Icouldnotstayverylong,because,myhorsebeingquiteunfittotravelfromtheinjurieswhichhisviolenceandvicehadbroughtuponhim,therewasnothingformebuttogoonfoot,asnoneofUncleBen’shorsescouldtakemetoPlover’sBarrows,withoutdownrightcruelty:andthoughtherewouldbeaharvest-moon,RuthagreedwithmethatImustnotkeepmymotherwaiting,withnoideawhereImightbe,untilalatehourofthenight。ItoldRuthallaboutourAnnie,andhernoblefurniture;andthelittlemaidwasverylivelyalthoughherwoundswerepainingherso,thathalfherlaughtercame’onthewrongsideofhermouth,’aswerathercoarselyexpressit;especiallyshelaughedaboutAnnie’snew-fangledclosetforclothes,orstanding-press,asshecalledit。ThishadfrightenedmesothatIwouldnotcomewithoutmysticktolookatit;forthefrontwasinlaidwithtwofierydragons,andaglasswhichdistortedeverything,makingevenAnnielookhideous;andwhenitwasopened,awoman’sskeleton,allinwhite,revealeditself,inthemidstofthreestandingwomen。’Itisonlytokeepmybestfrocksinshape,’Anniehadexplainedtome;
’hangingthemupdoesruinthemso。ButIownthatI
wasafraidofit,John,untilIhadgotallmybestclothesthere,andthenIbecameveryfondofit。Butevennowitfrightensmesometimesinthemoonlight。’
HavingmadepoorRuthalittlecheerful,withafullaccountofallAnnie’sfrocks,material,pattern,andfashionofwhichIhadtakenalistformymother,andforLizzie,lesttheyshouldcryoutatman’sstupidityaboutanythingofrealinterest,Iproceededtotellheraboutmyowntroubles,andthesuddendepartureofLorna;concludingwithalltheshowofindifferencewhichmypridecouldmuster,thatnowInevershouldseeheragain,andmustdomybesttoforgether,asbeingsofaraboveme。Ihadnotintendedtospeakofthis,butRuth’sfacewassokindandearnest,thatI
couldnotstopmyself。
’Youmustnottalklikethat,CousinRidd,’shesaid,inalowandgentletone,andturningawayhereyesfromme;’noladycanbeaboveaman,whoispure,andbrave,andgentle。Andifherheartbeworthhaving,shewillneverletyougiveherup,forhergrandeur,andhernobility。’
Shepronouncedthoselastfewwords,asIthought,withalittlebitterness,unperceivedbyherselfperhaps,foritwasnotinherappearance。ButI,attachinggreatimportancetoamaiden’sopinionaboutamaidenbecauseshemightjudgefromexperience,wouldhaveledherfurtherintothatsubject。Butshedeclinedtofollow,havingnownomoretosayinamattersoremovedfromher。ThenIaskedherfullandstraight,andlookingatherinsuchamannerthatshecouldnotlookaway,withoutappearingvanquishedbyfeelingsofherown——whichthingwasveryvileofme;butallmenaresoselfish,——
’Dearcousin,tellme,onceforall,whatisyouradvicetome?’
