“Thelivesofthesepeople,“shetriedtoexplain,theaimlessness,thewaytheylive。Onegoesfromonetoanother,andit’sallthesame。
Onenevergetswhatonewantsoutofanyofthem。“
HeremotionalstateandherconfusionwouldhavemadeheraneasypreyifHelenhadwishedtoargueorhadwishedtodrawconfidences。
Butinsteadoftalkingshefellintoaprofoundsilenceastheywalkedon。Aimless,trivial,meaningless,ohno——whatshehadseenatteamadeitimpossibleforhertobelievethat。
Thelittlejokes,thechatter,theinanitiesoftheafternoonhadshrivelledupbeforehereyes。Underneaththelikingsandspites,thecomingstogetherandpartings,greatthingswerehappening——
terriblethings,becausetheyweresogreat。Hersenseofsafetywasshaken,asifbeneathtwigsanddeadleavesshehadseenthemovementofasnake。Itseemedtoherthatamoment’srespitewasallowed,amoment’smake-believe,andthenagaintheprofoundandreasonlesslawasserteditself,mouldingthemalltoitsliking,makinganddestroying。
ShelookedatRachelwalkingbesideher,stillcrushingtheleavesinherfingersandabsorbedinherownthoughts。Shewasinlove,andshepitiedherprofoundly。Butsherousedherselffromthesethoughtsandapologised。“I’mverysorry,“shesaid,“butifI’mdull,it’smynature,anditcan’tbehelped。“Ifitwasanaturaldefect,however,shefoundaneasyremedy,forshewentontosaythatshethoughtMr。Flushing’sschemeaverygoodone,onlyneedingalittleconsideration,whichitappearedshehadgivenitbythetimetheyreachedhome。Bythattimetheyhadsettledthatifanythingmorewassaid,theywouldaccepttheinvitation。
WhenconsideredindetailbyMr。FlushingandMrs。Ambrosetheexpeditionprovedneitherdangerousnordifficult。
Theyfoundalsothatitwasnotevenunusual。EveryyearatthisseasonEnglishpeoplemadepartieswhichsteamedashortwayuptheriver,landed,andlookedatthenativevillage,boughtacertainnumberofthingsfromthenatives,andreturnedagainwithoutdamagedonetomindorbody。Whenitwasdiscoveredthatsixpeoplereallywishedthesamethingthearrangementsweresooncarriedout。
SincethetimeofElizabethveryfewpeoplehadseentheriver,andnothinghasbeendonetochangeitsappearancefromwhatitwastotheeyesoftheElizabethanvoyagers。ThetimeofElizabethwasonlydistantfromthepresenttimebyamomentofspacecomparedwiththeageswhichhadpassedsincethewaterhadrunbetweenthosebanks,andthegreenthicketsswarmedthere,andthesmalltreeshadgrowntohugewrinkledtreesinsolitude。
Changingonlywiththechangeofthesunandtheclouds,thewavinggreenmasshadstoodthereforcenturyaftercentury,andthewaterhadrunbetweenitsbanksceaselessly,sometimeswashingawayearthandsometimesthebranchesoftrees,whileinotherpartsoftheworldonetownhadrisenupontheruinsofanothertown,andthemeninthetownshadbecomemoreandmorearticulateandunlikeeachother。Afewmilesofthisriverwerevisiblefromthetopofthemountainwheresomeweeksbeforethepartyfromthehotelhadpicnicked。SusanandArthurhadseenitastheykissedeachother,andTerenceandRachelastheysattalkingaboutRichmond,andEvelynandPerrottastheystrolledabout,imaginingthattheyweregreatcaptainssenttocolonisetheworld。
Theyhadseenthebroadbluemarkacrossthesandwhereitflowedintothesea,andthegreencloudoftreesmassthemselvesaboutitfartherup,andfinallyhideitswatersaltogetherfromsight。
Atintervalsforthefirsttwentymilesorsohouseswerescatteredonthebank;bydegreesthehousesbecamehuts,and,laterstill,therewasneitherhutnorhouse,buttreesandgrass,whichwereseenonlybyhunters,explorers,ormerchants,marchingorsailing,butmakingnosettlement。
ByleavingSantaMarinaearlyinthemorning,drivingtwentymilesandridingeight,theparty,whichwascomposedfinallyofsixEnglishpeople,reachedtheriver-sideasthenightfell。
Theycamecanteringthroughthetrees——Mr。andMrs。Flushing,HelenAmbrose,Rachel,Terence,andSt。John。Thetiredlittlehorsesthenstoppedautomatically,andtheEnglishdismounted。
