Momentarythoughitseemed,neverthelesstheinterruptionwasupsetting;
everyonewasmoreorlessputoutbyit,fromMr。Grice,thesteward,toRidleyhimself。AfewminuteslaterRachelpassedthesmoking-room,andfoundHelenmovingarm-chairs。Shewasabsorbedinherarrangements,andonseeingRachelremarkedconfidentially:
“Ifonecangivemenaroomtothemselveswheretheywillsit,it’salltothegood。Arm-chairsare_the_importantthings——“
Shebeganwheelingthemabout。“Now,doesitstilllooklikeabaratarailwaystation?“
Shewhippedaplushcoveroffatable。Theappearanceoftheplacewasmarvellouslyimproved。
Again,thearrivalofthestrangersmadeitobvioustoRachel,asthehourofdinnerapproached,thatshemustchangeherdress;
andtheringingofthegreatbellfoundhersittingontheedgeofherberthinsuchapositionthatthelittleglassabovethewashstandreflectedherheadandshoulders。Intheglasssheworeanexpressionoftensemelancholy,forshehadcometothedepressingconclusion,sincethearrivaloftheDalloways,thatherfacewasnotthefaceshewanted,andinallprobabilityneverwouldbe。
However,punctualityhadbeenimpressedonher,andwhateverfaceshehad,shemustgointodinner。
ThesefewminuteshadbeenusedbyWilloughbyinsketchingtotheDallowaysthepeopletheyweretomeet,andcheckingthemuponhisfingers。
“There’smybrother-in-law,Ambrose,thescholarIdaresayyou’veheardhisname,hiswife,myoldfriendPepper,averyquietfellow,butknowseverything,I’mtold。Andthat’sall。
We’reaverysmallparty。I’mdroppingthemonthecoast。“
Mrs。Dalloway,withherheadalittleononeside,didherbesttorecollectAmbrose——wasitasurname?——butfailed。Shewasmadeslightlyuneasybywhatshehadheard。Sheknewthatscholarsmarriedanyone——girlstheymetinfarmsonreadingparties;
orlittlesuburbanwomenwhosaiddisagreeably,“OfcourseIknowit’smyhusbandyouwant;not_me_。“
ButHelencameinatthatpoint,andMrs。Dallowaysawwithreliefthatthoughslightlyeccentricinappearance,shewasnotuntidy,heldherselfwell,andhervoicehadrestraintinit,whichsheheldtobethesignofalady。Mr。Pepperhadnottroubledtochangehisneatuglysuit。
“Butafterall,“ClarissathoughttoherselfasshefollowedVinraceintodinner,“_every__one’s_interestingreally。“
Whenseatedatthetableshehadsomeneedofthatassurance,chieflybecauseofRidley,whocameinlate,lookeddecidedlyunkempt,andtooktohissoupinprofoundgloom。
Animperceptiblesignalpassedbetweenhusbandandwife,meaningthattheygraspedthesituationandwouldstandbyeachotherloyally。
WithscarcelyapauseMrs。DallowayturnedtoWilloughbyandbegan:
“WhatIfindsotiresomeabouttheseaisthattherearenoflowersinit。Imaginefieldsofhollyhocksandvioletsinmid-ocean!
