Itisbeyondmeandaboveme,todiscussthesesubjects;andintruthIlovethelawrightwell,whenitdothsupportme,andwhenIcanlayitdowntomyliking,withprejudicetonobody。Loyal,too,totheKingamI,asbehoveschurchwarden;andreadytomakethebestofhim,ashegenerallyrequires。Butafterall,IcouldnotseeuntilIgrewmucholder,andcametohavesomepropertywhyTomFaggus,workinghard,wascalledarobberandfelonofgreat;whiletheKing,doingnothingatallasbecamehisdignity,wasliege-lord,andparamountowner;witheverybodytothankhimkindlyforacceptingtribute。
  Forthepresent,however,Ilearnednothingmoreastowhatourcousin’sprofessionwas;onlythatmotherseemedfrightened,andwhisperedtohimnowandthennottotalkofsomething,becauseofthechildrenbeingthere;whereuponhealwaysnoddedwithasageexpression,andappliedhimselftohollands。
  ’NowletusgoandseeWinnie,Jack,’hesaidtomeaftersupper;’forthemostpartIfeedherbeforemyself;butshewassohotfromthewayyoudroveher。
  Nowshemustbegrievingforme,andIneverlethergrievelong。’
  Iwastoogladtogowithhim,andAnniecameslylyafterus。Thefillywaswalkingtoandfroonthenakedfloorofthestableforhewouldnotletherhaveanystraw,untilheshouldmakeabedforher,andwithoutsomuchasaheadstallon,forhewouldnothaveherfastened。’Doyoutakemymareforadog?’hehadsaidwhenJohnFrybroughthimahalter。Andnowsherantohimlikeachild,andhergreateyesshoneatthelanthorn。
  ’Hitme,Jack,andseewhatshewilldo。Iwillnotletherhurtthee。’Hewasrubbingherearsallthetimehespoke,andshewasleaningagainsthim。ThenI
  madebelievetostrikehim,andinamomentshecaughtmebythewaistband,andliftedmecleanfromtheground,andwascastingmedowntotrampleuponme,whenhestoppedhersuddenly。
  ’Whatthinkyouofthat,boy?Haveyouhorseordogthatwoulddothatforyou?Ay,andmorethanthatshewilldo。IfIweretowhistle,by-and-by,inthetonethattellsmydanger,shewouldbreakthisstable-doordown,andrushintotheroomtome。Nothingwillkeepherfrommethen,stone-wal1orchurch-tower。Ah,Winnie,Winnie,youlittlewitch,weshalldietogether。’
  Thenheturnedawaywithajoke,andbegantofeedhernicely,forshewasverydainty。Notahuskofoatwouldshetouchthathadbeenunderthebreathofanotherhorse,howeverhungryshemightbe。Andwithheroatshemixedsomepowder,fetchingitfromhissaddle-bags。WhatthiswasIcouldnotguess,neitherwouldhetellme,butlaughedandcalledit’star-shavings。’Hewatchedhereateverymorselofit,withtwoorthreedrinksofpurewater,ministeredbetweenwhiles;andthenhemadeherbedinaformI
  hadneverseenbefore,andsowesaid’Good-night’toher。
  Afterwardsbythefiresidehekeptusverymerry,sittinginthegreatchimney-corner,andmakingusplaygameswithhim。AndallthewhilehewassmokingtobaccoinamannerIneverhadseenbefore,notusinganypipeforit,buthavingitrolledinlittlesticksaboutaslongasmyfinger,bluntatoneendandsharpattheother。Thesharpendhewouldputinhismouth,andlayabrandofwoodtotheother,andthendrawawhitecloudofcurlingsmoke,andwenevertiredofwatchinghim。Iwantedhimtoletmedoit,buthesaid,’No,myson;itisnotmeantforboys。’ThenAnnieputupherlipsandasked,withbothhandsonhiskneesforshehadtakentohimwonderfully,’IsitmeantforgirlsthencousinTom?’Butshehadbetternothaveasked,forhegaveithertotry,andsheshutbotheyes,andsuckedatit。