Andthenwhentheyhaddiscussedallthis,whenthefatherhadtoldalltothechild,shecouldnotbelessconfidingthanhehadbeen;andasJohnBold’snamewasmentionedbetweenthem,sheownedhowwellshehadlearnedtolovehim——’hadlovedhimonce,’shesaid,’butshewouldnot,couldnotdosonow——no,evenhadhertrothbeenplightedtohim,shewouldhavetakenitbackagain——hadshesworntolovehimashiswife,shewouldhavediscardedhim,andnotfeltherselfforsworn,whenheprovedhimselftheenemyofherfather。’
ButthewardendeclaredthatBoldwasnoenemyofhis,andencouragedherlove;andgentlyrebuked,ashekissedher,thesternresolveshehadmadetocasthimoff;andthenhespoketoherofhappierdayswhentheirtrialswouldallbeover;anddeclaredthatheryoungheartshouldnotbetornasundertopleaseeitherpriestorprelate,deanorarchdeacon。
No,notifallOxfordweretoconvocatetogether,andagreeastothenecessityofthesacrifice。
Andsotheygreatlycomfortedeachother——andinwhatsorrowwillnotsuchmutualconfidencegiveconsolation!——
andwithalastexpressionoftenderlovetheyparted,andwentcomparativelyhappytotheirrooms。
IphigeniaWhenEleanorlaidherheadonherpillowthatnight,hermindwasanxiouslyintentonsomeplanbywhichshemightextricateherfatherfromhismisery;and,inherwarm-heartedenthusiasm,self-sacrificewasdecidedonasthemeanstobeadopted。WasnotsogoodanAgamemnonworthyofanIphigenia?ShewouldherselfpersonallyimploreJohnBoldtodesistfromhisundertaking;shewouldexplaintohimherfather’ssorrows,thecruelmiseryofhisposition;
shewouldtellhimhowherfatherwoulddieifhewerethusdraggedbeforethepublicandexposedtosuchunmeritedignominy;shewouldappealtohisoldfriendship,tohisgenerosity,tohismanliness,tohismercy;ifneedwere,shewouldkneeltohimforthefavourshewouldask;butbeforeshedidthistheideaoflovemustbebanished。Theremustbenobargaininthematter。Tohismercy,tohisgenerosity,shecouldappeal;butasapuremaiden,hithertoevenunsolicited,shecouldnotappealtohislove,norundersuchcircumstancescouldsheallowhimtodoso。Ofcourse,whensoprovokedhewoulddeclarehispassion;thatwastobeexpected;therehadbeenenoughbetweenthemtomakesuchafactsure;butitwasequallycertainthathemustberejected。Shecouldnotbeunderstoodassaying,MakemyfatherfreeandIamthereward。Therewouldbenosacrificeinthat——notsohadJephthah’sdaughtersavedherfather——
notsocouldsheshowtothatkindest,dearestofparentshowmuchshewasabletobearforhisgood。No;tooneresolvemustherwholesoulbebound;andsoresolving,shefeltthatshecouldmakehergreatrequesttoBoldwithasmuchself-
assuredconfidenceasshecouldhavedonetohisgrandfather。
AndnowIownIhavefearsformyheroine;notastotheupshotofhermission——notintheleastastothat;astothefullsuccessofhergenerousscheme,andtheultimateresultofsuchaproject,nooneconversantwithhumannatureandnovelscanhaveadoubt;butastotheamountofsympathyshemayreceivefromthoseofherownsex。Girlsbelowtwentyandoldladiesabovesixtywilldoherjustice;forinthefemaleheartthesoftspringsofsweetromancereopenaftermanyyears,andagaingushoutwithwaterspureasinearlierdays,andgreatlyrefreshthepaththatleadsdownwardstothegrave。ButIfearthatthemajorityofthosebetweenthesetwoeraswillnotapproveofEleanor’splan。Ifearthatunmarriedladiesofthirty-fivewilldeclarethattherecanbenoprobabilityofsoabsurdaprojectbeingcarriedthrough;thatyoungwomenontheirkneesbeforetheirloversaresuretogetkissed,andthattheywouldnotputthemselvesinsuchapositiondidtheynotexpectit;
thatEleanorisgoingtoBoldonlybecausecircumstancespreventBoldfromcomingtoher;thatsheiscertainlyalittlefool,oralittleschemer,butthatinallprobabilitysheisthinkingagooddealmoreaboutherselfthanherfather。
Dearladies,youarerightastoyourappreciationofthecircumstances,butverywrongastoMissHarding’scharacter。
MissHardingwasmuchyoungerthanyouare,andcouldnot,therefore,know,asyoumaydo,towhatdangerssuchanencountermightexposeher。Shemaygetkissed;Ithinkitveryprobablethatshewill;butIgivemysolemnwordandpositiveassurance,thattheremotestideaofsuchacatastropheneveroccurredtoherasshemadethegreatresolvenowalludedto。
Andthensheslept;andthensheroserefreshed;andmetherfatherwithherkindestembraceandmostlovingsmiles;
andonthewholetheirbreakfastwasbynomeanssotristeashadbeentheirdinnerthedaybefore;andthen,makingsomeexcusetoherfatherforsosoonleavinghim,shestartedonthecommencementofheroperations。
SheknewthatJohnBoldwasinLondon,andthat,therefore,thesceneitselfcouldnotbeenactedtoday;butshealsoknewthathewassoontobehome,probablyonthenextday,anditwasnecessarythatsomelittleplanformeetinghimshouldbeconcertedwithhissisterMary。Whenshegotuptothehouse,shewent,asusual,intothemorningsitting-room,andwasstartledbyperceiving,byastick,agreatcoat,andsundryparcelswhichwerelyingabout,thatBoldmustalreadyhavereturned。
