Micesqueakedunderthefloor,andonthefurthersideoftheOkaanowlscreeched,whileamidthepitch-blackheavensIcouldseeanumberofblotchesintermittentlylighteningtoanelusiveredandblurringthefaintglitterofthestars。
  “Itwasoneo’clockinthemorningwhenmyfatherdied,“Gubincontinued。“Anduponmyself,whowasseventeenandhadjustfinishedmycourseatthemunicipalschoolofRiazan,theredevolved,naturallyenough,alltheenmitythatmyfatherhadincurredduringhislifetime。’Heisjustlikehissire,’folksaid。Also,Iwasalone,absolutelyalone,intheworld,sincemymotherhadlostherreasontwoyearsbeforemyfather’sdeath,andpassedawayinafrenzy。However,Ihadanuncle,aretiredunter-officierwhowasbothasluggard,atippler,andaheroaherobecausehehadhadhiseyesshotoutatPlevna,andhisleftarminjuredinamannerwhichhadinducedparalysis,andhisbreastadornedwiththemilitarycrossandasetofmedals。Andsometimes,thisuncleofminewouldrallymeonmylearning。Forinstance,’Scholar,’hewouldsay,’whatdoes“tiversia“mean?’’Nosuchwordexists,’wouldbemyreply,andthereuponhewouldseizemebythehair,forhewasratheranawkwardpersontodealwith。Anotherfactorasconcernedmakingmeashamedofmyscholarshipwastheignoranceofthetownspeopleingeneral,andintheendIbecamethecommonbutt,asortof’holyidiot。’“
  SogreatlydidtheserecollectionsmoveGubinthatheroseandtransferredhispositiontothedoorofthehut,where,adarkbluragainstthesquareofblue,helitagurglingpipe,andpuffedthereatuntilhislong,conicalnoseglowed。Presentlythesurgingstreamofwordsbeganagain:
  “AttwentyImarriedanorphan,andwhenshefellillanddiedchildlessIfoundmyselfaloneoncemore,andwithoutanadviserorafriend。However,stillIcontinuedbothtoliveandtolookaboutme。Andintime,Iperceivedthatlifeisnotlivedwhollyasitshouldbe。“
  “Whatinlifeis’notlivedwhollyasitshouldbe’?“
  “Everythinginlife。Forlifeismerefolly,merefatuousnonsense。Thetruthisthatourdogsdonotbarkalwaysattherightmoment。Forinstance,whenIsaidtofolk,’Howwoulditbeifweweretoopenatechnicalschoolforgirls?’Theymerelylaughedandreplied,’Tradeworkersarehopelessdrunkards。Alreadyhaveweenoughofthem。Besides,hithertowomenhavecontrivedtogetonWITHOUTeducation。’AndwhennextIconceivedaschemeforinstitutingamatchfactory,itbefellthatthefactorywasburntdownduringitsfirstyearofexistence,andIfoundmyselfoncemoreatalooseend。Nextacertainwomangotholdofme,andIflittedaboutherlikeamartinaroundabelfry,andsolostmyheadastolivelifeasthoughIwerenotonearthatall——forthreeyearsIdidnotknowevenwhatIwasdoing,andonlywhenIrecoveredmysensesdidI
  perceivemyselftobeapauper,andmyall,everysinglethingthatIhadpossessed,tohavepassedintoHERwhitehands。Yes,attwenty-eightIfoundmyselfabeggar。YetIhaveneverwhollyregrettedthefact,forcertainlyforatimeIlivedlifeasfewmeneverliveit。’Takemyall——takeit!’Iusedtosaytoher。
  And,trulyenough,Ishouldneverhavedonemuchgoodwithmyfather’sfortune,whereasshe——well,soitbefell。SomehowI
  thinkthatinthosedaysmyopinionsmusthavebeendifferentfromnow——nowthatIhavelosteverything……Yetthewomanusedtosay,’YouhaveNOTlosteverything,’andshehadwitenoughtofitoutawholetownfulofpeople。“
  “Thiswoman——whowasshe?“
  “Thewifeofamerchant。Wheneversheunrobedandsaid,’Come!