Howdivine!“
“Butsomewhatdangeroustonavigation,“boomedRichard,inthebass,likethebassoontotheflourishofhiswife’sviolin。“Why,weedscanbebadenough,can’tthey,Vinrace?Iremembercrossinginthe_Mauretania_once,andsayingtotheCaptain——Richards——didyouknowhim?——’Nowtellmewhatperilsyoureallydreadmostforyourship,CaptainRichards?’expectinghimtosayicebergs,orderelicts,orfog,orsomethingofthatsort。Notabitofit。I’vealwaysrememberedhisanswer。’_Sedgius__aquatici_,’hesaid,whichI
taketobeakindofduck-weed。“
Mr。Pepperlookedupsharply,andwasabouttoputaquestionwhenWilloughbycontinued:
“They’veanawfultimeofit——thosecaptains!Threethousandsoulsonboard!“
“Yes,indeed,“saidClarissa。SheturnedtoHelenwithanairofprofundity。“I’mconvincedpeoplearewrongwhentheysayit’sworkthatwearsone;it’sresponsibility。That’swhyonepaysone’scookmorethanone’shousemaid,Isuppose。“
“Accordingtothat,oneoughttopayone’snursedouble;
butonedoesn’t,“saidHelen。
“No;butthinkwhatajoytohavetodowithbabies,insteadofsaucepans!“
saidMrs。Dalloway,lookingwithmoreinterestatHelen,aprobablemother。
“I’dmuchratherbeacookthananurse,“saidHelen。“Nothingwouldinducemetotakechargeofchildren。“
“Mothersalwaysexaggerate,“saidRidley。“Awell-bredchildisnoresponsibility。I’vetravelledalloverEuropewithmine。
Youjustwrap’emupwarmandput’emintherack。“
Helenlaughedatthat。Mrs。Dallowayexclaimed,lookingatRidley:
“Howlikeafather!Myhusband’sjustthesame。Andthenonetalksoftheequalityofthesexes!“
“Doesone?“saidMr。Pepper。
“Oh,somedo!“criedClarissa。“Myhusbandhadtopassanirateladyeveryafternoonlastsessionwhosaidnothingelse,Iimagine。“
“Shesatoutsidethehouse;itwasveryawkward,“saidDalloway。
“AtlastIpluckedupcourageandsaidtoher,’Mygoodcreature,you’reonlyinthewaywhereyouare。You’rehinderingme,andyou’redoingnogoodtoyourself。’“
“Andthenshecaughthimbythecoat,andwouldhavescratchedhiseyesout——“Mrs。Dallowayputin。
“Pooh——that’sbeenexaggerated,“saidRichard。“No,Ipitythem,Iconfess。Thediscomfortofsittingonthosestepsmustbeawful。“
“Servethemright,“saidWilloughbycurtly。
“Oh,I’mentirelywithyouthere,“saidDalloway。“NobodycancondemntheutterfollyandfutilityofsuchbehaviourmorethanIdo;
andasforthewholeagitation,well!mayIbeinmygravebeforeawomanhastherighttovoteinEngland!That’sallIsay。“
Thesolemnityofherhusband’sassertionmadeClarissagrave。
“It’sunthinkable,“shesaid。“Don’ttellmeyou’reasuffragist?“
sheturnedtoRidley。
“Idon’tcareafigonewayort’other,“saidAmbrose。
“Ifanycreatureissodeludedastothinkthatavotedoeshimorheranygood,lethimhaveit。He’llsoonlearnbetter。“
“You’renotapolitician,Isee,“shesmiled。
“Goodness,no,“saidRidley。
“I’mafraidyourhusbandwon’tapproveofme,“saidDallowayaside,toMrs。Ambrose。ShesuddenlyrecollectedthathehadbeeninParliament。
“Don’tyoueverfinditratherdull?“sheasked,notknowingexactlywhattosay。
Richardspreadhishandsbeforehim,asifinscriptionsweretobereadinthepalmsofthem。
“IfyouaskmewhetherIeverfinditratherdull,“hesaid,“Iamboundtosayyes;ontheotherhand,ifyouaskmewhatcareerdoyouconsideronthewhole,takingthegoodwiththebad,themostenjoyableandenviable,nottospeakofitsmoreseriousside,ofallcareers,foraman,Iamboundtosay,’ThePolitician’s。’“
“TheBarorpolitics,Iagree,“saidWilloughby。“Yougetmorerunforyourmoney。“
“Allone’sfacultieshavetheirplay,“saidRichard。“Imaybetreadingondangerousground;butwhatIfeelaboutpoetsandartistsingeneralisthis:onyourownlines,youcan’tbebeaten——
granted;butoffyourownlines——puff——onehastomakeallowances。
