Blixhadcometoknowthegamequiteaswell,ifnotbetter,thanhe.ShecouldalmostinvariablytellwhenCondyheldagoodhand,butonherpartcouldassumeanairofindifferenceabsolutelyinscrutable.
"Cards?"saidCondy,pickingupthedeckafterthedeal.
"I’llstandpat,Condy."
"Thedeuceyousay,"heanswered,withastare."I’lltakethree."
"I’llpassituptoyou,"continuedBlixgravely.
"Well——well,I’llbetyoufivechips."
"Raiseyoutwenty."
Condystudiedhishand,laiddownthecards,pickedthemupagain,scratchedhishead,andmoveduneasilyinhisplace.Thenhethrewdowntwohighpairs.
"No,"hesaid;"Iwon’tseeyou.Whatdidyouhave?Let’ssee,justforthefunofit."
Blixspreadhercardsonthetable.
"Notablessedthing!"exclaimedCondy."Imighthaveknownit.
There’smylastdollargone,too.Lendmefiftycents,Blix."
Blixshookherhead.
"Why,whatalittleniggard!"heexclaimedaggrievedly."I’llpaythemallbacktoyou."
"Now,whyshouldIlendyoumoneytoplayagainstme?I’llnotgiveyouachip;and,besides,Idon’twanttoplayanymore.
Let’sstop."
"I’veamindtostopforgood;stopplayingevenwithyou."
Blixgavealittlecryofjoy.
"Oh,Condy,willyou,couldyou?andnever,nevertouchacardagain?neverplayformoney?I’dbesohappy——butdon’tunlessyouknowyouwouldkeepyourpromise.Iwouldmuchratherhaveyouplayeverynight,downthereatyourclub,thanbreakyourpromise."
Condyfellsilent,bitingthoughtfullyattheknuckleofaforefinger.
"Thinktwiceaboutit,Condy,"urgedBlix;"becausethiswouldbeforalways."
Condyhesitated;then,abstractedlyandasthoughspeakingtohimself:
"It’sdifferentnow.Beforewetookthat——threemonthsago,I
don’tsay.Itwasharderformetoquitthen,butnow——well,everythingisdifferentnow;anditwouldpleaseyou,Blixy!"
"MorethananythingelseIcanthinkof,Condy."
Hegaveherhishand.
"Thatsettlesit,"hesaidquietly."I’llnevergambleagain,Blix."
Blixgrippedhishandhard,thenjumpedup,and,withaquickbreathofsatisfaction,gatheredupthecardsandchipsandflungthemintothefireplace.
"Oh,I’msogladthat’soverwith,"sheexclaimed,herlittleeyesdancing."I’vepretendedtolikeit,butI’vehateditallthetime.Youdon’tknowHOWI’vehatedit!Whatmencanseeinittomakethemsitupallnightlongisbeyondme.Andyoutrulymean,Condy,thatyouneverwillgambleagain?Yes,Iknowyoumeanitthistime.Oh,I’msohappyIcouldsing!"
"GoodHeavens,don’tdothat!"hecriedquickly."You’reanice,amiablegirl,Blix,evenifyou’renotpretty,andyou——"
"Oh,botheryou!"sheretorted;"butyoupromise?"
"Onmyhonor."
"That’senough,"shesaidquietly.
Butevenwhen"loafing"ashewasthisevening,Condycouldnotridhimselfofthethoughtandrecollectionofhisnovel;restingorwriting,ithauntedhim.Otherwisehewouldnothavebeenthestory—writerthathewas.Fromnowonuntilheshouldsetdownthelastsentence,the"thing"wasnevertolethimalone,nevertoallowhimamoment’speace.Hecouldthinkofnothingelse,couldtalkofnothingelse;everyfacultyofhisbrain,everysenseofobservationorimaginationincessantlyconcentratedthemselvesuponthisonepoint.
Astheysatinthebaywindowwatchingthemoonrise,hismindwasstillbusywithit,andhesuddenlybrokeout:
"IoughttoworksomekindofaTREASUREintotheyarn.What’sastoryofadventurewithoutatreasure?ByJove,Blix,IwishI
couldgivemywholetimetothisstuff!It’srippinggoodmaterial,anditoughttobehandledascarefullyasglass.Oughttobeworkedup,youknow."
"Condy,"saidBlix,lookingathimintently,"whatisitstandsinyourwayofleavingthe’Times’?Wouldtheytakeyoubackifyouleftthemlongenoughtowriteyournovel?Youcouldwriteitinamonth,couldn’tyou,ifyouhadnothingelsetodo?Supposeyouleftthemforamonth——wouldtheyholdyourplaceforyou?"
"Yes——yes,Ithinktheywould;butinthemeanwhile,Blix——there’stherub.I’veneversavedacentoutofmysalary.WhenIstop,mypaystops,andwherewithalwouldIbefed?Whatareyoulookingforinthatdrawer——matches?Here,I’vegotamatch."
Blixfacedaboutatthesideboard,shuttingthedrawerbyleaningagainstit.Inbothhandssheheldoneofthedelftsugar—bowls.
Shecameuptothetable,andemptieditscontentsuponthebluedenimtable—cover——twoorthreegoldpieces,somefifteensilverdollars,andahandfulofsmallchange.
DisregardingallCondy’sinquiries,shecountedit,makinglittlepilesofthegoldandsilverandnickelpieces.
"Thirty—fiveandsevenisforty—two,"shemurmured,countingoffonherfingers,"andsixisforty—eight,andtenisfifty—eight,andtenissixty—eight;andhereisten,twenty,thirty,fifty—
fivecentsinchange."Shethrustitalltowardhim,acrossthetable."There,"shesaid,"isyourwherewithal."
Condystared."Mywherewithal!"hemuttered.
"Itoughttobeenoughforoveramonth."
"Wheredidyougetallthat?Whoseisit?"
"It’syourmoney,Condy.Youloanedittome,andnowithascomeinveryhandy."
"ILOANEDittoyou?"
"It’sthemoneyIwonfromyouduringthetimeyou’vebeenplayingpokerwithme.Youdidn’tknowitwouldamounttosomuch,didyou?"
"Pshaw,I’llnottouchit!"heexclaimed,drawingbackfromthemoneyasthoughitwasred—hot.
"Yes,youwill,"shetoldhim."I’vebeensavingitupforyou,Condy,everypennyofit,fromthefirstdayweplayeddownthereatthelake;andIalwaystoldmyselfthatthemomentyoumadeupyourmindtoquitplaying,Iwouldgiveitbacktoyou."
"Why,theveryidea!"hevociferated,hishandsdeepinhispockets,hisfacescarlet."It’s——it’spreposterous,Blix!I
won’tletyouTALKaboutiteven——Iwon’ttouchanickelofthatmoney.But,Blix,you’re——you’re——thefinestwomanIeverknew.
You’reaman’swoman,that’swhatyouare."Hesethisteeth."Ifyoulovedaman,you’dbearegularpaltohim;you’dbackhimup,you’dstandbyhimtillthelastgunwasfired.IcoulddoANYTHINGifaWOMANlikeyoucaredforme.Why,Blix,I——youhaven’tanyidea——"Heclearedhisthroat,stoppingabruptly.
"Butyoumusttakethismoney,"sheanswered;"YOURmoney.Ifyoudidn’t,Condy,itwouldmakemeoutnothingmorenorlessthanagambler.Iwouldn’thavedreamedofplayingcardswithyouifI
hadeverintendedtokeeponepennyofyourmoney.FromtheverystartIintendedtokeepitforyou,andgiveitbacktoyousosoonasyouwouldstop;andnowyouhaveachancetoputthismoneytoagooduse.Youdon’thavetostayonthe’Times’now.
Youcan’tdoyournoveljusticewhileyouaredoingyourhackworkatthesametime,andIdosowant’InDefianceofAuthority’tobeasuccess.I’vefaithinyou,Condy.Iknowifyougottheopportunityyouwouldmakeasuccess."
