“It’sinsolentto——“saidRachel,andstopped。Shedidnotknowexactlywhyshehadbeenmadesoangry。Withagreateffortshepulledherselftogether。
“Oh,well,“sheadded,thevisionofHelenandhermockerybeforeher,“IdaresayI’mafool。“Shemadeasthoughsheweregoingbackintotheballroom,butHewetstoppedher。
“Pleaseexplaintome,“hesaid。“IfeelsureHirstdidn’tmeantohurtyou。“
WhenRacheltriedtoexplain,shefounditverydifficult。
Shecouldnotsaythatshefoundthevisionofherselfwalkinginacrocodilewithherhairdownherbackpeculiarlyunjustandhorrible,norcouldsheexplainwhyHirst’sassumptionofthesuperiorityofhisnatureandexperiencehadseemedtohernotonlygallingbutterrible——asifagatehadclangedinherface。
PacingupanddowntheterracebesideHewetshesaidbitterly:
“It’snogood;weshouldliveseparate;wecannotunderstandeachother;
weonlybringoutwhat’sworst。“
Hewetbrushedasidehergeneralisationastothenaturesofthetwosexes,forsuchgeneralisationsboredhimandseemedtohimgenerallyuntrue。But,knowingHirst,heguessedfairlyaccuratelywhathadhappened,and,thoughsecretlymuchamused,wasdeterminedthatRachelshouldnotstoretheincidentawayinhermindtotakeitsplaceintheviewshehadoflife。
“Nowyou’llhatehim,“hesaid,“whichiswrong。PooroldHirst——
hecan’thelphismethod。Andreally,MissVinrace,hewasdoinghisbest;
hewaspayingyouacompliment——hewastrying——hewastrying——“
hecouldnotfinishforthelaughterthatovercamehim。
Rachelveeredroundsuddenlyandlaughedouttoo。ShesawthattherewassomethingridiculousaboutHirst,andperhapsaboutherself。
“It’shiswayofmakingfriends,Isuppose,“shelaughed。“Well——I
shalldomypart。Ishallbegin——’Uglyinbody,repulsiveinmindasyouare,Mr。Hirst——“
“Hear,hear!“criedHewet。“That’sthewaytotreathim。Yousee,MissVinrace,youmustmakeallowancesforHirst。He’slivedallhislifeinfrontofalooking-glass,sotospeak,inabeautifulpanelledroom,hungwithJapaneseprintsandlovelyoldchairsandtables,justonesplashofcolour,youknow,intherightplace,——
betweenthewindowsIthinkitis,——andtherehesitshourafterhourwithhistoesonthefender,talkingaboutphilosophyandGodandhisliverandhisheartandtheheartsofhisfriends。
They’reallbroken。Youcan’texpecthimtobeathisbestinaballroom。Hewantsacosy,smoky,masculineplace,wherehecanstretchhislegsout,andonlyspeakwhenhe’sgotsomethingtosay。
Formyself,Ifinditratherdreary。ButIdorespectit。
They’reallsomuchinearnest。Theydotaketheseriousthingsveryseriously。“
ThedescriptionofHirst’swayoflifeinterestedRachelsomuchthatshealmostforgotherprivategrudgeagainsthim,andherrespectrevived。
“Theyarereallyverycleverthen?“sheasked。
“Ofcoursetheyare。SofarasbrainsgoIthinkit’struewhathesaidtheotherday;they’rethecleverestpeopleinEngland。But——
yououghttotakehiminhand,“headded。“There’sagreatdealmoreinhimthan’severbeengotat。Hewantssomeonetolaughathim……TheideaofHirsttellingyouthatyou’vehadnoexperiences!
