’Taksmarlboocket,andbaleunout;wad’ewastesichstoofasthicherebe?’SoBettysetmetofeedthepigs,whilesheheldthelanthorn;andknowingwhatshewas,Isawthatshewouldnottellmeanotherworduntilallthepigswereserved。Andintruthnomancouldwelllookatthem,anddelaytoservethem,theywereallexpressingappetiteinsoforcibleamanner;
somerunningtoandfro,andrubbing,andsquealingasiffromstarvation,somerushingdowntotheoakentroughs,andpokingeachotherawayfromthem;andthekindestofallputtinguptheirfore-feetonthetop-railonthehog-pound,andblinkingtheirlittleeyes,andgruntingprettilytocoaxus;aswhowouldsay,’Itrustyounow;youwillbekind,Iknow,andgivemethefirstandtheverybestofit。’
’Oppenge-atnow,wull’e,Jan?Maind,youngsowwi’
thebaiblebackarlwayhathfirsttoornofit,’cosI
broughtheruponmylap,Idid。Zuck,zuck,zuck!Howherstickthhertailup;domegoodtozeeun!Nowthiccytrough,theezany,andtaktheegirtlegsouto’
thewai。Wishtheywudgietheeagoodbaite,maktheehopabitvaster,Ireckon。Hitthattheregirtozebirdover’sbackwi’thebroomstick,heberobbingofmyyoungzow。Choog,choog,choog!andadrapmoreleftinthedripping-pail。’
’Comenow,Betty,’Isaid,whenallthepigswereatitsucking,swilling,munching,guzzling,thrusting,andousting,andspillingthefooduponthebacksoftheirbrethrenasgreatmendowiththeircharity,’comenow,Betty,howmuchlongeramItowaitforyourmessage?SurelyIamasgoodasapig。’
’Dunnoastheebe,Jan。Nostraikinessinthybakkon。
AndnowIcometothinkofit,Jan,theezed,awakeagonelastVriday,ashowIhadgotagirtbe-ard。
Wull’esticktothatnow,MaisterJan?’
’No,no,Betty,certainlynot;Imadeamistakeaboutit。Ishouldhavesaidabecomingmustachio,suchasyoumaywellbeproudof。’
’Thentheebealaiar,JanRidd。Zayso,laikeaman,lad。’
’Notexactlythat,Betty;butImadeagreatmistake;
andIhumblyaskyourpardon;andifsuchathingasacrown-piece,Betty’——
’Nofai,nofai!’saidBetty,howeversheputitintoherpocket;’nowtakmyadvice,Jan;theemarryZallySnowe。’
’NotwithallEnglandforherdowry。Oh,Betty,youknowbetter。’
’Ah’sme!Iknowmuchworse,Jan。Breakthypoormother’sheartitwill。Andtothinkofarlthedanger!DostloveLarnanowsomuch?’
’Withallthestrengthofmyheartandsoul。Iwillhaveher,orIwilldie,Betty。’
’Wull。Theewilldieineithercase。Butitbaintformetoargify。Anddoherlovetheetoo,Jan?’
’Ihopeshedoes,BettyIhopeshedoes。Whatdoyouthinkaboutit?’
