Themorningwashot,andtheexerciseofreadinglefthermindcontractingandexpandinglikethemain-springofaclock,andthesmallnoisesofmidday,whichonecanascribetonodefinitecause,inaregularrhythm。Itwasallveryreal,verybig,veryimpersonal,andafteramomentortwoshebegantoraiseherfirstfingerandtoletitfallonthearmofherchairsoastobringbacktoherselfsomeconsciousnessofherownexistence。
Shewasnextovercomebytheunspeakablequeernessofthefactthatsheshouldbesittinginanarm-chair,inthemorning,inthemiddleoftheworld。Whowerethepeoplemovinginthehouse——
movingthingsfromoneplacetoanother?Andlife,whatwasthat?
Itwasonlyalightpassingoverthesurfaceandvanishing,asintimeshewouldvanish,thoughthefurnitureintheroomwouldremain。Herdissolutionbecamesocompletethatshecouldnotraiseherfingeranymore,andsatperfectlystill,listeningandlookingalwaysatthesamespot。Itbecamestrangerandstranger。Shewasovercomewithawethatthingsshouldexistatall……Sheforgotthatshehadanyfingerstoraise……Thethingsthatexistedweresoimmenseandsodesolate……Shecontinuedtobeconsciousofthesevastmassesofsubstanceforalongstretchoftime,theclockstilltickinginthemidstoftheuniversalsilence。
“Comein,“shesaidmechanically,forastringinherbrainseemedtobepulledbyapersistentknockingatthedoor。Withgreatslownessthedooropenedandatallhumanbeingcametowardsher,holdingoutherarmandsaying:
“WhatamItosaytothis?“
TheutterabsurdityofawomancomingintoaroomwithapieceofpaperinherhandamazedRachel。
“Idon’tknowwhattoanswer,orwhoTerenceHewetis,“Helencontinued,inthetonelessvoiceofaghost。SheputapaperbeforeRachelonwhichwerewrittentheincrediblewords:
DEARMRS。AMBROSE——IamgettingupapicnicfornextFriday,whenweproposetostartateleven-thirtyiftheweatherisfine,andtomaketheascentofMonteRosa。Itwilltakesometime,buttheviewshouldbemagnificent。ItwouldgivemegreatpleasureifyouandMissVinracewouldconsenttobeoftheparty——
Yourssincerely,TERENCEHEWET
Rachelreadthewordsaloudtomakeherselfbelieveinthem。
ForthesamereasonsheputherhandonHelen’sshoulder。
“Books——books——books,“saidHelen,inherabsent-mindedway。
“Morenewbooks——Iwonderwhatyoufindinthem……“
ForthesecondtimeRachelreadtheletter,buttoherself。
Thistime,insteadofseemingvagueasghosts,eachwordwasastonishinglyprominent;theycameoutasthetopsofmountainscomethroughamist。_Friday_——_eleven-thirty_——_Miss__Vinrace_。
Thebloodbegantoruninherveins;shefelthereyesbrighten。
“Wemustgo,“shesaid,rathersurprisingHelenbyherdecision。
“Wemustcertainlygo“——suchwasthereliefoffindingthatthingsstillhappened,andindeedtheyappearedthebrighterforthemistsurroundingthem。
“MonteRosa——that’sthemountainoverthere,isn’tit?“saidHelen;
“butHewet——who’she?OneoftheyoungmenRidleymet,Isuppose。
ShallIsayyes,then?Itmaybedreadfullydull。“
Shetooktheletterbackandwent,forthemessengerwaswaitingforheranswer。
ThepartywhichhadbeensuggestedafewnightsagoinMr。Hirst’sbedroomhadtakenshapeandwasthesourceofgreatsatisfactiontoMr。Hewet,whohadseldomusedhispracticalabilities,andwaspleasedtofindthemequaltothestrain。Hisinvitationshadbeenuniversallyaccepted,whichwasthemoreencouragingastheyhadbeenissuedagainstHirst’sadvicetopeoplewhowereverydull,notatallsuitedtoeachother,andsurenottocome。
“Undoubtedly,“hesaid,ashetwirledanduntwirledanotesignedHelenAmbrose,“thegiftsneededtomakeagreatcommanderhavebeenabsurdlyoverrated。Abouthalftheintellectualeffortwhichisneededtoreviewabookofmodernpoetryhasenabledmetogettogethersevenoreightpeople,ofoppositesexes,atthesamespotatthesamehouronthesameday。Whatelseisgeneralship,Hirst?WhatmoredidWellingtondoonthefieldofWaterloo?It’slikecountingthenumberofpebblesofapath,tediousbutnotdifficult。“