"ButyouandIhaveplayedliketwomenplaying,"exclaimedCondy.
"HowwoulditlookifSargeant,say,shouldgivemebackthemoneyhehadwonfromme?WhatacadIwouldbetotakeit!"
"That’sjustit——we’venotplayedliketwomen.ThenIWOULDhavebeenagambler.I’veplayedwithyoubecauseIthoughtitwouldmakeawayforyoutobreakoffwiththehabit;andknowingasI
didhowfondyouwereofplayingcardsandhowbaditwasforyou,howwickeditwouldhavebeenformetohaveplayedwithyouinanyotherspirit!Don’tyousee?Andasithasturnedout,you’vegivenupplaying,andyou’veenoughmoneytomakeitpossibleforyoutowriteyournovel.TheCentennialCompanyhaveaskedyoutotryastoryofadventureforthem,you’vefoundonethatissplendid,you’rejustthemanwhocouldhandleit,andnowyou’vegotthemoneytomakeitpossible.Condy,"sheexclaimedsuddenly,"don’tyouseeyourCHANCE?Aren’tyouabigenoughmantoseeyourchancewhenitcomes?And,besides,doyouthinkI
wouldtakeMONEYfromyou?Can’tyouunderstand?Ifyoudon’ttakethismoneythatbelongstoyou,youwouldinsultme.ThatisjustthewayIwouldfeelaboutit.Youmustseethat.Ifyoucareformeatall,you’lltakeit."
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TheeditoroftheSundaySupplementputhistoothpickbehindhisearandfixedCondywithhiseyeglasses.
"Well,it’slikethis,Rivers,"hesaid."Ofcourse,youknowyourownbusinessbest.Ifyoustayonherewithus,itwillbeallright.ButImayaswelltellyouthatIdon’tbelieveIcanholdyourplaceforamonth.Ican’tgetamaninheretodoyourworkforjustamonth,andthenfirehimoutattheendofthattime.Idon’tliketoloseyou,butifyouhaveanopportunitytogetinonanotherpaperduringthisvacationofyours,you’reatlibertytodoso,forallofme."
"ThenyouthinkmychanceofcomingbackherewouldbeprettyslimifIleaveforamonthnow?"
"That’sright."
Therewasasilence.Condyhesitated;thenherose.
"I’lltakethechance,"heannounced.
ToBlix,thatevening,ashetoldheroftheaffair,hesaid:
"It’sneckornothingnow,Blix."
ChapterXII
ButdidBlixcareforhim?
Intheretiredcornerofhisclub,shutoffbytheJapanesescreen,orgoingupanddownthecitytoandfromhiswork,orsittingwithherinthebaywindowofthelittledining—roomlookingdownuponthecity,blurredinthetwilightorradiantwiththesunset,Condyaskedhimselfthequestion.Ascoreoftimeseachdayhecametoafinal,definite,negativedecision;
andascoreoftimesreopenedthewholesubject.BeyondthefactthatBlixhadenjoyedherselfinhiscompanyduringthelastmonths,Condycouldfindnosignortraceofencouragement;andforthatmatterhetoldhimselfthattheindicationspointedratherintheotherdirection.ShehadnocompunctioninleavinghimtogoawaytoNewYork,perhapsnevertoreturn.Inlessthanamonthnowalltheircompanionshipwastoend,andhewouldprobablyseethelastofher.
Hedarednotletherknowthatatlasthehadreallycometoloveher——thatitwasnopretencenow;forheknewthatwithsuchdeclarationtheir"goodtimes"wouldendevenbeforesheshouldgoaway.Buteveryday;everyhourthattheyweretogethermadeitharderforhimtokeephimselfwithinbounds.
Whatwiththistroubleonhismindandthegrimdeterminationwithwhichheheldtohiswork,Condychangedrapidly.Blixhadsteadiedhim,andacertainearnestnessandseriousnessofpurpose,acertainSTRENGTHhehadnotknownbefore,cameswiftlyintobeing.
WasBlixtogoaway,leavehim,perhapsforalltime,andnotknowhowmuchhecared?Wouldhespeakbeforeshewent?Condydidnotknow.Itwasaquestionthatcircumstanceswouldhelphimtodecide.Hewouldnotspeak,soheresolved,unlesshewassurethatshecaredherself;andifshedid,sheherselfwouldgivehimacue,ahintwhereontospeak.Butdayswentby,thetimesetforBlix’sdeparturedrewnearerandnearer,andyetshegavehimnottheslightestsign.
Thesetwointerestshadnowabsorbedhisentirelifeforthemoment——hisloveforBlix,andhisnovel.Littlebylittle"InDefianceofAuthority"tookshape.Theboomrestaurantandthecluboftheexilesweredisposedof,BillyIshambegantocometothefront,thefilibusteringexpeditionandSenoraEstrada(withhertorncallingcard)hadbeenintroduced,andtheexpeditionwasreadytoputtosea.Buthereanewdifficultywasencountered.
"WhatdoIknowaboutships?"CondyconfessedtoBlix."IfBillyIshamisgoingtocommandafilibusteringschooner,I’vegottoknowsomethingaboutaschooner——appearto,anyhow.I’vegottoknownauticallingo,therealthing,youknow.Idon’tbelieveaREALsailoreverinhislifesaid’belaythere,’or’avast.’We’llhavetogooutandseeCaptainJack;getsomemoretechnicaldetail."
Thismovewasproductiveofthemostdelightfulresults.CaptainJackwasallonfirewithinterestthemomentthatCondyandBlixtoldhimoftheidea.
"An’you’regoingtoputBillyIshaminabook.Well,strikemestraight,that’sasnorkin’goodidea.I’vealwayssaidthatallBillyneededwasaticketselleran’anadvanceagent,an’hewasawholeshowinhimself."
"We’regoingtosenditEast,"saidBlix,"assoonasit’sfinished,andhaveitpublished."
"Well,itoughttomakeprimereadin’,Miss;an’that’sagoodfetchin’title,’InDefianceofAuthority.’"
RegularlyWednesdayandSundayafternoons,BlixandCondycameouttothelifeboatstation.CaptainJackreceivedtheminsweaterandvisoredcap,andusheredthemintothefrontroom.
"Well,how’stheyarngettingon?"CaptainJackwouldask.
ThenCondywouldreadthelastchapterwhiletheCaptainpacedthefloor,frowningheavily,smokingcigars,listeningtoeveryword.
Condytoldthestoryinthefirstperson,asifBillyIsham’spartnerwerenarratingscenesandeventsinwhichhehimselfhadmoved.Condycalledthisprotagonist"BurkeCassowan,"andwasratherproudofthename.Butthecaptainwouldnoneofit.
Cassowan,theprotagonist,wassimply"OurMug."
"Now,"Condywouldsay,notebookinhand,"now,Cap.,we’vegotdowntoMazatlan.NowIwanttosortoforganizetheexpeditioninthisnextchapter."
"Isee,Isee,"CaptainJackwouldexclaim,interestedatonce.
"WaitabittillItakeoffmyshoes.Icanthinkbetterwithmyshoesoff";andhavingremovedhisshoes,hewouldbegintopacetheroominhisstockingfeet,puffingfiercelyonhiscigarashewarmedtothetale,blowingthesmokeoutthrougheitherear,gesturingsavagely,hisfaceflushedandhiseyeskindling.
"Well,now,lessee.FirstthingOurMugdoeswhenhegetstoMazatlanistocommunicatehisarrivaltoSenoraEstrada——
telegraphs,youknow;and,bytheway,havehimuseacipher."
"Whatkindofcipher?"
