“Andtheloneliness!“hecontinued。AvisionofwalkingwithherthroughthestreetsofLondoncamebeforehiseyes。“Wewillgoforwalkstogether,“hesaid。Thesimplicityoftheidearelievedthem,andforthefirsttimetheylaughed。Theywouldhavelikedhadtheydaredtotakeeachotherbythehand,buttheconsciousnessofeyesfixedonthemfrombehindhadnotyetdesertedthem。
  “Books,people,sights——Mrs。Nutt,Greeley,Hutchinson,“Hewetmurmured。
  Witheverywordthemistwhichhadenvelopedthem,makingthemseemunrealtoeachother,sincethepreviousafternoonmeltedalittlefurther,andtheircontactbecamemoreandmorenatural。
  UpthroughthesultrysouthernlandscapetheysawtheworldtheyknewappearclearerandmorevividlythanithadeverappearedbeforeAsuponthatoccasionatthehotelwhenshehadsatinthewindow,theworldoncemorearrangeditselfbeneathhergazeveryvividlyandinitstrueproportions。SheglancedcuriouslyatTerencefromtimetotime,observinghisgreycoatandhispurpletie;
  observingthemanwithwhomshewastospendtherestofherlife。
  Afteroneoftheseglancesshemurmured,“Yes,I’minlove。
  There’snodoubt;I’minlovewithyou。“
  Nevertheless,theyremaineduncomfortablyapart;drawnsoclosetogether,asshespoke,thatthereseemednodivisionbetweenthem,andthenextmomentseparateandfarawayagain。
  Feelingthispainfully,sheexclaimed,“Itwillbeafight。“
  Butasshelookedathimsheperceivedfromtheshapeofhiseyes,thelinesabouthismouth,andotherpeculiaritiesthathepleasedher,andsheadded:
  “WhereIwanttofight,youhavecompassion。You’refinerthanIam;
  you’remuchfiner。“
  Hereturnedherglanceandsmiled,perceiving,muchasshehaddone,theverysmallindividualthingsaboutherwhichmadeherdelightfultohim。Shewashisforever。Thisbarrierbeingsurmounted,innumerabledelightslaybeforethemboth。
  “I’mnotfiner,“heanswered。“I’monlyolder,lazier;aman,notawoman。“
  “Aman,“sherepeated,andacurioussenseofpossessioncomingoverher,itstruckherthatshemightnowtouchhim;sheputoutherhandandlightlytouchedhischeek。Hisfingersfollowedwherehershadbeen,andthetouchofhishanduponhisfacebroughtbacktheoverpoweringsenseofunreality。Thisbodyofhiswasunreal;
  thewholeworldwasunreal。
  “What’shappened?“hebegan。“WhydidIaskyoutomarryme?
  Howdidithappen?“
  “Didyouaskmetomarryyou?“shewondered。Theyfadedfarawayfromeachother,andneitherofthemcouldrememberwhathadbeensaid。
  “Wesatupontheground,“herecollected。
  “Wesatupontheground,“sheconfirmedhim。Therecollectionofsittingupontheground,suchasitwas,seemedtounitethemagain,andtheywalkedoninsilence,theirmindssometimesworkingwithdifficultyandsometimesceasingtowork,theireyesaloneperceivingthethingsroundthem。Nowhewouldattemptagaintotellherhisfaults,andwhyhelovedher;andshewoulddescribewhatshehadfeltatthistimeoratthattime,andtogethertheywouldinterpretherfeeling。
  Sobeautifulwasthesoundoftheirvoicesthatbydegreestheyscarcelylistenedtothewordstheyframed。Longsilencescamebetweentheirwords,whichwerenolongersilencesofstruggleandconfusionbutrefreshingsilences,inwhichtrivialthoughtsmovedeasily。
  Theybegantospeaknaturallyofordinarythings,oftheflowersandthetrees,howtheygrewtheresored,likegardenflowersathome,andtherebentandcrookedlikethearmofatwistedoldman。
  Verygentlyandquietly,almostasifitwerethebloodsinginginherveins,orthewaterofthestreamrunningoverstones,Rachelbecameconsciousofanewfeelingwithinher。Shewonderedforamomentwhatitwas,andthensaidtoherself,withalittlesurpriseatrecognisinginherownpersonsofamousathing:
  “Thisishappiness,Isuppose。“AndaloudtoTerenceshespoke,“Thisishappiness。“
  Ontheheelsofherwordsheanswered,“Thisishappiness,“
  uponwhichtheyguessedthatthefeelinghadsprunginbothofthemthesametime。Theybeganthereforetodescribehowthisfeltandthatfelt,howlikeitwasandyethowdifferent;fortheywereverydifferent。
  Voicescryingbehindthemneverreachedthroughthewatersinwhichtheywerenowsunk。TherepetitionofHewet’snameinshort,disseveredsyllableswastothemthecrackofadrybranchorthelaughterofabird。Thegrassesandbreezessoundingandmurmuringallroundthem,theynevernoticedthattheswishingofthegrassesgrewlouderandlouder,anddidnotceasewiththelapseofthebreeze。AhanddroppedabruptasirononRachel’sshoulder;
