Asshedidnotimmediatelyanswer,hewenton。
“IknowverywellthatIamnot——thatIhavenotmuchtoofferyoueitherinmyselforinmycircumstances。AndIforget;itcannotseemthemiracletoyouthatitdoestome。UntilImetyouI
hadgoneoninmyownquietway——wearebothveryquietpeople,mysisterandI——quitecontentwithmylot。MyfriendshipwithArthurwasthemostimportantthinginmylife。NowthatIknowyou,allthathaschanged。Youseemtoputsuchaspiritintoeverything。
LifeseemstoholdsomanypossibilitiesthatIhadneverdreamtof。“
“That’ssplendid!“Evelynexclaimed,graspinghishand。
“Nowyou’llgobackandstartallkindsofthingsandmakeagreatnameintheworld;andwe’llgoonbeingfriends,whateverhappens……we’llbegreatfriends,won’twe?“
“Evelyn!“hemoanedsuddenly,andtookherinhisarms,andkissedher。
Shedidnotresentit,althoughitmadelittleimpressiononher。
Asshesatuprightagain,shesaid,“Ineverseewhyoneshouldn’tgoonbeingfriends——thoughsomepeopledo。Andfriendshipsdomakeadifference,don’tthey?Theyarethekindofthingsthatmatterinone’slife?“
Helookedatherwithabewilderedexpressionasifhedidnotreallyunderstandwhatshewassaying。Withaconsiderableefforthecollectedhimself,stoodup,andsaid,“NowIthinkIhavetoldyouwhatIfeel,andIwillonlyaddthatIcanwaitaslongaseveryouwish。“
Leftalone,Evelynwalkedupanddownthepath。Whatdidmatterthan?
Whatwasthemeaningofitall?
Allthateveningthecloudsgathered,untiltheyclosedentirelyovertheblueofthesky。Theyseemedtonarrowthespacebetweenearthandheaven,sothattherewasnoroomfortheairtomoveinfreely;
andthewaves,too,layflat,andyetrigid,asiftheywererestrained。
Theleavesonthebushesandtreesinthegardenhungcloselytogether,andthefeelingofpressureandrestraintwasincreasedbytheshortchirpingsoundswhichcamefrombirdsandinsects。
Sostrangewerethelightsandthesilencethatthebusyhumofvoiceswhichusuallyfilledthedining-roomatmealtimeshaddistinctgapsinit,andduringthesesilencestheclatteroftheknivesuponplatesbecameaudible。Thefirstrollofthunderandthefirstheavydropstrikingthepanecausedalittlestir。
“It’scoming!“wassaidsimultaneouslyinmanydifferentlanguages。
Therewasthenaprofoundsilence,asifthethunderhadwithdrawnintoitself。Peoplehadjustbeguntoeatagain,whenagustofcoldaircamethroughtheopenwindows,liftingtableclothsandskirts,alightflashed,andwasinstantlyfollowedbyaclapofthunderrightoverthehotel。Therainswishedwithit,andimmediatelytherewereallthosesoundsofwindowsbeingshutanddoorsslammingviolentlywhichaccompanyastorm。
Theroomgrewsuddenlyseveraldegreesdarker,forthewindseemedtobedrivingwavesofdarknessacrosstheearth。Nooneattemptedtoeatforatime,butsatlookingoutatthegarden,withtheirforksintheair。Theflashesnowcamefrequently,lightingupfacesasiftheyweregoingtobephotographed,surprisingthemintenseandunnaturalexpressions。Theclapfollowedcloseandviolentlyuponthem。Severalwomenhalfrosefromtheirchairsandthensatdownagain,butdinnerwascontinueduneasilywitheyesuponthegarden。Thebushesoutsidewereruffledandwhitened,andthewindpresseduponthemsothattheyseemedtostooptotheground。Thewaitershadtopressdishesuponthediners’notice;andthedinershadtodrawtheattentionofwaiters,fortheywereallabsorbedinlookingatthestorm。
Asthethundershowednosignsofwithdrawing,butseemedmassedrightoverhead,whilethelightningaimedstraightatthegardeneverytime,anuneasygloomreplacedthefirstexcitement。
Finishingthemealveryquickly,peoplecongregatedinthehall,wheretheyfeltmoresecurethaninanyotherplacebecausetheycouldretreatfarfromthewindows,andalthoughtheyheardthethunder,theycouldnotseeanything。Alittleboywascarriedawaysobbinginthearmsofhismother。
