Alreadyhermindwasbusywithbenevolentplansforherfriends,orratherwithonemagnificentplan——whichwassimpletoo——
theywerealltogetmarried——atonce——directlyshegotback。
Marriage,marriagethatwastherightthing,theonlything,thesolutionrequiredbyeveryonesheknew,andagreatpartofhermeditationswasspentintracingeveryinstanceofdiscomfort,loneliness,ill-health,unsatisfiedambition,restlessness,eccentricity,takingthingsupanddroppingthemagain,publicspeaking,andphilanthropicactivityonthepartofmenandparticularlyonthepartofwomentothefactthattheywantedtomarry,weretryingtomarry,andhadnotsucceededingettingmarried。
If,asshewasboundtoown,thesesymptomssometimespersistedaftermarriage,shecouldonlyascribethemtotheunhappylawofnaturewhichdecreedthattherewasonlyoneArthurVenning,andonlyoneSusanwhocouldmarryhim。Hertheory,ofcourse,hadthemeritofbeingfullysupportedbyherowncase。Shehadbeenvaguelyuncomfortableathomefortwoorthreeyearsnow,andavoyagelikethiswithherselfisholdaunt,whopaidherfarebuttreatedherasservantandcompanioninone,wastypicalofthekindofthingpeopleexpectedofher。Directlyshebecameengaged,Mrs。Paleybehavedwithinstinctiverespect,positivelyprotestedwhenSusanasusualkneltdowntolacehershoes,andappearedreallygratefulforanhourofSusan’scompanywhereshehadbeenusedtoexacttwoorthreeasherright。Shethereforeforesawalifeoffargreatercomfortthanshehadbeenusedto,andthechangehadalreadyproducedagreatincreaseofwarmthinherfeelingstowardsotherpeople。
ItwascloseontwentyyearsnowsinceMrs。Paleyhadbeenabletolaceherownshoesoreventoseethem,thedisappearanceofherfeethavingcoincidedmoreorlessaccuratelywiththedeathofherhusband,amanofbusiness,soonafterwhicheventMrs。Paleybegantogrowstout。Shewasaselfish,independentoldwoman,possessedofaconsiderableincome,whichshespentupontheupkeepofahousethatneededsevenservantsandacharwomaninLancasterGate,andanotherwithagardenandcarriage-horsesinSurrey。
Susan’sengagementrelievedheroftheonegreatanxietyofherlife——
thathersonChristophershould“entanglehimself“withhiscousin。
Nowthatthisfamiliarsourceofinterestwasremoved,shefeltalittlelowandinclinedtoseemoreinSusanthansheusedto。
Shehaddecidedtogiveheraveryhandsomeweddingpresent,achequefortwohundred,twohundredandfifty,orpossibly,conceivably——
itdependedupontheunder-gardenerandHuths’billfordoingupthedrawing-room——threehundredpoundssterling。
Shewasthinkingofthisveryquestion,revolvingthefigures,asshesatinherwheeledchairwithatablespreadwithcardsbyherside。ThePatiencehadsomehowgotintoamuddle,andshedidnotliketocallforSusantohelpher,asSusanseemedtobebusywithArthur。
“She’severyrighttoexpectahandsomepresentfromme,ofcourse,“
shethought,lookingvaguelyattheleopardonitshindlegs,“andI’venodoubtshedoes!Moneygoesalongwaywitheveryone。
Theyoungareveryselfish。IfIweretodie,nobodywouldmissmebutDakyns,andshe’llbeconsoledbythewill!However,I’vegotnoreasontocomplain……Icanstillenjoymyself。I’mnotaburdentoany-one……Ilikeagreatmanythingsagooddeal,inspiteofmylegs。“
Beingslightlydepressed,however,shewentontothinkoftheonlypeopleshehadknownwhohadnotseemedtoheratallselfishorfondofmoney,whohadseemedtohersomehowratherfinerthanthegeneralrun;peopleshewillinglyacknowledged,whowerefinerthanshewas。Therewereonlytwoofthem。Onewasherbrother,whohadbeendrownedbeforehereyes,theotherwasagirl,hergreatestfriend,whohaddiedingivingbirthtoherfirstchild。
Thesethingshadhappenedsomefiftyyearsago。
“Theyoughtnottohavedied,“shethought。“However,theydid——
andweselfisholdcreaturesgoon。“Thetearscametohereyes;
shefeltagenuineregretforthem,akindofrespectfortheiryouthandbeauty,andakindofshameforherself;butthetearsdidnotfall;
andsheopenedoneofthoseinnumerablenovelswhichsheusedtopronouncegoodorbad,orprettymiddling,orreallywonderful。
“Ican’tthinkhowpeoplecometoimaginesuchthings,“shewouldsay,takingoffherspectaclesandlookingupwiththeoldfadedeyes,thatwerebecomingringedwithwhite。
