Whatwerethosehorridpeopledoing?Shespentthewholemorningindiscussingpoliticswithherhusband,andbydegreesshebecamedeeplyinterestedinwhattheyweresaying。Buteverynowandthenwhatshewassayingseemedtoheroddlyemptyofmeaning。
Atluncheonitwasremarkedbyseveralpeoplethatthevisitorsatthehotelwerebeginningtoleave;therewerefewereveryday。
Therewereonlyfortypeopleatluncheon,insteadofthesixtythattherehadbeen。SooldMrs。Paleycomputed,gazingaboutherwithherfadedeyes,asshetookherseatatherowntableinthewindow。
HerpartygenerallyconsistedofMr。PerrottaswellasArthurandSusan,andto-dayEvelynwaslunchingwiththemalso。
Shewasunusuallysubdued。Havingnoticedthathereyeswerered,andguessingthereason,theotherstookpainstokeepupanelaborateconversationbetweenthemselves。Shesufferedittogoonforafewminutes,leaningbothelbowsonthetable,andleavinghersoupuntouched,whensheexclaimedsuddenly,“Idon’tknowhowyoufeel,butIcansimplythinkofnothingelse!“
Thegentlemenmurmuredsympathetically,andlookedgrave。
Susanreplied,“Yes——isn’titperfectlyawful?Whenyouthinkwhatanicegirlshewas——onlyjustengaged,andthisneedneverhavehappened——itseemstootragic。“ShelookedatArthurasthoughhemightbeabletohelpherwithsomethingmoresuitable。
“Hardlines,“saidArthurbriefly。“Butitwasafoolishthingtodo——togoupthatriver。“Heshookhishead。“Theyshouldhaveknownbetter。Youcan’texpectEnglishwomentostandroughingitasthenativesdowho’vebeenacclimatised。I’dhalfamindtowarnthematteathatdaywhenitwasbeingdiscussed。Butit’snogoodsayingthesesortofthings——itonlyputspeople’sbacksup——
itnevermakesanydifference。“
OldMrs。Paley,hithertocontentedwithhersoup,hereintimated,byraisingonehandtoherear,thatshewishedtoknowwhatwasbeingsaid。
“Youheard,AuntEmma,thatpoorMissVinracehasdiedofthefever,“
Susaninformedhergently。Shecouldnotspeakofdeathloudlyoreveninherusualvoice,sothatMrs。Paleydidnotcatchaword。
Arthurcametotherescue。
“MissVinraceisdead,“hesaidverydistinctly。
Mrs。Paleymerelybentalittletowardshimandasked,“Eh?“
“MissVinraceisdead,“herepeated。Itwasonlybystiffeningallthemusclesroundhismouththathecouldpreventhimselffromburstingintolaughter,andforcedhimselftorepeatforthethirdtime,“MissVinrace……She’sdead。“
Letalonethedifficultyofhearingtheexactwords,factsthatwereoutsideherdailyexperiencetooksometimetoreachMrs。Paley’sconsciousness。Aweightseemedtorestuponherbrain,impeding,thoughnotdamagingitsaction。Shesatvague-eyedforatleastaminutebeforesherealisedwhatArthurmeant。
“Dead?“shesaidvaguely。“MissVinracedead?Dearme……that’sverysad。ButIdon’tatthemomentrememberwhichshewas。
Weseemtohavemadesomanynewacquaintanceshere。“ShelookedatSusanforhelp。“Atalldarkgirl,whojustmissedbeinghandsome,withahighcolour?“
“No,“Susaninterposed。“Shewas——“thenshegaveitupindespair。
TherewasnouseinexplainingthatMrs。Paleywasthinkingofthewrongperson。
“Sheoughtnottohavedied,“Mrs。Paleycontinued。“Shelookedsostrong。Butpeoplewilldrinkthewater。Icannevermakeoutwhy。
ItseemssuchasimplethingtotellthemtoputabottleofSeltzerwaterinyourbedroom。That’salltheprecautionI’veevertaken,andI’vebeenineverypartoftheworld,Imaysay——Italyadozentimesover……Butyoungpeoplealwaysthinktheyknowbetter,andthentheypaythepenalty。Poorthing——Iamverysorryforher。“
Butthedifficultyofpeeringintoadishofpotatoesandhelpingherselfengrossedherattention。
ArthurandSusanbothsecretlyhopedthatthesubjectwasnowdisposedof,forthereseemedtothemsomethingunpleasantinthisdiscussion。
ButEvelynwasnotreadytoletitdrop。Whywouldpeoplenevertalkaboutthethingsthatmattered?
