’Youkeepyouropinionstoyourself,’Ireplied;
becauseIknewthedear,andherlittlebitsofjealousy;’ithappensthatyouarequitewrong,thistime。Lorna,comewithme,mydarling。’
’Ohyes,Lorna;gowithhim,’criedLizzie,droppingherlip,inawaywhichyoumustseetoknowitsmeaning;’Johnwantsnobodynowbutyou;andnonecanfindfaultwithhistaste,dear。’
’Youlittlefool,Ishouldthinknot,’Ianswered,veryrudely;for,betwixtthelotofthem,myLorna’seyelasheswerequivering;’now,dearestangel,comewithme;andsnapyourhandsatthewholeofthem。’
Myangeldidcome,withasigh,andthenwithasmile,whenwewerealone;butwithoutanyunangelicattemptatsnappinghersweetwhitefingers。
TheselittlethingsareenoughtoshowthatwhileeveryonesoadmiredLorna,andsokindlytooktoher,stilltherewould,justnowandthen,bepettyandpaltryflashesofjealousyconcerningher;andperhapsitcouldnotbeotherwiseamongsomanywomen。However,wewerealwaysdoublykindtoherafterwards;andalthoughhermindwassosensitiveandquickthatshemusthavesuffered,sheneverallowedustoperceiveit,norloweredherselfbyresentingit。
PossiblyImayhavementionedthatlittleRuthHuckabackhadbeenasked,andhadevenpromisedtospendherChristmaswithus;andthiswasthemoredesirable,becauseshehadleftusthroughsomeoffence,orsorrow,aboutthingssaidofher。Nowmydearmother,beingthekindestandbest-heartedofallwomen,couldnotbearthatpoordearRuthwhowouldsomedayhavesuchafortune,shouldbeentirelylosttous。’Itisourduty,mydearchildren,’shesaidmorethanonceaboutit,’toforgiveandforget,asfreelyaswehopetohaveitdonetous。IfdearlittleRuthhasnotbehavedquiteaswemighthaveexpected,greatallowanceshouldbemadeforagirlwithsomuchmoney。Designingpeoplegetholdofher,andflatterher,andcoaxher,toobtainabaseinfluenceoverher;sothatwhenshefallsamongsimplefolk,whospeakthehonesttruthofher,nowonderthepoorchildisvexed,andgivesherselfairs,andsoon。
Ruthcanbeveryusefultousinanumberoflittleways;andIconsideritquiteadutytopardonherfreakofpetulance。’
NowoneofthelittlewaysinwhichRuthhadbeenveryuseful,wasthepurchaseofthescarletfeathersoftheflamingbird;andnowthatthehousewasquitesafefromattack,andthemarkonmyforeheadwashealing,I
wasbegged,overandoveragain,togoandseeRuth,andmakeallthingsstraight,andpayforthegorgeousplumage。ThislastIwasverydesiroustodo,thatI
mightknowthepriceofit,havingmadeasmallbetonthesubjectwithAnnie;andhavingheldcounselwithmyself,whetherornotitwerepossibletogetsomethingofthekindforLorna,ofstillmoredistinguishedappearance。Ofcourseshecouldnotwearscarletasyet,evenifIhadwishedit;butIbelievedthatpeopleoffashionoftenworepurpleformourning;
purpletoowastheroyalcolour,andLornawasbyrightaqueen;thereforeIwasquiteresolvedtoransackUncleReuben’sstores,insearchofsomebrightpurplebird,ifnaturehadkindlyprovidedone。
Allthis,however,Ikepttomyself,intendingtotrustRuthHuckaback,andnooneelseinthematter。Andso,onebeautifulspringmorning,whenalltheearthwaskissedwithscent,andalltheaircaressedwithsong,upthelaneIstoutlyrode,wellarmed,andwellprovided。
Nowthoughitispartofmylifetoheed,itisnopartofmytaletotell,howthewheatwascomingon。I
reckonthatyou,whoreadthisstory,afterIamdeadandgoneandbeforethatnoneshallreadit,willsay,’Tush!Whatishiswheattous?Wearenotwheat:
wearehumanbeings:andallwecareforishumandoings。’Thismaybeverygoodargument,andinthemain,Ibelievethatitisso。Nevertheless,ifamanistotellonlywhathethoughtanddid,andnotwhatcamearoundhim,hemustnotmentionhisownclothes,whichhisfatherandmotherboughtforhim。Andmorethanmyownclothestome,ay,andasmuchasmyownskin,aretheworksofnatureroundabout,whereofamanisthesmallest。