Hewassittinginhisbedroom,onelegoverthearmofthechair,andHirstwaswritingaletteropposite。Hirstwasquicktopointoutthatallthedifficultiesremained。
“Forinstance,herearetwowomenyou’veneverseen。Supposeoneofthemsuffersfrommountain-sickness,asmysisterdoes,andtheother——“
“Oh,thewomenareforyou,“Hewetinterrupted。“Iaskedthemsolelyforyourbenefit。Whatyouwant,Hirst,youknow,isthesocietyofyoungwomenofyourownage。Youdon’tknowhowtogetonwithwomen,whichisagreatdefect,consideringthathalftheworldconsistsofwomen。“
Hirstgroanedthathewasquiteawareofthat。
ButHewet’scomplacencywasalittlechilledashewalkedwithHirsttotheplacewhereageneralmeetinghadbeenappointed。
Hewonderedwhyonearthhehadaskedthesepeople,andwhatonereallyexpectedtogetfrombunchinghumanbeingsuptogether。
“Cows,“hereflected,“drawtogetherinafield;shipsinacalm;
andwe’rejustthesamewhenwe’venothingelsetodo。Butwhydowedoit?——isittopreventourselvesfromseeingtothebottomofthings“
hestoppedbyastreamandbeganstirringitwithhiswalking-stickandcloudingthewaterwithmud,“makingcitiesandmountainsandwholeuniversesoutofnothing,ordowereallyloveeachother,ordowe,ontheotherhand,liveinastateofperpetualuncertainty,knowingnothing,leapingfrommomenttomomentasfromworldtoworld?——
whichis,onthewhole,theview_I_inclineto。“
Hejumpedoverthestream;Hirstwentroundandjoinedhim,remarkingthathehadlongceasedtolookforthereasonofanyhumanaction。
Halfamilefurther,theycametoagroupofplanetreesandthesalmon-pinkfarmhousestandingbythestreamwhichhadbeenchosenasmeeting-place。Itwasashadyspot,lyingconvenientlyjustwherethehillsprungoutfromtheflat。Betweenthethinstemsoftheplanetreestheyoungmencouldseelittleknotsofdonkeyspasturing,andatallwomanrubbingthenoseofoneofthem,whileanotherwomanwaskneelingbythestreamlappingwateroutofherpalms。
Astheyenteredtheshadyplace,Helenlookedupandthenheldoutherhand。
“Imustintroducemyself,“shesaid。“IamMrs。Ambrose。“
Havingshakenhands,shesaid,“That’smyniece。“
Rachelapproachedawkwardly。Sheheldoutherhand,butwithdrewit。
“It’sallwet,“shesaid。
Scarcelyhadtheyspoken,whenthefirstcarriagedrewup。
Thedonkeyswerequicklyjerkedintoattention,andthesecondcarriagearrived。Bydegreesthegrovefilledwithpeople——
theElliots,theThornburys,Mr。VenningandSusan,MissAllan,EvelynMurgatroyd,andMr。Perrott。Mr。Hirstactedthepartofhoarseenergeticsheep-dog。BymeansofafewwordsofcausticLatinhehadtheanimalsmarshalled,andbyincliningasharpshoulderheliftedtheladies。“WhatHewetfailstounderstand,“heremarked,“isthatwemustbreakthebackoftheascentbeforemidday。“
Hewasassistingayounglady,bynameEvelynMurgatroyd,ashespoke。
Sheroselightasabubbletoherseat。Withafeatherdroopingfromabroad-brimmedhat,inwhitefromtoptotoe,shelookedlikeagallantladyofthetimeofCharlestheFirstleadingroyalisttroopsintoaction。
“Ridewithme,“shecommanded;and,assoonasHirsthadswunghimselfacrossamule,thetwostarted,leadingthecavalcade。
“You’renottocallmeMissMurgatroyd。Ihateit,“shesaid。
“Myname’sEvelyn。What’syours?“
“St。John,“hesaid。
“Ilikethat,“saidEvelyn。“Andwhat’syourfriend’sname?“
“HisinitialsbeingR。S。T。,wecallhimMonk,“saidHirst。
“Oh,you’realltooclever,“shesaid。“Whichway?“Pickmeabranch。
Let’scanter。“
Shegaveherdonkeyasharpcutwithaswitchandstartedforward。
ThefullandromanticcareerofEvelynMurgatroydisbesthitoffbyherownwords,“CallmeEvelynandI’llcallyouSt。John。“
Shesaidthatonveryslightprovocation——hersurnamewasenough——
