haveotherbusinesstoattendtojustnowthansuchdeath-bedgossip。
Thesethingsdonotcometomyears。“
IlookedatIreneandIrenelookedatme。
“Augusta,“Isaid,“Idonotbelieveyourstory。NospearwoundedHeliodorewhileIwasnearher,andwhenIwasnotnearheryourGreeksweretoofarawayforanyspearstobethrown。Indeed,unlessyoustabbedhersecretly,shewasnotwounded,andIamsurethat,howevermuchyouhavehatedher,thisyouwouldnothavedaredtodoforyourownlife’ssake。Augusta,foryourownpurposesyouaretryingtodeceiveme。Iwillnotmarryyou。Doyourworst。YouhaveliedtomeaboutthewomanwhomIlove,andthoughIforgiveyoualltherest,thisIdonotforgive。YouknowwellthatHeliodorestilllivesbeneaththesun。“
“Ifso,“answeredtheEmpress,“youhavelookedyourlastuponthesunand——her。NeveragainshallyoubeholdthebeautyofHeliodore。Haveyouaughttosay?Thereisstilltime。“
“Nothing,Augusta,atpresent,exceptthis。OflateIhavelearnedtobelieveinaGod。IsummonyoutomeetmebeforethatGod。TherewewillargueoutourcaseandabideHisjudgment。IfthereisnoGodtherewillbenojudgment,andIsaluteyou,Empress,whotriumph。If,asIbelieveandasyousayyoubelieve,thereisaGod,thinkwhom/you/willbecalledupontosalutewhenthatGodhasheardthetruth。
MeanwhileIrepeatthatHeliodoretheEgyptianstilllivesbeneaththesun。“
Irenerosefromthestoolonwhichshesatandthoughtamoment。I
gazedthroughthebarsofthewindow-placeinmycelloutatthenightabove。Ayoungmoonwasfloatinginthesky,andneartoithungastar。Alittlepassingcloudwithadentededgedriftedoverthestarandthelowerhornofthemoon。Itwentby,andtheyshoneoutagainuponthebackgroundoftheblueheavens。Alsoanowlflittedacrossthewindow-placeofmycell。Ithadamouseinitsbeak,andtheshadowofitandofthewrithingmouseforamomentlayuponIrene’sbreast,forIturnedmyheadandsawthem。Itcameintomymindthatherewasanallegory。Irenewasthenight-hawk,andIwasthewrithingmousethatfeditsappetite。Doubtlessitwasdecreedthattheowlmustbeandthemousemustbe,butbeyondthemboth,hiddeninthoseblueheavens,stoodthatJusticewhichwecallGod。
ThesewerethelastthingsthatIsawinthislifeofmine,andthereforeIrememberthemwell,orrather,almostthelast。TheverylastofwhichItooknotewasIrene’sface。Ithadgrownliketothatofadevil。Thegreateyesinitstaredoutbetweenthepuffedandpurpleeyelids。Thepaintedcheekshadsunkinandwerepallidbeneathandroundthepaint。Theteethshowedintwowhitelines,thechinworked。Shewasnolongerabeautifulwoman,shewasafiend。
Ireneknockedthriceuponthedoor。Boltswerethrownback,andmenentered。
“Blindhim!“shesaid。
Thedaysandthenightswentby,butwhichwasdayandwhichwasnightIknewnot,saveforthevisitsofthejailerswithmymeals——Iwhowasblind,Iwhoshouldneverseethelightagain。AtfirstIsufferedmuch,butbydegreesthepaindiedaway。Alsoaphysiciancametotendmyhurts,askilfulman。SoonIdiscovered,however,thathehadanotherobject。Hepitiedmystate,somuch,indeed,hesaid,thatheofferedtosupplymewithadrugthat,ifIwerewillingtotakeit,wouldmakeanendofmepainlessly。NowIunderstoodatoncethatIrenedesiredmydeath,and,fearingtocauseit,setthemeansofself-murderwithinmyreach。
Ithankedthemanandbeggedhimtogivemethedrug,whichhedid,whereonIhiditawayinmygarments。WhenitwasseenthatIstilllivedalthoughIhadaskedforthemedicine,IthinkthatIrenebelievedthiswasbecauseithadfailedtowork,orthatsuchameansofdeathdidnotpleaseme。Soshefoundanother。Oneeveningwhenajailerbroughtmysupperhepressedsomethingheavyintomyhand,whichIfelttobeasword。
“Whatweaponisthis?“Iasked,“andwhydoyougiveittome?“
“Itisyourownsword,“answeredtheman,“whichIwascommandedtoreturntoyou。Iknownomore。“
Thenhewentaway,leavingtheswordwithme。
Idrewthefamiliarbladefromitssheath,theredbladethattheWandererhadworn,andtouchingitskeenedgewithmyfingers,weptfrommyblindedeyestothinkthatneveragaincouldIholditaloftinwarorseethelightflashfromitasIsmote。Yes,Iweptinmyweakness,tillIrememberedthatIhadnolongeranywishtobethedeathofmen。SoIsheathedthegoodswordandhiditbeneathmymattresslestsomejailershouldstealit,which,asIcouldnotseehim,hemightdoeasily。AlsoIdesiredtoputawaytemptation。
