havingboundmefirstbyoath,nottoimparttoanyone,withouthisownpermission,untilallwasover。
Butatthispresenttimeofwriting,allisoverlongago;ayandforgottentoo,Iween,exceptbythosewhosuffered。ThereforemayItellthewholewithoutanybreachofconfidence。MasterStickleswasgoingforthuponhisusualnightjourney,whenhemetmecominghome,andIsaidsomethinghalfinjest,abouthiszealandsecrecy;uponwhichhelookedallroundtheyard,andledmetoanopenspaceinthecloverfieldadjoining。
’John,’hesaid,’youhavesomerighttoknowthemeaningofallthis,beingtrustedasyouwerebytheLordChiefJustice。Buthefoundyouscarcelysuppleenough,neithergiftedwithduebrains。’
’ThankGodforthatsame,’Ianswered,whilehetappedhishead,tosignifyhisownmuchlargerallowance。
Thenhemademebindmyself,whichinanevilhourI
did,toretainhissecret;andafterthathewentonsolemnly,andwithmuchimportance,——
’Therebesomepeoplefittoplot,andotherstobeplottedagainst,andotherstounravelplots,whichisthehighestgiftofall。Thislasthathfallentomyshare,andaverythanklessgiftitis,althougharareandchoiceone。Muchofperiltooattendsit;daringcourageandgreatcoolnessareasneedfulfortheworkasreadywitandspotlesshonour。
ThereforeHisMajesty’sadvisershavechosenmeforthishightask,andtheycouldnothavechosenabetterman。AlthoughyouhavebeeninLondon,Jack,muchlongerthanyouwishedit,youarewhollyignorant,ofcourse,inmattersofstate,andthepublicweal。’
’Well,’saidI,’nodoubtbutIam,andallthebetterforme。AlthoughIheardadealofthem;foreverybodywastalking,andreadytocometoblows;ifonlyitcouldbedonewithoutdanger。Butonesaidthis,andonesaidthat;andtheytalkedsomuchaboutBirminghams,andTantivies,andWhigsandTories,andProtestantflailsandsuchlike,thatIwasonlytoogladtohavemyglassandclinkmyspoonforanswer。’
’Right,John,thouartrightasusual。LettheKinggohisowngait。HehathtoomanymistressestobeeverEngland’smaster。Nobodyneedfearhim,forheisnotlikehisfather:hewillhavehisownway,’tistrue,butwithoutstoppingotherfolkoftheirs:andwellheknowswhatwomenare,forheneverasksthemquestions。
NowheardyoumuchinLondontownabouttheDukeofMonmouth?’
’Notsoverymuch,’Ianswered;’nothalfsomuchasinDevonshire:onlythathewasaheartyman,andaveryhandsomeone,andnowwasbanishedbytheTories;andmostpeoplewishedhewascomingback,insteadoftheDukeofYork,whowastryingbootsinScotland。’
’Thingsarechangedsinceyouwereintown。TheWhigsaregettingupagain,throughthefollyoftheTorieskillingpoorLordRussell;andnowthisMasterSidneyifmyLordcondemnshimwillmakeitworseagain。
Thereismuchdisaffectioneverywhere,anditmustgrowtoanoutbreak。TheKinghathmanytroopsinLondon,andmeanethtobringmorefromTangier;buthecannotcommandthesecountryplaces;andthetrainedbandscannothelphimmuch,eveniftheywould。Now,doyouunderstandme,John?’
’Intruth,notI。IseenotwhatTangierhathtodowithExmoor;northeDukeofMonmouthwithJeremyStickles。’
’Thougreatclod,putittheotherway。JeremySticklesmayhavemuchtodoabouttheDukeofMonmouth。TheWhigshavingfailedofExclusion,andhavingbeenpunishedbitterlyforthebloodtheyshed,areripeforanyviolence。Andtheturnofthebalanceisnowtothem。See-sawisthefashionofEnglandalways;andtheWhigswillsoonbethetop-sawyers。’
’But,’saidI,stillmoreconfused,’“TheKingisthetop-sawyer,“accordingtoourproverb。HowthencantheWhigsbe?’
