Mymothercameoutalonetowelcomemeback。Therewerenosecretsbetweenustwo。Itoldherallthathadhappened,justasIhavetoldittoyou。ShekeptsilencetillIhaddone。Andthensheputaquestiontome。
“Whattimewasit,Francis,whenyousawtheWomaninyourDream?“
IhadlookedattheclockwhenIlefttheinn,andIhadnoticedthatthehandspointedtotwentyminutespasttwo。Allowingforthetimeconsumedinspeakingtothelandlord,andingettingonmyclothes,IansweredthatImusthavefirstseentheWomanattwoo’clockinthemorning。Inotherwords,Ihadnotonlyseenheronmybirthday,butatthehourofmybirth。
Mymotherstillkeptsilence。Lostinherownthoughts,shetookmebythehand,andledmeintotheparlor。Herwriting-deskwasonthetablebythefireplace。Sheopenedit,andsignedtometotakeachairbyherside。
“Myson!yourmemoryisabadone,andmineisfastfailingme。
TellmeagainwhattheWomanlookedlike。Iwanthertobeaswellknowntobothofus,yearshence,assheisnow。“
Iobeyed;wonderingwhatstrangefancymightbeworkinginhermind。Ispoke;andshewrotethewordsastheyfellfrommylips:
“Lightgrayeyes,withadroopinthelefteyelid。Flaxenhair,withagolden-yellowstreakinit。Whitearms,withadownuponthem。Little,lady’shands,witharosy-redlookaboutthefingernails。“
“Didyounoticehowshewasdressed,Francis?“
“No,mother。“
“Didyounoticetheknife?“
“Yes。Alargeclaspknife,withabuckhornhandle,asgoodasnew。“
Mymotheraddedthedescriptionoftheknife。Alsotheyear,month,dayoftheweek,andhourofthedaywhentheDream-Womanappearedtomeattheinn。Thatdone,shelockedupthepaperinherdesk。
“Notaword,Francis,toyouraunt。Notawordtoanylivingsoul。
KeepyourDreamasecretbetweenyouandme。“
Theweekspassed,andthemonthspassed。Mymotherneverreturnedtothesubjectagain。Asforme,time,whichwearsoutallthings,woreoutmyremembranceoftheDream。Littlebylittle,theimageoftheWomangrewdimmeranddimmer。Littlebylittle,shefadedoutofmymind。
VII
Thestoryofthewarningisnowtold。Judgeforyourselfifitwasatruewarningorafalse,whenyouhearwhathappenedtomeonmynextbirthday。
IntheSummertimeoftheyear,theWheelofFortuneturnedtherightwayformeatlast。Iwassmokingmypipeoneday,nearanoldstonequarryattheentrancetoourvillage,whenacarriageaccidenthappened,whichgaveanewturn,asitwere,tomylotinlife。Itwasanaccidentofthecommonestkind——notworthmentioningatanylength。Aladydrivingherself;arunawayhorse;
acowardlyman-servantinattendance,frightenedoutofhiswits;
andthestonequarrytooneartobeagreeable——thatiswhatIsaw,allinafewmoments,betweentwowhiffsofmypipe。Istoppedthehorseattheedgeofthequarry,andgotmyselfalittlehurtbytheshaftofthechaise。Butthatdidn’tmatter。TheladydeclaredIhadsavedherlife;andherhusband,comingwithhertoourcottagethenextday,tookmeintohisservicethenandthere。
Theladyhappenedtobeofadarkcomplexion;anditmayamuseyoutohearthatmyauntChanceinstantlypitchedonthatcircumstanceasameansofsavingthecreditofthecards。HerewasthepromiseoftheQueenofSpadesperformedtotheveryletter,bymeansof“adarkwoman,“justasmyaunthadtoldme。“Inthetimetocome,Francis,bewareo’pettin’yerainblindedintairpretationonthecairds。Ye’reowerready,Itrow,tomurmurunderdispensationofProavidencethatyecannafathom——liketheEesraelitesofauld。
