Thenineholeshadbeenplayed,andbyasinglestrokeBarbarahadwonthematch,whichpleasedherverymuch,forshehaddoneherbest,andwithsuchheavyoddsinhisfavourSirRobert,whohadalsodonehisbest,wasnomeanopponent,evenforaplayerofherskill。Indeedthefighthadbeenquiteearnest,foreachpartyknewthatitwasbutapreludetoanotherandmoreseriousfight,andlookedupontheresultasinsomesenseanomen。
“Iamconquered,“hesaidinavoiceinwhichvexationstruggledwithalaugh,“andbyawomanoverwhomIhadanadvantage。Itishumiliating,forIconfessIdonotlikebeingbeaten。“
“Don’tyouthinkthatwomengenerallywiniftheymeanto?“askedBarbara。“Ibelievethatwhentheyfail,whichisoftenenough,itisbecausetheydon’tcare,orcan’tmakeuptheirminds。Awomaninearnestisadangerousantagonist。“
“Yes,“heanswered,“orthebestofallies。“Thenhegavetheclubsandhalf-a-crowntothecaddies,andwhentheywereoutofhearing,added,“MissChampers,Ihavebeenwonderingforsometimewhetheritispossiblethatyouwouldbecomesuchanallytome。“
“Iknownothingofbusiness,SirRobert;mytastesdonotliethatway。“
“YouknowwellthatIwasnotspeakingofbusiness,MissChampers。I
wasspeakingofanotherkindofpartnership,thatwhichNaturehasordainedbetweenmenandwomen——marriage。Willyouacceptmeasahusband?“
Sheopenedherlipstospeak,butheliftedhishandandwenton。
“Listenbeforeyougivethatreadyanswerwhichitissohardtorecall,orsmoothaway。Iknowallmydisadvantages,myyears,whichtoyoumayseemmany;mymodestorigin;mytrade,which,notaltogetherwithoutreason,youdespiseanddislike。Well,thefirsttwocannotbechangedexceptfortheworse;thesecondcanbe,andalreadyis,buriedbeneaththegoldandermineofwealthandtitles。
WhatdoesitmatterifIamthesonofaCityclerkwhoneverearnedmorethan£2aweekandwasborninatenementatBattersea,whenIamoneoftherichmenofthisrichlandandshalldieapeerinapalace,leavingmillionsandhonourstomychildren?Asforthethird,myoccupation,Iampreparedtogiveitup。Ithasservedmyturn,andafternextweekIshallhaveearnedtheamountthatyearsagoI
determinedtoearn。Thenceforth,setabovetheaccidentsoffortune,I
proposetodevotemyselftohigheraims,thoseoflegitimateambition。
SofarasmytimewouldallowIhavealreadytakensomeshareinpoliticsasaworker;IintendtocontinueinthemasarulerwhichI
stillhavethehealthandabilitytodo。ImeantobeoneofthefirstmeninthisEmpire,toridetopowerovertheheadsofallthenonentitieswhoseonlyclaimupontheconfidenceoftheircountrymenisthattheywereborninacertainclass,withmoneyintheirpocketsandwithouttheneedtospendthebestoftheirmanhoodinwork。WithyouatmysideIcandoallthesethingsandmore,andsuchisthefuturethatIhavetoofferyou。“
Againshewouldhavebrokeninuponhisspeechandagainhestoppedher,readingtheunspokenansweronherlips。
“Listen:Ihavenottoldyouall。PerhapsIhaveputfirstwhatshouldhavecomelast。IhavenottoldyouthatIloveyouearnestlyandsincerely,withthesettled,unalterablelovethatsometimescomestomeninmiddle-agewhohaveneverturnedtheirthoughtthatwaybefore。
Iwillnotattempttherhapsodiesofpassionwhichatmytimeoflifemightsoundfoolishoroutofplace;yetitistruethatIamfilledwiththispassionwhichhasdescendedonmeandtakenpossessionofme。Iwhooftenhavelaughedatsuchthingsinothermen,adoreyou。
Youareajoytomyeyes。Ifyouarenotintheroom,formeitisempty。Iadmiretheuprightnessofyourcharacter,andevenyourprejudices,andtoyourstandardIdesiretoapproximatemyown。I
thinkthatnomancaneverloveyouquitesowellasIdo,BarbaraChampers。Nowspeak。Iamreadytomeetthebestortheworst。“
AfterherfashionBarbaralookedhimstraightinthefacewithhersteadyeyes,andansweredgentlyenough,fortheman’smethodofpresentinghiscase,elaborateandpreparedthoughitevidentlywas,hadtouchedher。
“Ifearitistheworst,SirRobert。Therearehundredsofwomensuperiortomyselfineverywaywhowouldbegladtogiveyouthehelpandcompanionshipyouask,withtheirheartsthrownin。Chooseoneofthem,forIcannotdoso。“
Heheardandforthefirsttimehisfacebroke,asitwere。Allthiswhileithadremainedmasklikeandimmovable,evenwhenhespokeofhislove,butnowitbrokeasicebreaksatthepressureofasuddenfloodbeneath,andshesawthedepthsandeddiesofhisnatureandunderstoodtheirstrength。Notthatherevealedtheminspeech,angryorpleading,forthatremainedcalmandmeasuredenough。Shedidnothear,shesaw,andeventhenitwasmarvelloustoherthatamerechangeinaman’sexpressioncouldexplainsomuch。