Now,Ishouldn’tliketothinkthatanyonehadtomakeallowancesforme。“
“Idon’tquiteagree,Richard,“saidMrs。Dalloway。“ThinkofShelley。
Ifeelthatthere’salmosteverythingonewantsin’Adonais。’“
“Read’Adonais’byallmeans,“Richardconceded。“ButwheneverI
hearofShelleyIrepeattomyselfthewordsofMatthewArnold,’Whataset!Whataset!’“
ThisrousedRidley’sattention。“MatthewArnold?Adetestableprig!“
hesnapped。
“Aprig——granted,“saidRichard;“but,Ithinkamanoftheworld。
That’swheremypointcomesin。Wepoliticiansdoubtlessseemtoyou“
hegraspedsomehowthatHelenwastherepresentativeofthearts
“agrosscommonplacesetofpeople;butweseebothsides;
wemaybeclumsy,butwedoourbesttogetagraspofthings。
Nowyourartists_find_thingsinamess,shrugtheirshoulders,turnasidetotheirvisions——whichIgrantmaybeverybeautiful——
and_leave_thingsinamess。Nowthatseemstomeevadingone’sresponsibilities。Besides,wearen’tallbornwiththeartisticfaculty。“
“It’sdreadful,“saidMrs。Dalloway,who,whileherhusbandspoke,hadbeenthinking。“WhenI’mwithartistsIfeelsointenselythedelightsofshuttingoneselfupinalittleworldofone’sown,withpicturesandmusicandeverythingbeautiful,andthenIgooutintothestreetsandthefirstchildImeetwithitspoor,hungry,dirtylittlefacemakesmeturnroundandsay,’No,I
_can’t_shutmyselfup——I_won’t_liveinaworldofmyown。
Ishouldliketostopallthepaintingandwritingandmusicuntilthiskindofthingexistsnolonger。’Don’tyoufeel,“
shewoundup,addressingHelen,“thatlife’saperpetualconflict?“
Helenconsideredforamoment。“No,“shesaid。“Idon’tthinkIdo。“
Therewasapause,whichwasdecidedlyuncomfortable。
Mrs。Dallowaythengavealittleshiver,andaskedwhethershemighthaveherfurcloakbroughttoher。Assheadjustedthesoftbrownfuraboutherneckafreshtopicstruckher。
“Iown,“shesaid,“thatIshallneverforgetthe_Antigone_。
IsawitatCambridgeyearsago,andit’shauntedmeeversince。
Don’tyouthinkit’squitethemostmodernthingyoueversaw?“
sheaskedRidley。“ItseemedtomeI’dknowntwentyClytemnestras。
OldLadyDitchlingforone。Idon’tknowawordofGreek,butIcouldlistentoitforever——“
HereMr。Pepperstruckup:
{SomeeditionsoftheworkcontainabriefpassagefromAntigone,inGreek,atthisspot。ed。}
Mrs。Dallowaylookedathimwithcompressedlips。
“I’dgivetenyearsofmylifetoknowGreek,“shesaid,whenhehaddone。
“Icouldteachyouthealphabetinhalfanhour,“saidRidley,“andyou’dreadHomerinamonth。Ishouldthinkitanhonourtoinstructyou。“
Helen,engagedwithMr。Dallowayandthehabit,nowfallenintodecline,ofquotingGreekintheHouseofCommons,noted,inthegreatcommonplacebookthatliesopenbesideusaswetalk,thefactthatallmen,evenmenlikeRidley,reallypreferwomentobefashionable。
Clarissaexclaimedthatshecouldthinkofnothingmoredelightful。
Foraninstantshesawherselfinherdrawing-roominBrowneStreetwithaPlatoopenonherknees——PlatointheoriginalGreek。Shecouldnothelpbelievingthatarealscholar,ifspeciallyinterested,couldslipGreekintoherheadwithscarcelyanytrouble。
Ridleyengagedhertocometo-morrow。
“Ifonlyyourshipisgoingtotreatuskindly!“sheexclaimed,drawingWilloughbyintoplay。Forthesakeofguests,andtheseweredistinguished,Willoughbywasreadywithabowofhisheadtovouchforthegoodbehaviourevenofthewaves。
“I’mdreadfullybad;andmyhusband’snotverygood,“sighedClarissa。
“Iamneversick,“Richardexplained。“Atleast,Ihaveonlybeenactuallysickonce,“hecorrectedhimself。“ThatwascrossingtheChannel。Butachoppysea,Iconfess,orstillworse,aswell,makesmedistinctlyuncomfortable。Thegreatthingisnevertomissameal。Youlookatthefood,andyousay,’Ican’t’;