Whilethestormcontinued,nooneseemedinclinedtositdown,buttheycollectedinlittlegroupsunderthecentralskylight,wheretheystoodinayellowatmosphere,lookingupwards。
Nowandagaintheirfacesbecamewhite,asthelightningflashed,andfinallyaterrificcrashcame,makingthepanesoftheskylightliftatthejoints。
“Ah!“severalvoicesexclaimedatthesamemoment。
“Somethingstruck,“saidaman’svoice。
Therainrusheddown。Therainseemednowtoextinguishthelightningandthethunder,andthehallbecamealmostdark。
Afteraminuteortwo,whennothingwasheardbuttherattleofwaterupontheglass,therewasaperceptibleslackeningofthesound,andthentheatmospherebecamelighter。
“It’sover,“saidanothervoice。
Atatouch,alltheelectriclightswereturnedon,andrevealedacrowdofpeopleallstanding,alllookingwithratherstrainedfacesupattheskylight,butwhentheysaweachotherintheartificiallighttheyturnedatonceandbegantomoveaway。Forsomeminutestheraincontinuedtorattleupontheskylight,andthethundergaveanothershakeortwo;butitwasevidentfromtheclearingofthedarknessandthelightdrummingoftherainupontheroof,thatthegreatconfusedoceanofairwastravellingawayfromthem,andpassinghighoverheadwithitscloudsanditsrodsoffire,outtosea。Thebuilding,whichhadseemedsosmallinthetumultofthestorm,nowbecameassquareandspaciousasusual。
Asthestormdrewaway,thepeopleinthehallofthehotelsatdown;
andwithacomfortablesenseofrelief,begantotelleachotherstoriesaboutgreatstorms,andproducedinmanycasestheiroccupationsfortheevening。Thechess-boardwasbroughtout,andMr。Elliot,whoworeastockinsteadofacollarasasignofconvalescence,butwasotherwisemuchasusual,challengedMr。Peppertoafinalcontest。
Roundthemgatheredagroupofladieswithpiecesofneedlework,orindefaultofneedlework,withnovels,tosuperintendthegame,muchasiftheywereinchargeoftwosmallboysplayingmarbles。
Everynowandthentheylookedattheboardandmadesomeencouragingremarktothegentlemen。
Mrs。Paleyjustroundthecornerhadhercardsarrangedinlongladdersbeforeher,withSusansittingneartosympathisebutnottocorrect,andthemerchantsandthemiscellaneouspeoplewhohadneverbeendiscoveredtopossessnameswerestretchedintheirarm-chairswiththeirnewspapersontheirknees。Theconversationinthesecircumstanceswasverygentle,fragmentary,andintermittent,buttheroomwasfulloftheindescribablestiroflife。Everynowandthenthemoth,whichwasnowgreyofwingandshinyofthorax,whizzedovertheirheads,andhitthelampswithathud。
Ayoungwomanputdownherneedleworkandexclaimed,“Poorcreature!
itwouldbekindertokillit。“Butnobodyseemeddisposedtorousehimselfinordertokillthemoth。Theywatcheditdashfromlamptolamp,becausetheywerecomfortable,andhadnothingtodo。
Onthesofa,besidethechess-players,Mrs。ElliotwasimpartinganewstitchinknittingtoMrs。Thornbury,sothattheirheadscameveryneartogether,andwereonlytobedistinguishedbytheoldlacecapwhichMrs。Thornburyworeintheevening。
Mrs。Elliotwasanexpertatknitting,anddisclaimedacomplimenttothateffectwithevidentpride。
“Isupposewe’reallproudofsomething,“shesaid,“andI’mproudofmyknitting。Ithinkthingslikethatruninfamilies。Weallknitwell。
Ihadanunclewhoknittedhisownsockstothedayofhisdeath——
andhediditbetterthananyofhisdaughters,dearoldgentleman。
NowIwonderthatyou,MissAllan,whouseyoureyessomuch,don’ttakeupknittingintheevenings。You’dfinditsucharelief,Ishouldsay——sucharesttotheeyes——andthebazaarsaresogladofthings。“Hervoicedroppedintothesmoothhalf-conscioustoneoftheexpertknitter;thewordscamegentlyoneafteranother。
“AsmuchasIdoIcanalwaysdisposeof,whichisacomfort,forthenIfeelthatIamnotwastingmytime——“
