’Fight,forthesakeofthejuniorfirst,’criedthelittlefellowinmyear,thecleverone,theheadofourclass,whohadmockedJohnFry,andknewallabouttheaorists,andtriedtomakemeknowit;butIneverwentmorethanthreeplacesup,andthenitwasanaccident,andIcamedownafterdinner。Theboyswereurgentroundmetofight,thoughmystomachwasnotupforit;andbeingveryslowofwitwhichisnotchargeableonme,Ilookedfromonetootherofthem,seekinganycureforit。NotthatIwasafraidoffighting,fornowIhadbeenthreeyearsatBlundell’s,andfoughten,allthattime,afightatleastonceeveryweek,tilltheboysbegantoknowme;onlythattheloadonmyheartwasnotsprightlyasofthehay-field。Itisaverysadthingtodwellon;butevennow,inmytimeofwisdom,Idoubtitisafondthingtoimagine,andamotherlytoinsistupon,thatboyscandowithoutfighting。Unlesstheybeverygoodboys,andafraidofoneanother。
’Nay,’Isaid,withmybackagainstthewrought-ironstayofthegate,whichwassocketedintoCop’shouse-front:’Iwillnotfighttheenow,RobinSnell,butwaittillIcomebackagain。’
’Takecoward’sblow,JackRidd,then,’criedhalfadozenlittleboys,shovingBobSnellforwardtodoit;
becausetheyallknewwellenough,havingstrivenwithmeerenow,andprovedmetobetheirmaster——theyknew,Isay,thatwithoutgreatchange,Iwouldneveracceptthatcontumely。ButItooklittleheedofthem,lookingindullwondermentatJohnFry,andSmiler,andtheblunderbuss,andPeggy。JohnFrywasscratchinghishead,Icouldsee,andgettingblueintheface,bythelightfromCop’sparlour-window,andgoingtoandfrouponSmiler,asifhewerehardsetwithit。AndallthetimehewaslookingbrisklyfrommyeyestothefistIwasclenching,andmethoughthetriedtowinkatmeinacovertmanner;andthenPeggywhiskedhertail。
’ShallIfight,John?’Isaidatlast;’Iwouldanyouhadnotcome,John。’
’Chraist’swillbedone;Izimtheehadbetterfaight,Jan,’heanswered,inawhisper,throughthegridironofthegate;’therebeadaleoffaightingavorethee。
Bestwaitobegingudetaimelaike。Wullthegeatmanlattmein,tozeeastheehastvairplai,lad?’
Helookeddoubtfullydownatthecolourofhiscowskinboots,andthemireuponthehorses,forthesloughswereexceedinglymucky。Peggy,indeed,mysorrelpony,beinglighterofweight,wasnotcrustedmuchovertheshoulders;butSmilerouryoungestsledder
hadbeenwellinoverhiswithers,andnonewouldhavedeemedhimapiebald,saveofredmireandblackmire。
Thegreatblunderbuss,moreover,waschokedwithadollopofslough-cake;andJohnFry’ssad-colouredSundayhatwasinduedwithaplumeofmarish-weed。
AllthisIsawwhilehewasdismounting,heavilyandwearily,liftinghislegfromthesaddle-clothasifwithasorecrickinhisback。
Bythistimethequestionoffightingwasgonequiteoutofourdiscretion;forsundryoftheelderboys,graveandreverendsignors,whohadtakennosmallpleasureinteachingourhandstofight,toward,toparry,tofeignandcounter,tolungeinthemannerofsword-play,andtheweakerchildtodropononekneewhennocunningoffencemightbaffletheonset——thesegreatmastersoftheart,whowouldfarlieferseeuslittleonespractiseitthanthemselvesengage,sixorsevenofthemcamerunningdowntheroundedcauseway,havingheardthattherehadarisen’asnuglittlemill’
atthegate。NowwhetherthatwordhathorigininaGreektermmeaningaconflict,asthebest-readboysasseverated,orwhetheritisnothingmorethanafigureofsimilitude,fromthebeatingarmsofamill,suchasIhaveseenincountieswherearenowaterbrooks,butfolkmakebreadwithwind——itisnotforamandevoidofscholarshiptodetermine。Enoughthattheywhomadetheringintituledthescenea’mill,’whilewewhomustbethumpedinsideittriedtorejoiceintheirpleasantry,tillitturneduponthestomach。
