’Oh,dear,yes,’Ireplied;’itisofverygreatconsequence;andIunderstandthewholeofit。YouwanttogivethatstupidAnnie,whohaslostyouahundredthousandpounds,andwhoisgoingtobemarriedbeforeus,dear——Godonlycantellwhy,beingmyyoungersister——youwanttogiveheraweddingpresent。
Andyoushalldoit,darling;becauseitissogoodofyou。Don’tyouknowyourtitle,love?Howhumbleyouarewithushumblefolk。YouareLadyLornasomething,sofarasIcanmakeoutyet:andyououghtnoteventospeaktous。Youwillgoawayanddisdainus。’
’Ifyouplease,talknotlikethat,John。Iwillhavenothingtodowithit,ifitcomesbetweenyouandme,John。’
’Youcannothelpyourself,’saidI。Andthenshevowedthatshecouldandwould。Andrankandbirthwerebanishedfrombetweenourlipsinnotime。
’WhatcanIgethergoodenough?IamsureIdonotknow,’sheasked:’shehasbeensokindandgoodtome,andsheissuchadarling。HowIshallmissher,tobesure!Bythebye,youseemtothink,John,thatIshallberichsomeday。’
’Ofcourseyouwill。AsrichastheFrenchKingwhokeepsours。WouldtheLordChancellortroublehimselfaboutyou,ifyouwerepoor?’
’ThenifIamrich,perhapsyouwouldlendmetwentypounds,dearJohn。Tenpoundswouldbeverymeanforawealthypersontogiveher。’
TothisIagreed,uponconditionthatIshouldmakethepurchasemyself,whateveritmightbe。FornothingcouldbeeasierthantocheatLornaaboutthecost,untiltimeshouldcomeforherpayingme。Andthiswasbetterthantocheatherforthebenefitofourfamily。
Forthisend,andformanyothers,IsetofftoDulverton,bearingmorecommissions,moremessages,andmorequestionsthanamanofthricemymemorymightcarrysofarasthecornerwherethesawpitis。Andtomakethingsworse,onegirlorotherwouldkeeponrunninguptome,orevenaftermewhenstartedwithsomethingorothershehadjustthoughtof,whichshecouldnotpossiblydowithout,andwhichImustbesuretoremember,asthemostimportantofthewhole。
Tomydearmother,whohadpartlyoutlivedtheexceedingvalueoftrifles,themostimportantmatterseemedtoensureUncleReuben’scountenanceandpresenceatthemarriage。AndifIsucceededinthis,Imightwellforgetallthemaidens’trumpery。Thisshewouldhavebeenwisertotellmewhentheywereoutofhearing;forIlefthertofightherownbattlewiththem;andlaughingatherpredicament,promisedtodothebestIcouldforall,sofarasmywitswouldgo。
UncleReubenwasnotathome,butRuth,whoreceivedmeverykindly,althoughwithoutanyexpressionsofjoy,wassureofhisreturnintheafternoon,andpersuadedmetowaitforhim。AndbythetimethatIhadfinishedallIcouldrecollectofmyorders,evenwithpapertohelpme,theoldgentlemanrodeintotheyard,andwasmoresurprisedthanpleasedtoseeme。Butifhewassurprised,Iwasmorethanthat——IwasutterlyastonishedatthechangeinhisappearancesincethelasttimeIhadseenhim。Fromahale,andratherheavyman,gray-haired,butplump,andruddy,hewasalteredtoashrunken,wizened,trembling,andalmostdecrepitfigure。Insteadofcurlyandcomelylocks,grizzledindeed,butplentiful,hehadonlyafewlankwhitehairsscatteredandflatteneduponhisforehead。
Butthegreatestchangeofallwasintheexpressionofhiseyes,whichhadbeensokeen,andrestless,andbright,andalittlesarcastic。Brightindeedtheystillwere,butwithaslowunhealthylustre;theirkeennesswasturnedtoperpetualoutlook,theirrestlessnesstoahaggardwant。Asforthehumourwhichoncegleamedtherewhichpeoplewhofearitcallsarcasmithadbeensucceededbystaresofterror,andthenmistrust,andshrinking。Therewasnoneoftheinterestinmankind,whichisneedfulevenforsatire。
’Nowwhatcanthisbe?’thoughtItomyself,’hastheoldmanlostallhisproperty,ortakentoomuchtostrongwaters?’
