reachedthetop;andhaltedtolookaboutmewell,beforetrustingtobroaddaylight。
  ThewinterasIsaidbeforehadbeenaverymildone;
  andnowthespringwastowardsothatbankandbushweretouchedwithit。ThevalleyintowhichIgazedwasfairwithearlypromise,havingshelterfromthewindandtakingallthesunshine。Thewillow-bushesoverthestreamhungasiftheywereanglingwithtasseledfloatsofgoldandsilver,burstinglikeabean-pod。Betweenthemcamethewaterlaughing,likeamaidatherowndancing,andspreadwiththatyoungbluewhichneverlivesbeyondtheApril。Andoneitherbank,themeadowruffledasthebreezecameby,openingthroughnewtuft,ofgreendaisy-budorcelandine,orashyglimpsenowandthenofthelove-lornprimrose。
  ThoughIamsoblankofwit,orperhapsforthatsamereason,theselittlethingscomeanddwellwithme,andIamhappyaboutthem,andlongfornothingbetter。I
  feelwitheverybladeofgrass,asifithadahistory;
  andmakeachildofeverybudasthoughitknewandlovedme。Andbeingso,theyseemtotellmeofmyowndelusions,howIamnomorethanthey,exceptinself-
  importance。
  WhileIwasforgettingmuchofmanythingsthatharmone,andlettingofmythoughtsgowildtosoundsandsightsofnature,asweeternotethanthrushorouzeleverwooedamatein,floatedonthevalleybreezeatthequietturnofsundown。Thewordswereofanancientsong,fittolaughorcryat。
  Love,aniftherebeone,Comemylovetobe,MyloveisfortheoneLovinguntome。
  Notformetheshow,love,Ofagildedbliss;
  Onlythoumustknow,love,Whatmyvalueis。
  Ifinalltheearth,love,Thouhastnonebutme,Thisshallbemyworth,love:
  Tobecheaptothee。
  But,ifsothoueverStrivesttobefree,’TwillbemyendeavourTobedeartothee。
  SoshallIhaveplea,love,IsthyheartandbreathClingingstilltothee,love,Inthedoomofdeath。
  AllthisItookinwithgreateagerness,notforthesakeofthemeaningwhichisnodoubtanallegory,butforthepowerandrichness,andsoftnessofthesinging,whichseemedtomebetterthanweeverhadeveninOarechurch。ButallthetimeIkeptmyselfinablacknicheoftherock,wherethefallofthewaterbegan,lestthesweetsingerespyingmeshouldbealarmed,andfleeaway。ButpresentlyIventuredtolookforthwhereabushwas;andthenIbeheldtheloveliestsight——oneglimpseofwhichwasenoughtomakemekneelinthecoldestwater。
  Bythesideofthestreamshewascomingtome,evenamongtheprimroses,asifshelovedthemall;andeveryflowerlookedthebrighter,ashereyeswereonthem,Icouldnotseewhatherfacewas,myheartsoawokeandtrembled;onlythatherhairwasflowingfromawreathofwhiteviolets,andthegraceofhercomingwasliketheappearanceofthefirstwind-flower。Thepalegleamoverthewesterncliffsthrewashadowoflightbehindher,asifthesunwerelingering。NeverdoIseethatlightfromtheclosingofthewest,eveninthesemyageddays,withoutthinkingofher。Ahme,ifitcomestothat,whatdoIseeofearthorheaven,withoutthinkingofher?
  Thetremulousthrillofhersongwashangingonheropenlips;andsheglancedaround,asifthebirdswereaccustomedtomakeanswer。Tomeitwasathingofterrortobeholdsuchbeauty,andfeelmyselfthewhiletobesoverylowandcommon。ButscarcelyknowingwhatIdid,asifaropeweredrawingme,Icamefromthedarkmouthofthechasm;andstood,afraidtolookather。
  Shewasturningtofly,notknowingme,andfrightened,perhaps,atmystature,whenIfellonthegrassasI
  fellbeforehersevenyearsagonethatday,andIjustsaid,’LornaDoone!’
  Sheknewmeatonce,frommymannerandways,andasmilebrokethroughhertrembling,assunshinecomesthroughaspen-leaves;andbeingsoclever,shesaw,ofcourse,thatsheneedednottofearme。
  ’Oh,indeed,’shecried,withafeintofangerbecauseshehadshownhercowardice,andyetinherheartshewaslaughing;’oh,ifyouplease,whoareyou,sir,andhowdoyouknowmyname?’
