“Ididn’twanttocomehere,“hesaidatlast,“butIwaspositivelydriventoit……EvelynM。,“hegroaned。
Hesatup,andbegantoexplainwithmocksolemnityhowthedetestablewomanwassetuponmarryinghim。
“Shepursuesmeabouttheplace。Thismorningsheappearedinthesmoking-room。AllIcoulddowastoseizemyhatandfly。
Ididn’twanttocome,butIcouldn’tstayandfaceanothermealwithher。“
“Well,wemustmakethebestofit,“Helenrepliedphilosophically。
Itwasveryhot,andtheywereindifferenttoanyamountofsilence,sothattheylaybackintheirchairswaitingforsomethingtohappen。
Thebellrangforluncheon,buttherewasnosoundofmovementinthehouse。Wasthereanynews?Helenasked;anythinginthepapers?
St。Johnshookhishead。Oyes,hehadaletterfromhome,aletterfromhismother,describingthesuicideoftheparlour-maid。ShewascalledSusanJane,andshecameintothekitchenoneafternoon,andsaidthatshewantedcooktokeephermoneyforher;shehadtwentypoundsingold。Thenshewentouttobuyherselfahat。
Shecameinathalf-pastfiveandsaidthatshehadtakenpoison。
Theyhadonlyjusttimetogetherintobedandcalladoctorbeforeshedied。
“Well?“Helenenquired。
“There’llhavetobeaninquest,“saidSt。John。
Whyhadshedoneit?Heshruggedhisshoulders。Whydopeoplekillthemselves?Whydothelowerordersdoanyofthethingstheydodo?Nobodyknows。Theysatinsilence。
“Thebell’srunfifteenminutesandthey’renotdown,“saidHelenatlength。
Whentheyappeared,St。Johnexplainedwhyithadbeennecessaryforhimtocometoluncheon。HeimitatedEvelyn’senthusiastictoneassheconfrontedhiminthesmoking-room。“Shethinkstherecanbenothing_quite_sothrillingasmathematics,soI’velentheralargeworkintwovolumes。It’llbeinterestingtoseewhatshemakesofit。“
Rachelcouldnowaffordtolaughathim。SheremindedhimofGibbon;
shehadthefirstvolumesomewherestill;ifhewereundertakingtheeducationofEvelyn,thatsurelywasthetest;orshehadheardthatBurke,upontheAmericanRebellion——Evelynoughttoreadthembothsimultaneously。WhenSt。Johnhaddisposedofherargumentandhadsatisfiedhishunger,heproceededtotellthemthatthehotelwasseethingwithscandals,someofthemostappallingkind,whichhadhappenedintheirabsence;hewasindeedmuchgiventothestudyofhiskind。
“EvelynM。,forexample——butthatwastoldmeinconfidence。“
“Nonsense!“Terenceinterposed。
“You’veheardaboutpoorSinclair,too?“
“Oh,yes,I’veheardaboutSinclair。He’sretiredtohisminewitharevolver。HewritestoEvelyndailythathe’sthinkingofcommittingsuicide。I’veassuredherthathe’sneverbeensohappyinhislife,and,onthewhole,she’sinclinedtoagreewithme。“
“Butthenshe’sentangledherselfwithPerrott,“St。Johncontinued;
“andIhavereasontothink,fromsomethingIsawinthepassage,thateverythingisn’tasitshouldbebetweenArthurandSusan。
There’sayoungfemalelatelyarrivedfromManchester。Averygoodthingifitwerebrokenoff,inmyopinion。Theirmarriedlifeissomethingtoohorribletocontemplate。
Oh,andIdistinctlyheardoldMrs。PaleyrappingoutthemostfearfuloathsasIpassedherbedroomdoor。It’ssupposedthatshetortureshermaidinprivate——it’spracticallycertainshedoes。
Onecantellitfromthelookinhereyes。“
“Whenyou’reeightyandthegouttweezesyou,you’llbeswearinglikeatrooper,“Terenceremarked。“You’llbeveryfat,verytesty,verydisagreeable。Can’tyouimaginehim——baldasacoot,withapairofsponge-bagtrousers,alittlespottedtie,andacorporation?“
AfterapauseHirstremarkedthattheworstinfamyhadstilltobetold。HeaddressedhimselftoHelen。
“They’vehoofedouttheprostitute。OnenightwhilewewereawaythatoldnumskullThornburywasdodderingaboutthepassagesverylate。