"Countthreelettersonfromtherightletter,see.Ifyouwerespelling’boat,’forinstance,youwouldbeginwithanE,thethirdletterafterB;thenRfortheO,beingthethirdletterfromO.Soyou’dspell’boat,’ERDW;andSenoraEstradaknowswhenshegetsthatdespatchthatshemustcountthreelettersBACK
fromeachlettertogettherightones.TakenowsuchacipherwordasULIOH.ThatmeansRIFLE.CountthreelettersbackfromeachletterofULIOH,andit’llspellRIFLE.Youcanmakeupalotofdespatcheslikethat,justtohavethethinglooknatural;
savvy?"
"Outofsight!"mutteredCondy,makinganote.
"ThenOurMugandBillyIshamstartgettingacrew.AndOurMug,hebuysthesextantthereinMazatlan——thesextant,thatgotoutoforderandspoiledeverything.Or,no;don’thaveitasextant;
haveitaquadrant——anold—fashioned,ebonyquadrant.HaveBillyIshambuyitbecauseitwascheap."
"Howdiditgetoutoforder,CaptainJack?"inquiredBlix."Thatwouldbeagoodtechnicaldetail,wouldn’tit,Condy?"
"Well,it’slikethis.OurMugan’Billygetaschoonerthat’ssoballysmallthattheyhavetodotheircookinginthecabin;
quadrant’sonarackoverthestove,andtheheatwarpsthejoints,sowhenOurMugtakeshisobservationhegetsfiftymilesoffhiscourseandraisesthelandwherethegovernmentforcesarewatchingforhim."
"Andhere’sanotherpoint,Cap.,"saidCondy."Weoughttoworksomekindofatreasureintothisyarn;can’tyouthinkupsomethingnewandoriginalinthewayofatreasure?Idon’twanttheoldgameofaburiedchestofmoney.Let’shavehimgettrackofsomethingthat’sworthafortune——somethingnovel."
"Yes,yes;Iseetheidea,"answeredtheCaptain,stridingoverthefloorwithgreatthudsofhisstockingedfeet."Now,lessee;
letmethink,"hebegan,rubbingallhishairthewrongway."Wewantsomethingnewandqueer,somethingthatain’teverbeenwrittenupbefore.Itellyouwhat!Hereitis!HaveOurMuggetwindofalittleriverschoonerthatsunkfiftyyearsbeforehistimeinoneofthebigSouthAmericanrivers,duringaflood——I
heardofthismyself.Schoonerwentdownandwasburiedtwentyfeetundermudandsand;andsincethattime——youknowhowthebigriversact——thewholeblessedcourseoftheriverhaschangedatthatpoint,andtheschoonerisondryland,orrathertwentyfeetunderit,andassoundasthedayshewaschartered."
"Well?"
"Well,haveitthatwhenshesankshehadaboardofheracargooffivehundredcasesofwhiskey,primestuff,seventhousandquartbottles,sealeduptightasdrums.NowOurMug——norBillyIshameither——theyain’tbornyesterday.No,sir;they’rerightnexttothemselves!Theyfigurethisway.Thisherewhiskey’sbeenkeptfiftyyearswithoutbeingmoved.Now,whatdoyousupposeseventhousandquartbottlesoffifty—year—oldwhiskeywouldbeworth?
Why,twentydollarsaquartwouldn’tbetoofancy.Sothereyouare;there’syourtreasure.OurMugandBillyIshamhaveonlygottodigthroughtwentyfeetofsandtopickupahundredthousanddollars,IFTHEYCANFINDTHESCHOONER."
Blixclappedherhandswithalittlecryofdelight,andCondysmoteaknee,exclaiming:
"ByJove!that’sasgoodasLoudonDodds’opiumship!Why,Cap.,you’reatreasureinyourselfforafellowlookingforstories."
Thenafterthenotesweretakenandthestorytalkedover,CaptainJack,especiallyifthedayhappenedtobeSunday,wouldinsistupontheirstayingtodinner——boiledbeefandcabbage.smokingcoffeeandpickles——thatK.D.B.servedinthelittle,brick—
pavedkitcheninthebackofthestation.Thecrewmessedintheirquartersoverhead.
K.D.B.herselfwasnotuninteresting.Herrespectabilityincasedherlikearmorplate,andsheneverlaughedwithoutputtingthreefingerstoherlips.Shetoldthemthatshehadatonetimebeena"costumereader."
"Acostumereader?"
"Yes;readingextractsfromcelebratedauthorsintheappropriatecostumeofthecharacter.Itusedtopayverywell,anditwasveryrefined.Iusedtodo’InaBalcony,’byMisterBrowning,and’Laska,’thesameevening!anditalwaysmadeahit.I’ddo’InaBalcony’first,andI’dputonaLouis—Quinze—the—fifteenthgownandwig—to—matchoverafemalecowboyoutfit.WhenI’dfinished’InaBalcony,’I’ddoanexit,andshuntthegownandwig—to—match,andcomeonas’Laska,’withthundernoisesoff.Itwasoneofthestrongesteffectsinmyrepertoire,anditalwaysgotmeacurtaincall."
AndCaptainJackwouldwaghisheadandmurmur:
"Extraordinary!extraordinary!"
BlixandCondysoonnotedthatupontheoccasionofeachoneoftheirvisits,K.D.B.foundmeanstoentertainthematgreatlengthwithlongdiscussionsuponcertainsubjectsofcuriouslydiversifiedcharacter.UpontheirfirstvisitsheelectedtotalkupontheAlpsmountains.TheSundayfollowingitwasbacteriology;onthenextWednesdayitwascrystals;whilefortwohoursduringtheirnextvisittothestation,CondyandBlixwereobligedtolistentoK.D.B.’sinterminablediscourseontheorigin,history,anddevelopmentofthekingdomofDenmark.Condywasdumfounded.
"Inevermetsuchaperson,manorwoman,inallmylife.Talkabouteducation!Why,Ithinksheknowseverything!"
"InDefianceofAuthority"soonbegantomakegoodprogress,butCondy,oncelaunchedupontechnicalnavigation,musthaveCaptainJackathiselbowcontinually,tokeephimfromfoundering.Insomeseanovelherememberedtohavecomeacrosstheexpression"garboardstreak,"andfromthecontextguesseditwastobeappliedtoadetailofavessel’sconstruction.Inanunguardedmomenthehadwrittenthathisschooner’sname"waspaintedinshowygiltlettersuponhergarboardstreak."
"What’sthegarboardstreak,Condy?"Blixhadasked,whenhehadreadthechaptertoher.
"That’swheretheypainthername,"hedeclaredpromptly."I
don’tknowexactly,butIlikethesoundofit."
Butthenextday,whenhewasreadingthissamechaptertoCaptainJack,thelattersuddenlyinterruptedwithanexclamationasofacutephysicalanguish.
"What’sthat?Readthatlastoveragain,"hedemanded.
"’Whentheyhadcomewithinafewboat’slengths,’"readCondy,"’theywereabletoreadtheschooner’sname,paintedinshowygiltlettersuponhergarboardstreak.’"
"MyGod!"gaspedtheCaptain,claspinghishead.Then,withashout:"Garboardstreak!garboardstreak?Don’tyouknowthatthegarboardstreakisthelastplanknextthekeel?Youmeancounter,notgarboardstreak.Thatregularlygraveledme,thatdid!"
Theystayedtodinnerwiththecouplethatafternoon,andforhalfanhourafterwardK.D.B.toldthemofthewondersofthecavesofElephantis.Onewouldhavebelievedthatshehadactuallybeenattheplace.Butwhenshechangedthesubjecttothescienceoffortification,Blixcouldnolongerrestrainherself.
"Butitisreallywonderfulthatyoushouldknowallthesethings!
Wheredidyoufindtimetostudysomuch?"
"Onemusthaveaneducation,"returnedK.D.B.primly.
ButCondyhadcaughtsightofahalf—filledbook—shelfagainsttheoppositewall,andhadbeensuddenlysmittenwithaninspiration.
