FromTivertontowntothetownofOareisaverylongandpainfulroad,andingoodtruththetravellermustmakehisway,asthesayingis;forthewayisstillunmade,atleast,onthissideofDulverton,althoughthereislessdangernowthaninthetimeofmyschooling;fornowagoodhorsemaygotherewithoutmuchcostofleaping,butwhenIwasaboythespurswouldfail,whenneededmost,byreasonoftheslough-cake。Itistothecreditofthisage,andouradvanceuponfatherlyways,thatnowwehavelaiddownrodsandfagots,andevenstump-oakshereandthere,sothatamaningooddaylightneednotsink,ifhebequitesober。ThereisnothingIhavestrivenatmorethandoingmyduty,way-wardenoverExmoor。
Butinthosedays,whenIcamefromschoolandgoodtimestheywere,too,fullofawarmthandfinehearth-comfort,whichnowaredyingout,itwasasadandsorrybusinesstofindwherelaythehighway。Wearetakingnowtomarkitoffwithafenceoneitherside,atleast,whenatownishandy;buttomehisseemsofahighpretence,andasortoflandmark,andchannelforrobbers,thoughwellenoughnearLondon,wheretheyhaveearnedarace-course。
Weleftthetownofthetwofords,whichtheysayisthemeaningofit,veryearlyinthemorning,afterlyingonedaytorest,aswasdemandedbythenags,soreoffootandfoundered。Formypart,too,Iwasgladtorest,havingachesalloverme,andveryheavybruises;andwelodgedatthesignoftheWhiteHorseInn,inthestreetcalledGoldStreet,oppositewherethesoulsareofJohnandJoanGreenway,setupingoldletters,becausewemusttakethehomewardwayatcockcrowofthemorning。ThoughstillJohnFrywasdrywithmeofthereasonofhiscoming,andonlytoldliesaboutfather,andcouldnotkeepthemagreeable,I
hopedforthebest,asallboyswill,especiallyafteravictory。AndIthought,perhapsfatherhadsentformebecausehehadagoodharvest,andtheratswerebadinthecorn-chamber。
ItwashighnoonbeforeweweregottoDulvertonthatday,neartowhichtowntheriverExeanditsbigbrotherBarlehaveunion。Mymotherhadanunclelivingthere,butwewerenottovisithishousethistime,atwhichIwassomewhatastonished,sinceweneedsmuststopforatleasttwohours,tobaitourhorsesthoroughwell,beforecomingtotheblackbogway。Thebogsareverygoodinfrost,exceptwherethehot-springsrise;butasyettherehadbeennofrostthisyear,savejustenoughtomaketheblackbirdslookbiginthemorning。Inaheartyblack-frosttheylooksmall,untilthesnowfallsoverthem。
TheroadfromBamptontoDulvertonhadnotbeenverydelicate,yetnothingtocomplainofmuch——nodeeper,indeed,thanthehocksofahorse,exceptintherottenplaces。Thedaywasinclinedtobemildandfoggy,andbothnagssweatedfreely;butPeggycarryinglittleweightformywardrobewasuponSmiler,andJohnFrygrumblingalways,wecouldeasilykeepinfront,asfarasyoumayhearalaugh。
Johnhadbeenratherbitterwithme,whichmethoughtwasamarkofilltasteatcominghomefortheholidays;andyetImadeallowanceforJohn,becausehehadneverbeenatschool,andneverwouldhavechancetoeatfryuponconditionofspellingit;thereforeI
rodeon,thinkingthathewashard-set,likeasaw,forhisdinner,andwouldsoftenaftertooth-work。Andyetathismosthungrytimes,whenhismindwasfargoneuponbacon,certesheseemedtocheckhimselfandlookatmeasifheweresorryforlittlethingscomingovergreat。