“Idon’tbelieveyoucareabit!“shesaid,turningsavagelyuponMr。Perrott,whohadsatallthistimeinsilence。
“I?Oh,yes,Ido,“heansweredawkwardly,butwithobvioussincerity。
Evelyn’squestionsmadehimtoofeeluncomfortable。
“Itseemssoinexplicable,“Evelyncontinued。“Death,Imean。
Whyshouldshebedead,andnotyouorI?Itwasonlyafortnightagothatshewasherewiththerestofus。Whatd’youbelieve?“
shedemandedofmr。Perrott。“D’youbelievethatthingsgoon,thatshe’sstillsomewhere——ord’youthinkit’ssimplyagame——
wecrumbleuptonothingwhenwedie?I’mpositiveRachel’snotdead。“
Mr。PerrottwouldhavesaidalmostanythingthatEvelynwantedhimtosay,buttoassertthathebelievedintheimmortalityofthesoulwasnotinhispower。Hesatsilent,moredeeplywrinkledthanusual,crumblinghisbread。
LestEvelynshouldnextaskhimwhathebelieved,Arthur,aftermakingapauseequivalenttoafullstop,startedacompletelydifferenttopic。
“Supposing,“hesaid,“amanweretowriteandtellyouthathewantedfivepoundsbecausehehadknownyourgrandfather,whatwouldyoudo?
Itwasthisway。Mygrandfather——“
“Inventedastove,“saidEvelyn。“Iknowallaboutthat。
Wehadoneintheconservatorytokeeptheplantswarm。“
“Didn’tknowIwassofamous,“saidArthur。“Well,“hecontinued,determinedatallcoststospinhisstoryoutatlength,“theoldchap,beingaboutthesecondbestinventorofhisday,andacapablelawyertoo,died,astheyalwaysdo,withoutmakingawill。
NowFielding,hisclerk,withhowmuchjusticeIdon’tknow,alwaysclaimedthathemeanttodosomethingforhim。Thepooroldboy’scomedownintheworldthroughtryinginventionsonhisownaccount,livesinPengeoveratobacconist’sshop。I’vebeentoseehimthere。
Thequestionis——mustIstumpupornot?Whatdoestheabstractspiritofjusticerequire,Perrott?Remember,Ididn’tbenefitundermygrandfather’swill,andI’venowayoftestingthetruthofthestory。“
“Idon’tknowmuchabouttheabstractspiritofjustice,“saidSusan,smilingcomplacentlyattheothers,“butI’mcertainofonething——
he’llgethisfivepounds!“
AsMr。Perrottproceededtodeliveranopinion,andEvelyninsistedthathewasmuchtoostingy,likealllawyers,thinkingoftheletterandnotofthespirit,whileMrs。Paleyrequiredtobekeptinformedbetweenthecoursesastowhattheywereallsaying,theluncheonpassedwithnointervalofsilence,andArthurcongratulatedhimselfuponthetactwithwhichthediscussionhadbeensmoothedover。
AstheylefttheroomithappenedthatMrs。Paley’swheeledchairranintotheElliots,whowerecomingthroughthedoor,asshewasgoingout。Broughtthustoastandstillforamoment,ArthurandSusancongratulatedHughlingElliotuponhisconvalescence,——
hewasdown,cadaverousenough,forthefirsttime,——andMr。PerrotttookoccasiontosayafewwordsinprivatetoEvelyn。
“Wouldtherebeanychanceofseeingyouthisafternoon,aboutthree-thirtysay?Ishallbeinthegarden,bythefountain。“
TheblockdissolvedbeforeEvelynanswered。Butasshelefttheminthehall,shelookedathimbrightlyandsaid,“Half-pastthree,didyousay?That’llsuitme。“
Sheranupstairswiththefeelingofspiritualexaltationandquickenedlifewhichtheprospectofanemotionalscenealwaysarousedinher。
ThatMr。Perrottwasagainabouttoproposetoher,shehadnodoubt,andshewasawarethatonthisoccasionsheoughttobepreparedwithadefiniteanswer,forshewasgoingawayinthreedays’time。
Butshecouldnotbringhermindtobearuponthequestion。Tocometoadecisionwasverydifficulttoher,becauseshehadanaturaldislikeofanythingfinalanddonewith;shelikedtogoonandon——
alwaysonandon。Shewasleaving,and,therefore,sheoccupiedherselfinlayingherclothesoutsidebysideuponthebed。
Sheobservedthatsomewereveryshabby。Shetookthephotographofherfatherandmother,and,beforeshelaiditawayinherbox,shehelditforaminuteinherhand。Rachelhadlookedatit。
Suddenlythekeenfeelingofsomeone’spersonality,whichthingsthattheyhaveownedorhandledsometimespreserves,overcameher;shefeltRachelintheroomwithher;itwasasifshewereonashipatsea,andthelifeofthedaywasasunrealasthelandinthedistance。
ButbydegreesthefeelingofRachel’spresencepassedaway,andshecouldnolongerrealiseher,forshehadscarcelyknownher。
Butthismomentarysensationleftherdepressedandfatigued。
Whathadshedonewithherlife?Whatfuturewastherebeforeher?
