`Afterthesunhadset,thedarknessseemedtodriveuponus,borneineveryfaintpuffofthebreeze。InthemiddleofahedgedpathIsawthearrested,gaunt,watchful,andapparentlyone-leggedsilhouetteofTamb’Itam;andacrosstheduskyspacemyeyedetectedsomethingwhitemovingtoandfrobehindthesupportsoftheroof。AssoonasJim,withTamb’Itamathisheels,hadstarteduponhiseveningrounds,Iwentuptothehousealone,and,unexpectedly,foundmyselfwaylaidbythegirl,whohadbeenclearlywaitingforthisopportunity。
`Itishardtotellyouwhatitwaspreciselyshewantedtowrestfromme。Obviouslyitwouldbesomethingverysimple——thesimplestimpossibilityintheworld;as,forinstance,theexactdescriptionoftheformofacloud。Shewantedanassurance,astatement,apromise,anexplanation——I
don’tknowhowtocallit:thethinghasnoname。Itwasdarkundertheprojectingroof,andallIcouldseeweretheflowinglinesofhergown,thepalesmallovalofherface,withthewhiteflashofherteeth,and,turnedtowardsme,thebigsombreorbitsofhereyes,wherethereseemedtobeafaintstir,suchasyoumayfancyyoucandetectwhenyouplungeyourgazetothebottomofanimmenselydeepwell。Whatisthatmovesthere?
youaskyourself。Isitablindmonsteroronlyalostgleamfromtheuniverse?
Itoccurredtome——don’tlaugh——thatallthingsbeingdissimilar,shewasmoreinscrutableinherchildishignorancethantheSphinxpropoundingchildishriddlestowayfarers。ShehadbeencarriedofftoPatusanbeforehereyeswereopen。Shehadgrownupthere;shehadseennothing,shehadknownnothing,shehadnoconceptionofanything。Iaskmyselfwhethersheweresurethatanythingelseexisted。Whatnotionsshemayhaveformedoftheoutsideworldistomeinconceivable:allthatsheknewofitsinhabitantswereabetrayedwomanandasinisterpantaloon。Herloveralsocametoherfromthere,giftedwithirresistibleseductions;butwhatwouldbecomeofherifheshouldreturntotheseinconceivableregionsthatseemedalwaystoclaimbacktheirown?Hermotherhadwarnedherofthiswithtearsbeforeshedied……
`Shehadcaughtholdofmyarmfirmly,andassoonasIhadstoppedshehadwithdrawnherhandinhaste。Shewasaudaciousandshrinking。Shefearednothing,butshewascheckedbytheprofoundincertitudeandtheextremestrangeness——abravepersongropinginthedark。IbelongedtothisUnknownthatmightclaimJimforitsownatanymoment。Iwas,asitwere,inthesecretofitsnatureandofitsintentions——theconfidantofathreateningmystery;——armedwithitspowerperhaps!IbelieveshesupposedIcouldwithawordwhiskJimawayoutofherveryarms;itismysoberconvictionshewentthroughagoniesofapprehensionduringmylongtalkswithJim;througharealandintolerableanguishthatmighthaveconceivablydrivenherintoplottingmymurder,hadthefiercenessofhersoulbeenequaltothetremendoussituationithadcreated。Thisismyimpression,anditisallIcangiveyou。Thewholethingdawnedgraduallyuponme,andasitgotclearerandclearerIwasoverwhelmedbyaslowincredulousamazement。Shemademebelieveher,butthereisnowordthatonmylipscouldrendertheeffectoftheheadlongandvehementwhisper,ofthesoftpassionatetones,ofthesuddenbreathlesspauseandtheappealingmovementofthewhitearmsextendedswiftly。Theyfell;theghostlyfigureswayedlikeaslendertreeinthewind,thepaleovalofthefacedrooped;itwasimpossibletodistinguishherfeatures,thedarknessoftheeyeswasunfathomable;twowidesleevesuproseinthedarklikeunfoldingwings,andshestoodsilent,holdingherheadinherhands。’
immenselytouched:heryouth,herignorance,herprettybeauty,whichhadthesimplecharmandthedelicatevigourofawild-flower,herpatheticpleading,herhelplessness,appealedtomewithalmostthestrengthofherownunreasonableandnaturalfear。Shefearedtheunknownaswealldo,andherignorancemadetheunknowninfinitelyvast。Istoodforit,formyself,foryoufellows,foralltheworldthatneithercaredforJimnorneededhimintheleast。Iwouldhavebeenreadyenoughtoanswerfortheindifferenceoftheteemingearthbutforthereflectionthathe,too,belongedtothismysteriousunknownofherfears,andthat,howevermuchIstoodfor,Ididnotstandforhim。Thismademehesitate。Amurmurofhopelesspainunsealedmylips。IbeganbyprotestingthatIatleasthadcomewithnointentiontotakeJimaway。