Butnow,atDulverton,wedinedupontherarestandchoicestvictualsthateverIdidtaste。Evennow,atmytimeoflife,tothinkofitgivesmeappetite,asonceandawhiletothinkofmyfirstlovemakesmeloveallgoodness。HotmuttonpastywasathingIhadoftenheardoffromverywealthyboysandmen,whomadeadessertofdinner;andtohearthemtalkofitmademylipssmack,andmyribscomeinwards。
AndnowJohnFrystrodeintothehostel,withtheairandgraceofashort-leggedman,andshoutedasloudasifhewascallingsheepuponExmoor,——
’Hotmootonpastyfortwootrarv’lers,atnumbervaive,invaiveminnits!Dishunupinthetinwiththegrahvy,zameasIharderedlastTuesday。’
Ofcourseitdidnotcomeinfiveminutes,noryetintenortwenty;butthatmadeitallthebetterwhenitcametotherealpresence;andthesmellofitwasenoughtomakeanemptymanthankGodfortheroomtherewasinsidehim。Fiftyyearshavepassedmequickerthanthetasteofthatgravy。
Itisthemannerofallgoodboystobecarelessofapparel,andtakenoprideinadornment。Goodlack,ifIseeaboymaketodoaboutthefitofhiscrumpler,andthecreasingofhisbreeches,anddesiretobeshodforcomelinessratherthanforuse,Icannot’scapethemarkthatGodtookthoughttomakeagirlofhim。Notsowhentheygrowolder,andcourttheregardofthemaidens;thenmaythebraverypassfromtheinsidetotheoutsideofthem;andnobiggerfoolsarethey,eventhen,thantheirfatherswerebeforethem。ButGodforbidanymantobeafooltolove,andbeloved,asI
havebeen。Elsewouldhehavepreventedit。
Whenthemuttonpastywasdone,andPeggyandSmilerhaddinedwellalso,outIwenttowashatthepump,beingaloverofsoapandwater,atallrisk,exceptofmydinner。AndJohnFry,whocaredverylittletowash,saveSabbathdaysinhisownsoap,andwhohadkeptmefromthepumpbythreateninglossofthedish,outhecameinasatisfiedmanner,withapieceofquillinhishand,toleanagainstadoor-post,andlistentothehorsesfeeding,andhavehisteethreadyforsupper。
Thenalady’s-maidcameout,andthesunwasonherface,andsheturnedroundtogobackagain;butputabetterfaceuponit,andgaveatripandhitchedherdress,andlookedatthesunfullbody,lestthehostlersshouldlaughthatshewaslosinghercomplexion。WithalongItalianglassinherfingersverydaintily,shecameuptothepumpinthemiddleoftheyard,whereIwasrunningthewateroffallmyheadandshoulders,andarms,andsomeofmybreasteven,andthoughIhadglimpsedherthroughthesprinkle,itgavemequiteaturntoseeher,childasIwas,inmyopenaspect。Butshelookedatme,nowhitabashed,makingababyofme,nodoubt,asawomanofthirtywilldo,evenwithaverybigboywhentheycatchhimonahayrick,andshesaidtomeinabrazenmanner,asifIhadbeennobody,whileIwasshrinkingbehindthepump,andcravingtogetmyshirton,’Goodleetleboy,comehithertome。Fineheaven!howblueyoureyesare,andyourskinlikesnow;butsomenaughtymanhasbeatenitblack。Oh,leetleboy,letmefeelit。Ah,howthenitmusthavehurtyou!Therenow,andyoushallloveme。’
Allthistimeshewastouchingmybreast,hereandthere,verylightly,withherdelicatebrownfingers,andIunderstoodfromhervoiceandmannerthatshewasnotofthiscountry,butaforeignerbyextraction。
AndthenIwasnotsoshyofher,becauseIcouldtalkbetterEnglishthanshe;andyetIlongedformyjerkin,butlikednottoberudetoher。
’Ifyouplease,madam,Imustgo。JohnFryiswaitingbythetapster’sdoor,andPeggyneighingtome。Ifyouplease,wemustgethometo-night;andfatherwillbewaitingformethissideofthetelling-house。’
’There,there,youshallgo,leetledear,andperhapsI
