。ThiseveningIfellinwithanacquaintance,andwhenIsawhowhappyhewaswithhiswifeandfamilywelcominghimhome,thoughwithonlyone-tenthofmyincomeandchances,andthoughtwhatmighthavebeeninmycase,itfairlybrokedownmydiscretion,andoffIcamehere。NowIamhereIfeelthatIamwrongtosomeextent。
  ButthefeelingthatIshouldliketoseeyou,andtalkofthoseweusedtoknowincommon,wasverystrong。’
  ’Beforethatcanbethecasealittlemoretimemustpass,’saidMissSavilequietly;’atimelongenoughformetoregardwithsomecalmnesswhatatpresentIrememberfartooimpatiently——thoughitmaybeyoualmostforgetit。Indeedyoumusthaveforgottenitlongbeforeyouactedasyoudid。’Hervoicegrewstrongerandmorevivaciousassheadded:’ButIamdoingmybesttoforgetittoo,andIknowIshallsucceedfromtheprogressIhavemadealready!’
  Shehadremainedstandingtillnow,whensheturnedandsatdown,facinghalfawayfromhim。
  Barnetwatchedhermoodily。’Yes,itisonlywhatIdeserve,’hesaid。’Ambitionprickedmeon——no,itwasnotambition,itwaswrongheadedness!HadIbutreflected……’Hebrokeoutvehemently:’Butalwaysrememberthis,Lucy:ifyouhadwrittentomeonlyonelittlelineafterthatmisunderstanding,IdeclareI
  shouldhavecomebacktoyou。Thatruinedme!’heslowlywalkedasfarasthelittleroomwouldallowhimtogo,andremainedwithhiseyesontheskirting。
  ’But,Mr。Barnet,howcouldIwritetoyou?Therewasnoopeningformydoingso。’
  ’Thenthereoughttohavebeen,’saidBarnet,turning。’Thatwasmyfault!’
  ’Well,Idon’tknowanythingaboutthat;butastherehadbeennothingsaidbymewhichrequiredanyexplanationbyletter,Ididnotsendone。Everythingwassoindefinite,andfeelingyourpositiontobesomuchwealthierthanmine,IfanciedImighthavemistakenyourmeaning。AndwhenIheardoftheotherlady——awomanofwhosefamilyevenyoumightbeproud——IthoughthowfoolishIhadbeen,andsaidnothing。’
  ’ThenIsupposeitwasdestiny——accident——Idon’tknowwhat,thatseparatedus,dearLucy。AnyhowyouwerethewomanIoughttohavemademywife——andIletyouslip,likethefoolishmanthatIwas!’
  ’O,Mr。Barnet,’shesaid,almostintears,’don’trevivethesubjecttome;Iamthewrongonetoconsoleyou——think,sir,——youshouldnotbehere——itwouldbesobadformeifitwereknown!’
  ’Itwould——itwould,indeed,’hesaidhastily。’Iamnotrightindoingthis,andIwon’tdoitagain。’
  ’Itisaverycommonfollyofhumannature,youknow,tothinkthecourseyoudidNOTadoptmusthavebeenthebest,’shecontinued,withgentlesolicitude,asshefollowedhimtothedooroftheroom。
  ’Andyoudon’tknowthatIshouldhaveacceptedyou,evenifyouhadaskedmetobeyourwife。’Atthishiseyemethers,andshedroppedhergaze。Sheknewthathervoicebeliedher。Therewasasilencetillshelookeduptoadd,inavoiceofsoothingplayfulness,’Myfamilywassomuchpoorerthanyours,evenbeforeI
  lostmydearfather,that——perhapsyourcompanionswouldhavemadeitunpleasantforusonaccountofmydeficiencies。’
  ’Yourdispositionwouldsoonhavewonthemround,’saidBarnet。
  Shearchlyexpostulated:’Now,nevermindmydisposition;trytomakeitupwithyourwife!Thosearemycommandstoyou。Andnowyouaretoleavemeatonce。’
  ’Iwill。Imustmakethebestofitall,Isuppose,’hereplied,morecheerfullythanhehadasyetspoken。’ButIshallneveragainmeetwithsuchadeargirlasyou!’Andhesuddenlyopenedthedoor,andleftheralone。Whenhisglanceagainfellonthelampsthatweresparselyrangedalongthedrearylevelroad,hiseyeswereinastatewhichshowedstraw-likemotesoflightradiatingfromeachflameintothesurroundingair。
  OntheothersideofthewayBarnetobservedamanunderanumbrella,walkingparallelwithhimself。Presentlythismanleftthefootway,andgraduallyconvergedonBarnet’scourse。ThelatterthensawthatitwasCharlson,asurgeonofthetown,whoowedhimmoney。Charlsonwasamannotwithoutability;yethedidnotprosper。Sundrycircumstancesstoodinhiswayasamedicalpractitioner:hewasneedy;hewasnotacoddle;hegossipedwithmeninsteadofwithwomen;hehadmarriedastrangerinsteadofoneofthetownyoungladies;andhewasgiventoconversationalbuffoonery。Moreover,hislookwasquiteerroneous。Thoseonlyproperfeaturesinthefamilydoctor,thequieteye,andthethinstraightpassionlesslipswhichnevercurlinpubliceitherforlaughterorforscorn,werenothis;hehadafull-curvedmouth,andaboldblackeyethatmadetimidpeoplenervous。Hiscompanionswerewhatinoldtimeswouldhavebeencalledbooncompanions——anexpressionwhich,thoughofirreproachableroot,suggestsfraternizationcarriedtothepointofunscrupulousness。Allthiswasagainsthiminthelittletownofhisadoption。