Nobodyseemstohaveaskedhimwhat_he_wasupto。HesawtheSignoraLolaMendoza,asshecallsherself,crossthepassageinhernightgown。HecommunicatedhissuspicionsnextmorningtoElliot,withtheresultthatRodriguezwenttothewomanandgavehertwenty-fourhoursinwhichtoclearoutoftheplace。
Nooneseemstohaveenquiredintothetruthofthestory,ortohaveaskedThornburyandElliotwhatbusinessitwasoftheirs;
theyhaditentirelytheirownway。IproposethatweshouldallsignaRoundRobin,gotoRodriguezinabody,andinsistuponafullenquiry。Something’sgottobedone,don’tyouagree?“
Hewetremarkedthattherecouldbenodoubtastothelady’sprofession。
“Still,“headded,“it’sagreatshame,poorwoman;onlyIdon’tseewhat’stobedone——“
“Iquiteagreewithyou,St。John,“Helenburstout。“It’smonstrous。
ThehypocriticalsmugnessoftheEnglishmakesmybloodboil。
Amanwho’smadeafortuneintradeasMr。Thornburyhasisboundtobetwiceasbadasanyprostitute。“
SherespectedSt。John’smorality,whichshetookfarmoreseriouslythananyoneelsedid,andnowenteredintoadiscussionwithhimastothestepsthatweretobetakentoenforcetheirpeculiarviewofwhatwasright。Theargumentledtosomeprofoundlygloomystatementsofageneralnature。Whowerethey,afterall——
whatauthorityhadthey——whatpoweragainstthemassofsuperstitionandignorance?ItwastheEnglish,ofcourse;theremustbesomethingwrongintheEnglishblood。DirectlyyoumetanEnglishperson,ofthemiddleclasses,youwereconsciousofanindefinablesensationofloathing;directlyyousawthebrowncrescentofhousesaboveDover,thesamethingcameoveryou。ButunfortunatelySt。Johnadded,youcouldn’ttrusttheseforeigners——
Theywereinterruptedbysoundsofstrifeatthefurtherendofthetable。Rachelappealedtoheraunt。
“TerencesayswemustgototeawithMrs。Thornburybecauseshe’sbeensokind,butIdon’tseeit;infact,I’dratherhavemyrighthandsawninpieces——justimagine!theeyesofallthosewomen!“
“Fiddlesticks,Rachel,“Terencereplied。“Whowantstolookatyou?
You’reconsumedwithvanity!You’reamonsterofconceit!
Surely,Helen,yououghttohavetaughtherbythistimethatshe’sapersonofnoconceivableimportancewhatever——notbeautiful,orwelldressed,orconspicuousforeleganceorintellect,ordeportment。Amoreordinarysightthanyouare,“heconcluded,“exceptforthetearacrossyourdresshasneverbeenseen。
However,stayathomeifyouwantto。I’mgoing。“
Sheappealedagaintoheraunt。Itwasn’tthebeinglookedat,sheexplained,butthethingspeopleweresuretosay。Thewomeninparticular。
Shelikedwomen,butwhereemotionwasconcernedtheywereasfliesonalumpofsugar。Theywouldbecertaintoaskherquestions。
EvelynM。wouldsay:“Areyouinlove?Isitnicebeinginlove?“
AndMrs。Thornbury——hereyeswouldgoupanddown,upanddown——
sheshudderedatthethoughtofit。Indeed,theretirementoftheirlifesincetheirengagementhadmadehersosensitive,thatshewasnotexaggeratinghercase。
ShefoundanallyinHelen,whoproceededtoexpoundherviewsofthehumanrace,assheregardedwithcomplacencythepyramidofvariegatedfruitsinthecentreofthetable。Itwasn’tthattheywerecruel,ormeanttohurt,orevenstupidexactly;
butshehadalwaysfoundthattheordinarypersonhadsolittleemotioninhisownlifethatthescentofitinthelivesofotherswaslikethescentofbloodinthenostrilsofabloodhound。
Warmingtothetheme,shecontinued:
“Directlyanythinghappens——itmaybeamarriage,orabirth,oradeath——onthewholetheypreferittobeadeath——everyonewantstoseeyou。Theyinsistuponseeingyou。They’vegotnothingtosay;theydon’tcarearapforyou;butyou’vegottogotolunchortoteaortodinner,andifyoudon’tyou’redamned。