AndnowIwilltellyou,althoughmostlikelyonlytobelaughedat,becauseIcannotputitinthestyleofMr。Dryden——whomtocomparetoShakespeare!butifonceIbeginuponthat,youwillneverhearthelastofme——nevertheless,Iwilltellyouthis;notwishingtoberude,butonlyjustbecauseIknowit;themoreamancanflinghisarmssotosayroundNature’sneck,themorehecanuponherbosom,likeaninfant,lieandsuck,——themorethatmanshallearnthetrustandloveofallhisfellowmen。
Inthismatterisnojealousywhenthemanisdead;
becausethereafterallothersknowhowmuchofthemilkbehad;andhecansucknolonger;andtheyvaluehimaccordingly,forthenourishmentheistothem。Evenaswhenwekeeparoasterofthesucking-pigs,wechoose,andpraiseattablemost,thefavouriteofitsmother。FiftytimeshaveIseenthis,andsmiled,andpraisedourpeople’staste,andofferedthemmoreofthevitals。
NowhereamIuponShakespearewhodied,ofhisownfruition,attheageoffifty-two,yetlivedmorethanfiftythousandmen,withinhislittlespanoflife,whenallthewhileIoughttoberidingashardasI
cantoDulverton。But,totellthetruth,Icouldnotridehard,beingheldateveryturn,andoftenwithoutanyturnatall,bythebeautyofthingsaroundme。
Thesethingsgrowuponamanifoncehestopstonoticethem。
Itwantedyettwohourstonoon,whenIcametoMasterHuckaback’sdoor,andstruckthepanelssmartly。
Knowingnothingoftheirmanners,onlythatpeopleinatowncouldnotbeexpectedtoentertainaswedoinfarm-houses,having,moreover,keenexpectationofMasterHuckaback’savarice,Ihadbroughtsomestufftoeat,madebyAnnie,andpackedbyLorna,andrequiringnothinkingaboutit。
Ruthherselfcameandletmein,blushingveryheartily;forwhichcolourIpraisedherhealth,andmypraisesheightenedit。Thatlittlethinghadlovelyeyes,andcouldbetrustedthoroughly。Idolikeanobstinatelittlewoman,whensheissurethatsheisright。AndindeediflovehadneverspedmestraighttotheheartofLornacomparedtowhom,Ruthwasnomorethanthethiefistothecandle,whoknowsbutwhatImighthaveyieldedtothelawofnature,thatthoroughtrimmerofbalances,andverifiedtheproverbthatthegiantlovesthedwarf?
’Itaketheprivilege,MistressRuth,ofsalutingyouaccordingtokinship,andtheorderingoftheCanons。’
AndtherewithIbussedherwell,andputmyarmaroundherwaist,beingsoterriblyrestrictedinthematterofLorna,andknowingtheuseofpractice。NotthatI
hadanywarmth——allthatwasdarlingLorna’s——onlyoutofpuregallantry,andmyknowledgeofLondonfashions。
Ruthblushedtosuchapitchatthis,andlookedupatmewithsuchagleam;asifImusthavemyownway;
thatallmyloveofkissingsunk,andIfeltthatIwaswrongingher。Onlymymotherhadtoldme,whenthegirlswereoutoftheway,todoallIcouldtopleasedarlingRuth,andIhadgoneaboutitaccordingly。
NowRuthasyethadneverheardawordaboutdearLorna;andwhensheledmeintothekitchenwhereeverythinglookedbeautiful,andtoldmenottomind,foramoment,aboutthescrubbingofmyboots,becauseshewouldonlybetoogladtocleanitallupafterme,andtoldmehowgladshewastoseeme,blushingmoreateveryword,andrecallingsomeofthem,andstoopingdownforpotsandpans,whenIlookedathertooruddily——allthesethingscameuponmeso,withoutanylegalnotice,thatIcouldonlylookatRuth,andthinkhowverygoodshewas,andhowbrightherhandleswere;
andwonderifIhadwrongedher。Onceortwice,I