  Charlsonhadbeenindifficulties,andtoobligehimBarnethadputhisnametoabill;and,ashehadexpected,wascalledupontomeetitwhenitfelldue。Ithadbeenonlyamatteroffiftypounds,whichBarnetcouldwellaffordtolose,andheborenoill-willtothethriftlesssurgeononaccountofit。ButCharlsonhadalittletoomuchbrazenindifferentisminhiscompositiontobealtogetheradesirableacquaintance。
  ’Ihopetobeabletomakethatlittlebill-businessrightwithyouinthecourseofthreeweeks,Mr。Barnet,’saidCharlsonwithhail-
  fellowfriendliness。
  Barnetrepliedgood-naturedlythattherewasnohurry。
  ThisparticularthreeweekshadmovedoninadvanceofCharlson’spresentwiththeprecisionofashadowforsomeconsiderabletime。
  ’I’vehadadream,’Charlsoncontinued。Barnetknewfromhistonethatthesurgeonwasgoingtobeginhischaracteristicnonsense,anddidnotencouragehim。’I’vehadadream,’repeatedCharlson,whorequirednoencouragement。’Idreamedthatagentleman,whohasbeenverykindtome,marriedahaughtyladyinhaste,beforehehadquiteforgottenanicelittlegirlheknewbefore,andthatonewetevening,likethepresent,asIwaswalkinguptheharbour-road,I
  sawhimcomeoutofthatdearlittlegirl’spresentabode。’
  Barnetglancedtowardsthespeaker。TheraysfromaneighbouringlampstruckthroughthedrizzleunderCharlson’sumbrella,soasjusttoilluminehisfaceagainsttheshadebehind,andshowthathiseyewasturnedupundertheoutercornerofitslid,whenceitleeredwithimpishjocosenessashethrusthistongueintohischeek。
  ’Come,’saidBarnetgravely,’we’llhavenomoreofthat。’
  ’No,no——ofcoursenot,’Charlsonhastilyanswered,seeingthathishumourhadcarriedhimtoofar,asithaddonemanytimesbefore。
  Hewasprofuseinhisapologies,butBarnetdidnotreply。Ofonethinghewascertain——thatscandalwasaplantofquickroot,andthathewasboundtoobeyLucy’sinjunctionforLucy’sownsake。
  Hedidso,totheletter;andthough,asthecrocusfollowedthesnowdropandthedaffodilthecrocusinLucy’sgarden,theharbour-
  roadwasanotunpleasantplacetowalkin,Barnet’sfeetnevertroditsstones,muchlessapproachedherdoor。Heavoidedasaunterthatwayashewouldhaveavoidedadangerousdram,andtookhisairingsalongdistancenorthward,amongseverelysquareandbrownploughedfields,wherenoothertownsmancame。Sometimeshewentroundbythelowerlanesoftheborough,wheretherope-walksstretchedinwhichhisfamilyformerlyhadshare,andlookedattherope-makerswalkingbackwards,overhungbyapple-treesandbushes,andintrudedonbycowsandcalves,asiftradehadestablisheditselfthereatconsiderableinconveniencetoNature。
  Onemorning,whenthesunwassowarmastoraiseasteamfromthesouth-easternslopesofthoseflankinghillsthatlookedsolovelyabovetheoldroofs,butmadeeverylow-chimneyedhouseinthetownassmokyasTophet,Barnetglancedfromthewindowsofthetown-
  councilroomforlackofinterestinwhatwasproceedingwithin。
  Severalmembersofthecorporationwerepresent,buttherewasnotmuchbusinessdoing,andinafewminutesDownecameleisurelyacrosstohim,sayingthatheseldomsawBarnetnow。
  Barnetownedthathewasnotoftenpresent。
  Downelookedatthecrimsoncurtainwhichhungdownbesidethepanes,reflectingitshothuesintotheirfaces,andthenoutofthewindow。Atthatmomenttherepassedalongthestreetatallcommandinglady,inwhomthesolicitorrecognizedBarnet’swife。
  Barnethaddonethesamething,andturnedaway。
  ’Itwillbeallrightsomeday,’saidDowne,withcheeringsympathy。
  ’Youhaveheard,then,ofherlastoutbreak?’
  Downedepressedhischeerfulnesstoitsveryreverseinamoment。
  ’No,Ihavenotheardofanythingserious,’hesaid,withaslongafaceasonenaturallyroundcouldbeturnedintoatshortnotice。
  ’Ionlyhearvaguereportsofsuchthings。’
  ’Youmaythinkitwillbeallright,’saidBarnetdrily。’ButI
  haveadifferentopinion……No,Downe,wemustlookthethingintheface。Notpoppynormandragora——however,howareyourwifeandchildren?’
  Downesaidthattheywereallwell,thanks;theywereoutthatmorningsomewhere;hewasjustlookingtoseeiftheywerewalkingthatway。Ah,theretheywere,justcomingdownthestreet;andDownepointedtothefiguresoftwochildrenwithanursemaid,andaladywalkingbehindthem。
  ’Youwillcomeoutandspeaktoher?’heasked。
  ’Notthismorning。ThefactisIdon’tcaretospeaktoanybodyjustnow。’
  ’Youaretoosensitive,Mr。Barnet。AtschoolIrememberyouusedtogetasredasaroseifanybodyutteredawordthathurtyourfeelings。’