Onaleafofhisnotebookhewrote:"TryherontheG’sandH’s,"
andfoundmeanstoshowitfurtivelytoBlix.ButBlixwaspuzzled,andattheearliestopportunityCondyhimselfsaidtotheretiredcostumereader:
"Speakingoffortifications,Mrs.Hoskins,Gibraltarnow——that’sawonderfulrock,isn’tit?"
"Rock!"shequeried."Ithoughtitwasanisland."
"Oh,no;it’safortress.Theyhaveacastlethere——acastle,somethinglike——well,liketheoldSchlossatHeidelberg.DidyoueverhearaboutorreadaboutHeidelbergUniversity?"
ButK.D.B.wasallabroadnow.GibraltarandHeidelbergwereunknownsubjectstoher,aswerealsoinoculation,Japan,andKosciusko.AbovetheG’sshewassound;belowthatpointherignorancewasbenighted.
"Butwhatisit,Condy?"demandedBlix,assoonastheywerealone.
"I’vetheidea,"heanswered,chuckling."WaittillafterSundaytoseeifI’mright;thenI’lltellyou.It’sadollartoapaperdime,K.D.B.willhavesomethingforusbySunday,beginningwithanI."
Andshehad.ItwasInternalRevenue.
"Right!right!"Condyshoutedgleefully,asheandBlixwereontheirwayhome."Iknewit.She’sdonewithAsh——Bol,Bol——Car,andallthose,andhasworkedthroughCod——Dem,andDem——Eve.
She’sdowntoHor——Kinnow,andshe’llgothroughthewholelotbeforeshe’sdone——Kin——Mag,Mag——Mot,Mot——Pal,andalltherest."
"TheEncyclopaedia?"
"Don’tyouseeit?Nowondershedidn’tknowbeansaboutGibraltar!Shehadn’tcometotheG’sbythen."
"She’sreadingtheEncyclopaedia."
"Andshegetsthevolumesontheinstahnentplan,don’tyousee?
Readstheleadingarticles,andthensprings’emonus.Toknowthingsandtalkaboutem,that’sherideaofbeingcultured.’Onemusthaveaneducation.’Doyourememberhersayingthat’Oh,ourmatrimonialobjectsarepanningoutbeyondallexpectation!"
Whatadelicious,never—to—be—forgottenmonthitwasforthosetwo!Thereinthemidstoflifetheywereasmuchaloneasuponatropicisland.Blixhaddeliberatelyfreedherselffromaworldthathadgrowndistastefultoher;Condylittlebylittlehaddroppedawayfromhisplaceamongthemenandthewomenofhisacquaintance,andthetwocameandwenttogether,livinginalittleworldoftheirowncreation,happyineachother’ssociety,livingonlyinthepresent,andaskingnothingbetterthantobeleftaloneandtotheirowndevices.
Theysaweachothereveryday.Inthemorningfromninetilltwelve,andintheafternoonuntilthree,Condyworkedawayuponhisnovel,butnotaneveningpassedthatdidnotseehimandBlixinthedining—roomofthelittleflat.ThursdaysandSundayafternoonstheyvisitedthelife—boatstation,andatothertimesprowledabouttheunfrequentedcornersofthecity,nowpassinganafternoonalongthewaterfront,watchingthedepartureofaChinasteamerortheloadingofthegreat,steelwheatships;nowclimbingtheladder—likestreetsofTelegraphHill,orrevisitingthePlaza,Chinatown,andtherestaurant;ortakinglongwalksinthePresidioReservation,watchingcavalryandartillerydrills;
orsittingforhoursontherocksbytheseashore,watchingtheceaselessrollandplungeofthesurf,thewheelingsea—birds,andthesleek—headedsealshuntingtheoffshorefish,happyforahalf—hourwhentheysurprisedonewithhispreyinhisteeth.
Oneday,somethreeweeksbeforetheendoftheyear,towardtwointheafternoon,Condysatinhisusualcorneroftheclub,behindthescreen,writingrapidly.Hiscoatwasoffandthestumpofacigarwasbetweenhisteeth.Athiselbowwastherectangularblockofhismanuscript.Duringthelastweekthestoryhadrunfromhimwithafacilitythathadsurprisedanddelightedhim;wordscametohimwithouteffort,rangingthemselvesintolinewiththepromptitudeofwell—drilledsoldiery;sentencesandparagraphsmarcheddowntheclean—sweptspacesofhispaper,likecompaniesandplatoonsdefilinguponreview;hischapterswerebrigadesthathemarshaledatwill,fallingtheminonebehindtheother,eachprecededbyitschapter—head,likeanofficerinthespacebetweentwodivisions.
Intheguiseofacommander—in—chiefsittinghishorseuponaneminencethatoverlookedthefieldofoperations,Condyatlasttookintheentiresituationataglance,and,withtheforceandprecisionofamachine,marchedhisforcesstraighttothegoalhehadsetforhimselfsolongatimebefore.
Thenatlengthhetookafreshpenfulofink,squaredhiselbows,drewclosertothedesk.andwithasingleswiftspurtofthepenwrotethelastlineofhisnovel,droppingthepenupontheinstantandpressingtheblotteroverthewordsasthoughsettingasealofapprovaluponthecompletedtask.
"There!"hemuttered,betweenhisteeth;"I’vedoneforYOU!"
ThatsameafternoonhereadthelastchaptertoBlix,andshehelpedhimtopreparethemanuscriptforexpressage.Sheinsistedthatitshouldgooffthatveryday,andherselfwrotethedirectionsupontheoutsidewrapper.ThenthetwowentdowntogethertotheWellsFargooffice,and"InDefianceofAuthority"
wassentonitsjourneyacrossthecontinent.
"Now,"shesaid,astheycameoutoftheexpressofficeandstoodforamomentuponthesteps,"nowthere’snothingtodobutwaitfortheCentennialCompany.Idosohopewe’llgettheiranswerbeforeIgoaway.TheyOUGHTtotakeit.It’sjustwhattheyaskedfor.Don’tyouthinkthey’lltakeit,Condy?"
"Oh,botherthat!"answeredCondy."Idon’tcarewhethertheytakeitornot.Howlongnowisitbeforeyougo,Blix?"
ChapterXIII
Aweekpassed;thenanother.Theyearwascomingtoaclose.IntendaysBlixwouldbegone.LettershadbeenreceivedfromAuntKihm,andalsoanexquisiteblackleathertraveling—case,apresenttoherniece,fullofcut—glassbottles,ebony—backedbrushes,andshellcombs.BlixwastoleaveontheseconddayofJanuary.Inthemeanwhileshehadbeenreadingfarintoherfirst—yeartext—books,underscoringandannotating,studyingforhoursuponsuchsubjectsasshedidnotunderstand,sothatshemightgetholdofherworkthereadierwhenitcametoclass—roomroutineandlectures.Herswasatemperamentadmirablysuitedtothestudyshehadchosen——self—reliant,cool,androbust.
Butitwasnoteasyforhertogo.NeverbeforehadBlixbeenawayfromherhome;neverforlongerthanaweekhadshebeenseparatedfromherfather,norfromHowardandSnooky.ThathugecityupontheAtlanticseaboard,withitsvast,fiercelife,wherebeattheheartofthenation,andwherebeyondAuntKihmsheknewnofriend,filledBlixwithavaguesenseofterrorandofoppression.Shewasgoingoutintoanewlife,alifeofworkandofstudy,aharsherlifethanshehadyetknown.Herfather,herfriends,herhome——alltheseweretobeleftbehind.ItwasnotsurprisingthatBlixshouldbedauntedattheprospectofsogreatachangeinherlife,nowsocloseathand.Butifthetearsdidstartattimes,nooneeversawthemfall,andwithacouragethatwasallherownBlixwatchedthelastdaysoftheyeartroopingpastandtheapproachoftheNewYearthatwastobeginthenewlife.