JustbehindthestuffedleopardMr。ElliotwasplayingchesswithMr。Pepper。Hewasbeingdefeated,naturally,forMr。Pepperscarcelytookhiseyesofftheboard,andMr。Elliotkeptleaningbackinhischairandthrowingoutremarkstoagentlemanwhohadonlyarrivedthenightbefore,atallhandsomeman,withaheadresemblingtheheadofanintellectualram。Afterafewremarksofageneralnaturehadpassed,theywerediscoveringthattheyknewsomeofthesamepeople,asindeedhadbeenobviousfromtheirappearancedirectlytheysaweachother。
“Ahyes,oldTruefit,“saidMr。Elliot。“HehasasonatOxford。
I’veoftenstayedwiththem。It’salovelyoldJacobeanhouse。
SomeexquisiteGreuzes——oneortwoDutchpictureswhichtheoldboykeptinthecellars。Thentherewerestacksuponstacksofprints。Oh,thedirtinthathouse!Hewasamiser,youknow。
TheboymarriedadaughterofLordPinwells。Iknowthemtoo。
Thecollectingmaniatendstoruninfamilies。Thischapcollectsbuckles——men’sshoe-bucklestheymustbe,inusebetweentheyears1580and1660;thedatesmayn’tberight,butfact’sasIsay。
Yourtruecollectoralwayshassomeunaccountablefadofthatkind。
Onotherpointshe’saslevel-headedasabreederofshorthorns,whichiswhathehappenstobe。ThenthePinwells,asyouprobablyknow,havetheirshareofeccentricitytoo。LadyMaud,forinstance——“
hewasinterruptedherebythenecessityofconsideringhismove,——“LadyMaudhasahorrorofcatsandclergymen,andpeoplewithbigfrontteeth。I’veheardhershoutacrossatable,’Keepyourmouthshut,MissSmith;they’reasyellowascarrots!’
acrossatable,mindyou。Tomeshe’salwaysbeencivilityitself。
Shedabblesinliterature,likestocollectafewofusinherdrawing-room,butmentionaclergyman,abishopeven,nay,theArchbishophimself,andshegobbleslikeaturkey-cock。I’vebeentoldit’safamilyfeud——somethingtodowithanancestorinthereignofCharlestheFirst。Yes,“hecontinued,sufferingcheckaftercheck,“Ialwaysliketoknowsomethingofthegrandmothersofourfashionableyoungmen。Inmyopiniontheypreserveallthatweadmireintheeighteenthcentury,withtheadvantage,inthemajorityofcases,thattheyarepersonallyclean。NotthatonewouldinsultoldLadyBarboroughbycallingherclean。Howoftend’youthink,Hilda,“hecalledouttohiswife,“herladyshiptakesabath?“
“Ishouldhardlyliketosay,Hugh,“Mrs。Elliottittered,“butwearingpucevelvet,asshedoesevenonthehottestAugustday,itsomehowdoesn’tshow。“
“Pepper,youhaveme,“saidMr。Elliot。“MychessisevenworsethanIremembered。“Heacceptedhisdefeatwithgreatequanimity,becausehereallywishedtotalk。
HedrewhischairbesideMr。WilfridFlushing,thenewcomer。
“Aretheseatallinyourline?“heasked,pointingatacaseinfrontofthem,wherehighlypolishedcrosses,jewels,andbitsofembroidery,theworkofthenatives,weredisplayedtotemptvisitors。
“Shams,allofthem,“saidMr。Flushingbriefly。“Thisrug,now,isn’tatallbad。“Hestoppedandpickedupapieceoftherugattheirfeet。“Notold,ofcourse,butthedesignisquiteintherighttradition。Alice,lendmeyourbrooch。
Seethedifferencebetweentheoldworkandthenew。“
Alady,whowasreadingwithgreatconcentration,unfastenedherbroochandgaveittoherhusbandwithoutlookingathimoracknowledgingthetentativebowwhichMr。Elliotwasdesirousofgivingher。
Ifshehadlistened,shemighthavebeenamusedbythereferencetooldLadyBarborough,hergreat-aunt,but,obliviousofhersurroundings,shewentonreading。
Theclock,whichhadbeenwheezingforsomeminuteslikeanoldmanpreparingtocough,nowstrucknine。Thesoundslightlydisturbedcertainsomnolentmerchants,governmentofficials,andmenofindependentmeanswhowerelyingbackintheirchairs,chatting,smoking,ruminatingabouttheiraffairs,withtheireyeshalfshut;theyraisedtheirlidsforaninstantatthesoundandthenclosedthemagain。Theyhadtheappearanceofcrocodilessofullygorgedbytheirlastmealthatthefutureoftheworldgivesthemnoanxietywhatever。Theonlydisturbanceintheplacidbrightroomwascausedbyalargemothwhichshotfromlighttolight,whizzingoverelaborateheadsofhair,andcausingseveralyoungwomentoraisetheirhandsnervouslyandexclaim,“Someoneoughttokillit!“
Absorbedintheirownthoughts,HewetandHirsthadnotspokenforalongtime。
Whentheclockstruck,Hirstsaid:
“Ah,thecreaturesbegintostir……“Hewatchedthemraisethemselves,lookaboutthem,andsettledownagain。
“WhatIabhormostofall,“heconcluded,“isthefemalebreast。
ImaginebeingVenningandhavingtogetintobedwithSusan!