’Johnhascomebacksosuddenly,’saidMary,comingintotheroom;’hehasbeentravellingallnight。’
’ThenI’llcomeupagainsomeothertime,’saidEleanor,abouttobeataretreatinhersuddendismay。
’He’soutnow,andwillbeforthenexttwohours,’saidtheother;’he’swiththathorridFinney;heonlycametoseehim,andhereturnsbythemailtraintonight。’
Returnsbythemailtraintonight,thoughtEleanortoherself,asshestrovetoscrewuphercourage——awayagaintonight——thenitmustbenowornever;andsheagainsatdown,havingrisentogo。
Shewishedtheordealcouldhavebeenpostponed:shehadfullymadeuphermindtodothedeed,butshehadnotmadeuphermindtodoitthisveryday;andnowshefeltillatease,astray,andindifficulty。
’Mary,’shebegan,’Imustseeyourbrotherbeforehegoesback。’
’Ohyes,ofcourse,’saidtheother;’Iknowhe’llbedelightedtoseeyou’;andshetriedtotreatitasamatterofcourse,butshewasnotthelesssurprised;forMaryandEleanorhaddailytalkedoverJohnBoldandhisconduct,andhislove,andMarywouldinsistoncallingEleanorhersister,andwouldscoldherfornotcallingBoldbyhisChristianname;andEleanorwouldhalfconfessherlove,butlikeamodestmaidenwouldprotestagainstsuchfamiliaritiesevenwiththenameofherlover;andsotheytalkedhourafterhour,andMaryBold,whowasmuchtheelder,lookedforwardwithhappyconfidencetothedaywhenEleanorwouldnotbeashamedtocallherhersister。
Shewas,however,fullysurethatjustatpresentEleanorwouldbemuchmorelikelytoavoidherbrotherthantoseekhim。
’Mary,Imustseeyourbrother,now,today,andbegfromhimagreatfavour’;andshespokewithasolemnair,notatallusualtoher;andthenshewenton,andopenedtoherfriendallherplan,herwell-weighedschemeforsavingherfatherfromasorrowwhichwould,shesaid,ifitlasted,bringhimtohisgrave。’But,Mary,’shecontinued,’youmustnow,youknow,ceaseanyjokingaboutmeandMrBold;youmustnowsaynomoreaboutthat;Iamnotashamedtobegthisfavourfromyourbrother,butwhenIhavedoneso,therecanneverbeanythingfurtherbetweenus’;andthisshesaidwithastaidandsolemnair,quiteworthyofJephthah’sdaughterorofIphigeniaeither。
ItwasquiteclearthatMaryBolddidnotfollowtheargument。
ThatEleanorHardingshouldappeal,onbehalfofherfather,toBold’sbetterfeelingsseemedtoMaryquitenatural;itseemedquitenaturalthatheshouldrelent,overcomebysuchfilialtears,andbysomuchbeauty;but,toherthinking,itwasatanyrateequallynatural,thathavingrelented,Johnshouldputhisarmroundhismistress’swaist,andsay:’Nowhavingsettledthat,letusbemanandwife,andallwillendhappily!’Whyhisgoodnatureshouldnotberewarded,whensuchrewardwouldoperatetothedisadvantageofnone,Mary,whohadmoresensethanromance,couldnotunderstand;
andshesaidasmuch。
Eleanor,however,wasfirm,andmadequiteaneloquentspeechtosupportherownviewofthequestion:shecouldnotcondescend,shesaid,toasksuchafavouronanyothertermsthanthoseproposed。Marymight,perhaps,thinkherhigh-
flown,butshehadherownideas,andshecouldnotsubmittosacrificeherself-respect。
’ButIamsureyoulovehim——don’tyou?’pleadedMary;
’andIamsurehelovesyoubetterthananythingintheworld。’
Eleanorwasgoingtomakeanotherspeech,butatearcametoeacheye,andshecouldnot;soshepretendedtoblowhernose,andwalkedtothewindow,andmadealittleinwardcallonherowncourage,andfindingherselfsomewhatsustained,saidsententiously:’Mary,thisisnonsense。’
’Butyoudolovehim,’saidMary,whohadfollowedherfriendtothewindow,andnowspokewithherarmsclosewoundroundtheother’swaist。’Youdolovehimwithallyourheart——youknowyoudo;Idefyyoutodenyit。’
’I——’commencedEleanor,turningsharplyroundtorefutethecharge;buttheintendedfalsehoodstuckinherthroat,andnevercametoutterance。Shecouldnotdenyherlove,soshetookplentifullytotears,andleantuponherfriend’sbosomandsobbedthere,andprotestedthat,loveornolove,itwouldmakenodifferenceinherresolve,andcalledMary,athousandtimes,themostcruelofgirls,andsworehertosecrecybyahundredoaths,andendedbydeclaringthatthegirlwhocouldbetrayherfriend’slove,eventoabrother,wouldbeasblackatraitorasasoldierinagarrisonwhoshouldopenthecitygatestotheenemy。Whiletheywereyetdiscussingthematter,Boldreturned,andEleanorwasforcedintosuddenaction:shehadeithertoaccomplishorabandonherplan;andhavingslippedintoherfriend’sbedroom,asthegentlemanclosedthehalldoor,shewashedthemarksoftearsfromhereyes,andresolvedwithinherselftogothroughwithit。’TellhimIamhere,’saidshe,’andcomingin;andmind,whateveryoudo,don’tleaveus。’SoMaryinformedherbrother,withasomewhatsombreair,thatMissHardingwasinthenextroom,andwascomingtospeaktohim。