willgoafteryou。Ihavetakenmuchloveofyou。Butthebaronessishardtome。HowfaryoucallitnowtothebankoftheseaatWash——Wash——’
’AtWatchett,likelyyoumean,madam。Oh,averylongway,andtheroadsassoftastheroadtoOare。’
’Oh-ah,oh-ah——Ishallremember;thatistheplacewheremyleetleboylive,andsomedayIwillcomeseekforhim。Nowmakethepumptoflow,mydear,andgivemethegoodwater。Thebaronesswillnottouchunlessanebulebeformedoutsidetheglass。’
Ididnotknowwhatshemeantbythat;yetIpumpedforherveryheartily,andmarvelledtoseeherforfiftytimesthrowthewaterawayinthetrough,asifitwasnotgoodenough。Atlastthewatersuitedher,withalikenessoffogoutsidetheglass,andthegleamofacrystalunderit,andthenshemadeacurtseytome,inasortofmockingmanner,holdingthelongglassbythefoot,nottotakethecloudoff;andthenshewantedtokissme;butIwasoutofbreath,andhavealwaysbeenshyofthatwork,exceptwhenIcometoofferit;andsoIduckedunderthepump-handle,andsheknockedherchinontheknobofit;andthehostlerscameout,andaskedwhethertheywoulddoaswell。
Uponthis,sheretreateduptheyard,withacertaindarkdignity,andaforeignwayofwalking,whichstoppedthematoncefromgoingfarther,becauseitwassodifferentfromthefashionoftheirsweethearts。
Onewithanothertheyhungback,wherehalfacart-loadofhaywas,andtheylookedtobesurethatshewouldnotturnround;andtheneachonelaughedattherestofthem。
Now,uptotheendofDulvertontown,onthenorthwardsideofit,wherethetwonewpig-stiesbe,theOarefolkandtheWatchettfolkmusttrudgeontogether,untilwecometoabrokencross,whereamurderedmanliesburied。PeggyandSmilerwentupthehill,asifnothingcouldbetoomuchforthem,afterthebeanstheyhadeaten,andsuddenlyturningacorneroftrees,wehappeneduponagreatcoachandsixhorseslabouringveryheavily。JohnFryrodeonwithhishatinhishand,asbecamehimtowardsthequality;butIwasamazedtothatdegree,thatIleftmycaponmyhead,anddrewbridlewithoutknowingit。
Forinthefrontseatofthecoach,whichwashalf-wayopen,beingofthecity-make,andthedayinwantofair,satetheforeignlady,whohadmetmeatthepumpandofferedtosaluteme。Byhersidewasalittlegirl,dark-hairedandverywonderful,withawealthysoftnessonher,asifshemusthaveherownway。I
couldnotlookatherfortwoglances,andshedidnotlookatmeforone,beingsuchalittlechild,andbusywiththehedges。Butinthehonourableplacesateahandsomelady,verywarmlydressed,andsweetlydelicateofcolour。Andclosetoherwasalivelychild,twooritmaybethreeyearsold,bearingawhitecockadeinhishat,andstaringatallandeverybody。Now,hesawPeggy,andtooksuchalikingtoher,thattheladyhismother——ifsoshewere——wasforcedtolookatmyponyandme。And,totellthetruth,althoughIamnotofthosewhoadorethehighfolk,shelookedatusverykindly,andwithasweetnessrarelyfoundinthewomenwhomilkthecowsforus。
ThenItookoffmycaptothebeautifullady,withoutaskingwherefore;andsheputupherhandandkissedittome,thinking,perhaps,thatIlookedlikeagentleandgoodlittleboy;forfolkalwayscalledmeinnocent,thoughGodknowsIneverwasthat。Butnowtheforeignlady,orlady’smaid,asitmightbe,whohadbeenbusywithlittledarkeyes,turneduponallthisgoing-on,andlookedmestraightintheface。I