butalthoughagreatmanyyoungmenhadansweredheralreadywithconsiderablespiritshewentonsayingitandmakingchoiceofnone。Butherdonkeystumbledtoajog-trot,andshehadtorideinadvancealone,forthepathwhenitbegantoascendoneofthespinesofthehillbecamenarrowandscatteredwithstones。
Thecavalcadewoundonlikeajointedcaterpillar,tuftedwiththewhiteparasolsoftheladies,andthepanamahatsofthegentlemen。
Atonepointwherethegroundrosesharply,EvelynM。jumpedoff,threwherreinstothenativeboy,andadjuredSt。JohnHirsttodismounttoo。Theirexamplewasfollowedbythosewhofelttheneedofstretching。
“Idon’tseeanyneedtogetoff,“saidMissAllantoMrs。Elliotjustbehindher,“consideringthedifficultyIhadgettingon。“
“Theselittledonkeysstandanything,_n’est-ce__pas_?“
Mrs。Elliotaddressedtheguide,whoobliginglybowedhishead。
“Flowers,“saidHelen,stoopingtopickthelovelylittlebrightflowerswhichgrewseparatelyhereandthere。“Youpinchtheirleavesandthentheysmell,“shesaid,layingoneonMissAllan’sknee。
“Haven’twemetbefore?“askedMissAllan,lookingather。
“Iwastakingitforgranted,“Helenlaughed,forintheconfusionofmeetingtheyhadnotbeenintroduced。
“Howsensible!“chirpedMrs。Elliot。“That’sjustwhatonewouldalwayslike——onlyunfortunatelyit’snotpossible。““Notpossible?“
saidHelen。“Everything’spossible。Whoknowswhatmayn’thappenbeforenight-fall?“shecontinued,mockingthepoorlady’stimidity,whodependedimplicitlyupononethingfollowinganotherthatthemereglimpseofaworldwheredinnercouldbedisregarded,orthetablemovedoneinchfromitsaccustomedplace,filledherwithfearsforherownstability。
Higherandhighertheywent,becomingseparatedfromtheworld。
Theworld,whentheyturnedtolookback,flatteneditselfout,andwasmarkedwithsquaresofthingreenandgrey。
“Townsareverysmall,“Rachelremarked,obscuringthewholeofSantaMarinaanditssuburbswithonehand。Theseafilledinalltheanglesofthecoastsmoothly,breakinginawhitefrill,andhereandthereshipsweresetfirmlyintheblue。Theseawasstainedwithpurpleandgreenblots,andtherewasaglitteringlineupontherimwhereitmetthesky。Theairwasveryclearandsilentsaveforthesharpnoiseofgrasshoppersandthehumofbees,whichsoundedloudintheearastheyshotpastandvanished。
Thepartyhaltedandsatforatimeinaquarryonthehillside。
“Amazinglyclear,“exclaimedSt。John,identifyingonecleftinthelandafteranother。
EvelynM。satbesidehim,proppingherchinonherhand。
Shesurveyedtheviewwithacertainlookoftriumph。
“D’youthinkGaribaldiwaseveruphere?“sheaskedMr。Hirst。
Oh,ifshehadbeenhisbride!If,insteadofapicnicparty,thiswasapartyofpatriots,andshe,red-shirtedliketherest,hadlainamonggrimmen,flatontheturf,aiminghergunatthewhiteturretsbeneaththem,screeninghereyestopiercethroughthesmoke!
Sothinking,herfootstirredrestlessly,andsheexclaimed:
“Idon’tcallthis_life_,doyou?“
“Whatdoyoucalllife?“saidSt。John。
“Fighting——revolution,“shesaid,stillgazingatthedoomedcity。
“Youonlycareforbooks,Iknow。“
“You’requitewrong,“saidSt。John。
“Explain,“sheurged,fortherewerenogunstobeaimedatbodies,andsheturnedtoanotherkindofwarfare。
“WhatdoIcarefor?People,“hesaid。
“Well,I_am_surprised!“sheexclaimed。“Youlooksoawfullyserious。
Dolet’sbefriendsandtelleachotherwhatwe’relike。Ihatebeingcautious,don’tyou?“
ButSt。Johnwasdecidedlycautious,asshecouldseebythesuddenconstrictionofhislips,andhadnointentionofrevealinghissoultoayounglady。“Theassiseatingmyhat,“heremarked,andstretchedoutforitinsteadofansweringher。EvelynblushedveryslightlyandthenturnedwithsomeimpetuosityuponMr。Perrott,andwhentheymountedagainitwasMr。Perrottwholiftedhertoherseat。
“Whenonehaslaidtheeggsoneeatstheomelette,“saidHughlingElliot,exquisitelyinFrench,ahinttotherestofthemthatitwastimetorideonagain。