Moreover,Ifeltuponmenowacertainresponsibility,adutifulneedtomaintain,inthepresenceofJohnFry,themanlinessoftheRiddfamily,andthehonourofExmoor。Hithertononehadworstedme,althoughinthethreeyearsofmyschooling,Ihadfoughtmorethanthreescorebattles,andbedewedwithbloodeveryplantofgrasstowardsthemiddleoftheIroning-box。AndthissuccessIowedatfirsttonoskillofmyown;
untilIcametoknowbetter;foruptotwentyorthirtyfights,Istruckasnatureguidedme,nowiserthanafather-long-legsintheheatofalanthorn;butIhadconquered,partlythroughmynativestrength,andtheExmoortoughnessinme,andstillmorethatIcouldnotseewhenIhadgottenmybellyful。ButnowIwasliketohavethatandmore;formyheartwasdown,tobeginwith;andthenRobertSnellwasabiggerboythanIhadeverencountered,andasthickintheskullandhardinthebrainasevenIcouldclaimtobe。
Ihadnevertoldmymotherawordaboutthesefrequentstrivings,becauseshewassoft-hearted;neitherhadI
toldbyfather,becausehehadnotseenit。Therefore,beholdingmestillaninnocent-lookingchild,withfaircurlsonmyforehead,andnostoreofbadlanguage,JohnFrythoughtthiswastheveryfirstfightthateverhadbefallenme;andsowhentheylethimatthegate,’withamessagetotheheadmaster,’asoneofthemonitorstoldCop,andPeggyandSmilerweretiedtotherailings,tillIshouldbethroughmybusiness,Johncomesuptomewiththetearsinhiseyes,andsays,’Doon’ttheegoofortodoit,Jan;doon’ttheedoit,forgudenow。’ButItoldhimthatnowitwasmuchtoolatetocryoff;sohesaid,’TheLordbewiththee,Jan,andturnthythumb-knuckleinwards。’
Itwasnotaverylargepieceofgroundintheangleofthecauseways,butquitebigenoughtofightupon,especiallyforChristians,wholovedtobecheekbyjowlatit。Thegreatboysstoodinacirclearound,beinggiftedwithstrongprivilege,andthelittleboyshadleavetolieflatandlookthroughthelegsofthegreatboys。Butwhilewewereyetpreparing,andthecandleshissedinthefog-cloud,oldPhoebe,ofmorethanfourscoreyears,whoseroomwasoverthehall-porch,camehobblingout,asshealwaysdid,tomarthejoyoftheconflict。Nooneeverheededher,neitherdidsheexpectit;buttheevilwasthattwoseniorboysmustalwayslosethefirstroundofthefight,byhavingtoleadherhomeagain。
ImarvelhowRobinSnellfelt。Verylikelyhethoughtnothingofit,alwayshavingbeenaboyofahectoringandunrulysort。ButIfeltmyheartgoupanddownastheboyscameroundtostripme;andgreatlyfearingtobebeaten,Iblewhotuponmyknuckles。ThenpulledI
offmylittlecutjerkin,andlaiditdownonmyheadcap,andoverthatmywaistcoat,andaboywasproudtotakecareofthem。ThomasHooperwashisname,andI
rememberhowhelookedatme。Mymotherhadmadethatlittlecutjerkin,inthequietwinterevenings。Andtakenpridetoloopitupinafashionableway,andI
waslothtosoilitwithblood,andgoodfilberdswereinthepocket。ThenuptomecameRobinSnellmayorofExeterthricesincethat,andhestoodverysquare,andlookingatme,andIlackednotlongtolookathim。Roundhiswaisthehadakerchiefbuskinguphissmall-clothes,andonhisfeetlightpumpkinshoes,andallhisupperraimentoff。Andhedancedaboutinawaythatmademyheadswimonmyshoulders,andhestoodsomeinchesoverme。ButI,beingmuddledwithmuchdoubtaboutJohnFryandhiserrand,wasonlystrippedofmyjerkinandwaistcoat,andnotcomfortabletobegin。
’Comenow,shakehands,’criedabigboy,jumpinginjoyofthespectacle,athird-formernearlysixfeethigh;’shakehands,youlittledevils。Keepyourpluckup,andshowgoodsport,andLordlovethebettermanofyou。’