Onebreath,however,wasquiteenough,foritmadehercoughsoviolentlythatLizzieandImustthumpherbackuntilshewasalmostcrying。Toatoneforthat,cousinTomsetto,andtolduswholepagesofstories,notabouthisowndoingsatall,butstrangelyenoughtheyseemedtoconcernalmosteveryoneelsewehadeverheardof。Withouthaltingonceforawordoradeed,histalesflowedonwardasfreelyandbrightlyastheflamesofthewoodupthechimney,andwithnosmallervariety。Forhespokewiththevoicesoftwentypeople,givingeachpersonthepropermanner,andtheproperplacetospeakfrom;
  sothatAnnieandLizzieranallabout,andsearchedtheclockandthelinen-press。Andhechangedhisfaceeverymomentso,andwithsuchpowerofmimicrythatwithoutsomuchasasmileofhisown,hemadeevenmotherlaughsothatshebrokehernewtenpennywaistband;andasforuschildren,werolledonthefloor,andBettyMuxworthyroaredinthewash-up。
  NowalthoughMr。Fagguswassoclever,andgenerous,andcelebrated,Iknownotwhether,uponthewhole,wewereratherproudofhimasamemberofourfamily,orinclinedtobeashamedofhim。AndindeedIthinkthattheswayofthebalancehunguponthecompanywewerein。Forinstance,withtheboysatBrendon——forthereisnovillageatOare——Iwasexceedingproudtotalkofhim,andwouldfreelybragofmyCousinTom。Butwiththerichparsonsoftheneighbourhood,orthejusticeswhocameroundnowandthen,andweregladtorideuptoawarmfarm-house,oreventhewell-to-dotradesmenofPorlock——inaword,anysettledpower,whichwasafraidoflosingthings——withallofthemwewereveryshyofclaimingourkinshiptothatgreatoutlaw。
  Andsure,Ishouldpity,aswellascondemnhimthoughourwaysintheworldweresodifferent,knowingasI
  dohisstory;whichknowledge,methinks,wouldoftenleadustoletaloneGod’sprerogative——judgment,andholdbyman’sprivilege——pity。NotthatIwouldfindexcuseforTom’sdownrightdishonesty,whichwasbeyonddoubtadisgracetohim,andnocredittohiskinsfolk;
  onlythatitcameaboutwithouthismeaninganyharmorseeinghowhetooktowrong;yetgraduallyknowingit。
  Andnow,tosaveanyfurthertrouble,andtomeetthosewhodisparagehimwithoutallowanceforthetimeorthecrosseslaiduponhim,Iwilltellthehistoryofhim,justasifhewerenotmycousin,andhopingtobeheeded。AndIdefyanymantosaythatawordofthisiseitherfalse,orinanywaycolouredbyfamily。
  Muchcausehehadtobeharshwiththeworld;andyetallacknowledgedhimverypleasant,whenamangaveuphismoney。Andoftenandoftenhepaidthetollforthecarriagecomingafterhim,becausehehademptiedtheirpockets,andwouldnotaddinconvenience。Bytradehehadbeenablacksmith,inthetownofNorthmolton,inDevonshire,aroughrudeplaceattheendofExmoor,sothatmanypeoplemarvelledifsuchamanwasbredthere。Notonlycouldhereadandwrite,buthehadsolidsubstance;apieceoflandworthahundredpounds,andrightofcommonfortwohundredsheep,andascoreandahalfofbeasts,liftinguporlyingdown。Andbeingleftanorphanwithallthesecaresuponhimhebegantoworkrightearly,andmadesuchafameattheshoeingofhorses,thatthefarriersofBarumwereliketolosetheircustom。AndindeedhewonagoldenJacobusforthebest-shodnaginthenorthofDevon,andsomesaythatheneverwasforgiven。