’Myadvicetoyou,’sheansweredbravely,withherdarkeyesfullofpride,andinsteadofflinching,foilingme,——’istodowhateverymanmustdo,ifhewouldwinfairmaiden。Sinceshecannotsendyoutoken,neitherisfreetoreturntoyou,followher,payyourcourttoher;showthatyouwillnotbeforgotten;andperhapsshewilllookdown——Imean,shewillrelenttoyou。’
’Shehasnothingtorelentabout。Ihavenevervexednorinjuredher。Mythoughtshaveneverstrayedfromher。
Thereisnoonetocomparewithher。’
’Thenkeepherinthatsamemindaboutyou。Seenow,I
canadvisenomore。Myarmisswellingpainfully,inspiteofallyourgoodness,andbittertaskofsurgeonship。Ishallhaveanotherpoulticeon,andgotobed,Ithink,CousinRidd,ifyouwillnotholdmeungrateful。Iamsosorryforyourlongwalk。Surelyitmightbeavoided。GivemylovetodearLizzie:oh,theroomisgoingroundso。’
AndshefaintedintothearmsofSally,whowascomejustintimetofetchher:nodoubtshehadbeensufferingagonyallthetimeshetalkedtome。LeavingwordthatIwouldcomeagaintoinquireforher,andfetchKickumshome,sosoonastheharvestpermittedme,Igavedirectionsaboutthehorse,andstridingawayfromtheancienttown,wassoonuponthemoorlands。
Now,throughthewholeofthatlongwalk——thelatterpartofwhichwasledbystarlight,tillthemoonarose——Idwelt,inmyyoungandfoolishway,upontheorderingofourstepsbyaPowerbeyondus。ButasI
couldnotbringmymindtoanyclearnessuponthismatter,andthestarsshednolightuponit,butratherconfusedmewithwonderinghowtheirLordcouldattendtothemall,andyettoapunyfoollikeme,itcametopassthatmythoughtsonthesubjectwerenotworthink,ifIknewthem。
Butitisperhapsworthinktorelate,sofarasIcandoso,mother’sdelightatmyreturn,whenshehadalmostabandonedhope,andconcludedthatIwasgonetoLondon,indisgustatherbehaviour。Andnowshewaslookingupthelane,attheriseoftheharvest-moon,indespair,asshesaidafterwards。Butifshehaddespairedintruth,whatusetolookatall?YetaccordingtotheepigrammadebyagoodBlundellite,——
DespairwasneveryetsodeepInsinkingasinseeming;
DespairishopejustdroppedasleepForbetterchanceofdreaming。
Andmother’sdreamwasahappyone,whensheknewmystepatafurlongdistant;forthenightwasofthosethatcarrysoundthriceasfarasdaycan。Sherecoveredherself,whenshewassure,andevenmadeuphermindtoscoldme,andfeltasifshecoulddoit。
Butwhenshewasinmyarms,intowhichshethrewherself,andIbythelightofthemoondescriedthesilvergleamononesideofherheadnowspreadingsinceAnnie’sdeparture,blessmyheartandyourstherewith,noroomwasleftforscolding。Shehuggedme,andsheclungtome;andIlookedather,withdutymadetenfold,anddischargedbylove。Wesaidnothingtooneanother;butallwasrightbetweenus。
EvenLizziebehavedverywell,sofarashernatureadmitted;notevensayinganastythingallthetimeshewasgettingmysupperready,withaweakimitationofAnnie。SheknewthatthegiftofcookingwasnotvouchsafedbyGodtoher;butsometimesshewoulddoherbest,byintellecttowinit。Whereasitisnomoretobewonbyintellectthanisdivinepoetry。Anamountofstrongquickheartisneedful,andtheunderstandingmustsecondit,intheoneartasintheother。Nowmyfarewasverychoiceforthenextthreedaysormore;yetnotturnedoutlikeAnnie’s。Theycoulddoathingwellenoughonthefire;buttheycouldnotputitontableso;norevenhaveplatesallpipinghot。ThiswasAnnie’sspecialgift;borninher,andreadytocoolwithher;likeaplateborneawayfromthefireplace。IsighedsometimesaboutLorna,andtheythoughtitwasabouttheplates。Andmotherwouldstandandlookatme,asmuchastosay,’Nopleasinghim’;andLizziewouldjerkuponeshoulder,andcry,’HehadbetterhaveLornatocookforhim’;whilethewholetruthwasthatIwantednottobeplaguedaboutanycookery;butjusttohavesomethinggoodandquiet,andthensmokeandthinkaboutLorna。