“Thoseareverycruelwords,“hesaid。“Aretheyunalterable?“
“Quite。Idonotplayinsuchmatters,itwouldbewicked。“
“MayIaskyouonequestion,foriftheanswerisinthenegative,I
shallstillcontinuetohope?Doyoucareforanyotherman?“
Againshelookedathimwithherfearlesseyesandanswered:
“Yes,Iamengagedtoanotherman。“
“ToAlanVernon?“
Shenodded。
“Whendidthathappen?Someyearsago?“
“No,thismorning。“
“GreatHeavens!“hemutteredinahoarsevoiceturninghisheadaway,“thismorning。Thenlastnightitmightnothavebeentoolate,andlastnightIshouldhavespokentoyou,Ihadarrangeditall。Yes,ifithadnotbeenforthestoryofthataccursedfetishandyouruncle’sillness,Ishouldhavespokentoyou,andperhapssucceeded。“
“Ithinknot,“shesaid。
Heturneduponherandnotwithstandingthetearsinhiseyestheyburnedlikefire。
“Youthink——youthink,“hegasped,“butIknow。Ofcourseafterthismorningitwasimpossible。But,Barbara,IsaythatIwillwinyouyet。IhaveneverfailedinanyobjectthatIsetbeforemyself,anddonotsupposethatIshallfailinthis。AlthoughinawayIlikedandrespectedhim,IhavealwaysfeltthatVernonwasmyenemy,onedestinedtobringgriefandlossuponme,evenifhedidnotintendtodoso。NowIunderstandwhy,andheshalllearnthatIamstrongerthanhe。Godhelphim!Isay。“
“IthinkHewill,“Barbaraanswered,calmly。“Youarespeakingwildly,andIunderstandthereasonandhopethatyouwillforgetyourwords,butwhetheryouforgetorremember,donotsupposethatyoufrightenme。Youmenwhohavemademoney,“shewentonwithswellingindignation,“whohavemademoneysomehow,andhaveboughthonourswiththemoneyssomehow,thinkyourselvesgreat,andinyourlittleday,yourlittle,littledaythatwillendwiththreelinesinsmalltypein/TheTimes/,youaregreatinthisvulgarland。Youcanbuywhatyouwantandpeoplecreeproundyouandaskyoufordolesandfavours,andrailwayporterscallyou’myLord’ateveryotherstep。
Butyouforgetyourlimitationsinthisworld,andthatwhichlivesaboveyou。Yousayyouwilldothisandthat。Youshouldstudyabookwhichfewofyoueverread,whereittellsyouthatyoudonotknowwhatyouwillbeonthemorrow;thatyourlifeisevenasavapourappearingforalittletimeandthenvanishingaway。YouthinkthatyoucancrushthemantowhomIhavegivenmyheartbecauseheishonestandyouaredishonest,becauseyouarerichandheispoor,andbecausehechancestohavesucceededwhereyouhavenot。Well,formyselfandforhimIdefyyou。Doyourworstandfail,andwhenyouhavefailed,inthehourofyourextremityremembermywordsto-day。
IfIhavegivenyoupainbyrefusingyouitisnotmyfaultandIamsorry,butwhenyouthreatenthemanwhohashonouredmewithhisloveandwhomIhonouraboveeverycreatureupontheearth,thenIthreatenback,andmaythePowerthatmadeusalljudgebetweenyouandme,asjudgeitwill,“andburstingintotearssheturnedandlefthim。
SirRobertwatchedhergo。
“Whatawoman!“hesaidmeditatively,“whatawoman——tohavelost。
Wellshehassetthestakesandwewillplayoutthegame。Thecardsallseemtobeinmyhands,butitwouldnotintheleastsurprisemeifshewontherubber,fortheelementthatIcallChanceandshewouldcallsomethingelse,maycomein。Still,Ineverrefusedachallengeyetandwewillplaythegameoutwithoutpitytotheloser。“
Thatnightthefirsttrickwasplayed。WhenhegotbacktoTheCourtSirRobertorderedhismotorcaranddepartedonurgentbusiness,eithertohisownplace,OldHall,ortoLondon,sayingonlythathehadbeensummonedawaybytelegram。Asthe70-horse-powerMercedesglidedoutofthegatesapencillednotewasputintoMr。Haswell’shand。
Itran:“Ihavetriedandfailed——forthepresent。Byill-luckA。V。hadbeenbeforeme,onlythismorning。IfIhadnotmissedmychancelastnightowingtoyourillness,itwouldhavebeendifferent。Idonot,however,intheleastabandonmyplan,inwhichofcourseIrelyonandexpectyoursupport。KeepV。intheofficeorlethimgoasyoulike。Perhapsitwouldbebetterifyoucouldprevailuponhimtostopthereuntilaftertheflotation。Butwhateveryousayatthemoment,Itrusttoyoutoabsolutelyvetoanyengagementbetweenhimandyourniece,andtothatendtouseallyourpowersandauthorityasherguardian。
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