Voiceswereheardattheendofthecorridor。Mrs。Ambrosewasspeakinglow;WilliamPepperwasremarkinginhisdefiniteandratheracidvoice,“ThatisthetypeofladywithwhomIfindmyselfdistinctlyoutofsympathy。She——“
ButneitherRichardnorClarissaprofitedbytheverdict,fordirectlyitseemedlikelythattheywouldoverhear,Richardcrackledasheetofpaper。
“Ioftenwonder,“Clarissamusedinbed,overthelittlewhitevolumeofPascalwhichwentwithhereverywhere,“whetheritisreallygoodforawomantolivewithamanwhoismorallyhersuperior,asRichardismine。Itmakesonesodependent。IsupposeIfeelforhimwhatmymotherandwomenofhergenerationfeltforChrist。
Itjustshowsthatonecan’tdowithout_something_。“Shethenfellintoasleep,whichwasasusualextremelysoundandrefreshing,butvisitedbyfantasticdreamsofgreatGreeklettersstalkingroundtheroom,whenshewokeupandlaughedtoherself,rememberingwhereshewasandthattheGreekletterswererealpeople,lyingasleepnotmanyyardsaway。Then,thinkingoftheblackseaoutsidetossingbeneaththemoon,sheshuddered,andthoughtofherhusbandandtheothersascompanionsonthevoyage。
Thedreamswerenotconfinedtoherindeed,butwentfromonebraintoanother。Theyalldreamtofeachotherthatnight,aswasnatural,consideringhowthinthepartitionswerebetweenthem,andhowstrangelytheyhadbeenliftedofftheearthtositnexteachotherinmid-ocean,andseeeverydetailofeachother’sfaces,andhearwhatevertheychancedtosay。
NextmorningClarissawasupbeforeanyoneelse。Shedressed,andwasoutondeck,breathingthefreshairofacalmmorning,and,makingthecircuitoftheshipforthesecondtime,sheranstraightintotheleanpersonofMr。Grice,thesteward。
Sheapologised,andatthesametimeaskedhimtoenlightenher:
whatwerethoseshinybrassstandsfor,halfglassonthetop?
Shehadbeenwondering,andcouldnotguess。Whenhehaddoneexplaining,shecriedenthusiastically:
“Idothinkthattobeasailormustbethefinestthingintheworld!“
“Andwhatd’youknowaboutit?“saidMr。Grice,kindlinginastrangemanner。“Pardonme。WhatdoesanymanorwomanbroughtupinEnglandknowaboutthesea?Theyprofesstoknow;buttheydon’t。“
Thebitternesswithwhichhespokewasominousofwhatwastocome。
Heledherofftohisownquarters,and,sittingontheedgeofabrass-boundtable,lookinguncommonlylikeasea-gull,withherwhitetaperingbodyandthinalertface,Mrs。Dallowayhadtolistentothetiradeofafanaticalman。Didsherealise,tobeginwith,whataverysmallpartoftheworldthelandwas?
Howpeaceful,howbeautiful,howbenignantincomparisonthesea?