MissAllan,beingthusaddressed,shuthernovelandobservedtheothersplacidlyforatime。Atlastshesaid,“Itissurelynotnaturaltoleaveyourwifebecauseshehappenstobeinlovewithyou。Butthat——asfarasIcanmakeout——iswhatthegentlemaninmystorydoes。“
“Tut,tut,thatdoesn’tsoundgood——no,thatdoesn’tsoundatallnatural,“murmuredtheknittersintheirabsorbedvoices。
“Still,it’sthekindofbookpeoplecallveryclever,“MissAllanadded。
“_Maternity_——byMichaelJessop——Ipresume,“Mr。Elliotputin,forhecouldneverresistthetemptationoftalkingwhileheplayedchess。
“D’youknow,“saidMrs。Elliot,afteramoment,“Idon’tthinkpeople_do_writegoodnovelsnow——notasgoodastheyusedto,anyhow。“
Noonetookthetroubletoagreewithherortodisagreewithher。
ArthurVenningwhowasstrollingabout,sometimeslookingatthegame,sometimesreadingapageofamagazine,lookedatMissAllan,whowashalfasleep,andsaidhumorously,“Apennyforyourthoughts,MissAllan。“
Theotherslookedup。Theyweregladthathehadnotspokentothem。
ButMissAllanrepliedwithoutanyhesitation,“Iwasthinkingofmyimaginaryuncle。Hasn’teveryonegotanimaginaryuncle?“
shecontinued。“Ihaveone——amostdelightfuloldgentleman。
He’salwaysgivingmethings。Sometimesit’sagoldwatch;
sometimesit’sacarriageandpair;sometimesit’sabeautifullittlecottageintheNewForest;sometimesit’satickettotheplaceImostwanttosee。“
Shesetthemallthinkingvaguelyofthethingstheywanted。
Mrs。Elliotknewexactlywhatshewanted;shewantedachild;
andtheusuallittlepuckerdeepenedonherbrow。
“We’resuchluckypeople,“shesaid,lookingatherhusband。
“Wereallyhavenowants。“Shewasapttosaythis,partlyinordertoconvinceherself,andpartlyinordertoconvinceotherpeople。
ButshewaspreventedfromwonderinghowfarshecarriedconvictionbytheentranceofMr。andMrs。Flushing,whocamethroughthehallandstoppedbythechess-board。Mrs。Flushinglookedwilderthanever。
Agreatstrandofblackhairloopeddownacrossherbrow,hercheekswerewhippedadarkbloodred,anddropsofrainmadewetmarksuponthem。
Mr。Flushingexplainedthattheyhadbeenontheroofwatchingthestorm。
“Itwasawonderfulsight,“hesaid。“Thelightningwentrightoutoverthesea,andlitupthewavesandtheshipsfaraway。
Youcan’tthinkhowwonderfulthemountainslookedtoo,withthelightsonthem,andthegreatmassesofshadow。It’sallovernow。“
Hesliddownintoachair,becominginterestedinthefinalstruggleofthegame。
“Andyougobackto-morrow?“saidMrs。Thornbury,lookingatMrs。Flushing。
“Yes,“shereplied。
“Andindeedoneisnotsorrytogoback,“saidMrs。Elliot,assuminganairofmournfulanxiety,“afterallthisillness。“
“Areyouafraidofdyin’?“Mrs。Flushingdemandedscornfully。
“Ithinkweareallafraidofthat,“saidMrs。Elliotwithdignity。
“Isupposewe’reallcowardswhenitcomestothepoint,“
saidMrs。Flushing,rubbinghercheekagainstthebackofthechair。
“I’msureIam。“
“Notabitofit!“saidMr。Flushing,turninground,forMr。Peppertookaverylongtimetoconsiderhismove。“It’snotcowardlytowishtolive,Alice。It’stheveryreverseofcowardly。
Personally,I’dliketogoonforahundredyears——granted,ofcourse,thatIhadthefulluseofmyfaculties。Thinkofallthethingsthatareboundtohappen!““ThatiswhatIfeel,“Mrs。Thornburyrejoined。
“Thechanges,theimprovements,theinventions——andbeauty。
D’youknowIfeelsometimesthatIcouldn’tbeartodieandceasetoseebeautifulthingsaboutme?“
“ItwouldcertainlybeverydulltodiebeforetheyhavediscoveredwhetherthereislifeinMars,“MissAllanadded。
“Doyoureallybelievethere’slifeinMars?“askedMrs。Flushing,turningtoherforthefirsttimewithkeeninterest。“Whotellsyouthat?Someonewhoknows?D’youknowamancalled——?“
HereMrs。Thornburylaiddownherknitting,andalookofextremesolicitudecameintohereyes。
“ThereisMr。Hirst,“shesaidquietly。
