Hehadplentyofpeculiarities。Hewasugly,awkward;helackedthewantonappetitesoftheaveragesensualman。Andthesepeculiaritieswithouthisgreatstrengthashiswarrantmighthavebroughthimintoridicule。Asitwas,whateverhispeculiarities,inasocietylikethatofPigeonCreek,themanwhocouldbeatallcompetitors,wrestlingorboxing,wasfreefrommolestation。ButLincolninstinctivelyhadanotheraiminlifethanmerefreedomtobehimself。Twocharacteristicsthatweresosignificantinhischildhoodcontinuedwithgrowingvitalityinhisyoungmanhood:hisplacidityandhisintensesenseofcomradeship。Thelatter,however,hadundergoneachange。Itwasnolongerthecomradeshipofthewildcreatures。Thatspurtofphysicalexpansion,theswiftrankgrowthtohistremendousstature,swepthimapparentlyacrossadimdividingline,outoftheworldofbirdsandbeastsandintotheworldofmen。Hetookthenewworldwiththesameunfailingbutalsounexcitablecuriositywithwhichhehadtakentheother,theworldofsquirrels,flowers,fawns。
Hereasthere,thedifferencefromhismother,deepthoughtheirsimilaritiesmayhavebeen,wassharplyevident。Hadhebeenwhollyatonewithherreligiously,thegiftoftellingspeechwhichhenowbegantodisplaymighthaveledhimintoacoursethatwouldhaverejoicedherheart,mighthavemadehimaboypreacher,andlater,agreatrevivalist。HisfatherandeldersisterwhileonPigeonCreekjoinedthelocalBaptistChurch。ButAbrahamdidnotfollowthem。Noristhereasingleanecdotelinkinghiminanywaywiththefervorsofcampmeeting。Onthecontrary,whatlittleisremembered,isofacoolaloofness。[4]Theinscrutabilityoftheforestwashis——whatitgavetothestealthy,cautiousmenwhoweretoointentonobserving,toosuspiciouslywatchful,togiveventtotheirfeelings。Therefore,inLincolntherewasalwaysadoublelife,outerandinner,theouterquietlycompanionable,theinner,solitary,mysterious。
ItwastheouterlifethatassumeditsfirstdefinitephaseintheyearsonPigeonCreek。Duringthoseyears,Lincolndiscoveredhisgiftofstory-telling。Healsodiscoveredhumor。Intheemploymentofbothtalents,heacceptedasamatterofcoursethetoneoftheyoungruffiansamongwhomhedwelt。Verysoonthispowerfulfellow,whocouldthrowanyoftheminawrestle,wonthecentralpositionamongthembyasurertitle,bythepowertodelight。Andanyonewhoknowshowpeasantschoolsofartarise——forthatmatter,allschoolsofartthatarevital——knowshowhedidit。Inthisconnection,hisfamousbiographers,NicolayandHay,revealacertainexternalitybyobjectingthatastoryattributedtohimisancient。Allstoriesareancient。Notthetale,butthetelling,astheproverbsays,isthething。Inlateryears,Lincolnwrotedowneverygoodstorythatheheard,andfiledit。[5]Whenitreappearedithadbecomehisown。Whocandoubtthatthisdeliberateassimilation,thetypicalartisticprocess,beganonPigeonCreek?Lincolnneverwouldhavecapturedashedidhisplowboyaudience,setthemroaringwithlaughterintheintervalsoflabor,hadhenotgiventhembacktheirowntalesdoneoverintonewformsbrilliantlybeyondtheirpowersofconception。Thatthesetalesweregross,evenribald,mighthavebeentakenforgranted,evenhadwenotpositiveevidenceofthefact。Otherwisenoneofthatuproariouslaughterwhichwemaybesuresoundedoftenacrossshimmeringharvestfieldswhilestalwartyoungpagans,everreadytopause,leaned,bellowing,onthehandlesoftheirscythes,AbeLincolnhavingjustthenfinishedastory。
ThoughthehumorofthesestorieswasFalstaffian,tosaytheleast,thoughLincolnwascockofthewalkamongtheplowboysofPigeonCreek,asignificantfactwithregardtohimherecomesintoview。Notananecdotesurvivesthatinanywaysuggestspersonallicentiousness。Scrupulousmenwhoinafter-timewereoffendedbyhiscoarsenessofspeech——formoreorlessoftheartistofPigeonCreekstucktohimalmosttotheend;hetalkedinfables,ofteningrossfables——thesemen,despitetheirannoyance,feltnoimpulsetoattributetohimpersonalhabitsinharmonywithhistales。Ontheotherhand,theywerepuzzledbytheirownimpression,neverwavering,thathewas“pureminded。“Thecluewhichtheydidnothavelayinthenatureofhisdoublelife。Thatpartofhimwhich,inourmodernjargon,wecallhis“reactions“obeyedacuriouslaw。
Theydweltinhisouterlifewithoutpenetratingtotheinner;
butallhisimpulsesofpersonalactionweresecurelyseateddeepwithin。Evenatnineteen,foranyoneattunedtospiritualmeaning,hewouldhavestruckthenoteofmystery,faintly,perhaps,butcertainly。Tobesure,nohintofthisreachedthemindsofhisrollickingcomradesoftheharvestfield。Itwasnotforsuchastheytoperceivetheproblemofhischaracter,tosuspectthathewasagenius,ortoguessthatatimewouldcomewhensinceremenwouldformimpressionsofhimasdissimilarasblackandwhite。Andsofarasitwenttheobservationoftheplowboyswascorrect。Themantheysawwasindeedareflectionofthemselves。Butitwasareflectiononly。Theirinfluenceenteredintotherealmannomorethantheimageinamirrorhasenteredintotheglass。
Thoughplacid,thisearlyLincolnwasnotresigned。HedifferedfromtheboorsofPigeonCreekinwantingsomeothersortoflife。Whatitwashewanted,hedidnotknow。Hisreadinghadnotasyetgivenhimdefiniteambitions。ItmaywellbethatNewOrleanswasthecluetosuchstirringinhimastherewasofthatdiscontentwhichfancifulpeoplehavecalleddivine。RememberingNewOrleans,couldanyimaginativeyouthbecontentwithPigeonCreek?