`WhydidIcome,then?Afteraslightmovementshewasasstillasamarblestatueinthenight。Itriedtoexplainbriefly:friendship,business;
ifIhadanywishinthematteritwasrathertoseehimstay……“Theyalwaysleaveus,“shemurmured。Thebreathofsadwisdomfromthegravewhichherpietywreathedwithflowersseemedtopassinafaintsigh……Nothing,Isaid,couldseparateJimfromher。
`Itismyfirmconvictionnow;itwasmyconvictionatthetime;itwastheonlypossibleconclusionfromthefactsofthecase。Itwasnotmademorecertainbyherwhisperinginatoneinwhichonespeakstooneself,“Hesworethistome。““Didyouaskhim?“Isaid。
`Shemadeastepnearer。“No。Never!“Shehadaskedhimonlytogoaway。
Itwasthatnightontheriver-bank,afterhehadkilledtheman——aftershehadflungthetorchinthewaterbecausehewaslookingatherso。
Therewastoomuchlight,andthedangerwasoverthen——foralittletime——foralittletime。HesaidthenhewouldnotabandonhertoCornelius。Shehadinsisted。Shewantedhimtoleaveher。Hesaidthathecouldnot——thatitwasimpossible。Hetrembledwhilehesaidthis。Shehadfelthimtremble……Onedoesnotrequiremuchimaginationtoseethescene,almosttoheartheirwhispers。Shewasafraidforhim,too。Ibelievethatthenshesawinhimonlyapredestinedvictimofdangerswhichsheunderstoodbetterthanhimself。Thoughbynothingbuthismerepresencehehadmasteredherheart,hadfilledallherthoughts,andhadpossessedhimselfofallheraffections,sheunder-estimatedhischancesofsuccess。Itisobviousthatataboutthattimeeverybodywasinclinedtounder-estimatehischances。
Strictlyspeakinghedidn’tseemtohaveany。IknowthiswasCornelius’sview。HeconfessedthatmuchtomeinextenuationoftheshadyparthehadplayedinSherifAli’splottodoawaywiththeinfidel。EvenSherifAlihimself,asitseemscertainnow,hadnothingbutcontemptforthewhiteman。Jimwastobemurderedmainlyonreligiousgrounds,Ibelieve。
Asimpleactofpietyandsofarinfinitelymeritorious,butotherwisewithoutmuchimportance。InthelastpartofthisopinionCorneliusconcurred。
“Honourablesir,“hearguedabjectlyontheonlyoccasionhemanagedtohavemetohimself——“Honourablesir,howwasItoknow?Whowashe?Whatcouldhedotomakepeoplebelievehim?WhatdidMr。Steinmeansendingaboylikethattotalkbigtoanoldservant?Iwasreadytosavehimforeightydollars。Onlyeightydollars。Whydidn’tthefoolgo?WasI
togetstabbedmyselfforthesakeofastranger?“Hegrovelledinspiritbeforeme,withhisbodydoubledupinsinuatinglyandhishandshoveringaboutmyknees,asthoughhewerereadytoembracemylegs。“What’seightydollars?Aninsignificantsumtogiveadefencelessoldmanruinedforlifebyadeceasedshe-devil。“Herehewept。ButIanticipate。Ididn’tthatnightchanceuponCorneliustillIhadhaditoutwiththegirl。
`ShewasunselfishwhensheurgedJimtoleaveher,andeventoleavethecountry。Itwashisdangerthatwasforemostinherthoughts——evenifshewantedtosaveherself,too——perhapsunconsciously:butthenlookatthewarningshehad,lookatthelessonthatcouldbedrawnfromeverymomentoftherecentlyendedlifeinwhichallhermemorieswerecentred。
Shefellathisfeet——shetoldmeso——therebytheriver,inthediscreetlightofstarswhichshowednothingexceptgreatmassesofsilentshadows,indefiniteopenspaces,andtremblingfaintlyuponthebroadstreammadeitappearaswideasthesea。Hehadliftedherup。Heliftedherup,andthenshewouldstrugglenomore。Ofcoursenot。Strongarms,atendervoice,astalwartshouldertorestherpoorlonelylittleheadupon。Theneed——theinfiniteneed——ofallthisfortheachingheart,forthebewilderedmind;——thepromptingsofyouth——thenecessityofthemoment。Whatwouldyouhave?