  ’IamJohnRidd,’Ianswered;’theboywhogaveyouthosebeautifulfish,whenyouwereonlyalittlething,sevenyearsagoto-day。’
  ’Yes,thepoorboywhowasfrightenedso,andobligedtohidehereinthewater。’
  ’Anddoyourememberhowkindyouwere,andsavedmylifebyyourquickness,andwentawayridinguponagreatman’sshoulder,asifyouhadneverseenme,andyetlookedbackthroughthewillow-trees?’
  ’Oh,yes,Iremembereverything;becauseitwassoraretoseeanyexcept——ImeanbecauseIhappentoremember。
  Butyouseemnottoremember,sir,howperilousthisplaceis。’
  Forshehadkepthereyesuponme;largeeyesofasoftness,abrightness,andadignitywhichmademefeelasifImustforeverloveandyetforeverknowmyselfunworthy。Unlessthemselvesshouldfillwithlove,whichisthespringofallthings。AndsoI
  couldnotanswerher,butwasovercomewiththinkingandfeelingandconfusion。NeithercouldIlookagain;
  onlywaitedforthemelodywhichmadeeverywordlikeapoemtome,themelodyofhervoice。Butshehadnottheleastideaofwhatwasgoingonwithme,anymorethanImyselfhad。
  ’Ithink,MasterRidd,youcannotknow,’shesaid,withhereyestakenfromme,’whatthedangersofthisplaceare,andthenatureofthepeople。’
  ’Yes,Iknowenoughofthat;andIamfrightenedgreatly,allthetime,whenIdonotlookatyou。’
  Shewastooyoungtoanswermeinthestylesomemaidenswouldhaveused;themanner,Imean,whichnowwecallfromaforeignword’coquettish。’Andmorethanthat,shewastremblingfromrealfearofviolence,leststronghandsmightbelaidonme,andamiserableendofit。Andtotellthetruth,Igrewafraid;
  perhapsfromakindofsympathy,andbecauseIknewthatevilcomesmorereadilythangoodtous。
  Therefore,withoutmoreado,ortakinganyadvantage——althoughIwouldhavebeengladatheart,ifneedshadbeen,tokissherwithoutanythoughtofrudeness——itstruckmethatIhadbettergo,andhavenomoretosaytoheruntilnexttimeofcoming。Sowouldshelookthemoreformeandthinkthemoreaboutme,andnotgrowwearyofmywordsandthewantofchangethereisinme。For,ofcourse,IknewwhatachurlIwascomparedtoherbirthandappearance;butmeanwhileImightimprovemyselfandlearnamusicalinstrument。’Thewindhathadrawafterflyingstraw’
  isasayingwehaveinDevonshire,made,peradventure,bysomebodywhohadseenthewaysofwomen。
  ’MistressLorna,Iwilldepart’——markyou,Ithoughtthatapowerfulword——’infearofcausingdisquiet。Ifanyrogueshotmeitwouldgrieveyou;Imakeboldtosayit,anditwouldbethedeathofmother。Fewmothershavesuchasonasme。Trytothinkofmenowandthen,andIwillbringyousomenew-laideggs,forouryoungbluehenisbeginning。’
  ’Ithankyouheartily,’saidLorna;’butyouneednotcometoseeme。Youcanputtheminmylittlebower,whereIamalmostalways——ImeanwhitherdailyIrepairtoreadandtobeawayfromthem。’
  ’Onlyshowmewhereitis。ThriceadayIwillcomeandstop——’
  ’Nay,MasterRidd,Iwouldnevershowthee——never,becauseofperil——onlythatsohappensitthouhastfoundthewayalready。’
  Andshesmiledwithalightthatmademecaretocryoutfornootherway,excepttoherdearheart。ButonlytomyselfIcriedforanythingatall,havingenoughofmaninmetobebashfulwithyoungmaidens。
  SoItouchedherwhitehandsoftlywhenshegaveittome,andfancyingthatshehadsighedwastouchedatheartaboutit,andresolvedtoyieldherallmygoods,althoughmymotherwasliving;andthengrewangrywithmyselfforamileormoreofwalkingtothinkshewouldcondescendso;andthen,fortherestofthehomewardroad,wasmadwitheverymanintheworldwhowoulddaretothinkofhavingher。
  Toforgetone’sluckoflife,toforgetthecarkofcareandwitheringofyoungfingers;nottofeel,ornotbemovedby,allthechangeofthoughtandheart,fromlargeyoungheattothesinewylinesanddrybonesofoldage——thisiswhatIhavetodoereeverIcanmakeyouknowevenasadreamisknownhowIlovedmyLorna。Imyselfcanneverknow;nevercanconceive,ortreatitasathingofreason,nevercanbeholdmyselfdwellinginthemidstofit,andthinkthatthiswasI;