Ithinkthatthishourafterthebringingofthesword,whichstirredupsomanymemories,wasthemostfearfulofallmyhours,sofearfulthat,haditbeenprolonged,deathwouldhavecometomeofitsownaccord。Ihadsunktomisery’slowestdeep,whodidnotknowthateventhenitstidewasturning,whocouldnotdreamofalltheblessedyearsthatlaybeforeme,theyearsofloveandofsuchpeacefuljoyaseventheblindmaywin。
ThatnightMartinacame——Martina,whowasHope’sharbinger。Iheardthedoorofmyprisonopenandclosesoftly,andsatstill,wonderingwhetherthemurderershadenteredatlast,wondering,too,whetherI
shouldsnatchtheswordandstrikeblindlytillIfell。NextIheardanothersound,thatofawomanweeping;yes,andfeltmyhandliftedandpressedtoawoman’slips,whichkisseditagainandyetagain。A
thoughtstruckme,andIbegantodrawitback。Asoftvoicespokebetweenitssobs。
“Havenofear,Olaf。IamMartina。Oh,nowIunderstandwhyyondertigresssentmeonthatdistantmission。“
“Howdidyoucomehere,Martina?“Iasked。
“Istillhavethesignet,Olaf,whichIrene,whobeginstomistrustme,forgets。OnlythismorningIlearnedthetruthonmyreturntothepalace;yetIhavenotbeenidle。WithinanhourJoddandtheNorthmenknewitalso。Withinthreetheyhadblindedeveryhostagewhomtheyheld,aye,andcaughttwoofthebruteswhodidthedeedonyou,andcrucifiedthemupontheirbarrackwalls。“
“Oh!Martina,“Ibrokein,“Ididnotdesirethatotherswhoareinnocentshouldsharemywoes。“
“NordidI,Olaf;buttheseNorthmenareilltoplaywith。Moreover,inasenseitwasneedful。YoudonotknowwhatIhavelearned——thatto-morrowIreneproposedtoslityourtonguealsobecauseyoucantelltoomuch,andafterwardstocutoffyourrighthandlestyou,whoarelearned,shouldwritedownwhatyouknow。ItoldtheNorthmen——nevermindhow。Theysentaherald,aGreekwhomtheyhadcaptured,and,coveringhimwitharrows,madehimcalloutthatifyourtonguewasslittheywouldknowofitandslitthetonguesofallthehostagesalso,andthatifyourhandwascutofftheycouldcutofftheirhands,andtakeanothervengeancewhichforthepresenttheykeepsecret。“
“Atleasttheyarefaithful,“Isaid。“But,oh!tellme,Martina,whatofHeliodore?“
“This,“shewhisperedintomyear。“Heliodoreandherfathersailedanhouraftersunsetandarenowsafeuponthesea,boundforEgypt。“
“ThenIwasright!WhenIrenetoldmeshewasdeadshelied。“
“Aye,ifshesaidthatshelied,thoughthriceshehasstriventomurderher,Ihavenotimetotellyouhow,butwasalwaysbaffledbythosewhowatched。Yetshemighthavesucceededatlast,so,althoughHeliodorefoughtagainstit,itwasbestthatsheshouldgo。Thosewhoarepartedmaymeetagain;buthowcanwemeetonewhoisdeaduntilwetooaredead?“
“Howdidshego?“
“Smuggledfromthecitydisguisedasaboyattendingonapriest,andthatpriestherfathershornofhisbeardandtonsured。TheBishopBarnabaspassedthemoutinhisfollowing。“
“ThenblessingsontheBishopBarnabas,“Isaid。
“Aye,blessingsonhim,sincewithouthishelpitcouldneverhavebeendone。Thesecretagentsattheportstaredhardatthosetwo,althoughthegoodbishopvouchedforthemandgavetheirnamesandoffices。Still,whentheysawsomerough-lookingfellowsdressedlikesailorsapproach,playingwiththehandlesoftheirknives,theagentsthoughtwelltoasknomorequestions。Moreover,nowthattheshiphassailed,fortheirownsakesthey’llswearthatnosuchpriestandboywentaboardofher。SoyourHeliodoreisawayunharmed,asisherfather,thoughhismissionhascometonaught。Still,hislifeisleftinhim,forwhichhemaybethankful,whoonsuchabusinessshouldhavebroughtnowoman。Ifhehadcomealone,Olaf,youreyeswouldhavebeenlefttoyou,andsetbynowupontheorbofempirethatyourhandhadgrasped。“
“YetIamgladthathedidnotcomealone,Martina。“
“Trulyyouhaveahighandfaithfulheart,andthatwomanshouldbehonouredwhomyoulove。Whatisthesecret?Theremustbemoreinitthanthemeredesireforawoman’sbeauty,thoughIknowthatattimesthiscanmakemenmad。Insuchabusinessthesoulmustplayitspart。“
“Ithinkso,Martina。Indeed,Ibelieveso,sinceotherwisewesuffermuchinvain。Nowtellme,howandwhendoIdie?“
“Ihopeyouwillnotdieatall,Olaf。CertainplansarelaidwhichevenhereIdarenotwhisper。To-morrowIheartheywillleadyouagainbeforethejudges,who,byIrene’sclemency,willchangeyoursentencetooneofbanishment,withsecretorderstokillyouonthevoyage。Butyouwillnevermakethatvoyage。Otherschemesareafoot;
you’lllearnofthemafterwards。“
“Yet,Martina,ifyouknowtheseplotstheAugustaknowsthemalso,sinceyouandsheareone。“