wasabouttosaluteher,atadistance,indeed,andnotwiththenicetyshehadofferedtome,but,strangetosay,shestaredatmyeyesasifshehadneverseenmebefore,neitherwishedtoseemeagain。AtthisIwassostartled,suchthingsbeingsoutofmyknowledge,thatIstartledPeggyalsowiththemuscleofmylegs,andshebeingfreshfromstable,andthemirescrapedoffwithcask-hoop,brokeawaysosuddenlythatIcoulddonomorethanturnroundandlowermycap,nowfivemonthsold,tothebeautifullady。SoonIovertookJohnFry,andaskedhimallaboutthem,andhowitwasthatwehadmissedtheirstartingfromthehostel。ButJohnwouldnevertalkmuchtillafteragallonofcider;andallthatIcouldwinoutofhimwasthattheywere’murderingPapishers,’andlittlehecaredtodowiththem,orthedevil,astheycamefrom。Andagoodthingforme,andaprovidence,thatIwasgonedownDulvertontowntobuysweetstuffforAnnie,elsemystupidheadwouldhavegoneastraywiththeirgreatout-coming。
Wesawnomoreofthemafterthat,butturnedintothesideway;andsoonhadthefillofourhandsandeyestolooktoourowngoing。Fortheroadgotworseandworse,untiltherewasnoneatall,andperhapsthepurestthingitcoulddowastobeashamedtoshowitself。Butwepushedonasbestwemight,withdoubtofreachinghomeanytime,exceptbyspecialgraceofGod。
ThefogcamedownuponthemoorsasthickaseverIsawit;andtherewasnosoundofanysort,norabreathofwindtoguideus。Thelittlestubbytreesthatstandhereandthere,likebusheswithawoodenlegtothem,weredrizzledwithamessofwet,andhungtheirpointswithdropping。Whereverthebutt-endofahedgerowcameupfromthehollowground,likethewithersofahorse,holesofsplashwerepockedandpimpledintheyellowsandofconeys,orunderthedwarftree’sovens。
Butsoonitwastoodarktoseethat,oranythingelse,Imaysay,exceptthecreasesinthedusk,whereprisonedlightcreptupthevalleys。
Afterawhileeventhatwasgone,andnoothercomfortleftusexcepttoseeourhorses’headsjoggingtotheirfootsteps,andthedarkgroundpassbelowus,lighterwherethewetwas;andthenthesplash,footafterfoot,morecleverthanwecandoit,andtheorderlyjerkofthetail,andthesmellofwhatahorseis。
JohnFrywasbowingforwardwithsleepuponhissaddle,andnowIcouldnolongerseethefrizzleofwetuponhisbeard——forhehadaverybraveone,ofabrightredcolour,andtrimmedintoawhale-oilknot,becausehewasnewlymarried——althoughthatcombofhairhadbeenasubjectofsomewondertome,whetherI,inGod’sgoodtime,shouldhavethelikeofthat,handsomelysetwithshiningbeads,smallaboveandlargebelow,fromtheweepingoftheheaven。ButstillIcouldseethejogofhishat——aSundayhatwithatoptoit——andsomeofhisshoulderbowedoutinthemist,sothatonecouldsay’Holdup,John,’whenSmilerputhisfootin。
’MercyofGod!wherebeusnow?’saidJohnFry,wakingsuddenly;’usoughttohavepassedholdhash,Jan。
Zeenitontheroad,have’ee?’
’Noindeed,John;nooldash。Nornothingelsetomyknowing;norheardnothing,savetheesnoring。’
’Wattavuletheemustbethen,Jan;andmemyzellnobetter。Harken,lad,harken!’
Wedrewourhorsesupandlistened,throughthethicknessoftheair,andwithourhandslaidtoourears。Atfirsttherewasnothingtohear,exceptthepantingofthehorsesandthetrickleoftheeavingdropsfromourhead-coversandclothing,andthesoftsoundsofthelonelynight,thatmakeusfeel,andtrynottothink。Thentherecameamellownoise,verylowandmournsome,notasoundtobeafraidof,buttolongtoknowthemeaning,withasoftriseofthehair。