’Comeinside,JohnRidd,’hesaid;’Iwillhaveatalkwithyou。Itiscoldouthere;anditistoolight。
Comeinside,JohnRidd,boy。’
Ifollowedhimintoalittledarkroom,quitedifferentfromRuthHuckaback’s。Itwasclosedfromtheshopbyanolddivisionofboarding,hungwithtannedcanvas;
andthesmellwasverycloseandfaint。Heretherewasaledgerdesk,andacoupleofchairs,andalong-leggedstool。
’Takethestool,’saidUncleReuben,showingmeinveryquietly,’itisfitterforyourheight,John。Waitamoment;thereisnohurry。’
Thenheslippedoutbyanotherdoor,andclosingitquicklyafterhim,toldtheforemanandwaiting-menthatthebusinessofthedaywasdone。Theyhadbetterallgohomeatonce;andhewouldseetothefastenings。Ofcoursetheywereonlytoogladtogo;
butIwonderedathissendingthem,withatleasttwohoursofdaylightleft。
However,thatwasnobusinessofmine,andIwaited,andponderedwhetherfairRuthevercameintothisdirtyroom,andifso,howshekeptherhandsfromit。
ForAnniewouldhavehaditupsidedowninabouttwominutes,andscrubbed,andbrushed,anddusted,untilitlookedquiteanotherplace;andyetallthisdonewithoutscoldingandcrossness;whicharethecurseofcleanwomen,andtentimesworsethanthedustiestdust。
UncleBencamereelingin,notfromanypowerofliquor,butbecausehewasstifffromhorseback,andweakfromworkandworry。
’Letmebe,John,letmebe,’hesaid,asIwenttohelphim;’thisisanunkinddrearyplace;butmanyahundredofgoodgoldCarolushasbeenturnedinthisplace,John。’
’Notadoubtaboutit,sir,’Iansweredinmyloudandcheerfulmanner;’andmanyanotherhundred,sir;andmayyoulongenjoythem!’
’Myboy,doyouwishmetodie?’heasked,comingupclosetomystool,andregardingmewithashrewdthoughblear-eyedgaze;’manydo。Doyou,John?’
’Come,’saidI,’don’tasksuchnonsense。Youknowbetterthanthat,UncleBen。Orelse,Iamsorryforyou。Iwantyoutoliveaslongaspossible,forthesakeof——’HereIstopped。
’Forthesakeofwhat,John?Iknewitisnotformyownsake。Forthesakeofwhat,myboy?’
’ForthesakeofRuth,’Ianswered;’ifyoumusthaveallthetruth。Whoistomindherwhenyouaregone?’
’ButifyouknewthatIhadgold,oramannerofgettinggold,farmorethaneverthesailorsgotoutoftheSpanishgalleons,farmorethaneverwasheardof;
andthesecretwastobeyours,John;yoursaftermeandnoothersoul’s——thenyouwouldwishmedead,John。’Hereheeyedmeasifaspeckofdustinmyeyesshouldnotescapehim。
’Youarewrong,UncleBen;altogetherwrong。Forallthegoldeverheardordreamedof,notawishwouldcrossmyhearttorobyouofonedayoflife。’
Atlasthemovedhiseyesfrommine;butwithoutanyword,orsign,toshowwhetherhebelieved,ordisbelieved。Thenhewenttoachair,andsatwithhischinupontheledger-desk;asiftheeffortofprobingmehadbeentoomuchforhiswearybrain。’Dreamedof!Allthegoldeverdreamedof!Asifitwerebutadream!’hemuttered;andthenheclosedhiseyestothink。
’GoodUncleReuben,’Isaidtohim,’youhavebeenalongwayto-day,sir。Letmegoandgetyouaglassofgoodwine。CousinRuthknowswheretofindit。’
’HowdoyouknowhowfarIhavebeen?’heasked,withaviciouslookatme。’AndCousinRuth!Youareverypatwithmygranddaughter’sname,youngman!’
’Itwouldbeharduponme,sir,nottoknowmyowncousin’sname。’
’Verywell。Letthatgoby。YouhavebehavedverybadlytoRuth。Shelovesyou;andyoulovehernot。’
AtthisIwassowhollyamazed——notatthethingitself,Imean,butathisknowledgeofit——thatI
couldnotsayasingleword;butlooked,nodoubt,veryfoolish。
’Youmaywellbeashamed,youngman,’hecried,withsometriumphoverme,’youarethebiggestofallfools,aswellasaconceitedcoxcomb。WhatcanyouwantmorethanRuth?Sheisalittledamsel,truly;
butfinermenthanyou,JohnRidd,withallyourboastedstrengthandwrestling,haveweddedsmallermaidens。Andasforquality,andvalue——bots!oneinchofRuthisworthallyoursevenfeetputtogether。’
NowIamnotsevenfeethigh;noreverwassixfeeteightinches,inmyveryprimeoflife;andnothingvexesmesomuchastomakemeoutagiant,andabovehumansympathy,andhumanscaleofweakness。Itcostmehardtoholdmytongue;whichluckilyisnotinproportiontomystature。AndonlyforRuth’ssakeI
heldit。ButUncleBenbeingoldandwornwasvexedbynothavinganyanswer,almostasmuchasawomanis。
’Youwantmetogoon,’hecontinued,withalookofspiteatme,’aboutmypoorRuth’sloveforyou,tofeedyourcursedvanity。BecauseasetofassescallyouthefinestmaninEngland;thereisnomaidI
supposewhoisnotinlovewithyou。Ibelieveyouareasdeepasyouarelong,JohnRidd。ShallIevergettothebottomofyourcharacter?’
