfigureatmymarriagewithMademoiselledeSoulanges。Thelessmyfamilyisseen,thebettermyposition。YoucaneasilyunderstandthatIshouldliketoburythenameofBridauunderallthemonumentsinPere-Lachaise。Mybrotherirritatesmebybringingthenameintopublicity。YouaretooknowingnottoseethesituationasIdo。Lookatitasifitwereyourown:ifyouwereadeputy,withatonguelikeyours,youwouldbeasmuchfearedasChauvelin;youwouldbemadeComteBixiou,anddirectoroftheBeaux-
Arts。Oncethere,howshouldyoulikeitifyourgrandmotherDescoingsweretoturnup?Wouldyouwantthatworthywoman,wholookedlikeaMadameSaint-Leon,tobehangingontoyou?WouldyougiveheranarmintheTuileries,andpresenthertothenoblefamilyyouweretryingtoenter?Damnit,you’dwishhersixfeetunderground,inaleadennight-gown。Come,breakfastwithme,andletustalkofsomethingelse。Iamaparvenu,mydearfellow,andIknowit。Idon’tchoosethatmyswaddling-clothesshallbeseen。MysonwillbemorefortunatethanI;hewillbeagreatlord。Thescampwillwishmedead;Iexpectit,——orhewon’tbemyson。“
Herangthebell,andorderedtheservanttoservebreakfast。
“Thefashionableworldwouldn’tseeyouinyourmother’sbedroom,“
saidBixiou。“Whatwoulditcostyoutoseemtolovethatpoorwomanforafewhours?“
“Whew!“criedPhilippe,winking。“Soyoucomefromthem,doyou?I’manoldcamel,whoknowsallaboutgenuflections。MymothermakestheexcuseofherlastillnesstogetsomethingoutofmeforJoseph。No,thankyou!“
WhenBixiourelatedthisscenetoJoseph,thepoorpainterwaschilledtotheverysoul。
“DoesPhilippeknowIamill?“askedAgatheinapiteoustone,thedayafterBixiouhadrenderedanaccountofhisfruitlesserrand。
Josephlefttheroom,suffocatingwithemotion。TheAbbeLoraux,whowassittingbythebedsideofhispenitent,tookherhandandpressedit,andthenheanswered,“Alas!mychild,youhaveneverhadbutoneson。“
Thewords,whichAgatheunderstoodbuttoowell,conveyedashockwhichwasthebeginningoftheend。Shediedtwentyhourslater。
Inthedeliriumwhichprecededdeath,thewords,“WhomdoesPhilippetakeafter?“escapedher。
Josephfollowedhismothertothegravealone。Philippehadgone,onbusinessitwassaid,toOrleans;inreality,hewasdrivenfromParisbythefollowingletter,whichJosephwrotetohimamomentaftertheirmotherhadbreathedherlastsigh:——
Monster!mypoormotherhasdiedoftheshockyourlettercausedher。Wearmourning,butpretendillness;Iwillnotsufferherassassintostandatmysidebeforehercoffin。
JosephB。
Thepainter,whonolongerhadthehearttopaint,thoughhisbittergriefsorelyneededthemechanicaldistractionwhichlaboriswonttogive,wassurroundedbyfriendswhoagreedwithoneanothernevertoleavehimentirelyalone。ThusithappenedthatBixiou,wholovedJosephasmuchasasatiristcanloveanyone,wassittingintheatelierwithagroupofotherfriendsabouttwoweeksafterAgathe’sfuneral。Theservantenteredwithaletter,broughtbyanoldwoman,shesaid,whowaswaitingbelowfortheanswer。
Monsieur,——Toyou,whomIscarcelydaretocallmybrother,Iamforcedtoaddressmyself,ifonlyonaccountofthenameIbear——
Josephturnedthepageandreadthesignature。Thename“ComtesseFloredeBrambourg“madehimshudder。Heforesawsomenewatrocityonthepartofhisbrother。
“Thatbrigand,“hecried,“isthedevil’sown。Andhecallshimselfamanofhonor!Andhewearsalotofcrossesonhisbreast!Andhestrutsaboutatcourtinsteadofbeingbastinadoed!AndthescoundreliscalledMonsieurleComte!“
“Therearemanylikehim,“saidBixiou。
“Afterall,“saidJoseph,“theRabouilleusedeservesherfate,whateveritis。Sheisnotworthpitying;she’dhavehadmyneckwrunglikeachicken’swithoutsomuchassaying,’He’sinnocent。’“
Josephflungawaytheletter,butBixioucaughtitintheair,andreaditaloud,asfollows:——
IsitdecentthattheComtesseBridaudeBrambourgshoulddieinahospital,nomatterwhatmayhavebeenherfaults?Ifsuchistobemyfate,ifsuchisyourdeterminationandthatofmonsieurlecomte,sobeit;butifso,willyou,whoarethefriendofDoctorBianchon,askhimforapermittoletmeenterahospital?
ThepersonwhocarriesthisletterhasbeenelevenconsecutivedaystothehoteldeBrambourg,ruedeClichy,withoutgettinganyhelpfrommyhusband。ThepovertyinwhichInowampreventsmyemployingalawyertomakealegaldemandforwhatisduetome,thatImaydiewithdecency。Nothingcansaveme,Iknowthat。Incaseyouareunwillingtoseeyourunhappysister-in-law,sendme,atleast,themoneytoendmydays。Yourbrotherdesiresmydeath;
hehasalwaysdesiredit。Hewarnedmethatheknewthreewaysofkillingawoman,butIhadnotthesensetoforeseetheonehehasemployed。