ThedeepwaterscouldsustainEuropeunaidedifeveryearthlyanimaldiedoftheplagueto-morrow。Mr。Gricerecalleddreadfulsightswhichhehadseenintherichestcityoftheworld——menandwomenstandinginlinehourafterhourtoreceiveamugofgreasysoup。
“AndIthoughtofthegoodfleshdownherewaitingandaskingtobecaught。I’mnotexactlyaProtestant,andI’mnotaCatholic,butIcouldalmostprayforthedaysofpoperytocomeagain——
becauseofthefasts。“
Ashetalkedhekeptopeningdrawersandmovinglittleglassjars。
Herewerethetreasureswhichthegreatoceanhadbestoweduponhim——
palefishingreenishliquids,blobsofjellywithstreamingtresses,fishwithlightsintheirheads,theylivedsodeep。
“Theyhaveswumaboutamongbones,“Clarissasighed。
“You’rethinkingofShakespeare,“saidMr。Grice,andtakingdownacopyfromashelfwelllinedwithbooks,recitedinanemphaticnasalvoice:
Fullfathomfivethyfatherlies,“Agrandfellow,Shakespeare,“hesaid,replacingthevolume。
Clarissawassogladtohearhimsayso。
“Whichisyourfavouriteplay?Iwonderifit’sthesameasmine?“
“_HenrytheFifth_,“saidMr。Grice。
“Joy!“criedClarissa。“Itis!“
_Hamlet_waswhatyoumightcalltoointrospectiveforMr。Grice,thesonnetstoopassionate;HenrytheFifthwastohimthemodelofanEnglishgentleman。ButhisfavouritereadingwasHuxley,HerbertSpencer,andHenryGeorge;whileEmersonandThomasHardyhereadforrelaxation。HewasgivingMrs。DallowayhisviewsuponthepresentstateofEnglandwhenthebreakfastbellrungsoimperiouslythatshehadtotearherselfaway,promisingtocomebackandbeshownhissea-weeds。
Theparty,whichhadseemedsooddtoherthenightbefore,wasalreadygatheredroundthetable,stillundertheinfluenceofsleep,andthereforeuncommunicative,butherentrancesentalittleflutterlikeabreathofairthroughthemall。
“I’vehadthemostinterestingtalkofmylife!“sheexclaimed,takingherseatbesideWilloughby。“D’yourealisethatoneofyourmenisaphilosopherandapoet?“
“Averyinterestingfellow——that’swhatIalwayssay,“saidWilloughby,distinguishingMr。Grice。“ThoughRachelfindshimabore。“
“He’saborewhenhetalksaboutcurrents,“saidRachel。Hereyeswerefullofsleep,butMrs。Dallowaystillseemedtoherwonderful。
“I’venevermetaboreyet!“saidClarissa。
“AndIshouldsaytheworldwasfullofthem!“exclaimedHelen。
Butherbeauty,whichwasradiantinthemorninglight,tookthecontrarinessfromherwords。
“Iagreethatit’stheworstonecanpossiblysayofanyone,“
saidClarissa。“Howmuchratheronewouldbeamurdererthanabore!“
sheadded,withherusualairofsayingsomethingprofound。
“Onecanfancylikingamurderer。It’sthesamewithdogs。
Somedogsareawfulbores,poordears。“
IthappenedthatRichardwassittingnexttoRachel。Shewascuriouslyconsciousofhispresenceandappearance——hiswell-cutclothes,hiscracklingshirt-front,hiscuffswithblueringsroundthem,andthesquare-tipped,verycleanfingerswiththeredstoneonthelittlefingerofthelefthand。
“Wehadadogwhowasaboreandknewit,“hesaid,addressingherincool,easytones。“HewasaSkyeterrier,oneofthoselongchaps,withlittlefeetpokingoutfromtheirhairlike——
likecaterpillars——no,likesofasIshouldsay。Well,wehadanotherdogatthesametime,ablackbriskanimal——aSchipperke,Ithink,youcallthem。Youcan’timagineagreatercontrast。TheSkyesoslowanddeliberate,lookingupatyoulikesomeoldgentlemanintheclub,asmuchastosay,“Youdon’treallymeanit,doyou?“
andtheSchipperkeasquickasaknife。IlikedtheSkyebest,Imustconfess。Therewassomethingpatheticabouthim。“
Thestoryseemedtohavenoclimax。
“Whathappenedtohim?“Rachelasked。
“That’saverysadstory,“saidRichard,loweringhisvoiceandpeelinganapple。“Hefollowedmywifeinthecaronedayandgotrunoverbyabruteofacyclist。“
“Washekilled?“askedRachel。
ButClarissaatherendofthetablehadoverheard。
“Don’ttalkofit!“shecried。“It’sathingIcan’tbeartothinkoftothisday。“
Surelythetearsstoodinhereyes?
“That’sthepainfulthingaboutpets,“saidMr。Dalloway;“theydie。
ThefirstsorrowIcanrememberwasforthedeathofadormouse。
IregrettosaythatIsatuponit。Still,thatdidn’tmakeoneanythelesssorry。HereliestheduckthatSamuelJohnsonsaton,eh?