Neverthelessthetimewenton,withonechangeandanother;andwegatheredallourharvestin;andParsonBowdenthankedGodforit,bothinchurchandoutofit;forhistitheswouldbeverygoodly。Theunmatchedcoldofthepreviouswinter,andgeneralfearofscarcity,andourowntalkaboutourruin,hadsentpricesuptoagrandhighpitch;andwedidourbesttokeepthemthere。FornineEnglishmenoutofeverytenbelievethatabitterwintermustbreedasoursummer,andexplainawaytopmostprices。Whileaccordingtomyexperience,moreoftenitwouldbeotherwise,exceptforthepublicthinkingso。However,Ihavesaidtoomuch;andifanyfarmerreadsmybook,hewillvowthatIwroteitfornothingelseexcepttorobhisfamily。
AllourneighbourhoodwassurprisedthattheDooneshadnoterenowattacked,andprobablymadeanendofus。Forwelayalmostattheirmercynow,havingonlySergeantBloxham,andthreemen,toprotectus,CaptainStickleshavingbeenorderedsouthwardswithallhisforce;exceptsuchasmightbeneedfulforcollectingtoll,andwatchingtheimportsatLynmouth,andthencetoPorlock。TheSergeant,havingnowimbibedatasteforwritingreportsthoughhisfirstgreatefforthaddonehimnogood,andonlyoffendedStickles,reportedweeklyfromPlover’sBarrows,wheneverhecouldfindamessenger。AndthoughwefednotSergeantBloxhamatourowntable,withthebestwehadasinthecaseofStickles,whorepresentedHisMajesty,yetwetreatedhimsowell,thathereportedveryhighlyofus,asloyalandtrue-heartedlieges,andmostdevotedtoourlordtheKing。Andindeedhecouldscarcelyhavedoneless,whenLizziewrotegreatpartofhisreports,andfurbisheduptheresttosuchapitchoflustre,thatLordClarendonhimselfneedscarcehavebeenashamedofthem。Andthoughthiscostagreatdealofale,andevenofstrongwatersforLizziewouldhaveitthedutyofacritictostandtreattotheauthor,andthoughitwasotherwiseaplague,asgivingthemaidsuchairsofpatronage,andsuchpretencetopolitics;
yettherewasnostoppingit,withouttheriskofmortaloffencetobothwriterandreviewer。Ourmotheralso,whiledisapprovingLizzie’slongstayinthesaddle-roomonaFridaynightandaSaturday,andinsistingthatBettyshouldbethere,wasneverthelessasproudasneedbe,thattheKingshouldreadourEliza’swritings——atleastsotheinnocentsoulbelieved——andwealllookedforwardtosomethinggreatasthefruitofallthishistory。Andsomethinggreatdidcomeofit,thoughnotasweexpected;forthesereports,orasmanyofthemaswereeveropened,stoodusingoodsteadthenextyear,whenwewereaccusedofharbouringandcomfortingguiltyrebels。
NowthereasonwhytheDoonesdidnotattackuswasthattheywerepreparingtomeetanotherandmorepowerfulassaultupontheirfortress;beingassuredthattheirrepulseofKing’stroopscouldnotbelookedoverwhenbroughtbeforetheauthorities。Andnodoubttheywereright;foralthoughtheconflictsintheGovernmentduringthatsummerandautumnhaddelayedthematteryetpositiveordershadbeenissuedthattheseoutlawsandmalefactorsshouldatanypricebebroughttojustice;whenthesuddendeathofKingCharlestheSecondthrewallthingsintoconfusion,andallmindsintoapanic。
Weheardofitfirstinchurch,onSunday,theeighthdayofFebruary,1684-5,fromacousinofJohnFry,whohadriddenoveronpurposefromPorlock。Hecameinjustbeforetheanthem,splashedandheatedfromhisride,sothateveryoneturnedandlookedathim。Hewantedtocreateastirknowinghowmuchwouldbemadeofhim,andhetookthebestwaytodoit。Forhelettheanthemgobyveryquietly——orratherIshouldsayverypleasingly,forourchoirwasexceedingproudofitself,andIsangbasstwiceasloudasabull,tobeattheclerkwiththeclarionet——andthenjustasParsonBowden,withalookofprideathisminstrels,waskneelingdowntobegintheprayerfortheKing’sMostExcellentMajestyforheneverreadthelitany,exceptuponEasterSunday,upjumpsyoungSamFry,andshouts,——
’Iforbidthatthereprai-er。’
’What!’criedtheparson,risingslowly,andlookingforsomeonetoshutthedoor:’havewearebelinthecongregation?’Fortheparsonwasgrowingshort-sightednow,andknewnotSamFryatthatdistance。
’No,’repliedSam,notawhitabashedbythestaringofalltheparish;’norebel,parson;butamanwhomislaikethpoperyandmurder。Thatthereprai-erbeaprai-erforthedead。’
’Nay,’criedtheparson,nowrecognisingandknowinghimtobeourJohn’sfirstcousin,’youdonotmeantosay,Sam,thatHisGraciousMajestyisdead!’
