Eleanorwascertainlythinkingmoreofherfatherthanherself,asshearrangedherhairbeforetheglass,andremovedthetracesofsorrowfromherface;andyetIshouldbeuntrueifIsaidthatshewasnotanxioustoappearwellbeforeherlover:
whyelsewasshesosedulouswiththatstubborncurlthatwouldrebelagainstherhand,andsmoothsoeagerlyherruffledribands?whyelsedidshedamphereyestodispeltheredness,andbiteherprettylipstobringbackthecolour?Ofcourseshewasanxioustolookherbest,forshewasbutamortalangelafterall。Buthadshebeenimmortal,hadsheflittedbacktothesitting-roomonacherub’swings,shecouldnothavehadamorefaithfulheart,oratruerwishtosaveherfatheratanycosttoherself。
JohnBoldhadnotmethersincethedaywhenshelefthimindudgeoninthecathedralclose。Sincethathiswholetimehadbeenoccupiedinpromotingthecauseagainstherfather,andnotunsuccessfully。Hehadoftenthoughtofher,andturnedoverinhismindahundredschemesforshowingherhowdisinterestedwashislove。Hewouldwritetoherandbeseechhernottoallowtheperformanceofapublicdutytoinjurehiminherestimation;hewouldwritetoMrHarding,explainallhisviews,andboldlyclaimthewarden’sdaughter,urgingthattheuntowardcircumstancesbetweenthemneedbenobartotheirancientfriendship,ortoaclosertie;hewouldthrowhimselfonhiskneesbeforehismistress;hewouldwaitandmarrythedaughterwhenthefatherhaslosthishomeandhisincome;hewouldgiveupthelawsuitandgotoAustralia,withherofcourse,leavingTheJupiterandMrFinneytocompletethecasebetweenthem。Sometimesashewokeinthemorningfeveredandimpatient,hewouldblowouthisbrainsandhavedonewithallhiscares——butthisideawasgenerallyconsequentonanimprudentsupperenjoyedincompanywithTomTowers。
HowbeautifulEleanorappearedtohimassheslowlywalkedintotheroom!Notfornothinghadallthoselittlecaresbeentaken。Thoughhersister,thearchdeacon’swife,hadspokenslightinglyofhercharms,Eleanorwasverybeautifulwhenseenaright。Herswasnotofthoseimpassivefaces,whichhavethebeautyofamarblebust;finelychiselledfeatures,perfectineveryline,truetotherulesofsymmetry,aslovelytoastrangerastoafriend,unvaryingunlessinsickness,orasageaffectsthem。Shehadnostartlingbrilliancyofbeauty,nopearlywhiteness,noradiantcarnation。Shehadnotthemajesticcontourthatrivetsattention,demandsinstantwonderandthendisappointsbythecoldnessofitscharms。YoumightpassEleanorHardinginthestreetwithoutnotice,butyoucouldhardlypassaneveningwithherandnotloseyourheart。
Shehadneverappearedmorelovelytoherloverthanshenowdid。Herfacewasanimatedthoughitwasserious,andherfulldarklustrouseyesshonewithanxiousenergy;herhandtrembledasshetookhis,andshecouldhardlypronouncehisname,whensheaddressedhim。BoldwishedwithallhisheartthattheAustralianschemewasintheactofrealisation,andthatheandEleanorwereawaytogether,nevertohearfurtherofthelawsuit。
Hebegantotalk,askedafterherhealth——saidsomethingaboutLondonbeingverystupid,andmoreaboutBarchesterbeingverypleasant;declaredtheweathertobeveryhot,andtheninquiredafterMrHarding。
’Myfatherisnotverywell,’saidEleanor。
JohnBoldwasverysorry,sosorry:hehopeditwasnothingserious,andputontheunmeaninglysolemnfacewhichpeopleusuallyuseonsuchoccasions。
’Iespeciallywanttospeaktoyouaboutmyfather,MrBold;
indeed,Iamnowhereonpurposetodoso。Papaisveryunhappy,veryunhappyindeed,aboutthisaffairofthehospital:
youwouldpityhim,MrBold,ifyoucouldseehowwretchedithasmadehim。’
’Oh,MissHarding!’
