Fromtheirfacesitseemedthatforthemostparttheymadenoeffortatall,and,recumbentasitwere,acceptedtheideasthewordsgaveasrepresentinggoodness,inthesameway,nodoubt,asoneofthoseindustriousneedlewomenhadacceptedthebrightuglypatternonhermatasbeauty。
  Whateverthereasonmightbe,forthefirsttimeinherlife,insteadofslippingatonceintosomecuriouspleasantcloudofemotion,toofamiliartobeconsidered,Rachellistenedcriticallytowhatwasbeingsaid。Bythetimetheyhadswunginanirregularwayfromprayertopsalm,frompsalmtohistory,fromhistorytopoetry,andMr。Baxwasgivingouthistext,shewasinastateofacutediscomfort。Suchwasthediscomfortshefeltwhenforcedtositthroughanunsatisfactorypieceofmusicbadlyplayed。
  Tantalised,enragedbytheclumsyinsensitivenessoftheconductor,whoputthestressonthewrongplaces,andannoyedbythevastflockoftheaudiencetamelypraisingandacquiescingwithoutknowingorcaring,soshewasnottantalizedandenraged,onlyhere,witheyeshalf-shutandlipspursedtogether,theatmosphereofforcedsolemnityincreasedheranger。Allroundherwerepeoplepretendingtofeelwhattheydidnotfeel,whilesomewhereaboveherfloatedtheideawhichtheycouldnoneofthemgrasp,whichtheypretendedtograsp,alwaysescapingoutofreach,abeautifulidea,anidealikeabutterfly。Oneafteranother,vastandhardandcold,appearedtoherthechurchesallovertheworldwherethisblunderingeffortandmisunderstandingwereperpetuallygoingon,greatbuildings,filledwithinnumerablemenandwomen,notseeingclearly,whofinallygaveuptheefforttosee,andrelapsedtamelyintopraiseandacquiescence,half-shuttingtheireyesandpursinguptheirlips。
  Thethoughthadthesamesortofphysicaldiscomfortasiscausedbyafilmofmistalwayscomingbetweentheeyesandtheprintedpage。
  Shedidherbesttobrushawaythefilmandtoconceivesomethingtobeworshippedastheservicewenton,butfailed,alwaysmisledbythevoiceofMr。Baxsayingthingswhichmisrepresentedtheidea,andbythepatterofbaainginexpressivehumanvoicesfallingroundherlikedampleaves。Theeffortwastiringanddispiriting。
  Sheceasedtolisten,andfixedhereyesonthefaceofawomannearher,ahospitalnurse,whoseexpressionofdevoutattentionseemedtoprovethatshewasatanyratereceivingsatisfaction。
  Butlookingathercarefullyshecametotheconclusionthatthehospitalnursewasonlyslavishlyacquiescent,andthatthelookofsatisfactionwasproducedbynosplendidconceptionofGodwithinher。
  Howindeed,couldsheconceiveanythingfaroutsideherownexperience,awomanwithacommonplacefacelikehers,alittleroundredface,uponwhichtrivialdutiesandtrivialspiteshaddrawnlines,whoseweakblueeyessawwithoutintensityorindividuality,whosefeatureswereblurred,insensitive,andcallous?Shewasadoringsomethingshallowandsmug,clingingtoit,sotheobstinatemouthwitnessed,withtheassiduityofalimpet;nothingwouldtearherfromherdemurebeliefinherownvirtueandthevirtuesofherreligion。
  Shewasalimpet,withthesensitivesideofherstucktoarock,foreverdeadtotherushoffreshandbeautifulthingspasther。
  ThefaceofthissingleworshipperbecameprintedonRachel’smindwithanimpressionofkeenhorror,andshehaditsuddenlyrevealedtoherwhatHelenmeantandSt。JohnmeantwhentheyproclaimedtheirhatredofChristianity。Withtheviolencethatnowmarkedherfeelings,sherejectedallthatshehadimplicitlybelieved。
  MeanwhileMr。Baxwashalf-waythroughthesecondlesson。
  Shelookedathim。Hewasamanoftheworldwithsupplelipsandanagreeablemanner,hewasindeedamanofmuchkindlinessandsimplicity,thoughbynomeansclever,butshewasnotinthemoodtogiveanyonecreditforsuchqualities,andexaminedhimasthoughhewereanepitomeofallthevicesofhisservice。
  RightatthebackofthechapelMrs。Flushing,Hirst,andHewetsatinarowinaverydifferentframeofmind。Hewetwasstaringattheroofwithhislegsstuckoutinfrontofhim,forashehadnevertriedtomaketheservicefitanyfeelingorideaofhis,hewasabletoenjoythebeautyofthelanguagewithouthindrance。