  itmighthavebeenaboltfromheaven。Shefellbeneathit,andthegrasswhippedacrosshereyesandfilledhermouthandears。
  Throughthewavingstemsshesawafigure,largeandshapelessagainstthesky。Helenwasuponher。Rolledthiswayandthat,nowseeingonlyforestsofgreen,andnowthehighblueheaven;
  shewasspeechlessandalmostwithoutsense。Atlastshelaystill,allthegrassesshakenroundherandbeforeherbyherpanting。
  Overherloomedtwogreatheads,theheadsofamanandwoman,ofTerenceandHelen。
  Bothwereflushed,bothlaughing,andthelipsweremoving;
  theycametogetherandkissedintheairaboveher。Brokenfragmentsofspeechcamedowntoherontheground。Shethoughtsheheardthemspeakofloveandthenofmarriage。Raisingherselfandsittingup,shetoorealisedHelen’ssoftbody,thestrongandhospitablearms,andhappinessswellingandbreakinginonevastwave。Whenthisfellaway,andthegrassesoncemorelaylow,andtheskybecamehorizontal,andtheearthrolledoutflatoneachside,andthetreesstoodupright,shewasthefirsttoperceivealittlerowofhumanfiguresstandingpatientlyinthedistance。
  Forthemomentshecouldnotrememberwhotheywere。
  “Whoarethey?“sheasked,andthenrecollected。
  FallingintolinebehindMr。Flushing,theywerecarefultoleaveatleastthreeyards’distancebetweenthetoeofhisbootandtherimofherskirt。
  Heledthemacrossastretchofgreenbytheriver-bankandthenthroughagroveoftrees,andbadethemremarkthesignsofhumanhabitation,theblackenedgrass,thecharredtree-stumps,andthere,throughthetrees,strangewoodennests,drawntogetherinanarchwherethetreesdrewapart,thevillagewhichwasthegoaloftheirjourney。
  Steppingcautiously,theyobservedthewomen,whoweresquattingonthegroundintriangularshapes,movingtheirhands,eitherplaitingstraworinkneadingsomethinginbowls。Butwhentheyhadlookedforamomentundiscovered,theywereseen,andMr。Flushing,advancingintothecentreoftheclearing,wasengagedintalkwithaleanmajesticman,whosebonesandhollowsatoncemadetheshapesoftheEnglishman’sbodyappearuglyandunnatural。
  Thewomentooknonoticeofthestrangers,exceptthattheirhandspausedforamomentandtheirlongnarroweyesslidroundandfixeduponthemwiththemotionlessinexpensivegazeofthoseremovedfromeachotherfarfarbeyondtheplungeofspeech。Theirhandsmovedagain,butthestarecontinued。Itfollowedthemastheywalked,astheypeeredintothehutswheretheycoulddistinguishgunsleaninginthecorner,andbowlsuponthefloor,andstacksofrushes;
  intheduskthesolemneyesofbabiesregardedthem,andoldwomenstaredouttoo。Astheysaunteredabout,thestarefollowedthem,passingovertheirlegs,theirbodies,theirheads,curiouslynotwithouthostility,likethecrawlofawinterfly。Asshedrewaparthershawlanduncoveredherbreasttothelipsofherbaby,theeyesofawomanneverlefttheirfaces,althoughtheymoveduneasilyunderherstare,andfinallyturnedaway,ratherthanstandtherelookingatheranylonger。Whensweetmeatswereofferedthem,theyputoutgreatredhandstotakethem,andfeltthemselvestreadingcumbrouslyliketight-coatedsoldiersamongthesesoftinstinctivepeople。Butsoonthelifeofthevillagetooknonoticeofthem;theyhadbecomeabsorbedinit。Thewomen’shandsbecamebusyagainwiththestraw;theireyesdropped。Iftheymoved,itwastofetchsomethingfromthehut,ortocatchastrayingchild,ortocrossthespacewithajarbalancedontheirheads;
  iftheyspoke,itwastocrysomeharshunintelligiblecry。
  Voicesrosewhenachildwasbeaten,andfellagain;voicesroseinsong,whichslidupalittlewayanddownalittleway,andsettledagainuponthesamelowandmelancholynote。
  Seekingeachother,TerenceandRacheldrewtogetherunderatree。
  Peaceful,andevenbeautifulatfirst,thesightofthewomen,whohadgivenuplookingatthem,madethemnowfeelverycoldandmelancholy。
  “Well,“Terencesighedatlength,“itmakesusseeminsignificant,doesn’tit?“
  Rachelagreed。Soitwouldgoonforeverandever,shesaid,thosewomensittingunderthetrees,thetreesandtheriver。
  Theyturnedawayandbegantowalkthroughthetrees,leaning,withoutfearofdiscovery,uponeachother’sarms。Theyhadnotgonefarbeforetheybegantoassureeachotheroncemorethattheywereinlove,werehappy,werecontent;butwhywasitsopainfulbeinginlove,whywastheresomuchpaininhappiness?