Iwasbigformyage。“
“Thenwehadcanaries,“hecontinued,“apairofring-doves,alemur,andatonetimeamartin。“
“Didyouliveinthecountry?“Rachelaskedhim。
“Welivedinthecountryforsixmonthsoftheyear。WhenIsay’we’Imeanfoursisters,abrother,andmyself。There’snothinglikecomingofalargefamily。Sistersparticularlyaredelightful。“
“Dick,youwerehorriblyspoilt!“criedClarissaacrossthetable。
“No,no。Appreciated,“saidRichard。
Rachelhadotherquestionsonthetipofhertongue;orratheroneenormousquestion,whichshedidnotintheleastknowhowtoputintowords。Thetalkappearedtooairytoadmitofit。
“Pleasetellme——everything。“Thatwaswhatshewantedtosay。
Hehaddrawnapartonelittlechinkandshowedastonishingtreasures。
Itseemedtoherincrediblethatamanlikethatshouldbewillingtotalktoher。Hehadsistersandpets,andoncelivedinthecountry。
Shestirredhertearoundandround;thebubbleswhichswamandclusteredinthecupseemedtoherliketheunionoftheirminds。
Thetalkmeanwhileracedpasther,andwhenRichardsuddenlystatedinajoculartoneofvoice,“I’msureMissVinrace,now,hassecretleaningstowardsCatholicism,“shehadnoideawhattoanswer,andHelencouldnothelplaughingatthestartshegave。
However,breakfastwasoverandMrs。Dallowaywasrising。
“Ialwaysthinkreligion’slikecollectingbeetles,“shesaid,summingupthediscussionasshewentupthestairswithHelen。
“Onepersonhasapassionforblackbeetles;anotherhasn’t;it’snogoodarguingaboutit。What’s_your_blackbeetlenow?“
“Isupposeit’smychildren,“saidHelen。
“Ah——that’sdifferent,“Clarissabreathed。“Dotellme。
Youhaveaboy,haven’tyou?Isn’titdetestable,leavingthem?“
Itwasasthoughablueshadowhadfallenacrossapool。
Theireyesbecamedeeper,andtheirvoicesmorecordial。
Insteadofjoiningthemastheybegantopacethedeck,Rachelwasindignantwiththeprosperousmatrons,whomadeherfeeloutsidetheirworldandmotherless,andturningback,sheleftthemabruptly。
Sheslammedthedoorofherroom,andpulledouthermusic。
Itwasalloldmusic——BachandBeethoven,MozartandPurcell——
thepagesyellow,theengravingroughtothefinger。Inthreeminutesshewasdeepinaverydifficult,veryclassicalfugueinA,andoverherfacecameaqueerremoteimpersonalexpressionofcompleteabsorptionandanxioussatisfaction。Nowshestumbled;
nowshefalteredandhadtoplaythesamebartwiceover;butaninvisiblelineseemedtostringthenotestogether,fromwhichroseashape,abuilding。Shewassofarabsorbedinthiswork,foritwasreallydifficulttofindhowallthesesoundsshouldstandtogether,anddrewuponthewholeofherfaculties,thatsheneverheardaknockatthedoor。Itwasburstimpulsivelyopen,andMrs。Dallowaystoodintheroomleavingthedooropen,sothatastripofthewhitedeckandoftheblueseaappearedthroughtheopening。TheshapeoftheBachfuguecrashedtotheground。
“Don’tletmeinterrupt,“Clarissaimplored。“Iheardyouplaying,andIcouldn’tresist。IadoreBach!“
Rachelflushedandfumbledherfingersinherlap。Shestoodupawkwardly。
“It’stoodifficult,“shesaid。
“Butyouwereplayingquitesplendidly!Ioughttohavestayedoutside。“
“No,“saidRachel。
Sheslid_Cowper’s__Letters_and_Wuthering__Heights_outofthearm-chair,sothatClarissawasinvitedtositthere。
“Whatadearlittleroom!“shesaid,lookinground。
“Oh,_Cowper’s__Letters>!“I’veneverreadthem。Aretheynice?“
“Ratherdull,“saidRachel。
“Hewroteawfullywell,didn’the?“saidClarissa;“——ifonelikesthatkindofthing——finishedhissentencesandallthat。
_Wuthering__Heights_!Ah——that’smoreinmyline。Ireallycouldn’texistwithouttheBrontes!Don’tyoulovethem?Still,onthewhole,I’dratherlivewithoutthemthanwithoutJaneAusten。“
Lightlyandatrandomthoughshespoke,hermannerconveyedanextraordinarydegreeofsympathyanddesiretobefriend。
“JaneAusten?Idon’tlikeJaneAusten,“saidRachel。
“Youmonster!“Clarissaexclaimed。“Icanonlyjustforgiveyou。