  Astothat,Iknownomore,exceptthatmenarejealous。Butwhetheritwerethat,ornot,hefellintobittertroublewithinamonthofhisvictory;whenhistradewasgrowinguponhim,andhissweetheartreadytomarryhim。ForhelovedamaidofSouthmoltonacurrier’sdaughterIthinkshewas,andhernamewasBetsyParamore,andherfatherhadgivenconsent;andTomFaggus,wishingtolookhisbest,andbecleanofcourse,hadatailoratworkupstairsforhim,whohadcomeallthewayfromExeter。AndBetsy’sthingswerereadytoo——forwhichtheyaccusedhimafterwards,asifhecouldhelpthat——whensuddenly,likeathunderbolt,alawyer’swritfelluponhim。
  Thiswasthebeginningofalaw-suitwithSirRobertBampfylde,agentlemanoftheneighbourhood,whotriedtoousthimfromhiscommon,anddrovehiscattleandharassedthem。AndbythatsuitoflawpoorTomwasruinedaltogether,forSirRobertcouldpayformuchswearing;andthenallhisgoodsandhisfarmweresoldup,andevenhissmitherytaken。Buthesaddledhishorse,beforetheycouldcatchhim,androdeawaytoSouthmolton,lookingmorelikeamadmanthanagoodfarrier,asthepeoplesaidwhosawhim。Butwhenhearrivedthere,insteadofcomfort,theyshowedhimthefaceofthedooralone;forthenewsofhislosswasbeforehim,andMasterParamorewasasound,prudentman,andahighmemberofthetowncouncil。ItissaidthattheyevengavehimnoticetopayforBetsy’swedding-clothes,nowthathewastoopoortomarryher。
  Thismaybefalse,andindeedIdoubtit;inthefirstplace,becauseSouthmoltonisabusyplacefortalking;
  andinthenext,thatIdonotthinktheactionwouldhavelainatlaw,especiallyasthemaidlostnothing,butuseditallforherweddingnextmonthwithDickVellacott,ofMockham。
  AllthiswasverysoreuponTom;andhetookittoheartsogrievously,thathesaid,asabettermanmighthavesaid,beinglooseofmindandproperty,’Theworldhathpreyedonmelikeawolf。Godhelpmenowtopreyontheworld。’
  Andinsoothitdidseem,forawhile,asifProvidencewerewithhim;forhetookraretollonthehighway,andhisnamewassoonasgoodasgoldanywherethissideofBristowe。Hestudiedhisbusinessbynightandbyday,withthreehorsesallinhardwork,untilhehadmadeafinereputation;andthenitwascompetenttohimtorest,andhehadplentyleftforcharity。
  AndIoughttosayforsocietytoo,forhetrulylovedhighsociety,treatingsquiresandnoblemenwhomuchaffectedhiscompanytotheverybestfareofthehostel。AndtheysaythatoncetheKing’sJustitiaries,beinguponcircuit,acceptedhisinvitation,declaringmerrilythatifnevertruebillhadbeenfoundagainsthim,minehostshouldnowbequalifiedtodrawone。Andsothelandlordsdid;andhealwayspaidthemhandsomely,sothatallofthemwerekindtohim,andcontendedforhisvisits。LetitbeknowninanytownshipthatMr。Fagguswastakinghisleisureattheinn,andstraightwayallthemenflockedthithertodrinkhishealthwithoutoutlay,andallthewomentoadmirehim;whilethechildrenweresetatthecross-roadstogivewarningofanyofficers。OneofhisearliestmeetingswaswithSirRobertBampfyldehimself,whowasridingalongtheBarumroadwithonlyoneserving-manafterhim。TomFaggusputapistoltohishead,beingthenobligedtobeviolent,throughwantofreputation;whiletheserving-manpretendedtobealongwayroundthecorner。Thenthebaronetpulledouthispurse,quitetremblinginthehurryofhispoliteness。Tomtookthepurse,andhisring,andtime-piece,andthenhandedthembackwithaverylowbow,sayingthatitwasagainstallusageforhimtorobarobber。Thenheturnedtotheunfaithfulknave,andtrouncedhimrightwellforhiscowardice,andstrippedhimofallhisproperty。