Mrs。Flushingstrodetotheriver-bankinhighspirits。Thedayhadbeenlongandhot,butshehadenjoyedthespeedandtheopenair;
shehadleftthehotelwhichshehated,andshefoundthecompanytoherliking。Theriverwasswirlingpastinthedarkness;
theycouldjustdistinguishthesmoothmovingsurfaceofthewater,andtheairwasfullofthesoundofit。Theystoodinanemptyspaceinthemidstofgreattree-trunks,andouttherealittlegreenlightmovingslightlyupanddownshowedthemwherethesteamerlayinwhichtheyweretoembark。
Whentheyallstooduponitsdecktheyfoundthatitwasaverysmallboatwhichthrobbedgentlybeneaththemforafewminutes,andthenshovedsmoothlythroughthewater。Theyseemedtobedrivingintotheheartofthenight,forthetreesclosedinfrontofthem,andtheycouldhearallroundthemtherustlingofleaves。Thegreatdarknesshadtheusualeffectoftakingawayalldesireforcommunicationbymakingtheirwordssoundthinandsmall;and,afterwalkingroundthedeckthreeorfourtimes,theyclusteredtogether,yawningdeeply,andlookingatthesamespotofdeepgloomonthebanks。Murmuringverylowintherhythmicaltoneofoneoppressedbytheair,Mrs。Flushingbegantowonderwheretheyweretosleep,fortheycouldnotsleepdownstairs,theycouldnotsleepinadogholesmellingofoil,theycouldnotsleepondeck,theycouldnotsleep——Sheyawnedprofoundly。ItwasasHelenhadforeseen;thequestionofnakednesshadrisenalready,althoughtheywerehalfasleep,andalmostinvisibletoeachother。
WithSt。John’shelpshestretchedanawning,andpersuadedMrs。Flushingthatshecouldtakeoffherclothesbehindthis,andthatnoonewouldnoticeifbychancesomepartofherwhichhadbeenconcealedforforty-fiveyearswaslaidbaretothehumaneye。
Mattresseswerethrowndown,rugsprovided,andthethreewomenlayneareachotherinthesoftopenair。
Thegentlemen,havingsmokedacertainnumberofcigarettes,droppedtheglowingendsintotheriver,andlookedforatimeattherippleswrinklingtheblackwaterbeneaththem,undressedtoo,andlaydownattheotherendoftheboat。Theywereverytired,andcurtainedfromeachotherbythedarkness。Thelightfromonelanternfelluponafewropes,afewplanksofthedeck,andtherailoftheboat,butbeyondthattherewasunbrokendarkness,nolightreachedtheirfaces,orthetreeswhichweremassedonthesidesoftheriver。
SoonWilfridFlushingslept,andHirstslept。Hewetalonelayawakelookingstraightupintothesky。Thegentlemotionandtheblackshapesthatweredrawnceaselesslyacrosshiseyeshadtheeffectofmakingitimpossibleforhimtothink。Rachel’spresencesonearhimlulledthoughtasleep。Beingsonearhim,onlyafewpacesoffattheotherendoftheboat,shemadeitasimpossibleforhimtothinkaboutherasitwouldhavebeenimpossibletoseeherifshehadstoodquiteclosetohim,herforeheadagainsthisforehead。
Insomestrangewaytheboatbecameidentifiedwithhimself,andjustasitwouldhavebeenuselessforhimtogetupandsteertheboat,sowasituselessforhimtostruggleanylongerwiththeirresistibleforceofhisownfeelings。Hewasdrawnonandonawayfromallheknew,slippingoverbarriersandpastlandmarksintounknownwatersastheboatglidedoverthesmoothsurfaceoftheriver。
Inprofoundpeace,envelopedindeeperunconsciousnessthanhadbeenhisformanynights,helayondeckwatchingthetree-topschangetheirpositionslightlyagainstthesky,andarchthemselves,andsinkandtowerhuge,untilhepassedfromseeingthemintodreamswherehelaybeneaththeshadowofthevasttrees,lookingupintothesky。
Whentheywokenextmorningtheyhadgoneaconsiderablewayuptheriver;ontherightwasahighyellowbankofsandtuftedwithtrees,ontheleftaswampquiveringwithlongreedsandtallbamboosonthetopofwhich,swayingslightly,perchedvividgreenandyellowbirds。Themorningwashotandstill。Afterbreakfasttheydrewchairstogetherandsatinanirregularsemicircleinthebow。