began——thisIsayuponmyhonour——toendeavourtoexplainexactly,howwewereatPlover’sBarrows;howweallhadbeenboundtofight,andhaddefeatedtheenemy,keepingtheirqueenamongstus。ButRuthwouldmakesomegreatmistakebetweenLornaandGwennyCarfax,andgavemenochancetosetheraright,andcaredaboutnothingmuch,exceptsomenewsofSallySnowe。
WhatcouldIdowiththislittlething?Allmysenseofmodesty,andvalueformydinner,wereagainstmyover-pressingallthegracefulhintsIhadgivenaboutLorna。Ruthwasjustagirlofthatsort,whowillnotbelieveoneword,exceptfromherownseeing;notsomuchfromanydoubt,asfromthepracticeofusingeyeswhichhavebeeninbusiness。
IaskedCousinRuthasweusedtocallher,thoughthecousinshipwasdistantwhatwasbecomeofUncleBen,andhowitwasthatweneverheardanythingoforfromhimnow。Sherepliedthatshehardlyknewwhattomakeofhergrandfather’smannerofcarryingon,forthelasthalf-yearormore。Hewasapttoleavehishome,shesaid,atanyhourofthedayornight;goingnoneknewwhither,andreturningnoonemightsaywhen。Andhisdress,inheropinion,wasenoughtofrightenahodman,ofascavengeroftheroads,insteadofthedecentsuitofkersey,orofSabbathdoeskins,suchashadwontherespectandreverenceofhisfellow-
townsmen。Buttheworstofallthingswas,assheconfessedwithtearsinhereyes,thatthepooroldgentlemanhadsomethingweighingheavilyonhismind。
’Itwillshortenhisdays,CousinRidd,’shesaid,forsheneverwouldcallmeCousinJohn;’hehasnoenjoymentofanythingthatheeatsordrinks,norevenincountinghismoney,asheusedtodoallSunday;
indeednopleasureinanything,unlessitbesmokinghispipe,andthinkingandstaringatbitsofbrownstone,whichhepulls,everynowandthen,outofhispockets。Andthebusinessheusedtotakesuchprideinisnowleftalmostentirelytotheforeman,andtome。’
’Andwhatwillbecomeofyou,dearRuth,ifanythinghappenstotheoldman?’
’IamsureIknownot,’sheansweredsimply;’andI
cannotbeartothinkofit。Itmustdepend,Isuppose,upondeargrandfather’spleasureaboutme。’
’Itmustratherdepend,’saidI,thoughhavingnobusinesstosayit,’uponyourowngoodpleasure,Ruth;
foralltheworldwillpaycourttoyou。’
’ThatistheverythingwhichInevercouldendure。I
havebeggeddeargrandfathertoleavenochanceofthat。Whenhehasthreatenedmewithpoverty,ashedoessometimes,Ihavealwaysmethimtruly,withtheanswerthatIfearedonethingagreatdealworsethanpoverty;namely,tobeanheiress。ButIcannotmakehimbelieveit。Onlythinkhowstrange,CousinRidd,I
cannotmakehimbelieveit。’
’Itisnotstrangeatall,’Ianswered;’consideringhowhevaluesmoney。Neitherwouldanyoneelsebelieveyou,exceptbylookingintoyourtrue,andveryprettyeyes,dear。’
NowIbegthatnoonewillsuspectforasinglemoment,eitherthatIdidnotmeanexactlywhatIsaid,ormeantasingleatommore,orwouldnothavesaidthesame,ifLornahadbeenstandingby。WhatIhadalwayslikedinRuth,wasthecalm,straightforwardgaze,andbeautyofherlargebrowneyes。IndeedIhadspokenofthemtoLorna,astheonlyonestobecomparedthoughnotformorethanamomenttoherown,fortruthandlight,butneverfordepthandsoftness。Butnowthelittlemaidendroppedthem,andturnedaway,withoutreply。
’Iwillgoandseetomyhorse,’Isaid;’theboythathastakenhimseemedsurprisedathishavingnohornsonhisforehead。Perhapshewillleadhimintotheshop,andfeedhimuponbroadcloth。’
’Oh,heissuchastupidboy,’Ruthansweredwithgreatsympathy:’howquickofyoutoobservethatnow:andyoucallyourself“SlowJohnRidd!“Ineverdidseesuchastupidboy:sometimeshespoilsmytemper。Butyoumustbebackinhalfanhour,atthelatest,CousinRidd。YouseeIrememberwhatyouare;whenonceyougetamonghorses,orcows,orthingsofthatsort。’
’Thingsofthatsort!Welldone,Ruth!OnewouldthinkyouwerequiteaCockney。’