  Hismindwasoccupiedfirstwithaccidentalthings,suchasthewomen’shairinfrontofhim,thelightonthefaces,thenwiththewordswhichseemedtohimmagnificent,andthenmorevaguelywiththecharactersoftheotherworshippers。ButwhenhesuddenlyperceivedRachel,allthesethoughtsweredrivenoutofhishead,andhethoughtonlyofher。Thepsalms,theprayers,theLitany,andthesermonwereallreducedtoonechantingsoundwhichpaused,andthenreneweditself,alittlehigheroralittlelower。
  HestaredalternatelyatRachelandattheceiling,buthisexpressionwasnowproducednotbywhathesawbutbysomethinginhismind。
  Hewasalmostaspainfullydisturbedbyhisthoughtsasshewasbyhers。
  EarlyintheserviceMrs。FlushinghaddiscoveredthatshehadtakenupaBibleinsteadofaprayer-book,and,asshewassittingnexttoHirst,shestoleaglanceoverhisshoulder。Hewasreadingsteadilyinthethinpale-bluevolume。Unabletounderstand,shepeeredcloser,uponwhichHirstpolitelylaidthebookbeforeher,pointingtothefirstlineofaGreekpoemandthentothetranslationopposite。
  “What’sthat?“shewhisperedinquisitively。
  “Sappho,“hereplied。“TheoneSwinburnedid——thebestthingthat’severbeenwritten。“
  Mrs。Flushingcouldnotresistsuchanopportunity。ShegulpeddowntheOdetoAphroditeduringtheLitany,keepingherselfwithdifficultyfromaskingwhenSappholived,andwhatelseshewroteworthreading,andcontrivingtocomeinpunctuallyattheendwith“theforgivenessofsins,theResurrectionofthebody,andthelifeeverlastin’。Amen。“
  MeanwhileHirsttookoutanenvelopeandbeganscribblingonthebackofit。WhenMr。BaxmountedthepulpitheshutupSapphowithhisenvelopebetweenthepages,settledhisspectacles,andfixedhisgazeintentlyupontheclergyman。Standinginthepulpithelookedverylargeandfat;thelightcomingthroughthegreenishunstainedwindow-glassmadehisfaceappearsmoothandwhitelikeaverylargeegg。
  Helookedroundatallthefaceslookingmildlyupathim,althoughsomeofthemwerethefacesofmenandwomenoldenoughtobehisgrandparents,andgaveouthistextwithweightysignificance。
  Theargumentofthesermonwasthatvisitorstothisbeautifulland,althoughtheywereonaholiday,owedadutytothenatives。
  Itdidnot,intruth,differverymuchfromaleadingarticleupontopicsofgeneralinterestintheweeklynewspapers。Itrambledwithakindofamiableverbosityfromoneheadingtoanother,suggestingthatallhumanbeingsareverymuchthesameundertheirskins,illustratingthisbytheresemblanceofthegameswhichlittleSpanishboysplaytothegameslittleboysinLondonstreetsplay,observingthatverysmallthingsdoinfluencepeople,particularlynatives;infact,averydearfriendofMr。Bax’shadtoldhimthatthesuccessofourruleinIndia,thatvastcountry,largelydependeduponthestrictcodeofpolitenesswhichtheEnglishadoptedtowardsthenatives,whichledtotheremarkthatsmallthingswerenotnecessarilysmall,andthatsomehowtothevirtueofsympathy,whichwasavirtuenevermoreneededthanto-day,whenwelivedinatimeofexperimentandupheaval——
  witnesstheaeroplaneandwirelesstelegraph,andtherewereotherproblemswhichhardlypresentedthemselvestoourfathers,butwhichnomanwhocalledhimselfamancouldleaveunsettled。
  HereMr。Baxbecamemoredefinitelyclerical,ifitwerepossible,heseemedtospeakwithacertaininnocentcraftiness,ashepointedoutthatallthislaidaspecialdutyuponearnestChristians。
  Whatmenwereinclinedtosaynowwas,“Oh,thatfellow——he’saparson。“
  Whatwewantthemtosayis,“He’sagoodfellow“——inotherwords,“Heismybrother。“Heexhortedthemtokeepintouchwithmenofthemoderntype;theymustsympathisewiththeirmultifariousinterestsinordertokeepbeforetheireyesthatwhateverdiscoveriesweremadetherewasonediscoverywhichcouldnotbesuperseded,whichwasindeedasmuchofanecessitytothemostsuccessfulandmostbrilliantofthemallasithadbeentotheirfathers。