  Thesightofthevillageindeedaffectedthemallcuriouslythoughalldifferently。St。Johnhadlefttheothersandwaswalkingslowlydowntotheriver,absorbedinhisownthoughts,whichwerebitterandunhappy,forhefelthimselfalone;andHelen,standingbyherselfinthesunnyspaceamongthenativewomen,wasexposedtopresentimentsofdisaster。Thecriesofthesenselessbeastsranginherearshighandlowintheair,astheyranfromtree-trunktotree-top。
  Howsmallthelittlefigureslookedwanderingthroughthetrees!
  Shebecameacutelyconsciousofthelittlelimbs,thethinveins,thedelicatefleshofmenandwomen,whichbreakssoeasilyandletsthelifeescapecomparedwiththesegreattreesanddeepwaters。
  Afallingbranch,afootthatslips,andtheearthhascrushedthemorthewaterdrownedthem。Thusthinking,shekepthereyesanxiouslyfixeduponthelovers,asifbydoingsoshecouldprotectthemfromtheirfate。Turning,shefoundtheFlushingsbyherside。
  Theyweretalkingaboutthethingstheyhadboughtandarguingwhethertheywerereallyold,andwhethertherewerenotsignshereandthereofEuropeaninfluence。Helenwasappealedto。
  Shewasmadetolookatabrooch,andthenatapairofear-rings。
  Butallthetimesheblamedthemforhavingcomeonthisexpedition,forhavingventuredtoofarandexposedthemselves。Thensherousedherselfandtriedtotalk,butinafewmomentsshecaughtherselfseeingapictureofaboatupsetontheriverinEngland,atmidday。
  Itwasmorbid,sheknew,toimaginesuchthings;neverthelessshesoughtoutthefiguresoftheothersbetweenthetrees,andwhenevershesawthemshekepthereyesfixedonthem,sothatshemightbeabletoprotectthemfromdisaster。
  Butwhenthesunwentdownandthesteamerturnedandbegantosteambacktowardscivilisation,againherfearswerecalmed。
  Inthesemi-darknessthechairsondeckandthepeoplesittinginthemwereangularshapes,themouthbeingindicatedbyatinyburningspot,andthearmbythesamespotmovingupordownasthecigarorcigarettewasliftedtoandfromthelips。Wordscrossedthedarkness,but,notknowingwheretheyfell,seemedtolackenergyandsubstance。Deepsightsproceededregularly,althoughwithsomeattemptatsuppression,fromthelargewhitemoundwhichrepresentedthepersonofMrs。Flushing。Thedayhadbeenlongandveryhot,andnowthatallthecolourswereblottedoutthecoolnightairseemedtopresssoftfingersupontheeyelids,sealingthemdown。
  Somephilosophicalremarkdirected,apparently,atSt。JohnHirstmisseditsaim,andhungsolongsuspendedintheairuntilitwasengulfedbyayawn,thatitwasconsidereddead,andthisgavethesignalforstirringoflegsandmurmursaboutsleep。
  Thewhitemoundmoved,finallylengtheneditselfanddisappeared,andafterafewturnsandpacesSt。JohnandMr。Flushingwithdrew,leavingthethreechairsstilloccupiedbythreesilentbodies。
  Thelightwhichcamefromalamphighonthemastandaskypalewithstarsleftthemwithshapesbutwithoutfeatures;buteveninthisdarknessthewithdrawaloftheothersmadethemfeeleachotherverynear,fortheywereallthinkingofthesamething。
  Forsometimenoonespoke,thenHelensaidwithasigh,“Soyou’rebothveryhappy?“