ButCondywasthoroughlyunhappy.Thosewonderfulthreemonthswereatanend.Blixwasgoing.Inlessthanaweeknowshewouldbegone.Hewouldseethelastofher.Thenwhat?Hepicturedhimself——whenhehadsaidgood—bytoherandthetrainhadlessenedtoasmokyblurinthedistance——facingabout,facingthelifethatmustthenbeginforhim,returningtothecityalone,pickinguptheroutineagain.Therewouldbenothingtolookforwardtothen;hewouldnotseeBlixintheafternoon;
wouldnotsitwithherintheeveninginthelittledining—roomoftheflatoverlookingthecityandthebay;wouldnotwakeinthemorningwiththeconsciousnessthatbeforethesunwouldsethewouldseeheragain,bewithher,andhearthesoundofhervoice.
Themonthsthatweretofollowwouldbeonelongache,onelong,harsh,colorlessgrindwithouther.Howwashetogetthroughthatfirsteveningthathemustpassalone?Andshedidnotcareforhim.Condyatlastknewthistobeso.Eventhepoorsolaceofknowingthatshe,too,wasunhappywasdeniedhim.Shehadneverlovedhim,andneverwould.Hewasachumtoher,nothingmore.Condywastooclear—headedtodeceivehimselfuponthispoint.Thetimewascomeforhertogoaway,andshehadgivenhimnosign,nocue.
Thelastdayspassed;Blix’strunkwaspacked,herhalfsectionengaged,herticketbought.Theysaidgood—bytotheoldplacestheyhadcometoknowsowell——Chinatown,theGoldenBalcony,thewater—front,thelakeofSanAndreas,TelegraphHill,andLuna’s——
andhadbadefarewelltoRiccardoandtooldRichardson.TheyhadleftK.D.B.andCaptainJackuntilthelastday.BlixwastogoonthesecondofJanuary.OnNewYear’sDaysheandCondyweretotaketheirlastwalk,weretogoouttothelifeboatstation,andthenonaroundtheshoretothelittleamphitheatreofblackberrybushes——wheretheyhadpromisedalwaystowriteoneanotherontheanniversaryoftheirfirstvisit——andthenforthelasttimeclimbthehill,andgoacrossthebreezydownstothecity.
Thencamethelastdayoftheoldyear,thelastdaybutonethattheywouldbetogether.Theyspentitinalongramblealongthewater—front,followingthelineoftheshippingevenasfarasMeiggs’sWharf.Theyhadcomebacktotheflatforsupper,andafterward,assoonasthefamilyhadleftthemalone,hadsettledthemselvesinthebaywindowtowatchtheNewYearin.
Thelittledining—roomwasdark,butfortheindistinctbluroflightthatcameinthroughthewindow——alightthatwasaminglingoftheafterglow,thenew—risenmoon,andthefainthazethatthecitythrewoffintotheskyfromitsstreetlampsandelectrics.
Fromwheretheysattheycouldlookdown,almostasfromatower,intothecity’sstreets.Hereacornercameintoview;furtheronagreatpuffofgreenfoliage——palmsandpinessidebyside——over—
lookedawall.Hereastreetwasvisibleforalmostitsentirelength,likeastreamofasphaltflowingdownthepitchofthehill,dammedoneithersidebyrowsuponrowsofhouses;whilefurtheronthevagueconfusionofroofsandfacadesopenedoutaroundapatchofgreenlawn,thegardenofsomelargerresidence.
Astheylookedandwatched,theafterglowcaughtwindowafterwindow,tillallthatquarterofthecityseemedtostareupatthemfromathousandruddyeyes.Thewindowsseemedinfiniteinnumber,thestreetsendlessintheircomplications:yeteverythingwasdeserted.Atthishourthestreetswereempty,andwouldremainsountildaylight.Notasoulwasstirring;nofacelookedfromanyofthosemyriadsofglowingwindows;nofootfalldisturbedthesilenceofthoseasphaltstreets.There,almostwithincallbehindthosewindows,shutofffromthoseemptystreets,athousandhumanliveswereteeming,eachthecentreofitsowncircleofthoughtsandwordsandactions;andyetthesolitudewasprofound,thedesolationcomplete.thestillnessunbrokenbyasingleecho.
Thenight——thelastnightoftheoldyear——wasfine;thewhite,clearlightfromamoontheycouldnotseegrewwideandclearoverthecity,asthelastgleamofthesunsetfaded.Itwasjustwarmenoughforthewindowtobeopen,andfornearlythreehoursCondyandBlixsatlookingdownuponthecityintheselastmomentsofthepassingyear,feelingupontheirfacesanoccasionaltouchofthebreeze,thatcarriedwithitthesmelloftreesandflowersfromthegardensbelowthem,andthefaintfinetaintoftheoceanfromfaroutbeyondtheHeads.Butthescenewasnotinrealitysilent.Attimeswhentheylistenedintently,especiallywhentheyclosedtheireyes,therecametothemasubdued,steadybourdon,profound,unceasing,avast,numbmurmur,likenoothersoundinallthegamutofnature——thesoundofacityatnight,thehumofagreat,conglomeratelife,wroughtouttherefrommomenttomomentunderthestarsandunderthemoon,whilethelasthoursoftheoldyeardroppedquietlyaway.
Astarfell.
Sittinginthewindow,thetwonoticeditatonce,andCondystirredforthefirsttimeinfifteenminutes.
"Thatwasaverylongone,"hesaid,inalowvoice."Blix,youmustwritetome——wemustwriteeachotheroften."
"Oh,yes,"sheanswered."Wemustnotforgeteachother;wehavehadtoogoodatimeforthat."
"Fouryearsisalongtime,"hewenton."Lotscanhappeninfouryears.WonderwhatI’llbedoingattheendoffouryears?We’vehadapleasanttimewhileitlasted,Blix."
"Haven’twe?"shesaid,herchinonherhand,themoonlightshininginherlittle,dark—browneyes.
Well,hewasgoingtoloseher.Hehadfoundoutthathelovedheronlyintimetofeelthewrenchofpartingfromherallthemorekeenly.Whatwashetodowithhimselfaftershewasgone?
Whatcouldheturntoinordertofillupthegreatemptinessthathergoingwouldleaveinhisdailylife?Andwasshenevertoknowhowdearshewastohim?Whynotspeaktoher,whynottellherthathelovedher?ButCondyknewthatBlixdidnotlovehim,andtheknowledgeofthatmustkeephimsilent;hemusthughissecrettohim,liketheSpartanboywithhisstolenfox,nomatterhowgrievouslyithurthimtodoso.HeandBlixhadlivedthroughtwomonthsofrarest,mostuntroubledhappiness,withhardlymoreself—consciousnessthantwoyoungandhealthyboys.Tobringthattroublous,disquietingelementoflovebetweenthem——unrequitedlove,ofallthings——wouldbeafolly.Shewouldtellhim——mustinallhonestytellhimthatshedidnotlovehim,andalltheirdeliciouscamaraderiewouldendina"scene."Condy,aboveeverything,wishedtolookbackonthosetwomonths,aftershehadgone,withoutbeingabletorememberthereinonesinglenotethatjarred.Ifthememoryofherwasallthathewastohave,heresolvedthatatleastthatmemoryshouldbeperfect.
Andtheloveofherhadmadeamanofhim——hecouldnotforgetthat;hadgiventohimjustthestrengththatmadeitpossibleforhimtokeepthatresolute,grimsilencenow.Inthosetwomonthshehadgrownfiveyears;hewasmoremasculine,morevirile.Theverysetofhismouthwasdifferent;betweentheeye—browstheclefthaddeepened;hisvoiceitselfvibratedtoaheaviernote.