’Indeedyouwould——anyonewouldpityhim;butafriend,anoldfriendasyouare——indeedyouwould。Heisanalteredman;hischeerfulnesshasallgone,andhissweettemper,andhiskindhappytoneofvoice;youwouldhardlyknowhimifyousawhim,MrBold,heissomuchaltered;and——and——ifthisgoeson,hewilldie。’HereEleanorhadrecoursetoherhandkerchief,andsoalsohadherauditors;butshepluckeduphercourage,andwentonwithhertale。’Hewillbreakhisheart,anddie。Iamsure,MrBold,itwasnotyouwhowrotethosecruelthingsinthenewspaper——’
JohnBoldeagerlyprotestedthatitwasnot,buthisheartsmotehimastohisintimatealliancewithTomTowers。
’No,Iamsureitwasnot;andpapahasnotforamomentthoughtso;youwouldnotbesocruel——butithasnearlykilledhim。Papacannotbeartothinkthatpeopleshouldsospeakofhim,andthateverybodyshouldhearhimsospokenof:——theyhavecalledhimavaricious,anddishonest,andtheysayheisrobbingtheoldmen,andtakingthemoneyofthehospitalfornothing。’
’Ihaveneversaidso,MissHarding。I——’
’No,’continuedEleanor,interruptinghim,forshewasnowinthefullflood-tideofhereloquence;’no,Iamsureyouhavenot;butothershavesaidso;andifthisgoeson,ifsuchthingsarewrittenagain,itwillkillpapa。Oh!MrBold,ifyouonlyknewthestateheisin!Nowpapadoesnotcaremuchaboutmoney。’
Bothherauditors,brotherandsister,assentedtothis,anddeclaredontheirownknowledgethatnomanlivedlessaddictedtofilthylucrethanthewarden。
’Oh!it’ssokindofyoutosayso,Mary,andofyoutoo,MrBold。Icouldn’tbearthatpeopleshouldthinkunjustlyofpapa。Doyouknowhewouldgiveupthehospitalaltogether,onlyhecannot。Thearchdeaconsaysitwouldbecowardly,andthathewouldbedesertinghisorder,andinjuringthechurch。Whatevermayhappen,papawillnotdothat:hewouldleavetheplacetomorrowwillingly,andgiveuphishouse,andtheincomeandallifthearchdeacon——’
Eleanorwasgoingtosay’wouldlethim,’butshestoppedherselfbeforeshehadcompromisedherfather’sdignity;andgivingalongsigh,sheadded——’Oh,Idosowishhewould。’
’NoonewhoknowsMrHardingpersonallyaccuseshimforamoment,’saidBold。
’Itishethathastobearthepunishment;itishethatsuffers,’saidEleanor;’andwhatfor?whathashedonewrong?howhashedeservedthispersecution?hethatneverhadanunkindthoughtinhislife,hethatneversaidanunkindword!’andhereshebrokedown,andtheviolenceofhersobsstoppedherutterance。
Bold,forthefifthorsixthtime,declaredthatneitherhenoranyofhisfriendsimputedanyblamepersonallytoMrHarding。
’Thenwhyshouldhebepersecuted?’ejaculatedEleanorthroughhertears,forgettinginhereagernessthatherintentionhadbeentohumbleherselfasasuppliantbeforeJohnBold——
’whyshouldhebesingledoutforscornanddisgrace?whyshouldhebemadesowretched?Oh!MrBold’——andsheturnedtowardshimasthoughthekneelingscenewereabouttobecommenced——’oh!MrBold,whydidyoubeginallthis?You,whomweallso——so——valued!’
Tospeakthetruth,thereformer’spunishmentwascertainlycomeuponhim,forhispresentplightwasnotenviable;hehadnothingforitbuttoexcusehimselfbyplatitudesaboutpublicduty,whichitisbynomeansworthwhiletorepeat,andtoreiteratehiseulogyonMrHarding’scharacter。Hispositionwascertainlyacruelone:hadanygentlemancalleduponhimonbehalfofMrHardinghecouldofcoursehavedeclinedtoenteruponthesubject;buthowcouldhedosowithabeautifulgirl,withthedaughterofthemanwhomhehadinjured,withhisownlove?
InthemeantimeEleanorrecollectedherself,andagainsummonedupherenergies。’MrBold,’saidshe,’Ihavecomeheretoimploreyoutoabandonthisproceeding。’Hestoodupfromhisseat,andlookedbeyondmeasuredistressed。
’Toimploreyoutoabandonit,toimploreyoutosparemyfather,tospareeitherhislifeorhisreason,foroneortheotherwillpaytheforfeitifthisgoeson。IknowhowmuchIamasking,andhowlittlerightIhavetoaskanything;butIthinkyouwilllistentomeasitisformyfather。Oh,MrBold,pray,praydothisforus——praydonotdrivetodistractionamanwhohaslovedyousowell。’
Shedidnotabsolutelykneeltohim,butshefollowedhimashemovedfromhischair,andlaidhersofthandsimploringlyuponhisarm。Ah!atanyothertimehowexquisitelyvaluablewouldhavebeenthattouch!butnowhewasdistraught,dumbfoundedandunmanned。Whatcouldhesaytothatsweetsuppliant;howexplaintoherthatthematternowwasprobablybeyondhiscontrol;howtellherthathecouldnotquellthestormwhichhehadraised?
’Surely,surely,John,youcannotrefuseher,’saidhissister。
’Iwouldgivehermysoul,’saidhe,’ifitwouldserveher。’
’Oh,MrBold,’saidEleanor,’donotspeakso;Iasknothingformyself;andwhatIaskformyfather,itcannotharmyoutogrant。’
’Iwouldgivehermysoul,ifitwouldserveher,’saidBold,stilladdressinghissister;’everythingIhaveishers,ifshewillacceptit;myhouse,myheart,myall;everyhopeofmybreastiscentredinher;hersmilesaresweetertomethanthesun,andwhenIseeherinsorrowasshenowis,everynerveinmybodysuffers。NomancanlovebetterthanIloveher。’
’No,no,no,’ejaculatedEleanor;’therecanbenotalkoflovebetweenus。Willyouprotectmyfatherfromtheevilyouhavebroughtuponhim?’
’Oh,Eleanor,Iwilldoanything;letmetellyouhowI
loveyou!’
’No,no,no!’shealmostscreamed。’Thisisunmanlyofyou,MrBold。Willyou,willyou,willyouleavemyfathertodieinpeaceinhisquiethome?’andseizinghimbyhisarmandhand,shefollowedhimacrosstheroomtowardsthedoor。
’Iwillnotleaveyoutillyoupromiseme;I’llclingtoyouinthestreet;I’llkneeltoyoubeforeallthepeople。Youshallpromisemethis,youshallpromisemethis,youshall——’Andsheclungtohimwithfixedtenacity,andreiteratedherresolvewithhystericalpassion。
’Speaktoher,John;answerher,’saidMary,bewilderedbytheunexpectedvehemenceofEleanor’smanner;’youcannothavethecrueltytorefuseher。’
’Promiseme,promiseme,’saidEleanor;’saythatmyfatherissafe——onewordwilldo。Iknowhowtrueyouare;
sayoneword,andIwillletyougo。’