I’llsaynaemairtoye。Mebbewhenthemony’spoweringintoyerpoakets,ye’llnoforgetyerauntChance,leftlikeasparrowonthehousetop,wiasma’annuiteeo’thrattypundsayear。“
IremainedinmysituationattheWest-endofLondonuntiltheSpringoftheNewYear。Aboutthattime,mymaster’shealthfailed。Thedoctorsorderedhimawaytoforeignparts,andtheestablishmentwasbrokenup。Buttheturninmyluckstillheldgood。WhenIleftmyplace,Ileftit——thankstothegenerosityofmykindmaster——withayearlyallowancegrantedtome,inremembranceofthedaywhenIhadsavedmymistress’slife。Forthefuture,Icouldgobacktoserviceornot,asIpleased;mylittleincomewasenoughtosupportmymotherandmyself。
MymasterandmistressleftEnglandtowardtheendofFebruary。
CertainmattersofbusinesstodoforthemdetainedmeinLondonuntilthelastdayofthemonth。Iwasonlyabletoleaveforourvillagebytheeveningtrain,tokeepmybirthdaywithmymotherasusual。ItwasbedtimewhenIgottothecottage;andIwassorrytofindthatshewasfarfromwell。Tomakemattersworse,shehadfinishedherbottleofmedicineonthepreviousday,andhadomittedtogetitreplenished,asthedoctorhadstrictlydirected。
Hedispensedhisownmedicines,andIofferedtogoandknockhimup。Sherefusedtoletmedothis;and,aftergivingmemysupper,sentmeawaytomybed。
Ifellasleepforalittle,andwokeagain。Mymother’sbed-
chamberwasnexttomine。IheardmyauntChance’sheavyfootstepsgoingtoandfrointheroom,and,suspectingsomethingwrong,knockedatthedoor。Mymother’spainshadreturneduponher;
therewasaseriousnecessityforrelievinghersufferingsasspeedilyaspossible,Iputonmyclothes,andranoff,withthemedicinebottleinmyhand,totheotherendofthevillage,wherethedoctorlived。ThechurchclockchimedthequartertotwoonmybirthdayjustasIreachedhishouse。Oneringofthenightbellbroughthimtohisbedroomwindowtospeaktome。Hetoldmetowait,andhewouldletmeinatthesurgerydoor。Inoticed,whileIwaswaiting,thatthenightwaswonderfullyfairandwarmforthetimeofyear。Theoldstonequarrywherethecarriageaccidenthadhappenedwaswithinview。Themoonintheclearheavenslititupalmostasbrightasday。
Inaminuteortwothedoctorletmeintothesurgery。Iclosedthedoor,noticingthathehadlefthisroomverylightlyclad。Hekindlypardonedmymother’sneglectofhisdirections,andsettoworkatonceatcompoundingthemedicine。Wewerebothintentonthebottle;hefillingit,andIholdingthelight——whenweheardthesurgerydoorsuddenlyopenedfromthestreet。
VIII
Whocouldpossiblybeupandaboutinourquietvillageatthesecondhourofthemorning?
Thepersonwhoopenedthedoorappearedwithinrangeofthelightofthecandle。Tocompleteouramazement,thepersonprovedtobeawoman!Shewalkeduptothecounter,andstandingsidebysidewithme,liftedherveil。Atthemomentwhensheshowedherface,Iheardthechurchclockstriketwo。Shewasastrangertome,andastrangertothedoctor。Shewasalso,beyondallcomparison,themostbeautifulwomanIhaveeverseeninmylife。
“Isawthelightunderthedoor,“shesaid。“Iwantsomemedicine。“
Shespokequitecomposedly,asiftherewasnothingatallextraordinaryinherbeingoutinthevillageattwointhemorning,andfollowingmeintothesurgerytoaskformedicine!