Anawningabovetheirheadsprotectedthemfromtheheatofthesun,andthebreezewhichtheboatmadeairedthemsoftly。Mrs。Flushingwasalreadydottingandstripinghercanvas,herheadjerkingthiswayandthatwiththeactionofabirdnervouslypickingupgrain;
theothershadbooksorpiecesofpaperorembroideryontheirknees,atwhichtheylookedfitfullyandagainlookedattheriverahead。
AtonepointHewetreadpartofapoemaloud,butthenumberofmovingthingsentirelyvanquishedhiswords。Heceasedtoread,andnoonespoke。Theymovedonundertheshelterofthetrees。
Therewasnowacoveyofredbirdsfeedingononeofthelittleisletstotheleft,oragainablue-greenparrotflewshriekingfromtreetotree。Astheymovedonthecountrygrewwilderandwilder。
Thetreesandtheundergrowthseemedtobestranglingeachothernearthegroundinamultitudinouswrestle;whilehereandthereasplendidtreetoweredhighabovetheswarm,shakingitsthingreenumbrellaslightlyintheupperair。Hewetlookedathisbooksagain。
Themorningwaspeacefulasthenighthadbeen,onlyitwasverystrangebecausehecouldseeitwaslight,andhecouldseeRachelandhearhervoiceandbeneartoher。Hefeltasifhewerewaiting,asifsomehowhewerestationaryamongthingsthatpassedoverhimandaroundhim,voices,people’sbodies,birds,onlyRacheltoowaswaitingwithhim。Helookedathersometimesasifshemustknowthattheywerewaitingtogether,andbeingdrawnontogether,withoutbeingabletoofferanyresistance。Againhereadfromhisbook:
Whoeveryouareholdingmenowinyourhand,Withoutonethingallwillbeuseless。
Abirdgaveawildlaugh,amonkeychuckledamaliciousquestion,and,asfirefadesinthehotsunshine,hiswordsflickeredandwentout。
Bydegreesastherivernarrowed,andthehighsandbanksfelltolevelgroundthicklygrownwithtrees,thesoundsoftheforestcouldbeheard。Itechoedlikeahall。Thereweresuddencries;
andthenlongspacesofsilence,suchasthereareinacathedralwhenaboy’svoicehasceasedandtheechoofitstillseemstohauntabouttheremoteplacesoftheroof。OnceMr。Flushingroseandspoketoasailor,andevenannouncedthatsometimeafterluncheonthesteamerwouldstop,andtheycouldwalkalittlewaythroughtheforest。
“Therearetracksallthroughthetreesthere,“heexplained。
“We’renodistancefromcivilisationyet。“
Hescrutinisedhiswife’spainting。Toopolitetopraiseitopenly,hecontentedhimselfwithcuttingoffonehalfofthepicturewithonehand,andgivingaflourishintheairwiththeother。
“God!“Hirstexclaimed,staringstraightahead。“Don’tyouthinkit’samazinglybeautiful?“
“Beautiful?“Helenenquired。Itseemedastrangelittleword,andHirstandherselfbothsosmallthatsheforgottoanswerhim。
Hewetfeltthathemustspeak。
“That’swheretheElizabethansgottheirstyle,“hemused,staringintotheprofusionofleavesandblossomsandprodigiousfruits。
“Shakespeare?IhateShakespeare!“Mrs。Flushingexclaimed;
andWilfridreturnedadmiringly,“Ibelieveyou’retheonlypersonwhodarestosaythat,Alice。“ButMrs。Flushingwentonpainting。
Shedidnotappeartoattachmuchvaluetoherhusband’scompliment,andpaintedsteadily,sometimesmutteringahalf-audiblewordorgroan。
Themorningwasnowveryhot。
“LookatHirst!“Mr。Flushingwhispered。Hissheetofpaperhadslippedontothedeck,hisheadlayback,andhedrewalongsnoringbreath。
TerencepickedupthesheetofpaperandspreaditoutbeforeRachel。
ItwasacontinuationofthepoemonGodwhichhehadbeguninthechapel,anditwassoindecentthatRacheldidnotunderstandhalfofitalthoughshesawthatitwasindecent。
HewetbegantofillinwordswhereHirsthadleftspaces,buthesoonceased;hispencilrolledondeck。Graduallytheyapproachednearerandnearertothebankontheright-handside,sothatthelightwhichcoveredthembecamedefinitelygreen,fallingthroughashadeofgreenleaves,andMrs。Flushingsetasidehersketchandstaredaheadofherinsilence。Hirstwokeup;
theywerethencalledtoluncheon,andwhiletheyateit,thesteamercametoastandstillalittlewayoutfromthebank。
Theboatwhichwastowedbehindthemwasbroughttotheside,andtheladieswerehelpedintoit。