  Thehumblestcouldhelp;theleastimportantthingshadaninfluenceherehismannerbecamedefinitelypriestlyandhisremarksseemedtobedirectedtowomen,forindeedMr。Bax’scongregationsweremainlycomposedofwomen,andhewasusedtoassigningthemtheirdutiesinhisinnocentclericalcampaigns。Leavingmoredefiniteinstruction,hepassedon,andhisthemebroadenedintoaperorationforwhichhedrewalongbreathandstoodveryupright,——“Asadropofwater,detached,alone,separatefromothers,fallingfromthecloudandenteringthegreatocean,alters,soscientiststellus,notonlytheimmediatespotintheoceanwhereitfalls,butallthemyriaddropswhichtogethercomposethegreatuniverseofwaters,andbythismeansalterstheconfigurationoftheglobeandthelivesofmillionsofseacreatures,andfinallythelivesofthemenandwomenwhoseektheirlivingupontheshores——
  asallthisiswithinthecompassofasingledropofwater,suchasanyrainshowersendsinmillionstolosethemselvesintheearth,tolosethemselveswesay,butweknowverywellthatthefruitsoftheearthcouldnotflourishwithoutthem——
  soisamarvelcomparabletothiswithinthereachofeachoneofus,whodroppingalittlewordoralittledeedintothegreatuniversealtersit;yea,itisasolemnthought,_alters_it,forgoodorforevil,notforoneinstant,orinonevicinity,butthroughouttheentirerace,andforalleternity。“Whippingroundasthoughtoavoidapplause,hecontinuedwiththesamebreath,butinadifferenttoneofvoice,——“AndnowtoGodtheFather……“
  Hegavehisblessing,andthen,whilethesolemnchordsagainissuedfromtheharmoniumbehindthecurtain,thedifferentpeoplebeganscrapingandfumblingandmovingveryawkwardlyandconsciouslytowardsthedoor。Half-wayupstairs,atapointwherethelightandsoundsoftheupperworldconflictedwiththedimnessandthedyinghymn-tuneoftheunder,Rachelfeltahanddropuponhershoulder。
  “MissVinrace,“Mrs。Flushingwhisperedperemptorily,“staytoluncheon。
  It’ssuchadismalday。Theydon’tevengiveonebeefforluncheon。
  Pleasestay。“
  Heretheycameoutintothehall,whereoncemorethelittlebandwasgreetedwithcuriousrespectfulglancesbythepeoplewhohadnotgonetochurch,althoughtheirclothingmadeitclearthattheyapprovedofSundaytotheveryvergeofgoingtochurch。
  Rachelfeltunabletostandanymoreofthisparticularatmosphere,andwasabouttosayshemustgoback,whenTerencepassedthem,drawnalongintalkwithEvelynM。Rachelthereuponcontentedherselfwithsayingthatthepeoplelookedveryrespectable,whichnegativeremarkMrs。Flushinginterpretedtomeanthatshewouldstay。
  “Englishpeopleabroad!“shereturnedwithavividflashofmalice。
  “Ain’ttheyawful!Butwewon’tstayhere,“shecontinued,pluckingatRachel’sarm。“Comeuptomyroom。“
  SheboreherpastHewetandEvelynandtheThornburysandtheElliots。
  Hewetsteppedforward。
  “Luncheon——“hebegan。
  “MissVinracehaspromisedtolunchwithme,“saidMrs。Flushing,andbegantopoundenergeticallyupthestaircase,asthoughthemiddleclassesofEnglandwereinpursuit。Shedidnotstopuntilshehadslammedherbedroomdoorbehindthem。
  “Well,whatdidyouthinkofit?“shedemanded,pantingslightly。
  AllthedisgustandhorrorwhichRachelhadbeenaccumulatingburstforthbeyondhercontrol。
  “IthoughtitthemostloathsomeexhibitionI’deverseen!“
  shebrokeout。“Howcanthey——howdarethey——whatdoyoumeanbyit——
  Mr。Bax,hospitalnurses,oldmen,prostitutes,disgusting——“
  Shehitoffthepointssherememberedasfastasshecould,butshewastooindignanttostoptoanalyseherfeelings。Mrs。Flushingwatchedherwithkeengustoasshestoodejaculatingwithemphaticmovementsofherheadandhandsinthemiddleoftheroom。
  “Goon,goon,dogoon,“shelaughed,clappingherhands。
  “It’sdelightfultohearyou!“
  “Butwhydoyougo?“Racheldemanded。