St。Johnhadjustcomethroughtheswingdoor。Hewasratherblownaboutbythewind,andhischeekslookedterriblypale,unshorn,andcavernous。Aftertakingoffhiscoathewasgoingtopassstraightthroughthehallanduptohisroom,buthecouldnotignorethepresenceofsomanypeopleheknew,especiallyasMrs。Thornburyroseandwentuptohim,holdingoutherhand。
Buttheshockofthewarmlamp-litroom,togetherwiththesightofsomanycheerfulhumanbeingssittingtogetherattheirease,afterthedarkwalkintherain,andthelongdaysofstrainandhorror,overcamehimcompletely。HelookedatMrs。Thornburyandcouldnotspeak。
Everyonewassilent。Mr。Pepper’shandstayeduponhisKnight。
Mrs。Thornburysomehowmovedhimtoachair,satherselfbesidehim,andwithtearsinherowneyessaidgently,“Youhavedoneeverythingforyourfriend。“
Heractionsetthemalltalkingagainasiftheyhadneverstopped,andMr。PepperfinishedthemovewithhisKnight。
“Therewasnothingtobedone,“saidSt。John。Hespokeveryslowly。
“Itseemsimpossible——“
Hedrewhishandacrosshiseyesasifsomedreamcamebetweenhimandtheothersandpreventedhimfromseeingwherehewas。
“Andthatpoorfellow,“saidMrs。Thornbury,thetearsfallingagaindownhercheeks。
“Impossible,“St。Johnrepeated。
“Didhehavetheconsolationofknowing——?“Mrs。Thornburybeganverytentatively。
ButSt。Johnmadenoreply。Helaybackinhischair,half-seeingtheothers,half-hearingwhattheysaid。Hewasterriblytired,andthelightandwarmth,themovementsofthehands,andthesoftcommunicativevoicessoothedhim;theygavehimastrangesenseofquietandrelief。Ashesatthere,motionless,thisfeelingofreliefbecameafeelingofprofoundhappiness。WithoutanysenseofdisloyaltytoTerenceandRachelheceasedtothinkabouteitherofthem。Themovementsandthevoicesseemedtodrawtogetherfromdifferentpartsoftheroom,andtocombinethemselvesintoapatternbeforehiseyes;hewascontenttositsilentlywatchingthepatternbuilditselfup,lookingatwhathehardlysaw。
Thegamewasreallyagoodone,andMr。PepperandMr。Elliotwerebecomingmoreandmoresetuponthestruggle。Mrs。Thornbury,seeingthatSt。Johndidnotwishtotalk,resumedherknitting。
“Lightningagain!“Mrs。Flushingsuddenlyexclaimed。Ayellowlightflashedacrossthebluewindow,andforasecondtheysawthegreentreesoutside。Shestrodetothedoor,pusheditopen,andstoodhalfoutintheopenair。
Butthelightwasonlythereflectionofthestormwhichwasover。
Therainhadceased,theheavycloudswereblownaway,andtheairwasthinandclear,althoughvapourishmistswerebeingdrivenswiftlyacrossthemoon。Theskywasoncemoreadeepandsolemnblue,andtheshapeoftheearthwasvisibleatthebottomoftheair,enormous,dark,andsolid,risingintothetaperingmassofthemountain,andprickedhereandthereontheslopesbythetinylightsofvillas。
Thedrivingair,thedroneofthetrees,andtheflashinglightwhichnowandagainspreadabroadilluminationovertheearthfilledMrs。Flushingwithexultation。Herbreastsroseandfell。
“Splendid!Splendid!“shemutteredtoherself。Thensheturnedbackintothehallandexclaimedinaperemptoryvoice,“Comeoutsideandsee,Wilfrid;it’swonderful。“
Somehalf-stirred;somerose;somedroppedtheirballsofwoolandbegantostooptolookforthem。
“Tobed——tobed,“saidMissAllan。
“ItwasthemovewithyourQueenthatgaveitaway,Pepper,“
exclaimedMr。Elliottriumphantly,sweepingthepiecestogetherandstandingup。Hehadwonthegame。
“What?Pepperbeatenatlast?Icongratulateyou!“saidArthurVenning,whowaswheelingoldMrs。Paleytobed。
AllthesevoicessoundedgratefullyinSt。John’searsashelayhalf-asleep,andyetvividlyconsciousofeverythingaroundhim。
Acrosshiseyespassedaprocessionofobjects,blackandindistinct,thefiguresofpeoplepickinguptheirbooks,theircards,theirballsofwool,theirwork-baskets,andpassinghimoneafteranotherontheirwaytobed。
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