  ButnowMr。Fagguskeptonlyonehorse,lesttheGovernmentshouldstealthem;andthatonewastheyoungmareWinnie。Howhecamebyherheneverwouldtell,butIthinkthatshewaspresentedtohimbyacertainColonel,aloverofsport,andverycleverinhorseflesh,whoselifeTomhadsavedfromsomegamblers。WhenIhaveaddedthatFaggusasyethadneverbeenguiltyofbloodshedforhiseyes,andtheclickofhispistolatfirst,andnowhishighreputationmadeallhiswishesrespected,andthatheneverrobbedapoorman,neitherinsultedawoman,butwasverygoodtotheChurch,andofhotpatrioticopinions,andfullofjestandjollity,Ihavesaidasmuchasisfairforhim,andshownwhyhewassopopular。EverybodycursedtheDoones,wholivedapartdisdainfully。ButallgoodpeoplelikedMr。
  Faggus——whenhehadnotrobbedthem——andmanyapoorsickmanorwomanblessedhimforotherpeople’smoney;
  andallthehostlers,stable-boys,andtapstersentirelyworshippedhim。
  Ihavebeenratherlong,andperhapstedious,inmyaccountofhim,lestatanytimehereafterhischaractershouldbemisunderstood,andhisgoodnamedisparaged;whereashewasmysecondcousin,andtheloverofmy——Butletthatbide。’Tisamelancholystory。
  Hecameagainaboutthreemonthsafterwards,inthebeginningofthespring-time,andbroughtmeabeautifulnewcarbine,havinglearnedmyloveofsuchthings,andmygreatdesiretoshootstraight。Butmotherwouldnotletmehavethegun,untilheaverreduponhishonourthathehadboughtithonestly。Andsohehad,nodoubt,sofarasitishonesttobuywithmoneyacquiredrampantly。ScarcecouldIstoptomakemybulletsinthemouldwhichcamealongwithit,butmustbeofftotheQuarryHill,andnewtargetIhadmadethere。AndhetaughtmethenhowtoridebrightWinnie,whowasgrownsinceIhadseenher,butrememberedmemostkindly。AftermakingmuchofAnnie,whohadawondrouslikingforhim——andhesaidhewashergodfather,butGodknowshowhecouldhavebeen,unlesstheyconfirmedhimprecociously——awayhewent,andyoungWinnie’ssidesshonelikeacherrybycandlelight。
  NowIfeelthatofthoseboyishdaysIhavelittlemoretotell,becauseeverythingwentquietly,astheworldforthemostpartdoeswithus。Ibegantoworkatthefarminearnest,andtriedtohelpmymother,andwhenIrememberedLornaDoone,itseemednomorethanthethoughtofadream,whichIcouldhardlycalltomind。
  Nowwhocarestoknowhowmanybushelsofwheatwegrewtotheacre,orhowthecattlemilchedtillweatethem,orwhattheturnoftheseasonswas?Butmystupidselfseemedliketobethebiggestofallthecattle;forhavingmuchtolookafterthesheep,andbeingalwaysinkindappetite,Igrewfourincheslongerineveryyearofmyfarming,andamatteroftwoincheswider;untiltherewasnomanofmysizetobeseenelsewhereuponExmoor。Letthatpass:whatoddstoanyhowtallorwideIbe?ThereisnoDoone’sdooratPlover’sBarrowsandiftherewereIcouldnevergothroughit。Theyvexedmesomuchaboutmysize,longbeforeIhadcompletedit,girdingatmewithpaltryjokeswhosewitwasgoodonlytostayathome,thatI