Inthespringof1830,shortlyafterhecameofage,heagreedforoncewithhisfatherwhosechronicvagrancyhadreasserteditself。ThewholefamilysetoutagainontheirwanderingsandmadetheirwayinanoxcarttoanewhaltingplaceontheSangamonRiverinIllinois。ThereAbrahamhelpedhisfatherclearanotherpieceoflandforanotherillusive“start“inlife。Thefollowingspringhepartedwithhisfamilyandstruckoutforhimself。[1]HisnextadventurewasasecondtripasaboatmantoNewOrleans。Canonehelpsuspectingtherewasvaguehopeinhisheartthathemightbeadventuringtothelandofhearts’desire?Iftherewas,theyokelswhowerehisfellowboatmenneversuspectedit。OneofthemlongafterwardassertedthatLincolnreturnedfromNewOrleansfiercelyrebelliousagainstitscentralinstitution,slavery,anddeterminedto“hitthatthing“wheneverhecould。
Thelegendcentersinhiswitnessingaslaveauctionandgivingvoicetohishorrorinastylequiteunlikeanyofhisauthenticutterances。Theauthorityforallthisisdoubtful。[2]
Furthermore,theLincolnof1831wasnotyetawakened。Thatinnerlifeinwhichsuchareactionmighttakeplacewasstilllargelydormant。Theouterlife,thelifeoftheharvestclown,wasstillathickinsulation。Apparently,thewakingoftheinnerlife,theterminationofitsdormantstage,wasreservedforanincidentfarmorepersonalthatfelluponhimindesolatingforceafewyearslater。
FollowingtheNewOrleansventure,cameaperiodasstorekeeperforamannamedDentonOffut,inperhapstheleastdesirabletowninIllinois——adrearylittlehuddleofhousesgatheredaroundRutledge’sMillontheSangamonRiverandcalledNewSalem。[3]ThoughafewofitspeoplewereofabettersortthananyLincolnhadyetknownexcept,perhaps,themiller’sfamilyintheolddaysinKentucky——andstillasmallerfewwereoffinequality,thecommunityforthemostpartwashopeless。A
fatalityforunpromisingneighborhoodsoverhangslikeadoomtheearlypartofthisstrangelife。AllaccountsofNewSalemrepresentitaspredominantlyacongregationoftheworthless,flungtogetherbyunaccountableaccidentataspotwheretherewasnogenuinereasonforatown’sexistence。Acasualtown,createdbydrifters,andvoidofsettledpurpose。Smallwonderthaterelongitvanishedfromthemap;thatafterafewyearsitsdriftingcongregationdispersedtoeverycornerofthehorizon,andwasnomore。ButduringitsbriefexistenceitstagedanepisodeinthedevelopmentofLincoln’scharacter。
However,thisdidnottakeplaceatonce。Andbeforeithappened,cameanotherturnofhissoul’shighwayscarcelylessimportant。Hediscovered,orthoughthediscovered,whathewanted。Hisvagueambitiontookshape。Hedecidedtotrytobeapolitician。Attwenty-three,afterlivinginNewSalemlessthanayear,thisaudacious,nottosayimpertinent,youngmanofferedhimselftothevotersofSangamonCountyasacandidatefortheLegislature。Atthistimethathumilitywhichwaseventuallyhischaracteristichadnotappeared。ItmaybedatedassubsequenttoNewSalem——afurtherevidencethatthedeepspiritualexperiencewhichclosedthischapterformedacrisis。Beforethen,atNewSalemasatPigeonCreek,hewasbutavariant,singularlydecent,oftheboisterous,frolicking,impertinenttypethatinstinctivelysoughtthelaxerneighborhoodsofthefrontier。AnechoofPigeonCreekinformedtheyoungstorekeeper’sfirststatepaper,theannouncementofhiscandidacy,intheyear1832。Hisfirstpoliticalspeechwasinacuriousvein,glib,intimateandfantastic:“Fellowcitizens,IpresumeyouallknowwhoIam。
IamhumbleAbrahamLincoln。IhavebeensolicitedbymanyfriendstobecomeacandidatefortheLegislature。Mypoliticsareshortandsweetliketheoldwoman’sdance。Iaminfavorofanationalbank。Iaminfavoroftheinternalimprovementsystemandahighprotectivetariff。Thesearemysentimentsandpoliticalprinciples。Ifelected,Ishallbethankful;ifnotitwillbeallthesame。“[4]