No,no;solongasheshouldlive,he,mangrownashewas,couldneverforgetthisgirlofnineteenwhohadcomeintohislifesoquietly,sounexpectedly,whohadinfluenceditsoirresistiblyandsounmistakablyforitsbetterment,andwhohadpassedoutofitwiththepassingoftheyear.
ForafewmomentsCondyhadbeenabsent—mindedlysnappingthelidofhiscigarettecase,whilehethought;nowheselectedacigarette,returnedthecasetohispocket,andfumbledforamatch.Butthelittlegun—metalcasehecarriedwasempty.Blixroseandgropedforamomentuponthemantel—shelf,thenreturnedandhandedhimamatch,andstoodoverhimwhilehescrapeditunderthearmofthechairwhereinhesat.Evenwhenhiscigarettewaslightedshestillstoodthere,lookingathim,thefingersofherhandsclaspedinfrontofher,herhair,onesideofhercheek,herchin,andsweet,roundneckoutlinedbythefaintbluroflightthatcamefromtheopenwindow.Thenquietlyshesaid:
"Well,Condy?"
"Well,Blix?"
"Just’well’?"sherepeated."Isthatall?Isthatallyouhavetosaytome?"
Hegaveagreatstart.
"Blix!"heexclaimed.
"Isthatall?Andyouaregoingtoletmegoawayfromyouforsolong,andsaynothingmorethanthattome?Youthinkyouhavebeensocareful,thinkyouhavekeptyoursecretsoclose!Condy,don’tyousupposeIknow?Doyousupposewomenaresoblind?No,youdon’tneedtotellme;Iknow——I’veknownit——oh,forweeks!"
"Youknow——know——knowwhat?"heexclaimed,breathless.
"Thatyouhavebeenpretendingthatyoudidnotloveme.Iknowthatyoudoloveme——Iknowyouhavebeentryingtokeepitfrommeforfearitwouldspoilourgoodtimes,andbecausewehadmadeupourmindstobechums,andhave’nomorefoolishness.’Once——inthosedayswhenwefirstkneweachother——Iknewyoudidnotlovemewhenyousaidyoudid;butnow,since——oh,sincethatafternoonintheChineserestaurant,remember?——I’veknownthatyoudidloveme,althoughyoupretendedyoudidn’t.ItwasthepretenceI
wantedtoberidof;Iwantedtoberidofitwhenyousaidyoulovedmeanddidn’t,andIwanttoberidofitnowwhenYOU
pretendnottolovemeandIKNOWyoudo,"andBlixleanedbackherheadasshespokethat"know,"lookingathimfromunderherlids,asmileuponherlips."It’sthepretencethatIwon’thave,"sheadded."Wemustbesincerewitheachother,youandI."
"Blix,doYOUloveME?"
Condyhadrisentohisfeet,hisbreathwascomingquick,hiscigarettewasflungaway,andhishandsopenedandshutswiftly.
"Oh,Blixy,littlegirl,doYOUloveME?"
Theystoodthereforamomentinthehalfdark,facingoneanother,theirheartsbeating,theirbreathfailingtheminthetensionoftheinstant.Thereinthatroom,highabovethecity,alittleclimaxhadcomeswiftlytoahead,acrisisintwoliveshadsuddenlydeveloped.Themomentthathadbeeninpreparationforthelastfewmonths,thelastfewyears,thelastfewcenturies,behold!ithadarrived.
"Blix,doyouloveme?"
SuddenlyitwastheNewYear.Somewherecloseathandachorusofchimingchurchbellssangtogether.Faroffinthedirectionofthewharves,wherethegreatoceansteamshipslay,cametheglad,sonorousshoutingofawhistle;fromanearbystreetabuglecalledaloud.Andthenfrompointtopoint,fromstreettorooftop,andfromrooftospire,thevaguemurmurofmanysoundsgrewandspreadandwidened,slowly,grandly;thatprofoundandsteadybourdon,asofaninvisibleorganswelling,deepening,andexpandingtothefullmalediapasonofthecityarousedandsignalingtheadventofanotheryear.
Andtheyheardit,theytwoheardit,standingtherefacetoface,lookingintoeachother’seyes,thatunansweredquestionyetbetweenthem,thequestionthathadcometothemwiththeturningoftheyear.ItwastheoldyearyetwhenCondyhadaskedthatquestion.Inthatmoment’spause,whileBlixhesitatedtoanswerhim,theNewYearhadcome.Andwhilethehuge,vastnoteofthecityswelledandvibrated,shestillkeptsilent.Butonlyforamoment.Thenshecameclosertohim,andputahandoneachofhisshoulders.
"HappyNewYear,dear,"shesaid.
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OnNewYear’sDay,thelastdaytheyweretobetogether,BlixandCondytook"theirwalk,"astheyhadcometocallit——thewalkthatincludedthelifeboatstation,theGoldenGate,theoceanbeachbeyondtheoldfort,thegreen,bare,flower—starredhillsanddowns,andthesmoothlevelsofthegolflinks.Blixhadbeenbusywiththelastdetailsofherpacking,andtheydidnotgetstarteduntiltowardtwointheafternoon.
"Strikeme!"exclaimedCaptainJack,asBlixinformedhimthatshehadcometosaygood—by."Why,ain’tthisverysudden—like,MissBessemer?Hey,Kitty,comeinhere.Here’sMissBessemercometosaygood—by;goingtoNewYorkto—morrow."
"We’llregularlybelonesomewithoutyou,miss,"saidK.D.B.,asshecameintothefrontroom,bringingwithherabrisk,pungentodorofboiledvegetables."NewYork——suchatownasitmustbe!
ItwascalledManhattanatfirst,youknow,andwassettledbytheDutch."
EvidentlyK.D.B.hadreachedtheN’s.
Withsuchdeftnessasshepossessed,Blixtriedtoturntheconversationuponthefirstmeetingoftheretiredseacaptainandtheone—timecostumereader,butalltonopurpose.The"MatrimonialObjects"wereperhapsalittleashamedoftheir"personals"bynow,andneitherBlixnorCondywereevertoheartheirversionofthemeetinginthebackdining—roomofLuna’sMexicanrestaurant.CaptainJackwas,infact,anxioustochangethesubject.
"Anynewsoftheyarnyet?"hesuddenlyinquiredofCondy"WhatdothoseEasternpublishin’peoplethinkofOurMugandBillyIshamandthewhiskeyschooner?"
Condyhadreceivedtherejectedmanuscriptof"InDefianceofAuthority"thatmorning,accompaniedbyaletterfromtheCentennialCompany.
"Well,"hesaidinanswer,"they’renot,asyoumightsay,fallingoverthemselvestryingtoseewho’llbethefirsttoprintit.
It’sbeenreturned."
"Thedevilyousay!"respondedtheCaptain."Well,that’skindofdisappointin’toyou,ain’tit?"
"But,"Blixhastenedtoadd,"we’renotatalldiscouraged.We’regoingtosenditoffagainrightaway."
Thenshesaidgood—bytothem.
"Idunnoasyou’llseemeherewhenyoucomeback,miss,"saidtheCaptain,atthegate,hisarmaroundK.D.B."I’vegottoschemin’again.Doyouknow,"headded,inalow,confidentialtone,"thatalltheminesinCaliforniasendtheirclean—upsandgoldbricksdowntotheSelbysmeltin’worksonceeveryweek?Theysend’emtoSanFranciscofirst,andtheyaretakenuptoSelby’sWednesdayafternoonsonalittlestern—wheelsteamercalledthe"Monticello."Allthembricksareinabox——dumpedinlikesomuchcoal——andthatboxsetsjustunderthewheel—house,for’ard.Howmuchmoneydoyousupposethembricksrepresent?Well,I’lltellyou;lastweektheyrepresentedsevenhundredandeightythousanddollars.Well,now,IgotachartofthebaynearVallejo;thechannel’sallright,buttherearemudflatsthatrunoutfromshorethreemiles.Enoughwaterforawhitehall,butnotenoughfor——well,forthepatrolboat,forinstance.Twoorthreeslickboys,ofafoggynight——ofcourse,I’mnotinthatkindofgame,butstrike!itwouldbeadealnow,wouldn’tit?"