PooroldHirst!“
Theyhadbeenpacingupanddowntheterracewhiletheytalked,andnowonebyonethedarkwindowswereuncurtainedbyaninvisiblehand,andpanesoflightfellregularlyatequalintervalsuponthegrass。
Theystoppedtolookinatthedrawing-room,andperceivedMr。Pepperwritingaloneatatable。
“There’sPepperwritingtohisaunt,“saidHewet。“Shemustbeaveryremarkableoldlady,eighty-fivehetellsme,andhetakesherforwalkingtoursintheNewForest……Pepper!“
hecried,rappingonthewindow。“Goanddoyourduty。MissAllanexpectsyou。“
Whentheycametothewindowsoftheballroom,theswingofthedancersandtheliltofthemusicwasirresistible。
“Shallwe?“saidHewet,andtheyclaspedhandsandsweptoffmagnificentlyintothegreatswirlingpool。Althoughthiswasonlythesecondtimetheyhadmet,thefirsttimetheyhadseenamanandwomankissingeachother,andthesecondtimeMr。Hewethadfoundthatayoungwomanangryisverylikeachild。Sothatwhentheyjoinedhandsinthedancetheyfeltmoreattheireasethanisusual。
Itwasmidnightandthedancewasnowatitsheight。Servantswerepeepinginatthewindows;thegardenwassprinkledwiththewhiteshapesofcouplessittingout。Mrs。ThornburyandMrs。Elliotsatsidebysideunderapalmtree,holdingfans,handkerchiefs,andbroochesdepositedintheirlapsbyflushedmaidens。
Occasionallytheyexchangedcomments。
“MissWarrington_does_lookhappy,“saidMrs。Elliot;theybothsmiled;
theybothsighed。
“Hehasagreatdealofcharacter,“saidMrs。Thornbury,alludingtoArthur。
“Andcharacteriswhatonewants,“saidMrs。Elliot。“Nowthatyoungmanis_clever_enough,“sheadded,noddingatHirst,whocamepastwithMissAllanonhisarm。
“Hedoesnotlookstrong,“saidMrs。Thornbury。“Hiscomplexionisnotgood——ShallItearitoff?“sheasked,forRachelhadstopped,consciousofalongstriptrailingbehindher。
“Ihopeyouareenjoyingyourselves?“Hewetaskedtheladies。
“Thisisaveryfamiliarpositionforme!“smiledMrs。Thornbury。
“Ihavebroughtoutfivedaughters——andtheyallloveddancing!
Youloveittoo,MissVinrace?“sheasked,lookingatRachelwithmaternaleyes。“IknowIdidwhenIwasyourage。HowIusedtobegmymothertoletmestay——andnowIsympathisewiththepoormothers——
butIsympathisewiththedaughterstoo!“
Shesmiledsympathetically,andatthesametimeratherkeenly,atRachel。
“Theyseemtofindagreatdealtosaytoeachother,“saidMrs。Elliot,lookingsignificantlyatthebacksofthecoupleastheyturnedaway。
“Didyounoticeatthepicnic?Hewastheonlypersonwhocouldmakeherutter。“
“Herfatherisaveryinterestingman,“saidMrs。Thornbury。
“HehasoneofthelargestshippingbusinessesinHull。Hemadeaveryablereply,youremember,toMr。Asquithatthelastelection。
ItissointerestingtofindthatamanofhisexperienceisastrongProtectionist。“
Shewouldhavelikedtodiscusspolitics,whichinterestedhermorethanpersonalities,butMrs。ElliotwouldonlytalkabouttheEmpireinalessabstractform。
“IheartherearedreadfulaccountsfromEnglandabouttherats,“
shesaid。“Asister-in-law,wholivesatNorwich,tellsmeithasbeenquiteunsafetoorderpoultry。Theplague——yousee。
Itattackstherats,andthroughthemothercreatures。“
“Andthelocalauthoritiesarenottakingpropersteps?“
askedMrs。Thornbury。
“Thatshedoesnotsay。Butshedescribestheattitudeoftheeducatedpeople——whoshouldknowbetter——ascallousintheextreme。
Ofcourse,mysister-in-lawisoneofthoseactivemodernwomen,whoalwaystakesthingsup,youknow——thekindofwomanoneadmires,thoughonedoesnotfeel,atleastIdonotfeel——butthenshehasaconstitutionofiron。“
Mrs。Elliot,broughtbacktotheconsiderationofherowndelicacy,heresighed。
“Averyanimatedface,“saidMrs。Thornbury,lookingatEvelynM。whohadstoppednearthemtopintightascarletfloweratherbreast。
Itwouldnotstay,and,withaspiritedgestureofimpatience,shethrustitintoherpartner’sbutton-hole。Hewasatallmelancholyyouth,whoreceivedthegiftasaknightmightreceivehislady’stoken。
“Verytryingtotheeyes,“wasMrs。Eliot’snextremark,afterwatchingtheyellowwhirlinwhichsofewofthewhirlershadeithernameorcharacterforher,forafewminutes。Burstingoutofthecrowd,Helenapproachedthem,andtookavacantchair。
“MayIsitbyyou?“shesaid,smilingandbreathingfast。
“IsupposeIoughttobeashamedofmyself,“shewenton,sittingdown,“atmyage。“
Herbeauty,nowthatshewasflushedandanimated,wasmoreexpansivethanusual,andboththeladiesfeltthesamedesiretotouchher。
“I_am_enjoyingmyself,“shepanted。“Movement——isn’titamazing?“
“Ihavealwaysheardthatnothingcomesuptodancingifoneisagooddancer,“saidMrs。Thornbury,lookingatherwithasmile。
Helenswayedslightlyasifshesatonwires。
“Icoulddanceforever!“shesaid。“Theyoughttoletthemselvesgomore!“sheexclaimed。“Theyoughttoleapandswing。Look!