Whatwasmake-believe,andwhatwasreal?Weretheseproposalsandintimaciesandadventuresreal,orwasthecontentmentwhichshehadseenonthefacesofSusanandRachelmorerealthananythingshehadeverfelt?
Shemadeherselfreadytogodownstairs,absentmindedly,butherfingersweresowelltrainedthattheydidtheworkofpreparingheralmostoftheirownaccord。Whenshewasactuallyonthewaydownstairs,thebloodbegantocirclethroughherbodyofitsownaccordtoo,forhermindfeltverydull。
Mr。Perrottwaswaitingforher。Indeed,hehadgonestraightintothegardenafterluncheon,andhadbeenwalkingupanddownthepathformorethanhalfanhour,inastateofacutesuspense。
“I’mlateasusual!“sheexclaimed,asshecaughtsightofhim。
“Well,youmustforgiveme;Ihadtopackup……Myword!
Itlooksstormy!Andthat’sanewsteamerinthebay,isn’tit?“
Shelookedatthebay,inwhichasteamerwasjustdroppinganchor,thesmokestillhangingaboutit,whileaswiftblackshudderranthroughthewaves。“One’squiteforgottenwhatrainlookslike,“
sheadded。
ButMr。Perrottpaidnoattentiontothesteamerortotheweather。
“MissMurgatroyd,“hebeganwithhisusualformality,“Iaskedyoutocomeherefromaveryselfishmotive,Ifear。Idonotthinkyouneedtobeassuredoncemoreofmyfeelings;but,asyouareleavingsosoon,IfeltthatIcouldnotletyougowithoutaskingyoutotellme——haveIanyreasontohopethatyouwillevercometocareforme?“
Hewasverypale,andseemedunabletosayanymore。
ThelittlegushofvitalitywhichhadcomeintoEvelynassherandownstairshadlefther,andshefeltherselfimpotent。
Therewasnothingforhertosay;shefeltnothing。Nowthathewasactuallyaskingher,inhiselderlygentlewords,tomarryhim,shefeltlessforhimthanshehadeverfeltbefore。
“Let’ssitdownandtalkitover,“shesaidratherunsteadily。
Mr。Perrottfollowedhertoacurvedgreenseatunderatree。
Theylookedatthefountaininfrontofthem,whichhadlongceasedtoplay。Evelynkeptlookingatthefountaininsteadofthinkingofwhatshewassaying;thefountainwithoutanywaterseemedtobethetypeofherownbeing。
“OfcourseIcareforyou,“shebegan,rushingherwordsoutinahurry;“IshouldbeabruteifIdidn’t。Ithinkyou’requiteoneofthenicestpeopleI’veeverknown,andoneofthefinesttoo。
ButIwish……Iwishyoudidn’tcareformeinthatway。
Areyousureyoudo?“Forthemomentshehonestlydesiredthatheshouldsayno。
“Quitesure,“saidMr。Perrott。
“Yousee,I’mnotassimpleasmostwomen,“Evelyncontinued。
“IthinkIwantmore。Idon’tknowexactlywhatIfeel。“
Hesatbyher,watchingherandrefrainingfromspeech。
“IsometimesthinkIhaven’tgotitinmetocareverymuchforonepersononly。Someoneelsewouldmakeyouabetterwife。
Icanimagineyouveryhappywithsomeoneelse。“
“Ifyouthinkthatthereisanychancethatyouwillcometocareforme,Iamquitecontenttowait,“saidMr。Perrott。
“Well——there’snohurry,isthere?“saidEvelyn。“SupposeIthoughtitoverandwroteandtoldyouwhenIgetback?I’mgoingtoMoscow;
I’llwritefromMoscow。“
ButMr。Perrottpersisted。
“Youcannotgivemeanykindofidea。Idonotaskforadate……thatwouldbemostunreasonable。“Hepaused,lookingdownatthegravelpath。