However,thisboldthrowofthediceoffortunewasnotquitesoimpertinentasitseems。DuringthemonthswhenhewasinchargeofOffut’sgrocerystorehehadmadeaconquestofNewSalem。Thevillagegroceryinthosedayswasthevillageclub。
Ithaditsconstantgatheringofloafersallofwhomwereendowedwithvotes。Itwastheoneplacethroughwhichpassedthewholepopulation,inandout,onetimeoranother。Toacleverstorekeeperitgaveachancetoestablishafollowing。
Hadhe,asLincolnhad,thegiftofstory-telling,thegiftofhumor,hewasamademan。PigeonCreekoveragain!Lincoln’swealthoffunnystoriesgaveOffut’sgrocerysomewhattheroleofavaudevilletheaterandmadethestorekeeperaspopularamanastherewasinNewSalem。
InanotherwayherepeatedhisconquestofPigeonCreek。NewSalemhaditslocalAlsatiaknownasClary’sGrovewhoseinsolentyoungtoughsledbytheirchief,JackArmstrong,weretheterroroftheneighborhood。Thegroceriespaidthemtributeinfreedrinks。Anylucklessstorekeeperwhoincurredtheirdispleasurefoundhisstoresomefinemorningatotalwreck。LincolnchallengedJackArmstrongtoaduelwithfists。
Itwasformallyarranged。Aringwasformed;thewholevillagewasaudience;andLincolnthrashedhimtoafinish。Butthiswasonlyasmallpartofhistriumph。Hisphysicalprowess,joinedwithhishumorandhiscompanionableness;entirelycaptivatedClary’sGrove。Thereafter,itwasstorekeeperLincoln’spocketborough;itsruffianswerehisbody-guard。
Woetoanyonewhomadetroublefortheirhero。
Therewerestillothercausesforhisquickrisetothepositionofvillageleader。Hisunfailingkindnesswasone;
hishonestywasanother。Taleswererelatedofhisscrupulousdealings,suchaswalkingadistanceofmilesinordertocorrectatriflingerrorhehadmade,insellingapoorwomanlessthantheproperweightoftea。Then,too,byNewSalemstandards,hewaseducated。LongpracticeontheshovelatPigeonCreekhadgivenhimagoodhandwriting,andoneofthefirstthingshedidatNewSalemwastovolunteertobeclerkofelections。Andtherewasadistinctmoralsuperiority。
Littleasthiswouldhavesignifiedunbackedbyhisgiantstrengthsinceithadthatauthoritybehindithismoralitysethimapartfromhisfollowers,different,imposing。Heseldom,ifever,drankwhisky。Sobrietywasalreadytheruleofhislife,bothoutwardandinward。Atthesametimehewasnotcensorious。HeacceptedthedevotionofClary’sGrovewithouttheslightestattempttomakeoveritsbravoesinhisownimage。Hesympathizedwithitsideasofsport。Forallhiskindlinesstohumansofeverysortmuchofhissensitivenessforanimalshadpassedaway。Hewasnotaversetocockfighting;heenjoyedahorserace。[5]Altogether,inhisouterlife,beforethecatastrophethatrevealedhimtohimself,hewasquiteasmuchinthetoneofNewSalemaseverinthatofPigeonCreek。WhentheelectioncamehegoteveryvoteinNewSalemexceptthree。[6]
ButthevillagewasasmallpartofSangamonCounty。ThoughLincolnreceivedarespectablenumberofvoteselsewhere,histotalwaswelldownintherunning。Heremainedaninconspicuousminoritycandidate。
MeanwhileOffut’sgroceryhadfailed。Inthemidstofthelegislativecampaign,Offut’sfarmerstorekeepervolunteeredfortheIndianWarwithBlackHawk,butreturnedtoNewSalemshortlybeforetheelectionwithouthavingoncesmelledpowder。
Sincehispeerswerenotofamindtogivehimimmediateoccupationingoverning,heturnedagaintobusiness。HeformedapartnershipwithamannamedBerry。TheyboughtoncreditthewreckofagrocerythathadbeensackedbyLincoln’sfriendsofClary’sGrove,andstartedbusinessas“GeneralMerchants,“underthestyleofBerry&Lincoln。Therefollowedayearofcompleteunsuccess。Lincolndemonstratedthathewasfarmoreinclinedtoreadanychancebookthatcamehiswaythantoattendtobusiness,andthathehad“nomoneysense。“
ThenewfirmwentthewayofOffut’sgrocery,leavingnothingbehinditbutdebt。ThedebtsdidnottroubleBerry;Lincolnassumedthemall。Theyformedadreadfulloadwhichheborewithhisusualpatienceandlittlebylittledischarged。