Oneunderstands——unlessoneisincapableofunderstandinganythingunderthesun。Andsoshewascontenttobeliftedup——andheld。“Youknow——Jove!
thisisserious——nononsenseinit!“asJimhadwhisperedhurriedlywithatroubledconcernedfaceonthethresholdofhishouse。Idon’tknowsomuchaboutnonsense,buttherewasnothinglightheartedintheirromance:
theycametogetherundertheshadowofalife’sdisaster,likeknightandmaidenmeetingtoexchangevowsamongsthauntedruins。Thestarlightwasgoodenoughforthatstory,alightsofaintandremotethatitcannotresolveshadowsintoshapes,andshowtheothershoreofastream。Ididlookuponthestreamthatnightandfromtheveryplace;itrolledsilentandasblackasStyx:thenextdayIwentaway,butIamnotlikelytoforgetwhatitwasshewantedtobesavedfromwhensheentreatedhimtoleaveherwhiletherewastime。Shetoldmewhatitwas,calmed——shewasnowtoopassionatelyinterestedformereexcitement——ininavoiceasquietintheobscurityasherwhitehalf-lostfigure。Shetoldme,“Ididn’twanttodieweeping。“IthoughtIhadnotheardaright。
“`Youdidnotwanttodieweeping?“Irepeatedafterher。“Likemymother,“
sheaddedreadily。Theoutlinesofherwhiteshapedidnotstirintheleast。“Mymotherhadweptbitterlybeforeshedied,“sheexplained。Aninconceivablecalmnessseemedtohaverisenfromthegroundaroundus,imperceptibly,likethestillriseofafloodinthenight,obliteratingthefamiliarlandmarksofemotions。Therecameuponme,asthoughIhadfeltmyselflosingmyfootinginthemidstofwaters,asuddendread,thedreadoftheunknowndepths。Shewentonexplainingthat,duringthelastmoments,beingalonewithhermother,shehadtoleavethesideofthecouchtogoandsetherbackagainstthedoor,inordertokeepCorneliusout。Hedesiredtogetin,andkeptondrummingwithbothfists,onlydesistingnowandagaintoshouthuskily:“Letmein!Letmein!Letmein!’Inafarcorneruponafewmatsthemoribundwoman,alreadyspeechlessandunabletoliftherarm,rolledherheadover,andwithafeeblemovementofherhandseemedtocommand——“No!No!“andtheobedientdaughter,settinghershoulderswithallherstrengthagainstthedoor,waslookingon。“Thetearsfellfromhereyes——andthenshedied,“concludedthegirlinanimperturbablemonotone,whichmorethananythingelse,morethanthewhitestatuesqueimmobilityofherperson,morethanmerewordscoulddo,troubledmymindprofoundlywiththepassive,irremediablehorrorofthescene。
Ithadthepowertodrivemeoutofmyconceptionofexistence,outofthatsheltereachofusmakesforhimselftocreepunderinmomentsofdanger,asatortoisewithdrawswithinitsshell。ForamomentIhadaviewofaworldthatseemedtowearavastanddismalaspectofdisorder,while,intruth,thankstoourunweariedefforts,itisassunnyanarrangementofsmallconveniencesasthemindofmancanconceive。Butstill——itwasonlyamoment:Iwentbackintomyshelldirectly。Onemust——don’tyouknow?——thoughIseemedtohavelostallmywordsinthechaosofdarkthoughtsIhadcontemplatedforasecondortwobeyondthepale。Thesecameback,too,verysoon,forwordsalsobelongtotheshelteringconceptionoflightandorderwhichisourrefuge。Ihadthemreadyatmydisposalbeforeshewhisperedsoftly:“Hesworehewouldneverleaveme,whenwestoodtherealone!Hesworetome!“……“Andisitpossiblethatyou——you!