It’sthesmellofblood,“shecontinued;“Idon’tblame’em;onlytheyshan’thavemindifIknowit!“
Shelookedaboutherasifshehadcalledupalegionofhumanbeings,allhostileandalldisagreeable,whoencircledthetable,withmouthsgapingforblood,andmadeitappearalittleislandofneutralcountryinthemidstoftheenemy’scountry。
Herwordsrousedherhusband,whohadbeenmutteringrhythmicallytohimself,surveyinghisguestsandhisfoodandhiswifewitheyesthatwerenowmelancholyandnowfierce,accordingtothefortunesoftheladyinhisballad。HecutHelenshortwithaprotest。
Hehatedeventhesemblanceofcynicisminwomen。“Nonsense,nonsense,“
heremarkedabruptly。
TerenceandRachelglancedateachotheracrossthetable,whichmeantthatwhentheyweremarriedtheywouldnotbehavelikethat。
TheentranceofRidleyintotheconversationhadastrangeeffect。
Itbecameatoncemoreformalandmorepolite。Itwouldhavebeenimpossibletotalkquiteeasilyofanythingthatcameintotheirheads,andtosaythewordprostituteassimplyasanyotherword。
Thetalknowturneduponliteratureandpolitics,andRidleytoldstoriesofthedistinguishedpeoplehehadknowninhisyouth。
Suchtalkwasofthenatureofanart,andthepersonalitiesandinformalitiesoftheyoungweresilenced。Astheyrosetogo,Helenstoppedforamoment,leaningherelbowsonthetable。
“You’veallbeensittinghere,“shesaid,“foralmostanhour,andyouhaven’tnoticedmyfigs,ormyflowers,orthewaythelightcomesthrough,oranything。Ihaven’tbeenlistening,becauseI’vebeenlookingatyou。Youlookedverybeautiful;
Iwishyou’dgoonsittingforever。“
Sheledthewaytothedrawing-room,whereshetookupherembroidery,andbeganagaintodissuadeTerencefromwalkingdowntothehotelinthisheat。Butthemoreshedissuaded,themorehewasdeterminedtogo。Hebecameirritatedandobstinate。
Thereweremomentswhentheyalmostdislikedeachother。
Hewantedotherpeople;hewantedRachel,toseethemwithhim。
HesuspectedthatMrs。Ambrosewouldnowtrytodissuadeherfromgoing。Hewasannoyedbyallthisspaceandshadeandbeauty,andHirst,recumbent,droopingamagazinefromhiswrist。
“I’mgoing,“herepeated。“Rachelneedn’tcomeunlessshewantsto。“
“Ifyougo,Hewet,Iwishyou’dmakeenquiriesabouttheprostitute,“
saidHirst。“Lookhere,“headded,“I’llwalkhalfthewaywithyou。“
Greatlytotheirsurpriseheraisedhimself,lookedathiswatch,andremarkedthat,asitwasnowhalfanhoursinceluncheon,thegastricjuiceshadhadsufficienttimetosecrete;hewastryingasystem,heexplained,whichinvolvedshortspellsofexerciseinterspacedbylongerintervalsofrest。
“Ishallbebackatfour,“heremarkedtoHelen,“whenIshallliedownonthesofaandrelaxallmymusclescompletely。“
“Soyou’regoing,Rachel?“Helenasked。“Youwon’tstaywithme?“
Shesmiled,butshemighthavebeensad。
Wasshesad,orwasshereallylaughing?Rachelcouldnottell,andshefeltforthemomentveryuncomfortablebetweenHelenandTerence。
Thensheturnedaway,sayingmerelythatshewouldgowithTerence,onconditionthathedidallthetalking。
Anarrowborderofshadowranalongtheroad,whichwasbroadenoughfortwo,butnotbroadenoughforthree。St。Johnthereforedroppedalittlebehindthepair,andthedistancebetweenthemincreasedbydegrees。Walkingwithaviewtodigestion,andwithoneeyeuponhiswatch,helookedfromtimetotimeatthepairinfrontofhim。Theyseemedtobesohappy,sointimate,althoughtheywerewalkingsidebysidemuchasotherpeoplewalk。
Theyturnedslightlytowardeachothernowandthen,andsaidsomethingwhichhethoughtmustbesomethingveryprivate。