’Thouartahopelessass,John。Bettertosewwithachestnutthantoteachtheetheconstitution。Letitbeso,letitbe。Ihaveseenaboyoffiveyearsoldmoreaptatpoliticsthanthou。Nay,looknotoffended,lad。Itismyfaultforbeingover-deeptothee。Ishouldhaveconsideredthyintellect。’
’Nay,MasterJeremy,makenoapologies。ItisIthatshouldexcusemyself;but,Godknows,Ihavenopolitics。’
’Sticktothat,mylad,’heanswered;’soshaltthoudieeasier。Now,intenwordswithoutparties,ortryingthypoorbraintoomuch,Iamheretowatchthegatheringofasecretplot,notsomuchagainsttheKingasagainsttheduesuccession。’
’NowIunderstandatlast。But,MasterStickles,youmighthavesaidallthatanhouragoalmost。’
’Itwouldhavebeenbetter,ifIhad,tothee,’herepliedwithmuchcompassion;’thyhatisnearlyoffthyheadwiththeswellingofbrainIhavegiventhee。
Blows,blows,arethybusiness,Jack。Therethouartinthineelement。And,haply,thisbusinesswillbringtheeplentyevenforthygreatheadtotake。Nowhearkentoonewhowishestheewell,andplainlyseestheendofit——stickthoutothewinningside,andhavenaughttodowiththeotherone。’
’That,’saidI,ingreathasteandhurry,’istheverythingIwanttodo,ifIonlyknewwhichwasthewinningside,forthesakeofLorna——thatistosay,forthesakeofmydearmotherandsisters,andthefarm。’
’Ha!’criedJeremyStickles,laughingattherednessofmyface——’Lorna,saidstthou;nowwhatLorna?Isitthenameofamaiden,oralight-o’-love?’
’Keeptoyourownbusiness,’Ianswered,veryproudly;
’spyasmuchase’erthouwilt,anduseourhousefordoingit,withoutaskingleaveortelling;butifI
everfindtheespyingintomyaffairs,alltheKing’slifeguardsinLondon,andthedragoonsthoubringesthither,shallnotsavetheefrommyhand——oronefingerisenoughforthee。’
BeingcarriedbeyondmyselfbyhisinsolenceaboutLorna,IlookedatMasterSticklesso,andspakeinsuchavoice,thatallhisdaringcourageandhisspotlesshonourquailedwithinhim,andheshrank——asifIwouldstrikesosmallaman。
ThenIlefthim,andwenttoworkatthesacksuponthecorn-floor,totakemyevilspiritfrommebeforeI
shouldseemother。Fortotellthetruthnowmystrengthwasfull,andtroublesweregatheringroundme,andpeopletookadvantagesomuchofmyeasytemper,sometimeswhenIwasover-tried,asuddenheatranoverme,andaglowingofallmymuscles,andatinglingforamightythrow,suchasmyutmostself-command,andfearofhurtinganyone,couldbutillrefrain。Afterwards,Iwasalwaysverysadlyashamedofmyself,knowinghowpoorathingbodilystrengthis,ascomparedwithpowerofmind,andthatitisacoward’sparttomisuseituponweakerfolk。
ForthepresenttherewasalittlebreachbetweenMasterSticklesandme,forwhichIblamedmyselfverysorely。Butthough,infullmemoryofhiskindnessandfaithfulnessinLondon,Iaskedhispardonmanytimesformyfoolishangerwithhim,andofferedtoundergoanypenaltyhewouldlayuponme,heonlysaiditwasnomatter,therewasnothingtoforgive。Whenpeoplesaythat,thetruthoftenisthattheycanforgivenothing。
SoforthepresentabreachwasmadebetweenMasterJeremyandmyself,whichtomeseemednogreatloss,inasmuchasitrelievedmefromanyprivitytohisdealings,forwhichIhadsmallliking。AllIfearedwaslestImight,inanyway,beungratefultohim;butwhenhewouldhavenomoreofme,whatcouldIdotohelpit?However,inafewdays’timeIwasofgoodservicetohim,asyoushallseeinitsproperplace。
ButnowmyownaffairswerethrownintosuchdisorderthatIcouldthinkofnothingelse,andhadthegreatestdifficultyinhidingmyuneasiness。Forsuddenly,withoutanywarning,orawordofmessage,allmyLorna’ssignalsceased,whichIhadbeenaccustomedtowatchfordaily,andasitweretofeeduponthem,withaglowingheart。ThefirsttimeI