Howtheymince!“
“HaveyouseenthosewonderfulRussiandancers?“beganMrs。Elliot。
ButHelensawherpartnercomingandroseasthemoonrises。
Shewashalfroundtheroombeforetheytooktheireyesoffher,fortheycouldnothelpadmiringher,althoughtheythoughtitalittleoddthatawomanofherageshouldenjoydancing。
DirectlyHelenwasleftaloneforaminuteshewasjoinedbySt。JohnHirst,whohadbeenwatchingforanopportunity。
“Shouldyoumindsittingoutwithme?“heasked。“I’mquiteincapableofdancing。“HepilotedHelentoacornerwhichwassuppliedwithtwoarm-chairs,andthusenjoyedtheadvantageofsemi-privacy。Theysatdown,andforafewminutesHelenwastoomuchundertheinfluenceofdancingtospeak。
“Astonishing!“sheexclaimedatlast。“Whatsortofshapecanshethinkherbodyis?“Thisremarkwascalledforthbyaladywhocamepastthem,waddlingratherthanwalking,andleaningonthearmofastoutmanwithglobulargreeneyessetinafatwhiteface。Somesupportwasnecessary,forshewasverystout,andsocompressedthattheupperpartofherbodyhungconsiderablyinadvanceofherfeet,whichcouldonlytripintinysteps,owingtothetightnessoftheskirtroundherankles。
Thedressitselfconsistedofasmallpieceofshinyyellowsatin,adornedhereandthereindiscriminatelywithroundshieldsofblueandgreenbeadsmadetoimitatehuesofapeacock’sbreast。
Onthesummitofafrothycastleofhairapurpleplumestooderect,whilehershortneckwasencircledbyablackvelvetribbonknobbedwithgems,andgoldenbraceletsweretightlywedgedintothefleshofherfatglovedarms。Shehadthefaceofanimpertinentbutjollylittlepig,mottledredunderadustingofpowder。
St。JohncouldnotjoininHelen’slaughter。
“Itmakesmesick,“hedeclared。“Thewholethingmakesmesick……Considerthemindsofthosepeople——theirfeelings。
Don’tyouagree?“
“Ialwaysmakeavownevertogotoanotherpartyofanydescription,“
Helenreplied,“andIalwaysbreakit。“
Sheleantbackinherchairandlookedlaughinglyattheyoungman。
Shecouldseethathewasgenuinelycross,ifatthesametimeslightlyexcited。
“However,“hesaid,resuminghisjauntytone,“Isupposeonemustjustmakeupone’smindtoit。“
“Towhat?“
“Thereneverwillbemorethanfivepeopleintheworldworthtalkingto。“
SlowlytheflushandsparkleinHelen’sfacediedaway,andshelookedasquietandasobservantasusual。
“Fivepeople?“sheremarked。“Ishouldsaythereweremorethanfive。“
“You’vebeenveryfortunate,then,“saidHirst。“OrperhapsI’vebeenveryunfortunate。“Hebecamesilent。
“ShouldyousayIwasadifficultkindofpersontogetonwith?“
heaskedsharply。
“Mostcleverpeoplearewhenthey’reyoung,“Helenreplied。
“AndofcourseIam——immenselyclever,“saidHirst。“I’minfinitelyclevererthanHewet。It’squitepossible,“hecontinuedinhiscuriouslyimpersonalmanner,“thatI’mgoingtobeoneofthepeoplewhoreallymatter。That’sutterlydifferentfrombeingclever,thoughonecan’texpectone’sfamilytoseeit,“headdedbitterly。
Helenthoughtherselfjustifiedinasking,“Doyoufindyourfamilydifficulttogetonwith?“