"Don’tyoubelievehim,miss,"putinK.D.B."He’sjusttalkingtoshowoff."
"IthinkyourschemeofholdingupaCunardliner,"saidCondy,withgreatearnestness,"ismorefeasible.Youcouldlayacrosshercourseandflyadistresssignal.She’dhavetoheaveto."
"Yes,Ibeenthinkin’o’that;butlookhere——what’stopreventthelinertakingrightafteryourschoonerafteryou’vegotthestuffaboard——justfollowin’yourightaroundan’findin’outwhereyouland?"
"She’dbeundercontracttocarryGovernmentmails,"contradictedCondy."Shecouldn’tdothat.You’dleavehermailsaboardforjustthatreason.Youwouldn’trobherofhermails;justsolongasshewascarryinggovernmentmailsshecouldn’tstop."
TheCaptainclappedhispalmdownuponthegate—post.
"Strikemestraight!Ineverthoughtofthat."
ChapterXIV
BlixandCondywenton;onalongthenarrowroadupontheedgeofthesaltmarshesandtulesthatlaybetweenthestationandtheGoldenGate;ontotheGoldenGateitself,andaroundtheoldgrime—incrustedforttotheoceanshore,withitsreachesofhard,whitesand,wherethebowlderslaytumbledandthesurfgrumbledincessantly.
TheworldseemedveryfarawayfromthemhereontheshoresofthePacific,onthatfirstafternoonoftheNewYear.Theyweresupremelyhappy,andtheysufficedtothemselves.Condyhadforgottenallaboutthenextday,whenhemustsaygood—bytoBlix.
Itdidnotseempossible,itwasnotwithintheboundsofpossibility,thatshewastogoaway——thattheytwoweretobeseparated.Andforthatmatter,to—morrowwasto—morrow.Itwastwenty—fourhoursaway.Thepresentmomentwassufficient.
Thepersistencewithwhichtheyclungtotheimmediatemoment,theirhappinessinlivingonlyinthepresent,hadbroughtaboutarathercuriousconditionofthingsbetweenthem.
Intheirloveforeachothertherewasnothoughtofmarriage;
theyweretoomuchoccupiedwiththejoyofbeingtogetheratthatparticularinstanttothinkofthefuture.Theylovedeachother,andthatwasenough.Theydidnotlookaheadfurtherthanthefollowingday,andthenbutfurtively,andonlyinorderthattheirmorrow’spartingmightintensifytheirhappinessofto—day.
ThatNewYear’sDaywastobetheendofeverything.Blixwasgoing;sheandCondywouldneverseeeachotheragain.Thethoughtofmarriage——withitscertainresponsibilities,itsduties,itsgravity,itsvague,troublousseriousness,itsinevitabledisappointments——wasevenalittledistastefultothem.
Theirromancehadbeenhithertowithoutaflaw;theyhadbeengenuinelyhappyinlittlethings.Itwasaswellthatitshouldendthatday,inallitspristinesweetness,unsulliedbyasinglebittermoment,undimmedbythecloudofasingledisillusionordisappointment.Whateverchancedtotheminlateryears,theycouldatleastcherishthisonememoryofapure,unselfishaffection,youngandunstainedandalmostwithoutthoughtofsex,comeandgoneontheverythresholdoftheirlives.Thiswastheend,theybothunderstood.Theyweregladthatitwastobeso.
Theydidnotevenspeakagainofwritingtoeachother.
Theyfoundoncemorethelittlesemicircleofblackberrybushesandthefallenlog,half—wayupthehillabovetheshore,andsatthereawhile,lookingdownuponthelonggreenrollers,marchingincessantlytowardthebeach,andtherebreakinginaprolongedexplosionofsolidgreenwaterandflyingspume.Andtheirglancefollowedtheirsucceedingranksfurtherandfurtherouttosea,tillthemultitudeblendedintothemass——thevast,green,shiftingmassthatdrewtheeyeonandon,totheabrupt,finelineofthehorizon.
Therewasnodetailinthescene.Therewasnothingbutthegreatreachoftheoceanfloor,theunbrokenplaneofbluesky,andthebaregreenslopeofland——threeimmensities,gigantic,vast,primordial.Itwasnoplacefortrivalideasandthoughtsoflittlethings.Themindharkedbackunconsciouslytothebroad,simpler,basicemotions,thefundamentalinstinctsoftherace.
Thehugespacesofearthandairandwatercarriedwiththemafeelingofkindlybutenormousforce——elementalforce,fresh,untutored,new,andyoung.Therewasbuoyancyinit;afine,breathlesssenseofupliftingandexhilaration;asensationasofbignessandareturntothehomely,human,naturallife,totheprimitiveoldimpulses,irresistible,changeless,andunhampered;
oldastheocean,stableasthehills,vastastheunplumbeddepthsofthesky.
CondyandBlixsatstill,listening,looking,andwatching——theintellectdrowsyandnumb;theemotions,thesenses,allaliveandbrimmingtothesurface.Vaguelytheyfelttheinfluenceofthemoment.Somethingwaspreparingforthem.Fromthelowest,untoucheddepthsintheheartsofeachofthemsomethingwasrisingsteadilytoconsciousnessandthelightofday.Thereisnonameforsuchthings,nonameforthemysterythatspanstheintervalbetweenmanandwoman——themysterythatbearsnorelationtotheirloveforeachother,butthatissomethingbetterthanlove,andwhosecomingsavorsofthemiraculous.
TheafternoonhadwanedandthesunhadbeguntosetwhenBlixrose.
"Weshouldbegoing,Condy,"shetoldhim.
Theystartedupthehill,andCondysaid:"IfeelasthoughIhadbeensomehowasleepwithmyeyeswideopen.Whataglorioussunset!ItseemstomeasthoughIwerelivingdoubleeveryminute;andoh!Blix,isn’titthegreatestthingintheworldtoloveeachotheraswedo?"
Theyhadcometothetopofthehillbynow,andwentonacrosstheopen,breezydowns,allstarredwithblueirisandwildheliotrope.Blixdrewhisarmaboutherwaist,andlaidhercheekuponhisshoulderwithalittlecaressingmotion.
"AndIdoloveyou,dear,"shesaid——"loveyouwithallmyheart.
Andit’sforalways,too;Iknowthat.I’vebeenagirluntilwithinthelastthreeorfourdays——justagirl,dearest;notveryserious,I’mafraid,andnotcaringforanythingelsebeyond,whatwashappeningclosearoundme——don’tyouunderstand?ButsinceI’vefoundouthowmuchIlovedyouandknewthatyoulovedme——
why,everythingischangedforme.I’mnotthesame,IenjoythingsthatIneverthoughtofenjoyingbefore,andIfeelso——oh,LARGER,don’tyouknow?——andstronger,andsomuchmoreserious.
JustalittlewhileagoIwasonlynineteen,butIthink,dear,thatbylovingyouIhavebecome——allofasuddenandwithoutknowingit——awoman."
Alittletremblingranthroughherwiththewords.Shestoppedandputbotharmsaroundhisneck,herheadtippedback,hereyeshalfclosed,hersweetyellowhairrollingfromherforehead.Herwholedearbeingradiatedwiththatsweet,cleanperfumethatseemedtocomealikefromherclothes,herneck,herarms,herhair,andmouth——thedelicious,almostdivine,femininearomathatwaspartofherself.
"Youdoloveme,Condy,don’tyou,justasIloveyou?"