stoodonthewoodedcrest,andfoundnochangefromyesterday,Icouldhardlybelievemyeyes,orthoughtatleastthatitmustbesomegreatmistakeonthepartofmylove。However,eventhatoppressedmewithaheavyheart,whichgrewheavier,asIfoundfromdaytodaynotoken。
ThreetimesIwentandwaitedlongatthebottomofthevalley,wherenowthestreamwasbrownandangrywiththerainsofautumn,andtheweepingtreeshungleafless。ButthoughIwaitedateveryhourofday,andfarintothenight,nolightfootstepcametomeetme,nosweetvoicewasintheair;allwaslonely,drear,anddrenchedwithsoddendesolation。Itseemedasifmylovewasdead,andthewindswereatherfuneral。
OnceIsoughtfarupthevalley,whereIhadneverbeenbefore,evenbeyondthecopsewhereLornahadfoundandlostherbraveyoungcousin。Followinguptheriverchannel,inshelteroftheeveningfog,Igainedacornerwithinstone’sthrowofthelastoutlyingcot。
Thiswasagloomy,low,squarehouse,withoutanylightinthewindows,roughlybuiltofwoodandstone,asI
sawwhenIdrewnearer。ForknowingittobeCarver’sdwellingoratleastsuspectingso,fromsomewordsofLorna’s,Iwasledbycuriosity,andperhapsbyjealousy,tohaveacloserlookatit。Therefore,Icreptupthestream,losinghalfmysenseoffear,byreasonofanxiety。
Andintruththerewasnotmuchtofear,theskybeingnowtoodarkforevenashooterofwildfowltomakegoodaim。
Andnothingelsebutgunscouldhurtme,asintheprideofmystrengthIthought,andinmyskillofsingle-stick。
Nevertheless,Iwentwarily,beingnowalmostamongthisnestofcockatrices。ThebackofCarver’shouseabuttedonthewavesoftherushingstream;andseeingaloop-hole,vacantformuskets,Ilookedin,butallwasquiet。SofarasIcouldjudgebylistening,therewasnoonenowinside,andmyheartforamomentleapedwithjoy,forIhadfearedtofindLornathere。ThenI
tookacarefulsurveyofthedwelling,anditswindows,anditsdoor,andaspect,asifIhadbeenarobbermeaningtomakeprivyentrance。ItwaswellformethatIdidthis,asyouwillfindhereafter。
Havingimpresseduponmymindaslowbut,perhapsretentivemind,allthebearingsoftheplace,andallitsopportunities,andeventhecurveofthestreamalongit,andthebushesnearthedoor,Iwasmuchinclinedtogofartherup,andunderstandallthevillage。Butabarofredlightacrosstheriver,somefortyyardsonaboveme,andcrossingfromtheoppositesidelikeachain,preventedme。Inthatsecondhousetherewasagatheringofloudandmerryoutlaws,makingasmuchnoiseasiftheyhadthelawupontheirside。
Some,indeed,asIapproached,werelayingdownbothrightandwrong,aspurely,andwithashighasense,asiftheyknewthedifference。ColdandtroubledasI
was,Icouldhardlykeepfromlaughing。
BeforeIbetookmyselfhomethatnight,andeaseddearmother’sheartsomuch,andmadeherpalefacespreadwithsmiles,IhadresolvedtopenetrateGlenDoonefromtheupperend,andlearnallaboutmyLorna。NotbutwhatImighthaveenteredfrommyunsuspectedchannel,assooftenIhaddone;butthatIsawfearfulneedforknowingsomethingmorethanthat。Herewaseverysortoftroublegatheringuponme,herewasJeremySticklesstealinguponeveryoneinthedark;
herewasUncleReubenplottingSatanonlycouldtellwhat;herewasawhitenight-cappedmancomingbodilyfromthegrave;herewasmyownsisterAnniecommittedtoahighwayman,andmotherindistraction;mostofall——here,there,andwhere——wasmyLornastolen,dungeoned,perhapsoutraged。Itwasnotimeforshillyshally,forthebalanceofthisandthat,orforamanwithbloodandmuscletopathisnoseandponder。IfI
leftmyLornaso;ifIletthoseblack-soul’dvillainsworktheirpleasureonmylove;iftheheartthatclavetominecouldfindnovigourinit——thenletmaidensceasefrommen,andresttheirfaithintabby-cats。
RudelyrollingtheseideasinmyheavyheadandbrainI
resolvedtoletthemorrowputthemintoformandorder,butnotcontradictthem。Andthen,asmyconstitutionwilledbeinglikethatofEngland,I
slept,andtherewasnostoppingme。