  neithercanIwanderfarfromperpetualthoughtofit。
  PerhapsIhavetwofarrowsofpigsreadyforthechapman;perhapsIhavetenstonesofwoolwaitingforthefactor。Itisallthesame。Ilookatboth,andwhatIsaytomyselfisthis:’WhichwouldLornachooseofthem?’Ofcourse,Iamafoolforthis;anymanmaycallmeso,andIwillnotquarrelwithhim,unlessheguessmysecret。Ofcourse,Ifetchmywit,ifitbeworththefetching,backagaintobusiness。Buttheremyheartisandmustbe;andallwholiketotrycancheatme,exceptuponparishmatters。
  ThatweekIcoulddolittlemorethandreamanddreamandroveabout,seekingbyperpetualchangetofindthewaybacktomyself。Icarednotforthepeopleroundme,neithertookdelightinvictuals;butmadebelievetoeatanddrinkandblushedatanyquestions。Andbeingcalledthemasternow,head-farmer,andchiefyeoman,itirkedmemuchthatanyoneshouldtakeadvantageofme;yeteverybodydidsoassoonaseveritwasknownthatmywitsweregonemoon-raking。Forthatwasthewaytheylookedatit,notbeingabletocomprehendthegreatnessandtheloftiness。NeitherdoIblamethemmuch;forthewisestthingistolaughatpeoplewhenwecannotunderstandthem。I,formypart,tooknonotice;butinmyheartdespisedthemasbeingsofalessernature,whoneverhadseenLorna。YetI
  wasvexed,andrubbedmyself,whenJohnFryspreadalloverthefarm,andevenattheshoeingforge,thatamaddoghadcomeandbittenme,fromtheothersideofMallond。
  Thisseemslittletomenow;andsoitmighttoanyone;but,atthetime,itworkedmeuptoafeverofindignity。TomakeamaddogofLorna,tocompareallmyimaginingswhichwerestrange,Idoassureyou——thefacultynotbeingapttowork,tocounttheraisingofmysoulnomorethanhydrophobia!Allthisactedonmeso,thatIgaveJohnFrythesoundestthreshingthateverasheafofgoodcorndeserved,orabundleoftareswasblessedwith。Afterwardshewenthome,tootiredtotellhiswifethemeaningofit;butitprovedofservicetobothofthem,andanexamplefortheirchildren。
  Nowtheclimateofthiscountryis——sofarasIcanmakeofit——tothrownomanintoextremes;andifhethrowhimselfsofar,topluckhimbackbychangeofweatherandtheneedoflookingafterthings。LestweshouldbeliketheSoutherns,forwhomtheskydoeseverything,andmensitunderawallandwatchbothfoodandfruitcomebeckoning。Theirskyisamothertothem;butoursagoodstepmothertous——fearingtohurtbyindulgence,andknowingthatseverityandchangeofmoodarewholesome。
  Thespringbeingnowtooforward,achecktoitwasneedful;andintheearlypartofMarchtherecameachangeofweather。Alltheyounggrowthwasarrestedbyadrywindfromtheeast,whichmadebothfaceandfingersburnwhenamanwasdoingditching。Thelilacsandthewoodbines,justcrowdingforthinlittletufts,closekernellingtheirblossom,wereruffledback,likeasleeveturnedup,andnickedwithbrownatthecorners。Inthehedgesanyman,unlesshiseyeswereverydull,couldseethemischiefdoing。Therussetoftheyoungelm-bloomwasfaintobeinitsscaleagain;buthavingpushedforth,theremustbe,andturntoatawnycolour。Thehangersofthehazel,too,havingshedtheirdusttomakethenuts,didnotspreadtheirlittlecombsanddrythem,astheyoughttodo;butshrivelledatthebaseandfell,asifaknifehadcutthem。Andmorethanalltonoticewasatleastaboutthehedgestheshudderingofeverythingandtheshiveringsoundamongthemtowardthefeeblesun;suchaswemaketoapoorfireplacewhenseveraldoorsareopen。SometimesIputmyfacetowarmagainstthesoft,roughmaple-stem,whichfeelslikethefootofareddeer;butthepitilesseastwindcamethroughall,andtookandshookthecavedhedgeabacktillitskneeswereknockingtogether,andnothingcouldbeshelter。Thenwouldanyonehavingblood,andtryingtokeepathomewithit,runtoasturdytreeandhopetoeathisfoodbehindit,andlookforalittlesuntocomeandwarmhisfeetintheshelter。Andifitdidhemightstrikehisbreast,andtrytothinkhewaswarmer。