donotbelievehim?“Iasked,sincerelyreproachful,genuinelyshocked。
Whycouldn’tshebelieve?Whereforethiscravingforincertitude,thisclingingtofear,asifincertitudeandfearhadbeenthesafeguardsofherlove?Itwasmonstrous。Sheshouldhavemadeforherselfashelterofinexpugnablepeaceoutofthathonestaffection。Shehadnottheknowledge——nottheskillperhaps。Thenighthadcomeonapace;ithadgrownpitch-darkwherewewere,sothatwithoutstirringshehadfadedliketheintangibleformofawistfulandperversespirit。AndsuddenlyIheardherquietwhisperagain:“Othermenhadswornthesamething。“Itwaslikeameditativecommentonsomethoughtsfullofsadness,ofawe。Andsheadded,stilllowerifpossible:“Myfatherdid。“Shepausedthetimetodrawaninaudiblebreath。
Herfather,too……Thesewerethethingssheknew!AtonceIsaid:
“Ah!butheisnotlikethat。“This,itseemed,shedidnotintendtodispute;
butafteratimethestrangestillwhisperwanderingdreamilyintheairstoleintomyears。“Whyishedifferent?Ishebetter?Ishe……““Uponmywordofhonour,“Ibrokein,“Ibelieveheis。“Wesubduedourtonestoamysteriouspitch。AmongstthehutsofJim’sworkmentheyweremostlyliberatedslavesfromtheSherif’sstockadesomebodystartedashrill,drawlingsong。AcrosstheriverabigfireatDoramin’s,Ithinkmadeaglowingball,completelyisolatedinthenight。“Ishemoretrue?“shemurmured。“Yes,“Isaid。“Moretruethananyotherman?“sherepeatedinlingeringaccents。“Nobodyhere,“Isaid,“woulddreamofdoubtinghisword——nobodywoulddare——exceptyou。“
`Ithinkshemadeamovementatthis。“Morebrave?“shewentoninachangedtone。“Fearshallneverdrivehimawayfromyou,“Isaidalittlenervously。Thesongstoppedshortonashrillnote,andwassucceededbyseveralvoicestalkinginthedistance。Jim’svoice,too。Iwasstruckbyhersilence。“Whathashebeentellingyou?Hehasbeentellingyousomething?“Iasked。Therewasnoanswer。“Whatisithetoldyou?“Iinsisted。
“`DoyouthinkIcantellyou?HowamItoknow?HowamItounderstand?“
shecriedatlast。Therewasastir。Ibelieveshewaswringingherhands。
“Thereissomethinghecanneverforget。“
“`Somuchthebetterforyou,“Isaid,gloomily。
“`Whatisit?Whatisit?“Sheputanextraordinaryforceofappealintohersupplicatingtone。“Hesayshehadbeenafraid。HowcanIbelievethis?AmIamadwomantobelievethis?Youallremembersomething!Youallgobacktoit。Whatisit?Youtellme!Whatisthisthing?Isitalive?——isitdead?Ihateit。Itiscruel。Hasitgotafaceandavoice——thiscalamity?
Willheseeit——willhehearit?Inhissleepperhapswhenhecannotseeme——andthenariseandgo。Ah!Ishallneverforgivehim。Mymotherhadforgiven——butI,never!Willitbeasign——acall?“
`Itwasawonderfulexperience。Shemistrustedhisveryslumbers——andsheseemedtothinkIcouldtellherwhy!Thusapoormortalseducedbythecharmofanapparitionmighthavetriedtowringfromanotherghostthetremendoussecretoftheclaimtheotherworldholdsoveradisembodiedsoulastrayamongstthepassionsofthisearth。TheverygroundonwhichIstoodseemedtomeltundermyfeet。Anditwassosimple,too;butifthespiritsevokedbyourfearsandourunresthaveevertovouchforeachother’sconstancybeforetheforlornmagiciansthatweare,thenI——Ialoneofusdwellersintheflesh——haveshudderedinthehopelesschillofsuchatask。Asign,acall!Howtellinginitsexpressionwasherignorance。
Afewwords!Howshecametoknowthem,howshecametopronouncethem,Ican’timagine。Womenfindtheirinspirationinthestressofmomentsthatforusaremerelyawful,absurd,orfutile。Todiscoverthatshehadavoiceatallwasenoughtostrikeaweintotheheart。Hadaspurnedstonecriedoutinpainitcouldnothaveappearedagreaterandmorepitifulmiracle。Thesefewsoundswanderinginthedarkhadmadetheirtwobenightedlivestragictomymind。Itwasimpossibletomakeherunderstand。Ichafedsilentlyatmyimpotence。AndJim,too——poordevil!Whowouldneedhim?