  Whatisthisbodyofmineworth?’Iusedtomakereply,’Apricethatisbeyondcompute。’……SowithinthreeyearseverythingthatIpossessedvanishedlikesmoke。Sometimes,ofcourse,folklaughedatandjibedatme;nordidIeverrefutethem。ButnowthatIhavecometohaveabetterunderstandingoflife’saffairs,Iseethatlifeisnotwhollylivedasitshouldbe。Forthatmatter,too,Idonotholdmytongueonthesubject,forthatisnotmyway——stilllefttomeIhaveatongueandmysoul。
  Thesamereasonaccountsforthefactthatnoonelikesme,andthatbyeveryoneIamlookeduponasafool。“
  “How,inyouropinion,oughtlifetobelived?“
  Withoutansweringmeatonce,Gubinsuckedathispipeuntilhisnosemadeaglowingredblurinthedarkness。Thenhemutteredslowly:
  “Howlifeoughttobelivednoonecouldsayexactly。AndthisthoughIhavegivenmuchthoughttothesubject,andstillamdoingso。“
  Ifounditnodifficultmattertoformamentalpictureofthedesolateexistencewhichthismanmustbeleading——thismanwhomallhisfellowsbothderidedandshunned。ForatthattimeItoowasbiddingfairtofailinlife,andhadmyheartinthegripofceaselessdespondency。
  ThetruthisthatoffutilepeopleRussiaisover-full。ManysuchImyselfhaveknown,andalwaystheyhaveattractedmeasstronglyandmysteriouslyasamagnet。Alwaystheyhavestruckmemorefavourablythantheprovincial-mindedmajoritywholiveforfoodandworkalone,andputawayfromthemallthatcouldconceivablyrendertheirbread-winningdifficult,orpreventthemfromsnatchingbreadoutofthehandsoftheirweakerneighbours。Formostsuchfolkaregloomyandself-contained,withheartsthathaveturnedtowood,andanoutlookthateverrevertstothepast;unless,indeed,theybefolkofspuriousgoodnature,anadditiontotalkativeness,andanapparentbonhomiewhichveilsafrigid,greyinterior,andconveysanimpressionofcrueltyandgreedofallthatlifecontains。
  Always,intheend,Ihavedetectedinsuchfolksomethingwintry,somethingthatmakesthemseem,asitwere,tobespendingspringandsummerinexpectationsolelyofthewinterseason,withitslongnights,anditscoldofanausteritywhichforcesoneforevertobeconsumingfood。
  Yetseldomamongthisdistastefulandwearisomecrowdofwintryfolkistheretobeencounteredamanwhohasaltogetherprovedafailure。Butifhehasdoneso,hewillbefoundtobeamanwhosenatureisofamorethoughtful,amoretrulyexistent,amoreclear-sightedcastthanthatofhisfellows——amanwhoatleastcanlookbeyondtheboundariesofthetriteandcommonplace,andwhosementalityhasagreatercapacityforattainingspiritualfulfilment,andismoredesirousofdoingso,thanthementalityofhiscompeers。Thatistosay,insuchamanonecanalwaysdetectastrivingforspace,asamanwho,lovinglight,carrieslightinhimself。
  Unfortunately,alltoooftenisthatlightonlythefugitivephosphorescenceofputrefaction;whereforeasonecontemplateshimonesoonbeginstorealisewithbitternessandvexationanddisappointmentthatheisbutasluggard,butabraggart,butonewhoispettyandweakandblindedwithconceitanddistortedwithenvy,butonebetweenwhosewordandwhosedeedtheregapesadisparityevenwideranddeeperthanthedisparitywhichdividesthewordfromthedeedofthemanofwinter,ofthemanwho,thoughhebeastardyasasnail,atleastismakingsomewayintheworld,incontradistinctionfromthefailurewhorevolveseverinasinglespot,likesomebarrenoldmaidbeforethereflectioninherlooking-glass。
  Hence,asIlistenedtoGubin,thererecurredtomemorethanoneinstanceofhistype。
  “Yes,Ihavesucceededinobservinglifethroughout,“hemuttereddrowsilyashisheadsankslowlyuponhisbreast。
  Andsleepovertookmyselfwithsimilarsuddenness。Apparentlythatslumberwasofafewminutes’durationonly,yetwhatarousedmewasGubinpullingatmyleg。
  “Getupnow,“hesaid。“Itistimethatwewereoff。“
  Andashisbluish-greyeyespeeredintomyface,somehowI
  derivedfromtheirmournfulexpressionasenseofintellectuality。Beneaththehaironhishollowcheekswerereddishveins,whilesimilarveins,bluishintint,coveredwithanetworkhistemples,andhisbarearmshadtheappearanceofbeingmadeoftannedleather。
  Dawnhadnotyetbrokenwhenweroseandproceededthroughtheslumberingstreetsbeneathaskythatwasofadullyellow,andamidanatmospherethatwasfullofthesmellofburning。
  “Fivedaysnowhastheforestbeenonfire,“observedGubin。
  “Yetthefoolscannotsucceedinputtingitout。“
  PresentlytheestablishmentofthemerchantsBirkinlaybeforeus,anestablishmentofcuriousaspect,sinceitconstituted,rather,aconglomerationofappendagestoamainbuildingofgroundfloorandattics,withfourwindowsfacingontothestreet,andaseriesofunderproppingannexes。Thatseriesextendedtothewing,andwassolidandpermanent,andbadefairtooverflowintothecourtyard,andthroughtheentrance-gates,andacrossthestreet,andtotheverykitchen-gardenandflower-gardenthemselves。Also,itseemedtohavebeenstolenpiecemealfromsomewhere,andatdifferentperiods,andfromdifferentlocalities,andtackedathaphazardontothewallsoftheparenterection。Moreover,allthewindowsofthelatterweresmall,andintheirgreenpanes,astheyconfrontedtheworld,therewasatimidandsuspiciousair,while,inparticular,thethreewindowswhichfaceduponthecourtyardhadironbarstothem。Lastly,therewereposted,sentinel-likeontheentrance-steps,twowater-buttsasaprecautionagainstfire。
  “Whatthinkyouoftheplace?“Gubinmutteredashepeeredintothewell。“Isn’titabarbaroushole?Therightthingwouldbetopullitdownwholesale,andthenrebuilditonlargerandlessrestrictedlines。Yetthesefoolsmerelygotackingnewadditionsontotheold。“
  Forawhilehislipsmovedasinanincantation。Thenhefrowned,glancedshrewdlyatthestructuresinquestion,andcontinuedsoftly:
  “ImaysayinpassingthattheplaceisMINE。“
  “YOURS?“
  “Yes,mine。Atallevents,soitusedtobe。“
  Andhepulledagrimaceasthoughhehadgotthetoothachebeforeaddingwithanairofcommand:
  “Come!Iwillpumpoutthewater,andYOUshallcarryittotheentrance-stepsandfillthewater-butts。Hereisapail,andherealadder。“
  Whereafter,withaconsiderabledisplayofstrength,hesetabouthisportionofthetask,whilstImyselftookpailinhandandadvancedtowardsthestepstofindthatthewater-buttsweresorottenthat,insteadofretainingthewater,theyletitleakoutintothecourtyard。Gubinsaidwithanoath: