Thenheplacidlydismissedthematter,andwentonwithhisdailyaffairs。BythistimeEllaathomehadcometoadetermination。
Mrs。Hooper,insendingthehairandphotograph,hadinformedherofthedayofthefuneral;andasthemorningandnoonworeonanoverpoweringwishtoknowwheretheywerelayinghimtookpossessionofthesympatheticwoman。Caringverylittlenowwhatherhusbandoranyoneelsemightthinkofhereccentricities;shewroteMarchmillabriefnote,statingthatshewascalledawayfortheafternoonandevening,butwouldreturnonthefollowingmorning。
Thissheleftonhisdesk,andhavinggiventhesameinformationtotheservants,wentoutofthehouseonfoot。
WhenMr。Marchmillreachedhomeearlyintheafternoontheservantslookedanxious。Thenursetookhimprivatelyaside,andhintedthathermistress’ssadnessduringthepastfewdayshadbeensuchthatshefearedshehadgoneouttodrownherself。Marchmillreflected。
Uponthewholehethoughtthatshehadnotdonethat。Withoutsayingwhitherhewasboundhealsostartedoff,tellingthemnottositupforhim。Hedrovetotherailway-station,andtookaticketforSolentsea。
Itwasdarkwhenhereachedtheplace,thoughhehadcomebyafasttrain,andheknewthatifhiswifehadprecededhimthitheritcouldonlyhavebeenbyaslowertrain,arrivingnotagreatwhilebeforehisown。TheseasonatSolentseawasnowpast:theparadewasgloomy,andtheflyswerefewandcheap。HeaskedthewaytotheCemetery,andsoonreachedit。Thegatewaslocked,butthekeeperlethimin,declaring,however,thattherewasnobodywithintheprecincts。Althoughitwasnotlate,theautumnaldarknesshadnowbecomeintense;andhefoundsomedifficultyinkeepingtotheserpentinepathwhichledtothequarterwhere,asthemanhadtoldhim,theoneortwointermentsforthedayhadtakenplace。Hesteppeduponthegrass,and,stumblingoversomepegs,stoopednowandthentodiscernifpossibleafigureagainstthesky。
Hecouldseenone;butlightingonaspotwherethesoilwastrodden,beheldacrouchingobjectbesideanewlymadegrave。Sheheardhim,andsprangup。
’Ell,howsillythisis!’hesaidindignantly。’Runningawayfromhome——Ineverheardsuchathing!OfcourseIamnotjealousofthisunfortunateman;butitistooridiculousthatyou,amarriedwomanwiththreechildrenandafourthcoming,shouldgolosingyourheadlikethisoveradeadlover!……Doyouknowyouwerelockedin?Youmightnothavebeenabletogetoutallnight。’
Shedidnotanswer。
’Ihopeitdidn’tgofarbetweenyouandhim,foryourownsake。’
’Don’tinsultme,Will。’
’Mind,Iwon’thaveanymoreofthissortofthing;doyouhear?’
’Verywell,’shesaid。
Hedrewherarmwithinhisown,andconductedheroutoftheCemetery。Itwasimpossibletogetbackthatnight;andnotwishingtoberecognizedintheirpresentsorrycondition,hetookhertoamiserablelittlecoffee-houseclosetothestation,whencetheydepartedearlyinthemorning,travellingalmostwithoutspeaking,underthesensethatitwasoneofthosedrearysituationsoccurringinmarriedlifewhichwordscouldnotmend,andreachingtheirowndooratnoon。
Themonthspassed,andneitherofthetwaineverventuredtostartaconversationuponthisepisode。Ellaseemedtobeonlytoofrequentlyinasadandlistlessmood,whichmightalmosthavebeencalledpining。Thetimewasapproachingwhenshewouldhavetoundergothestressofchildbirthforafourthtime,andthatapparentlydidnottendtoraiseherspirits。
’Idon’tthinkIshallgetoveritthistime!’shesaidoneday。
’Pooh!whatchildishforeboding!Whyshouldn’titbeaswellnowasever?’
Sheshookherhead。’IfeelalmostsureIamgoingtodie;andI
shouldbeglad,ifitwerenotforNelly,andFrank,andTiny。’
’Andme!’
’You’llsoonfindsomebodytofillmyplace,’shemurmured,withasadsmile。’Andyou’llhaveaperfectrightto;Iassureyouofthat。’
’Ell,youarenotthinkingstillaboutthat——poeticalfriendofyours?’
Sheneitheradmittednordeniedthecharge。’Iamnotgoingtogetovermyillnessthistime,’shereiterated。’SomethingtellsmeI
shan’t。’
Thisviewofthingswasratherabadbeginning,asitusuallyis;
and,infact,sixweekslater,inthemonthofMay,shewaslyinginherroom,pulselessandbloodless,withhardlystrengthenoughlefttofollowuponefeeblebreathwithanother,theinfantforwhoseunnecessarylifeshewasslowlypartingwithherownbeingfatandwell。JustbeforeherdeathshespoketoMarchmillsoftly:-
’Will,Iwanttoconfesstoyoutheentirecircumstancesofthat——
aboutyouknowwhat——thattimewevisitedSolentsea。Ican’ttellwhatpossessedme——howIcouldforgetyouso,myhusband!ButIhadgotintoamorbidstate:Ithoughtyouhadbeenunkind;thatyouhadneglectedme;thatyouweren’tuptomyintellectuallevel,whilehewas,andfaraboveit。Iwantedafullerappreciator,perhaps,ratherthananotherlover——’
Shecouldgetnofurtherthenforveryexhaustion;andshewentoffinsuddencollapseafewhourslater,withouthavingsaidanythingmoretoherhusbandonthesubjectofherloveforthepoet。
WilliamMarchmill,intruth,likemosthusbandsofseveralyears’
standing,waslittledisturbedbyretrospectivejealousies,andhadnotshowntheleastanxietytopressherforconfessionsconcerningamandeadandgonebeyondanypowerofinconveniencinghimmore。
Butwhenshehadbeenburiedacoupleofyearsitchancedonedaythat,inturningoversomeforgottenpapersthathewishedtodestroybeforehissecondwifeenteredthehouse,helightedonalockofhairinanenvelope,withthephotographofthedeceasedpoet,adatebeingwrittenonthebackinhislatewife’shand。ItwasthatofthetimetheyspentatSolentsea。
Marchmilllookedlongandmusinglyatthehairandportrait,forsomethingstruckhim。Fetchingthelittleboywhohadbeenthedeathofhismother,nowanoisytoddler,hetookhimonhisknee,heldthelockofhairagainstthechild’shead,andsetupthephotographonthetablebehind,sothathecouldcloselycomparethefeatureseachcountenancepresented。Therewereundoubtedlystrongtracesofresemblance;thedreamyandpeculiarexpressionofthepoet’sfacesat,asthetransmittedidea,uponthechild’s,andthehairwasofthesamehue。
’I’mdamnedifIdidn’tthinkso!’murmuredMarchmill。’ThensheDIDplaymefalsewiththatfellowatthelodgings!Letmesee:
thedates——thesecondweekinAugust……thethirdweekinMay……Yes……yes……Getaway,youpoorlittlebrat!Youarenothingtome!’
AmongthefewfeaturesofagriculturalEnglandwhichretainanappearancebutlittlemodifiedbythelapseofcenturies,maybereckonedthehigh,grassyandfurzydowns,coombs,orewe-leases,astheyareindifferentlycalled,thatfillalargeareaofcertaincountiesinthesouthandsouth-west。Ifanymarkofhumanoccupationismetwithhereon,itusuallytakestheformofthesolitarycottageofsomeshepherd。
Fiftyyearsagosuchalonelycottagestoodonsuchadown,andmaypossiblybestandingtherenow。Inspiteofitsloneliness,however,thespot,byactualmeasurement,wasnotmorethanfivemilesfromacounty-town。Yetthataffecteditlittle。Fivemilesofirregularupland,duringthelonginimicalseasons,withtheirsleets,snows,rains,andmists,affordwithdrawingspaceenoughtoisolateaTimonoraNebuchadnezzar;muchless,infairweather,topleasethatlessrepellenttribe,thepoets,philosophers,artists,andotherswho’conceiveandmeditateofpleasantthings。’
Someoldearthencamporbarrow,someclumpoftrees,atleastsomestarvedfragmentofancienthedgeisusuallytakenadvantageofintheerectionoftheseforlorndwellings。But,inthepresentcase,suchakindofshelterhadbeendisregarded。HigherCrowstairs,asthehousewascalled,stoodquitedetachedandundefended。Theonlyreasonforitsprecisesituationseemedtobethecrossingoftwofootpathsatrightangleshardby,whichmayhavecrossedthereandthusforagoodfivehundredyears。Hencethehousewasexposedtotheelementsonallsides。But,thoughthewinduphereblewunmistakablywhenitdidblow,andtherainhithardwheneveritfell,thevariousweathersofthewinterseasonwerenotquitesoformidableonthecoombastheywereimaginedtobebydwellersonlowground。Therawrimeswerenotsoperniciousasinthehollows,andthefrostswerescarcelysosevere。Whentheshepherdandhisfamilywhotenantedthehousewerepitiedfortheirsufferingsfromtheexposure,theysaidthatuponthewholetheywerelessinconveniencedby’wuzzesandflames’hoarsesandphlegmsthanwhentheyhadlivedbythestreamofasnugneighbouringvalley。
ThenightofMarch28,182-,waspreciselyoneofthenightsthatwerewonttocallforththeseexpressionsofcommiseration。Thelevelrainstormsmotewalls,slopes,andhedgesliketheclothyardshaftsofSenlacandCrecy。Suchsheepandoutdooranimalsashadnoshelterstoodwiththeirbuttockstothewinds;whilethetailsoflittlebirdstryingtoroostonsomescraggythornwereblowninside-outlikeumbrellas。Thegable-endofthecottagewasstainedwithwet,andtheeavesdroppingsflappedagainstthewall。Yetneverwascommiserationfortheshepherdmoremisplaced。Forthatcheerfulrusticwasentertainingalargepartyinglorificationofthechristeningofhissecondgirl。
Theguestshadarrivedbeforetherainbegantofall,andtheywereallnowassembledinthechieforlivingroomofthedwelling。A
glanceintotheapartmentateighto’clockonthiseventfuleveningwouldhaveresultedintheopinionthatitwasascosyandcomfortableanookascouldbewishedforinboisterousweather。
Thecallingofitsinhabitantwasproclaimedbyanumberofhighly-
polishedsheep-crookswithoutstemsthatwerehungornamentallyoverthefireplace,thecurlofeachshiningcrookvaryingfromtheantiquatedtypeengravedinthepatriarchalpicturesofoldfamilyBiblestothemostapprovedfashionofthelastlocalsheep-fair。
Theroomwaslightedbyhalf-a-dozencandles,havingwicksonlyatriflesmallerthanthegreasewhichenvelopedthem,incandlesticksthatwereneverusedbutathigh-days,holy-days,andfamilyfeasts。
Thelightswerescatteredabouttheroom,twoofthemstandingonthechimney-piece。Thispositionofcandleswasinitselfsignificant。Candlesonthechimney-piecealwaysmeantaparty。