Thiswasalittletoomuchforme。AnyinsultIcouldtakewithgoodwillfromawhite-hairedman,andonewhowasmyrelative;unlessittouchedmyloveforLorna,ormyconsciousmodesty。Nowbothoftheseweretouchedtothequickbythesentencesoftheoldgentleman。Therefore,withoutaword,Iwent;onlymakingabowtohim。
Butwomenwhoarebeyondalldoubtthemothersofallmischief,alsonursethatbabetosleep,whenheistoonoisy。AndtherewasRuth,asItookmyhorsewithatrunkoffripperyonhim,poorlittleRuthwasatthebridle,andrustingalltheknopsofourtown-goingharnesswithtears。
’Good-byedear,’Isaid,asshebentherheadawayfromme;’shallIputyouuponthesaddle,dear?’
’CousinRidd,youmaytakeitlightly,’saidRuth,turningfulluponme,’andverylikelyyouareright,accordingtoyournature’——thiswastheonlycuttingthingthelittlesouleversaidtome——’butoh,CousinRidd,youhavenoideaofthepainyouwillleavebehindyou。’
’Howcanthatbeso,Ruth,whenIamasgoodasorderedtobeoffthepremises?’
’Inthefirstplace,CousinRidd,grandfatherwillbeangrywithhimself,forhavingsoill-usedyou。Andnowheissoweakandpoorly,thatheisalwaysrepenting。InthenextplaceIshallscoldhimfirst,untilheadmitshissorrow;andwhenhehasadmittedit,Ishallscoldmyselfforscoldinghim。Andthenhewillcomeroundagain,andthinkthatIwashardonhim;andendperhapsbyhatingyou——forheislikeawomannow,John。’
Thatlastlittletouchofself-knowledgeinRuth,whichshedeliveredwithagleamofsomesecretpleasantry,mademestopandlookcloselyather:butshepretendednottoknowit。’Thereissomethinginthischild,’I
thought,’verydifferentfromothergirls。WhatitisIcannottell;foroneveryseldomgetsatit。’
Atanyratetheupshotwasthatthegoodhorsewentbacktostable,andhadanotherfeedofcorn,whilemywrathsankwithinme。Therearetwothings,accordingtomyexperiencewhichmaynotholdwithanotherman
fittedbeyondanyotherstotakehottempersoutofus。
Thefirstistoseeourfavouritecreaturesfeeding,andlickinguptheirfood,andhappilysnufflingoverit,yetsparingtimetobegrateful,andshowingtasteandperception;theotheristogogardeningboldly,inthespringoftheyear,withoutanymisgivingaboutit,andhopingtheutmostofeverything。Iftherebeathirdanodyne,approachingthesetwoinpower,itistosmokegoodtobaccowell,andwatchthesettingofthemoon;andifthisshouldonlybeoverthesea,theresultisirresistible。
MasterHuckabackshowednoespecialsignsofjoyatmyreturn;butreceivedmewithalittlegrunt,whichappearedtometomean,’Ah,Ithoughthewouldhardlybefoolenoughtogo。’ItoldhimhowsorryIwasforhavinginsomewayoffendedhim;andheansweredthatI
didwelltogrieveforoneatleastofmyoffences。TothisImadenoreply,asbehovesamandealingwithcrossandfractiouspeople;andpresentlyhebecamebetter-tempered,andsentlittleRuthforabottleofwine。Shegavemeabeautifulsmileofthanksformyforbearanceasshepassed;andIknewbyhermannerthatshewouldbringthebestbottleinallthecellar。
AsIhadbutlittletimetosparealthoughthedayswerelongandlightwewereforcedtotakeourwinewithpromptitudeandrapidity;andwhetherthisloosenedmyuncle’stongue,orwhetherhemeantbeforehandtospeak,isnowalmostuncertain。Buttrueitisthathebroughthischairveryneartomine,afterthreeorfourglasses,andsentRuthawayuponsomeerrandwhichseemedofsmallimportance。AtthisIwasvexed,fortheroomalwayslookedsodifferentwithouther。
’Come,Jack,’hesaid,’here’syourhealth,youngfellow,andagoodandobedientwifetoyou。Notthatyourwifewilleverobeyyouthough;youaremuchtooeasy-tempered。Evenabitterandstormywomanmightliveinpeacewithyou,Jack。Butneveryougiveherthechancetotry。Marrysomesweetlittlething,ifyoucan。Ifnot,don’tmarryany。Ah,wehavethemaidtosuityou,mylad,inthisoldtownofDulverton。’