Suchwordsashecouldthinkofseemedpitifullyinadequate.Foranswerhecouldonlyholdherthecloser.Sheunderstood.Hereyesclosedslowly,andherfacedrewnearertohis.Justaboveawhisper,shesaid:
"Iloveyou,dear!"
"Iloveyou,Blix!"
Andtheykissedeachotherthenuponthemouth.
Meanwhilethesunhadbeensetting.Suchasunset!Thewholeworld,thethreegreatspacesofseaandlandandsky,wereincarnadinedwiththegloryofit.Theoceanfloorwasablindingredradiance,thehillswereamethyst,theskyonegiganticopal,andtheytwoseemedpoisedinthemidstofallthechaoticgloryofaprimitiveworld.ItwasNewYear’sDay;theearthwasnew,theyearwasnew,andtheirlovewasnewandstrong.Everythingwasbeforethem.Therewasnolongeranypast,nolongeranypresent.Regretsandmemorieshadnoplaceintheirnewworld.
ItwasHope,Hope,Hope,thatsangtothemandcalledtothemandsmoteintolifethenewkeenbloodofthem.
Thensuddenlycamethemiracle,liketheflashingoutofanewstar,whoseradiancetheyfeltbutcouldnotsee,likeaburstofmusicwhoseharmonytheyfeltbutcouldnothear.Andastheystoodtherealoneinallthatsimplegloryofskyandearthandsea,theyknewallinaninstantthatTHEYWEREFOREACHOTHER,foreverandforever,forbetterorforworse,tilldeathshouldthempart.Intotheirromance,intotheirworldoflittlethings,theirjoysofthemoment,theirhappinessofthehour,hadsuddenlydescendedagreatandlastingjoy,thehappinessofthegreat,graveissuesoflife——ahappinesssodeep,sointense,astothrillthemwithasenseofsolemnityandwonder.Insteadofbeingtheend,thatNewYear’sDaywasbutthebeginning——thebeginningoftheirrealromance.Allthefine,virile,masculineenergyofhimwasarousedandrampant.Allhersweet,strongwomanlinesshadbeensuddenlydeepenedandbroadened.Infine,hehadbecomeaman,andshewoman.Youth,life,andtheloveofmanandwoman,thestrengthofthehills,thedepthoftheocean,andthebeautyoftheskyatsunset;thatwaswhattheNewYearhadbroughttothem.
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"It’sgood—by,dear,isn’tit?"saidBlix.
ButCondywouldnothaveitso.
"No,no,"hetoldher;"no,Blix;nomatterhowoftenweseparateafterthiswonderfulNewYear’sDay,nomatterhowfarweareapart,WEtwoshallnever,neversaygood—by."
"Oh,you’reright,you’reright!"sheanswered,thetearsbeginningtoshineinherlittledark—browneyes."No;solongasweloveeachother,nothingmatters.There’snosuchthingasdistanceforus,isthere?Justthink,youwillbehereontheshoresofthePacific,andIontheshoresoftheAtlantic,butthewholecontinentcan’tcomebetweenUS."
"Andwe’llbetogetheragain,Blix,"hesaid;"anditwon’tbeverylongnow.Justgivemetime——afewyearsnow."
"Butsolongasweloveeachother,TIMEwon’tmattereither."
"Whatarethetearsfor,Blixy?"heasked,pressinghishandkerchieftohercheek.
"Becausethisisthesaddestandhappiestdayofmylife,"sheanswered.Thenshepulledfromhimwithalittlelaugh,adding:
"Look,Condy,you’vedroppedyourletter.Youpulleditoutjustnowwithyourhandkerchief."
AsCondypickeditup,shenotedthenameoftheCentennialCompanyuponthecorner.
"It’stheletterIgotwiththemanuscriptofthenovelwhentheysentitback,"heexplained.
"Whatdidtheysay?"
"Oh,theusualthing.Ihaven’treadityet.Here’swhattheysay."Heopeneditandread:
"WereturntoyouherewiththeMS.ofyournovel,’InDefianceofAuthority,’andregretthatourreaderdoesnotrecommenditasavailableforpublicationatpresent.Wehave,however,followedyourworkwithconsiderableinterest,andhavereadastorybyyou,copiedinoneofourexchanges,underthetitle,’AVictoryOverDeath,’whichwewouldhavebeengladtopublishourselves,hadyougivenusthechance.
"WouldyouconsidertheofferoftheassistanteditorshipofourQUARTERLY,aliteraryandcriticalpamphlet,thatwepublishinNewYork,andwithwhichwepresumeyouarefamiliar?Wedonotbelievetherewouldbeanydifficultyinthematteroffinancialarrangements.Incaseyoushoulddecidetocomeon,weincloseR.
R.passesviatheA.T.&S.F.,C.&A.,andNewYorkCentral.
"Verytruly,"THECENTENNIALPUBLISHINGCOMPANY,"NEWYORK."
Thetwoexchangedglances.ButBlixwastooexcitedtospeak,andcouldonlygiveventtoalittle,quivering,chokingsigh.Theletterwasaveritablegodfromthemachine,theonethinglackingtocompletetheirhappiness.
"Idon’tknowhowthislookstoyou,"Condybegan,tryingtobecalm,"butitseemstomethatthisis——thatthis——this——"
Butwhattheysaidthentheycouldneverafterwardremember.Thegoldenhazeofthesunsetsomehowgotintotheirrecollectionofthemoment,andtheycouldonlyrecallthefactthattheyhadbeengayerinthatmomentthaneverbeforeinalltheirlives.
Perhapsasgayastheyeverweretobeagain.Theybegantoknowthedifferencebetweengayetyandhappiness.ThatNewYear’sDay,thatsunset,markedforthemanendandabeginning.Itwastheendoftheirgay,irresponsible,hour—to—hourlifeofthepastthreemonths;anditwasthebeginningofanewlife,whosepossibilitiesofsorrowandoftrouble,ofpleasureandofhappiness,weregreaterthanaughttheyhadyetexperienced.Theyknewthis——theyfeltitinstinctively,aswithacommonimpulsetheyturnedandlookedbackupontheglowingearthandseaandsky,thebreakingsurf,thebeach,thedistant,rime—incrusted,ancientfort——allthatscenethattotheireyesstoodforthedear,free,carelesscompanionshipofthoselastfewmonths.
Theirnew—foundhappinesswasnotwithoutitssadnessalready.
Allwasovernow;theirsolitarywalks,thelong,stilleveningsinthelittledining—roomoverlookingthesleepingcity,theirexcursionstoLuna’s,theirafternoonsspentinthegoldenChinesebalcony,theirmorningsonthelake,calmandstillandhot.
Foreverandforevertheyhadsaidgood—bytothatlife.Alreadythesunsetwaslosingitsglory.
Then,withonelastlook,theyturnedaboutandsettheirfacesfromittothenewlife,totheEast,wherelaytheNation.OutbeyondthepurplebulwarksoftheSierras,faroff,thegreat,grimworldwentclashingthroughitsgrooves——theworldthatnowtheyweretoknow,theworldthatcalledtothem,andwokethem,androusedthem.Theirlittlegayetiesweredone;thelifeoflittlethingswasallbehind.Nowforthefuture.Thesternernotehadstruck——workwastobedone;that,too,theNewYearhadbroughttothem——workforeachofthem,workandtheworldofmen.
Foramomenttheyshrankfromit,lothtotakethefirststepbeyondtheconfinesofthegardenwhereintheyhadlivedsojoyouslyandlearnedtoloveeachother;andastheystoodthere,facingthegrayanddarkeningEasternsky,theirbacksforeverturnedtothesunset,Blixdrewclosertohim,puttingherhandinhis,lookingalittletimidlyintohiseyes.Buthisarmwasaroundher,andthestrongyoungforcethatlookedintohereyesfromhisgavehercourage.
"AhappyNewYear,dear,"shesaid.
"Avery,veryhappyNewYear,Blix,"heanswered.
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