Thedoctorstaredatherasifhesuspectedhisowneyesofdeceivinghim。“Whoareyou?“beasked。“Howdoyoucometobewanderingaboutatthistimeinthemorning?“
Shepaidnoheedtohisquestions。Sheonlytoldhimcoollywhatshewanted。“Ihavegotabadtoothache。Iwantabottleoflaudanum。“
Thedoctorrecoveredhimselfwhensheaskedforthelaudanum。Hewasonhisownground,youknow,whenitcametoamatteroflaudanum;andhespoketohersmartlyenoughthistime。
“Oh,youhavegotthetoothache,haveyou?Letmelookatthetooth。“
Sheshookherbead,andlaidatwo-shillingpieceonthecounter。
“Iwon’ttroubleyoutolookatthetooth,“shesaid。“Thereisthemoney。Letmehavethelaudanum,ifyouplease。“
Thedoctorputthetwo-shillingpiecebackagaininherhand。“I
don’tselllaudanumtostrangers,“heanswered。“Ifyouareinanydistressofbodyormind,thatisanothermatter。Ishallbegladtohelpyou。“
Sheputthemoneybackinherpocket。“YOUcan’thelpme,“shesaid,asquietlyasever。“Goodmorning。“
Withthat,sheopenedthesurgerydoortogooutagainintothestreet。Sofar,Ihadnotspokenawordonmyside。IhadstoodwiththecandleinmyhandnotknowingIwasholdingit——withmyeyesfixedonher,withmymindfixedonherlikeamanbewitched。
Herlooksbetrayed,evenmoreplainlythanherwords,herresolution,inonewayoranother,todestroyherself。Whensheopenedthedoor,inmyalarmatwhatmighthappenIfoundtheuseofmytongue。
“Stop!“Icriedout。“Waitforme。Iwanttospeaktoyoubeforeyougoaway。“Sheliftedhereyeswithalookofcarelesssurpriseandamockingsmileonherlips。
“WhatcanYOUhavetosaytome?“Shestopped,andlaughedtoherself。“Whynot?“shesaid。“Ihavegotnothingtodo,andnowheretogo。“Sheturnedbackastep,andnoddedtome。“You’reastrangeman——IthinkI’llhumoryou——I’llwaitoutside。“Thedoorofthesurgeryclosedonher。Shewasgone。
Iamashamedtoownwhathappenednext。TheonlyexcuseformeisthatIwasreallyandtrulyamanbewitched。Iturnedmeroundtofollowherout,withoutoncethinkingofmymother。Thedoctorstoppedme。
“Don’tforgetthemedicine,“hesaid。“Andifyouwilltakemyadvice,don’ttroubleyourselfaboutthatwoman。Rouseuptheconstable。It’shisbusinesstolookafterher——notyours。“
Iheldoutmyhandforthemedicineinsilence:IwasafraidI
shouldfailinrespectifItrustedmyselftoanswerhim。Hemusthaveseen,asIsaw,thatshewantedthelaudanumtopoisonherself。Hehad,tomymind,takenaveryheartlessviewofthematter。Ijustthankedhimwhenhegavemethemedicine——andwentout。
Shewaswaitingformeasshehadpromised;walkingslowlytoandfro——atall,graceful,solitaryfigureinthebrightmoonbeams。
Theyshedoverherfaircomplexion,herbrightgoldenhair,herlargegrayeyes,justthelightthatsuitedthembest。Shelookedhardlymortalwhenshefirstturnedtospeaktome。
“Well?“shesaid。“Andwhatdoyouwant?“
Inspiteofmypride,ormyshyness,ormybettersense——whicheveritmightbe——allmyheartwentouttoherinamoment。Icaughtholdofherbythehands,andownedwhatwasinmythoughts,asfreelyasifIhadknownherforhalfalifetime。
“Youmeantodestroyyourself,“Isaid。“AndImeantopreventyoufromdoingit。IfIfollowyouaboutallnight,I’llpreventyoufromdoingit。“
Shelaughed。“Yousawyourselfthathewouldn’tsellmethelaudanum。DoyoureallycarewhetherIliveordie?“Shesqueezedmyhandsgentlyassheputthequestion:hereyessearchedminewithalanguid,lingeringlookinthemthatranthroughmelikefire。Myvoicediedawayonmylips;Icouldn’tanswerher。
Sheunderstood,withoutmyanswering。“Youhavegivenmeafancyforliving,byspeakingkindlytome,“shesaid。“Kindnesshasawonderfuleffectonwomen,anddogs,andotherdomesticanimals。
Itisonlymenwhoaresuperiortokindness。Makeyourmindeasy——
IpromisetotakeasmuchcareofmyselfasifIwasthehappiestwomanliving!Don’tletmekeepyouhere,outofyourbed。Whichwayareyougoing?“
MiserablewretchthatIwas,Ihadforgottenmymother——withthemedicineinmyhand!“Iamgoinghome,“Isaid。“Whereareyoustaying?Attheinn?“
Shelaughedherbitterlaugh,andpointedtothestonequarry。
“ThereisMYinnforto-night,“shesaid。“WhenIgottiredofwalkingabout,Irestedthere。“
Wewalkedontogether,onmywayhome。Itookthelibertyofaskingherifshehadanyfriends。
“IthoughtIhadonefriendleft,“shesaid,“oryouwouldneverhavemetmeinthisplace。ItturnsoutIwaswrong。Myfriend’sdoorwasclosedinmyfacesomehourssince;myfriend’sservantsthreatenedmewiththepolice。Ihadnowhereelsetogo,aftertryingmyluckinyourneighborhood;andnothingleftbutmytwo-