Robintookmebythehand,andgazedatmedisdainfully,andthensmotemepainfullyintheface,ereIcouldgetmyfenceup。
’Whuttbe’bout,lad?’criedJohnFry;’huttunagain,Jan,wull’e?Welldonethen,ourJanboy。’
ForIhadrepliedtoRobinnow,withalltheweightandcadenceofpenthemimeralcaesuraathing,thenameofwhichIknow,butcouldnevermakeheadnortailofit,andthestrifebeganinaseriousstyle,andtheboyslookingonwerenotcheated。AlthoughIcouldnotcollecttheirshoutswhentheblowswereringinguponme,itwasnogreatloss;forJohnFrytoldmeafterwardsthattheiroathswentuplikeafurnacefire。Buttothesewepaidnoheedorhap,beinginthethickofswinging,anddevoidofjudgment。AllI
knowis,Icametomycorner,whentheroundwasover,withveryhardpumpsinmychest,andagreatdesiretofallaway。
’Timeisup,’criedhead-monitor,ereeverIgotmybreathagain;andwhenIfainwouldhavelingeredawhileonthekneeoftheboythatheldme。JohnFryhadcomeup,andtheboyswerelaughingbecausehewantedastablelanthorn,andthreatenedtotellmymother。
’Timeisup,’criedanotherboy,moreheadlongthanhead-monitor。’Ifwecountthreebeforethecomeofthee,thwackedthouart,andmustgotothewomen。’I
feltitharduponme。Hebegantocount,one,too,three——butbeforethe’three’wasoutofhismouth,I
wasfacingmyfoe,withbothhandsup,andmybreathgoingroughandhot,andresolvedtowaittheturnofit。ForIhadfoundseatonthekneeofaboysageandskilledtotutorme,whoknewhowmuchtheendveryoftendiffersfromthebeginning。Arareripescholarhewas;andnowhehathrouteduptheGermansinthematterofcriticism。Surethecleverboysandmenhavemostlovetowardsthestupidones。
’Finishhimoff,Bob,’criedabigboy,andthatI
noticedespecially,becauseIthoughtitunkindofhim,aftereatingofmytoffeeashehadthatafternoon;
’finishhimoff,neckandcrop;hedeservesitforstickinguptoamanlikeyou。’
ButIwasnotsotobefinishedoff,thoughfeelinginmyknucklesnowasifitwereabluenessandasenseofchilblain。Nothingheldexceptmylegs,andtheyweregoodtohelpme。Sothisbout,orround,ifyouplease,wasfoughtenwarilybyme,withgentlerecollectionofwhatmytutor,thecleverboy,hadtoldme,andsomeresolvetoearnhispraisebeforeIcamebacktohiskneeagain。Andnever,Ithink,inallmylife,soundedsweeterwordsinmyearsexceptwhenmylovelovedmethanwhenmysecondandbacker,whohadmadehimselfpartofmydoingsnow,andwouldhavewepttoseemebeaten,said,——
’Famouslydone,Jack,famously!Onlykeepyourwindup,Jack,andyou’llgorightthroughhim!’
MeanwhileJohnFrywasprowlingabout,askingtheboyswhattheythoughtofit,andwhetherIwasliketobekilled,becauseofmymother’strouble。ButfindingnowthatIhadfoughtenthree-scorefightsalready,hecameuptomewoefully,inthequicknessofmybreathing,whileIsatonthekneeofmysecond,withapieceofspongiouscorallinetoeasemeofmybloodshed,andhesaysinmyears,asifhewasclappingspursintoahorse,——
’Nevertheeknackunder,Jan,ornevercoomnaighHexmoornomore。’
Withthatitwasallupwithme。Asimmeringbuzzedinmyheavybrain,andalightcamethroughmyeyeplaces。
AtonceIsetbothfistsagain,andmyheartstucktomelikecobbler’swax。EitherRobinSnellshouldkillme,orIwouldconquerRobinSnell。SoIwentinagainwithmycourageup,andBobcamesmilingforvictory,andIhatedhimforsmiling。Heletatmewithhislefthand,andIgavehimmyrightbetweenhiseyes,andheblinked,andwasnotpleasedwithit。Ifearedhimnot,andsparedhimnot,neithersparedmyself。Mybreathcameagain,andmyheartstoodcool,andmyeyesstruckfirenolonger。OnlyIknewthatIwoulddiesoonerthanshamemybirthplace。HowtherestofitwasIknownot;onlythatIhadtheendofit,andhelpedtoputRobininbed。