“OfmydearSavinien,“criedthegirl,burstingintotears。“Yes,mygoodfriend,“shesaid,sobbing,“avoicetellsmeheisasnobleinheartasheisinrace。Hehasnotonlytoldmethathelovesmealone,buthehasproveditinahundreddelicateways,andbyrestrainingheroicallyhisardentfeelings。LatelywhenhetookthehandIheldouttohim,thateveningwhenMonsieurBongrandproposedtomeahusband,itwasthefirsttime,Isweartoyou,thatIhadevergivenit。Hebeganwithajestwhenheblewmeakissacrossthestreet,butsincethenouraffectionhasneveroutwardlypassed,asyouwellknow,thenarrowestlimits。ButIwilltellyou,——youwhoreadmysoulexceptinthisoneregionwherenonebuttheangelssee,——well,Iwilltellyou,thislovehasbeeninmethesecretspringofmanyseemingmerits;itmademeacceptmypoverty;itsoftenedthebitternessofmyirreparableloss,formymourningismoreperhapsinmyclothesnowthaninmyheart——Oh,wasIwrong?canitbethatlovewasstrongerinmethanmygratitudetomybenefactor,andGodhaspunishedmeforit?Buthowcoulditbeotherwise?IrespectedinmyselfSavinien’sfuturewife;yes,perhapsIwastooproud,perhapsitisthatpridewhichGodhashumbled。Godalone,asyouhaveoftentoldme,shouldbetheendandobjectofallouractions。“
Theabbewasdeeplytouchedashewatchedthetearsrolldownherpallidface。Thehigherhersenseofsecurityhadbeen,thelowershewasnowtofall。
“But,“shesaid,continuing,“ifIreturntomyorphanedcondition,I
shallknowhowtotakeupitsfeelings。Afterall,couldIhavetiedamill-stoneroundtheneckofhimIlove?Whatcanhedohere?WhoamI
tobindhimtome?Besides,doInotlovehimwithafriendshipsodivinethatIcanbearthelossofmyownhappinessandmyhopes?YouknowIhaveoftenblamedmyselfforlettingmyhopesrestuponagrave,andforknowingtheywerewaitingonthatpooroldlady’sdeath。IfSavinienisrichandhappywithanotherIhaveenoughtopayformyentrancetoaconvent,whereIshallgoatonce。Therecannomorebetwolovesinawoman’sheartthantherecanbetwomastersinheaven,andthelifeofareligiousisattractivetome。“
“HecouldnotlethismothergoalonetoRouvre,“saidtheabbe,gently。
“Donotletustalkofthat,mydeargoodfriend,“sheanswered。“I
willwriteto-nightandsethimfree。Iamgladtohavetoclosethewindowsofthisroom,“shecontinued,tellingheroldfriendoftheanonymousletters,butdeclaringthatshewouldnotallowanyinquiriestobemadeastowhoherunknownlovermightbe。
“Why!itwasananonymousletterthatfirsttookMadamedePortendueretoRouvre,“criedtheabbe。“Youareannoyedforsomeobjectbyevilpersons。“
“Howcanthatbe?NeitherSaviniennorIhaveinjuredanyone;andI
amnolongeranobstacletotheprosperityofothers。“
“Well,well,mychild,“saidtheabbe,quietly,“letusprofitbythistempest,whichhasscatteredourlittlecircle,toputthelibraryinorder。Thebooksarestillinheaps。BongrandandIwanttogettheminorder;wewishtomakeasearchamongthem。PutyourtrustinGod,andrememberalsothatinourgoodBongrandandinmeyouhavetwodevotedfriends。“
“Thatismuch,verymuch,“shesaid,goingwithhimtothethresholdofthedoor,whereshestretchedouthernecklikeabirdlookingoveritsnest,hopingagainsthopetoseeSavinien。
JustthenMinoretandGoupil,returningfromawalkinthemeadows,stoppedastheypassed,andthecolossusspoketoUrsula。
“Isanythingthematter,cousin;forwearestillcousins,arewenot?