’Deadasasto-un:poisonedbytheyPapishers。’AndSamrubbedhishandswithenjoyment,attheeffecthehadproduced。
’Rememberwhereyouare,Sam,’saidParsonBowdensolemnly;’whendidthismostsadthinghappen?TheKingistheheadoftheChurch,SamFry;whendidheleaveher?’
’Dayaforeyesterday。Twelveo’clock。Warn’tusquicktohearof’un?’
’Can’tbe,’saidtheminister:’thetidingscanneverhavecomesosoon。Anyhow,hewillwantitallthemore。LetusprayforHisGraciousMajesty。’
Andwiththatheproceededasusual;butnobodycried’Amen,’forfearofbeingentangledwithPopery。Butaftergivingforthhistext,ourparsonsaidafewwordsoutofbook,aboutthemanyvirtuesofHisMajesty,andself-denial,anddevotion,comparinghispiousmirthtothedancingofthepatriarchDavidbeforethearkofthecovenant;andheadded,withsomeseverity,thatifhisflockwouldnotjointheirpastorwhowasmuchmorelikelytojudgearightinprayingfortheKing,theleasttheycoulddoonreturninghomewastopraythattheKingmightnotbedead,ashisenemieshadasserted。
Nowwhentheservicewasover,wekilledtheKing,andwebroughthimtolife,atleastfiftytimesinthechurchyard:andSamFrywasmountedonahighgravestone,totelleveryoneallheknewofit。Butheknewnomorethanhehadtoldusinthechurch,asbeforerepeated:uponwhichweweremuchdisappointedwithhim,andinclinedtodisbelievehim;untilhehappilyrememberedthatHisMajestyhaddiedingreatpain,withbluespotsonhisbreastandblackspotsallacrosshisback,andtheseintheformofacross,byreasonofPapistshavingpoisonedhim。WhenSamcalledthistohisremembranceortohisimaginationhewasoverwhelmed,atonce,withsomanyinvitationstodinner,thathescarceknewwhichofthemtoaccept;
butdecidedinourfavour。
GrievingmuchforthelossoftheKing,howevergreatlyitmightbeastheparsonhaddeclareditwas,whiletellingustoprayagainstitfortheroyalbenefit,I
resolvedtoridetoPorlockmyself,directlyafterdinner,andmakesurewhetherheweredead,ornot。
ForitwasnotbyanymeanshardtosupposethatSamFry,beingJohn’sfirstcousin,mighthaveinheritedeitherfromgrandfatherorgrandmothersomeofthosegiftswhichhadmadeourJohnsofamousformendacity。
AtPorlockIfoundthatitwastootrue;andthewomenofthetownwereingreatdistress,fortheKinghadalwaysbeenpopularwiththem:themen,ontheotherhand,wereforecastingwhatwouldbelikelytoensue。
AndImyselfwasofthisnumber,ridingsadlyhomeagain;althoughboundtotheKingaschurchwardennow;
whichdignity,nexttotheparson’sinrank,iswithusasitoughttobeineverygoodparishhereditary。
Forwhocansticktothechurchlikethemanwhosefatherstucktoitbeforehim;andwhoknowsallthelittleins,andgreatouts,whichmustinthesetroubloustimescomeacross?
Butthoughappointedatlast,byvirtueofbeingbestfarmerintheparishaswellasbyviceofmismanagementonthepartofmymother,andNicholasSnowe,whohadthoroughlymuxedupeverything,beingtooquick-headed;yet,whileIdwelledwithprideuponthefactthatIstoodintheKing’sshoes,asthemanagerandpromoteroftheChurchofEngland,andI
knewthatwemustmissHisMajestywhosearmswereabovetheCommandments,astheleaderofourthoughtsinchurch,andhandsomeuponaguinea;neverthelessI
keptonthinkinghowhisdeathwouldactonme。