’Ah,thenImayholdmytonguetoit。Knawwhatboysandmaidensbe,aswellasIknewyoungpegs。Imyzellbeeno’thatzortonetaimeeverybitsowellasyoube。’AndBettyheldthelanthornup,anddefiedmetodenyit;andthelightthroughthehornshowedagleaminhereyes,suchasIhadneverseertherebefore。
’Noodds,nooddsaboutthat,’shecontinued;’makafoolofmyzelltospakeofit。Arlgoneintochurchyard。Butitbealuckyfooleryforthee,myboy,Icantull’ee。ForIlovetoseetheloveinthee。Coom’thovermeasthespringdo,thoughIbenaighthreescore。Now,Jan,Iwilltelltheeonething,can’tabeartozeetheevrettingso。Houldtheeheaddown,sameastheypegsdo。’
SoIbentmyheadquiteclosetoher;andshewhisperedinmyear,’Gooofamarning,theegirtsoft。Hercan’tgetoutofanaveningnow,herhathzentwordtome,totull’ee。’
Inthegloryofmydelightatthis,IbestoweduponBettyachastesalute,withallthepigsforwitnesses;
andshetookitnotamiss,consideringhowlongshehadbeenoutofpractice。Butthenshefellback,likeabroomonitshandle,andstaredatme,feigninganger。
’Ohfai,ohfai!Lunnonimpudence,Idoubt。Iveartheehastgoneonzadly,Jan。’
OfcourseIwasuptheverynextmorningbeforetheOctobersunrise,andawaythroughthewildandthewoodlandtowardstheBagworthywater,atthefootofthelongcascade。Therisingofthesunwasnobleinthecoldandwarmthofit;peepingdownthespreadoflight,heraisedhisshoulderheavilyovertheedgeofgreymountain,andwaveringlengthofupland。Beneathhisgazethedew-fogsdipped,andcrepttothehollowplaces;thenstoleawayinlineandcolumn,holdingskirts,andclingingsubtlyattheshelteringcorners,whererockhungovergrass-land;whilethebravelinesofthehillscameforth,onebeyondothergliding。
Thenthewoodsaroseinfolds,likedraperyofawakenedmountains,statelywithadepthofawe,andmemoryofthetempests。Autumn’smellowhandwasonthem,astheyownedalready,touchedwithgold,andred,andolive;andtheirjoytowardsthesunwaslesstoabridegroomthanafather。
Yetbeforethefloatingimpressofthewoodscouldclearitself,suddenlythegladsomelightleapedoverhillandvalley,castingamber,blue,andpurple,andatintofrichredrose;accordingtothescenetheyliton,andthecurtainflungaround;yetallalikedispellingfearandtheclovenhoofofdarkness,allonthewingsofhopeadvancing,andproclaiming,’Godishere。’Thenlifeandjoysprangreassuredfromeverycrouchinghollow;everyflower,andbud,andbird,hadaflutteringsenseofthem;andalltheflashingofGod’sgazemergedintosoftbeneficence。
Soperhapsshallbreakuponusthateternalmorning,whencragandchasmshallbenomore,neitherhillandvalley,norgreatunvintagedocean;whengloryshallnotscarehappiness,neitherhappinessenvyglory;butallthingsshallariseandshineinthelightoftheFather’scountenance,becauseitselfisrisen。
WhomakethHissuntoriseuponboththejustandtheunjust。Andsurelybutforthesavingclause,DooneGlenhadbeenindarkness。Now,asIstoodwithscantybreath——forfewmencouldhavewonthatclimb——atthetopofthelongdefile,andthebottomofthemountaingorgeallofmyself,andthepainofit,andthecarkofmydiscontentfellawayintowonderandrapture。ForIcannothelpseeingthingsnowandthen,slow-wittedasIhavearighttobe;andperhapsbecauseitcomessorarely,thesightdwellswithmelikeapicture。
Thebarofrock,withthewater-cleftbreakingsteeplythroughit,stoodboldandbare,anddarkinshadow,greywithredgulliesdownit。Butthesunwasbeginningtoglistenoverthecomboftheeasternhighland,andthroughanarchwayofthewoodhungwitholdnestsandivy。Thelinesofmanyaleaningtreewerethrown,fromthecliffsoftheforeland,downuponthesparklinggrassatthefootofthewesterncrags。
Andthroughthedewymeadow’sbreast,fringedwithshade,buttouchedononesidewiththesun-smile,ranthecrystalwater,curvinginitsbrightnesslikedivertedhope。
Oneitherbank,thebladesofgrass,makingtheirlastautumngrowth,prickedtheirspearsandcrispedtheirtuftingswiththepearlypurity。Thetendernessoftheirgreenappearedundertheglaucousmantle;whilethatgreysuffusion,whichistheblushofgreenlife,spreaditsdamaskchastity。Eventhenmysoulwaslifted,worriedthoughmymindwas:whocanseesuchlargekinddoings,andnotbeashamedofhumangrief?