Butthereallyrepulsivethingisthattheyfeelnothingatall——
aboutwhatIdowhenIhaveahotbath。They’regross,they’reabsurd,they’reutterlyintolerable!“
Sosaying,anddrawingnoreplyfromHewet,heproceededtothinkabouthimself,aboutscience,aboutCambridge,abouttheBar,aboutHelenandwhatshethoughtofhim,until,beingverytired,hewasnoddingofftosleep。
SuddenlyHewetwokehimup。
“Howd’youknowwhatyoufeel,Hirst?“
“Areyouinlove?“askedHirst。Heputinhiseyeglass。
“Don’tbeafool,“saidHewet。
“Well,I’llsitdownandthinkaboutit,“saidHirst。“Onereallyoughtto。Ifthesepeoplewouldonlythinkaboutthings,theworldwouldbeafarbetterplaceforusalltolivein。
Areyoutryingtothink?“
ThatwasexactlywhatHewethadbeendoingforthelasthalf-hour,buthedidnotfindHirstsympatheticatthemoment。
“Ishallgoforawalk,“hesaid。
“Rememberweweren’tinbedlastnight,“saidHirstwithaprodigiousyawn。
Hewetroseandstretchedhimself。
“Iwanttogoandgetabreathofair,“hesaid。
Anunusualfeelinghadbeenbotheringhimalltheeveningandforbiddinghimtosettleintoanyonetrainofthought。Itwaspreciselyasifhehadbeeninthemiddleofatalkwhichinterestedhimprofoundlywhensomeonecameupandinterruptedhim。Hecouldnotfinishthetalk,andthelongerhesattherethemorehewantedtofinishit。
AsthetalkthathadbeeninterruptedwasatalkwithRachel,hehadtoaskhimselfwhyhefeltthis,andwhyhewantedtogoontalkingtoher。Hirstwouldmerelysaythathewasinlovewithher。
Buthewasnotinlovewithher。Didlovebegininthatway,withthewishtogoontalking?No。Italwaysbeganinhiscasewithdefinitephysicalsensations,andthesewerenowabsent,hedidnotevenfindherphysicallyattractive。Therewassomething,ofcourse,unusualabouther——shewasyoung,inexperienced,andinquisitive,theyhadbeenmoreopenwitheachotherthanwasusuallypossible。
Healwaysfoundgirlsinterestingtotalkto,andsurelytheseweregoodreasonswhyheshouldwishtogoontalkingtoher;
andlastnight,whatwiththecrowdandtheconfusion,hehadonlybeenabletobegintotalktoher。Whatwasshedoingnow?
Lyingonasofaandlookingattheceiling,perhaps。Hecouldimagineherdoingthat,andHeleninanarm-chair,withherhandsonthearmofit,so——lookingaheadofher,withhergreatbigeyes——
ohno,they’dbetalking,ofcourse,aboutthedance。ButsupposeRachelwasgoingawayinadayortwo,supposethiswastheendofhervisit,andherfatherhadarrivedinoneofthesteamersanchoredinthebay,——itwasintolerabletoknowsolittle。
Thereforeheexclaimed,“Howd’youknowwhatyoufeel,Hirst?“tostophimselffromthinking。