Youseemchanged。“
GoupillookedsoardentlyatUrsulathatshewasfrightened,andwentbackintothehousewithoutreplying。
“Sheiscross,“saidMinorettotheabbe。
“MademoiselleMirouetisquiterightnottotalktomenonthethresholdofherdoor,“saidtheabbe;“sheistooyoung——“
“Oh!“saidGoupil。“Iamtoldshedoesn’tlacklovers。“
TheabbebowedhurriedlyandwentasfastashecouldtotheRuedesBourgeois。
“Well,“saidGoupiltoMinoret,“thethingisworking。Didyounoticehowpaleshewas。Withinafortnightshe’llhaveleftthetown——you’llsee。“
“Betterhaveyouforafriendthananenemy,“criedMinoret,frightenedattheatrociousgrinwhichgavetoGoupil’sfacethediabolicalexpressionoftheMephistophelesofJosephBrideau。
“Ishouldthinkso!“returnedGoupil。“Ifshedoesn’tmarrymeI’llmakeherdieofgrief。“
“Doit,myboy,andI’llGIVEyouthemoneytobuyapracticeinParis。Youcanthenmarryarichwoman——“
“PoorUrsula!whatmakesyousobitteragainsther?whathasshedonetoyou?“askedtheclerkinsurprise。
“Sheannoysme,“saidMinoret,gruffly。
“Well,waittillMondayandyoushallseehowI’llraspher,“saidGoupil,studyingtheexpressionofthelatepostmaster’sface。
ThenextdayLaBougivalcarriedthefollowinglettertoSavinien。
“Idon’tknowwhatthedearchildhaswrittentoyou,“shesaid,“butsheisalmostdeadthismorning。“
Who,readingthislettertoherlover,couldfailtounderstandthesufferingsthepoorgirlhadgonethroughduringthenight。
MydearSavinien,——YourmotherwishesyoutomarryMademoiselleduRouvre,andperhapssheisright。Youareplacedbetweenalifethatisalmostpoverty-strickenandalifeofopulence;betweenthebetrothedofyourheartandawifeinconformitywiththedemandsoftheworld;betweenobediencetoyourmotherandthefulfilmentofyourownchoice——forIstillbelievethatyouhavechosenme。Savinien,ifyouhavenowtomakeyourdecisionIwishyoutodosoinabsolutefreedom;Igiveyoubackthepromiseyoumadetoyourself——nottome——inamomentwhichcanneverfadefrommymemory,foritwas,likeotherdaysthathavesucceededit,ofangelicpurityandsweetness。Thatmemorywillsufficemeformylife。Ifyoushouldpersistinyourpledgetome,adarkandterribleideawouldhenceforthtroublemyhappiness。Inthemidstofourprivations——whichwehavehithertoacceptedsogayly——youmightreflect,toolate,thatlifewouldhavebeentoyouabetterthinghadyounowconformedtothelawsoftheworld。Ifyouwereamantoexpressthatthought,itwouldbetomethesentenceofanagonizingdeath;ifyoudidnotexpressit,Ishouldwatchsuspiciouslyeveryclouduponyourbrow。
DearSavinien,Ihavepreferredyoutoallelseonearth。Iwasrighttodoso,formygodfather,thoughjealousofyou,usedtosaytome,“Lovehim,mychild;youwillcertainlybelongtoeachotheroneofthesedays。“WhenIwenttoParisIlovedyouhopelessly,andthefeelingcontentedme。IdonotknowifIcannowreturntoit,butIshalltry。Whatarewe,afterall,atthismoment?Brotherandsister。Letusstayso。Marrythathappygirlwhocanhavethejoyofgivingtoyournamethelustreitoughttohave,andwhichyourmotherthinksIshoulddiminish。Youwillnothearofmeagain。Theworldwillapproveofyou;Ishallneverblameyou——butIshallloveyouever。Adieu,then!
“Wait,“criedtheyoungman。SigningtoLaBougivaltositdown,hescratchedoffhastilythefollowingreply:——
MydearUrsula,——Yourlettercutsmetotheheart,inasmuchasyouhaveneedlesslyfeltsuchpain;andalsobecauseourhearts,forthefirsttime,havefailedtounderstandeachother。Ifyouarenotmywifenow,itissolelybecauseIcannotmarrywithoutmymother’sconsent。Dear,eightthousandfrancsayearandaprettycottageontheLoing,why,that’safortune,isitnot?YouknowwecalculatedthatifwekeptLaBougivalwecouldlaybyhalfourincomeeveryyear。Youallowedmethatevening,inyouruncle’sgarden,toconsideryoumine;youcannotnowofyourselfbreakthosetieswhicharecommontobothofus——Ursula,needItellyouthatIyesterdayinformedMonsieurduRouvrethatevenifI
werefreeIcouldnotreceiveafortunefromayoungpersonwhomI
didnotknow?Mymotherrefusestoseeyouagain;Imustthereforelosethehappinessofourevenings;butsurelyyouwillnotdeprivemeofthebriefmomentsIcanspendatyourwindow?Thisevening,then——Nothingcanseparateus。
“Takethistoher,myoldwoman;shemustnotbeunhappyonemomentlonger。“
Thatafternoonatfouro’clock,returningfromthewalkwhichhealwaystookexpresslytopassbeforeUrsula’shouse,Savinienfoundhismistresswaitingforhim,herfacealittlepallidfromthesesuddenchangesandexcitements。
“ItseemstomethatuntilnowIhaveneverknownwhatthepleasureofseeingyouis,“shesaidtohim。
“Youoncesaidtome,“repliedSavinien,smiling,——“forIrememberallyourwords,——’Lovelivesbypatience;wewillwait!’Dear,youhaveseparatedlovefromfaith。Ah!thisshallbetheendofourquarrels;
wewillneverhaveanother。YouhaveclaimedtolovemebetterthanI
loveyou,but——didIeverdoubtyou?“hesaid,offeringherabouquetofwild-flowersarrangedtoexpresshisthoughts。
“Youhaveneverhadanyreasontodoubtme,“shereplied;“and,besides,youdon’tknowall,“sheadded,inatroubledvoice。
Ursulahadrefusedtoreceivelettersbythepost。Butthatafternoon,withoutbeingableeventoguessatthenatureofthetrick,shehadfound,afewmomentsbeforeSavinien’sarrival,alettertossedonhersofawhichcontainedthewords:“Tremble!arejectedlovercanbecomeatiger。“