Notonlyunashamedofgrief,butmuchabashedwithjoy,wasI,whenIsawmyLornacoming,purerthanthemorningdew,thanthesunmorebrightandclear。Thatwhichmademeloveherso,thatwhichliftedmyhearttoher,astheSpringwindliftstheclouds,wasthegaynessofhernature,anditsinbornplayfulness。Andyetallthiswithmaidenshame,aconsciousdreamofthingsunknown,andasenseoffateaboutthem。
Downthevalleystillshecame,notwittingthatI
lookedather,havingceasedthroughmyownmisprison
toexpectmeyetawhile;oratleastshetoldherselfso。Inthejoyofawakenedlifeandbrightnessofthemorning,shehadcastallcareaway,andseemedtofloatuponthesunrise,likeabuoyantsilverwave。
Suddenlyatsightofme,forIleapedforthatonce,infearofseemingtowatchherunawares,thebloomuponhercheekswasdeepened,andtheradianceofhereyes;
andshecametomeetmegladly。
’Atlastthen,youarecome,John。Ithoughtyouhadforgottenme。Icouldnotmakeyouunderstand——theyhavekeptmeprisonereveryevening:butcomeintomyhouse;youareindangerhere。’
MeanwhileIcouldnotanswer,beingovercomewithjoy,butfollowedtoherlittlegrotto,whereIhadbeentwicebefore。Iknewthatthecrowningmomentofmylifewascoming——thatLornawouldownherloveforme。
Shemadeforawhileasifshedreamednotofthemeaningofmygaze,buttriedtospeakofotherthings,falteringnowandthen,andmantlingwitharicherdamaskbelowherlongeyelashes。
’ThisisnotwhatIcametoknow,’Iwhisperedverysoftly,’youknowwhatIamcometoask。’
’Ifyouarecomeonpurposetoaskanything,whydoyoudelayso?’Sheturnedawayverybravely,butIsawthatherlipsweretrembling。
’Idelaysolong,becauseIfear;becausemywholelifehangsinbalanceonasingleword;becausewhatIhavenearmenowmaynevermorebenearmeafter,thoughmorethanalltheworld,orthanathousandworlds,tome。’AsIspokethesewordsofpassioninalowsoftvoice,Lornatrembledmoreandmore;butshemadenoanswer,neitheryetlookedupatme。
’Ihavelovedyoulongandlong,’Ipursued,beingrecklessnow,’whenyouwerealittlechild,asaboyI
worshippedyou:thenwhenIsawyouacomelygirl,asastriplingIadoredyou:nowthatyouareafull-grownmaidenalltherestIdo,andmore——Iloveyoumorethantonguecantell,orheartcanholdinsilence。I
havewaitedlongandlong;andthoughIamsofarbelowyouIcanwaitnolonger;butmusthavemyanswer。’
’Youhavebeenveryfaithful,John,’shemurmuredtothefernandmoss;’IsupposeImustrewardyou。’
’Thatwillnotdoforme,’Isaid;’Iwillnothavereluctantliking,norassentforpity’ssake;whichonlymeansendurance。Imusthavealllove,ornone,I
musthaveyourheartofhearts;evenasyouhavemine,Lorna。’
WhileIspoke,sheglancedupshylythroughherflutteringlashes,toprolongmydoubtonemoment,forherowndeliciouspride。Thensheopenedwideuponmeallthegloriousdepthandsoftnessofherlovingeyes,andflungbotharmsaroundmyneck,andansweredwithherheartonmine,——
’Darling,youhavewonitall。Ishallneverbemyownagain。Iamyours,myownone,foreverandforever。’
IamsureIknownotwhatIdid,orwhatIsaidthereafter,beingovercomewithtransportbyherwordsandathergaze。OnlyonethingIremember,whensheraisedherbrightlipstome,likeachild,formetokiss,suchasmileofsweettemptationmetmethroughherflowinghair,thatIalmostforgotmymanners,givinghernotimetobreathe。
’Thatwilldo,’saidLornagently,butviolentlyblushing;’forthepresentthatwilldo,John。Andnowrememberonething,dear。Allthekindnessistobeonmyside;andyouaretobeverydistant,asbehovestoayoungmaiden;exceptwhenIinviteyou。Butyoumaykissmyhand,John;oh,yes,youmaykissmyhand,youknow。Ahtobesure!Ihadforgotten;howverystupidofme!’
ForbythistimeIhadtakenonesweethandandgazedonit,withtheprideofalltheworldtothinkthatsuchalovelythingwasmine;andthenIslippedmylittleringupontheweddingfinger;andthistimeLornakeptit,andlookedwithfondnessonitsbeauty,andclungtomewithafloodoftears。
’Everytimeyoucry,’saidI,drawingherclosertome’Ishallconsideritaninvitationnottobetoodistant。Therenow,noneshallmakeyouweep。Darling,youshallsighnomore,butliveinpeaceandhappiness,withmetoguardandcherishyou:andwhoshalldaretovexyou?’Butshedrewalongsadsigh,andlookedatthegroundwiththegreattearsrolling,andpressedonehanduponthetroubleofherpureyoungbreast。
’Itcannever,neverbe,’shemurmuredtoherselfalone:’WhoamI,todreamofit?Somethinginmyhearttellsmeitcanbesonever,never。’