Shelookedattheclock。Charleswaslate。Then,sheaffectedanxiety。Twoorthreetimessheevenrepeated,“Heissogood!“
  TheclerkwasfondofMonsieurBovary。Butthistendernessonhisbehalfastonishedhimunpleasantly;neverthelesshetookuponhispraises,whichhesaideveryonewassinging,especiallythechemist。
  “Ah!heisagoodfellow,“continuedEmma。
  “Certainly,“repliedtheclerk。
  AndhebegantalkingofMadameHomais,whoseveryuntidyappearancegenerallymadethemlaugh。
  “Whatdoesitmatter?“interruptedEmma。“Agoodhousewifedoesnottroubleaboutherappearance。“
  Thensherelapsedintosilence。
  Itwasthesameonthefollowingdays;hertalks,hermanners,everythingchanged。Shetookinterestinthehousework,wenttochurchregularly,andlookedafterherservantwithmoreseverity。
  ShetookBerthefromnurse。Whenvisitorscalled,Felicitebroughtherin,andMadameBovaryundressedhertoshowoffherlimbs。Shedeclaredsheadoredchildren;thiswasherconsolation,herjoy,herpassion,andsheaccompaniedhercaresseswithlyricaloutburstwhichwouldhaveremindedanyonebuttheYonvillepeopleofSachettein“NotreDamedeParis。“
  WhenCharlescamehomehefoundhisslippersputtowarmnearthefire。Hiswaistcoatnowneverwantedlining,norhisshirtbuttons,anditwasquiteapleasuretoseeinthecupboardthenight-capsarrangedinpilesofthesameheight。Shenolongergrumbledasformerlyattakingaturninthegarden;whatheproposedwasalwaysdone,althoughshedidnotunderstandthewishestowhichshesubmittedwithoutamurmur;andwhenLeonsawhimbyhisfiresideafterdinner,histwohandsonhisstomach,histwofeetonthefender,histwocheeksredwithfeeding,hiseyesmoistwithhappiness,thechildcrawlingalongthecarpet,andthiswomanwiththeslenderwaistwhocamebehindhisarm-chairtokisshisforehead:“Whatmadness!“hesaidtohimself。“Andhowtoreachher!“
  Andthussheseemedsovirtuousandinaccessibletohimthathelostallhope,eventhefaintest。Butbythisrenunciationheplacedheronanextraordinarypinnacle。Tohimshestoodoutsidethosefleshlyattributesfromwhichhehadnothingtoobtain,andinhisheartsheroseever,andbecamefartherremovedfromhimafterthemagnificentmannerofanapotheosisthatistakingwing。Itwasoneofthosepurefeelingsthatdonotinterferewithlife,thatarecultivatedbecausetheyarerare,andwhoselosswouldafflictmorethantheirpassionrejoices。
  Emmagrewthinner,hercheekspaler,herfacelonger。Withherblackhair,herlargeeyes,heraquilinenose,herbirdlikewalk,andalwayssilentnow,didshenotseemtobepassingthroughlifescarcelytouchingit,andtobearonherbrowthevagueimpressofsomedivinedestiny?Shewassosadandsocalm,atoncesogentleandsoreserved,thatnearheronefeltoneselfseizedbyanicycharm,asweshudderinchurchesattheperfumeoftheflowersminglingwiththecoldofthemarble。Theothersevendidnotescapefromthisseduction。Thechemistsaid——
  “Sheisawomanofgreatparts,whowouldn’tbemisplacedinasub-prefecture。“
  Thehousewivesadmiredhereconomy,thepatientsherpoliteness,thepoorhercharity。
  Butshewaseatenupwithdesires,withrage,withhate。Thatdresswiththenarrowfoldshidadistractedfear,ofwhosetormentthosechastelipssaidnothing。ShewasinlovewithLeon,andsoughtsolitudethatshemightwiththemoreeasedelightinhisimage。Thesightofhisformtroubledthevoluptuousnessofthismediation。Emmathrilledatthesoundofhisstep;theninhispresencetheemotionsubsided,andafterwardsthereremainedtoheronlyanimmenseastonishmentthatendedinsorrow。
  Leondidnotknowthatwhenheleftherindespairsheroseafterhehadgonetoseehiminthestreet。Sheconcernedherselfabouthiscomingsandgoings;shewatchedhisface;sheinventedquiteahistorytofindanexcuseforgoingtohisroom。Thechemist’swifeseemedhappytohertosleepunderthesameroof,andherthoughtsconstantlycentereduponthishouse,likethe“Liond’Or“pigeons,whocametheretodiptheirredfeetandwhitewingsinitsgutters。ButthemoreEmmarecognisedherlove,themoreshecrusheditdown,thatitmightnotbeevident,thatshemightmakeitless。ShewouldhavelikedLeontoguessit,andsheimaginedchances,catastrophesthatshouldfacilitatethis。
  Whatrestrainedherwas,nodoubt,idlenessandfear,andasenseofshamealso。Shethoughtshehadrepulsedhimtoomuch,thatthetimewaspast,thatallwaslost。Then,pride,andjoyofbeingabletosaytoherself,“Iamvirtuous,“andtolookatherselfintheglasstakingresignedposes,consoledheralittleforthesacrificeshebelievedshewasmaking。
  Thenthelustsoftheflesh,thelongingformoney,andthemelancholyofpassionallblendedthemselvesintoonesuffering,andinsteadofturningherthoughtsfromit,sheclavetoitthemore,urgingherselftopain,andseekingeverywhereoccasionforit。Shewasirritatedbyanill-serveddishorbyahalf-opendoor;bewailedthevelvetsshehadnot,thehappinessshehadmissed,hertooexalteddreams,hernarrowhome。
  WhatexasperatedherwasthatCharlesdidnotseemtonoticeheranguish。Hisconvictionthathewasmakingherhappyseemedtoheranimbecileinsult,andhissurenessonthispointingratitude。Forwhosesake,thenwasshevirtuous?Wasitnotforhim,theobstacletoallfelicity,thecauseofallmisery,and,asitwere,thesharpclaspofthatcomplexstrapthatbuckedherinonallsides。
  Onhimalone,then,sheconcentratedallthevarioushatredsthatresultedfromherboredom,andeveryefforttodiminishonlyaugmentedit;forthisuselesstroublewasaddedtotheotherreasonsfordespair,andcontributedstillmoretotheseparationbetweenthem。Herowngentlenesstoherselfmadeherrebelagainsthim。Domesticmediocritydrovehertolewdfancies,marriagetendernesstoadulterousdesires。ShewouldhavelikeCharlestobeather,thatshemighthaveabetterrighttohatehim,torevengeherselfuponhim。Shewassurprisedsometimesattheatrociousconjecturesthatcameintoherthoughts,andshehadtogoonsmiling,tohearrepeatedtoheratallhoursthatshewashappy,topretendtobehappy,toletitbebelieved。
  Yetshehadloathingofthishypocrisy。ShewasseizedwiththetemptationtofleesomewherewithLeontotryanewlife;butatonceavaguechasmfullofdarknessopenedwithinhersoul。
  “Besides,henolongerlovesme,“shethought。“Whatistobecomeofme?Whathelpistobehopedfor,whatconsolation,whatsolace?“
  Shewasleftbroken,breathless,inert,sobbinginalowvoice,withflowingtears。
  “Whydon’tyoutellmaster?“theservantaskedherwhenshecameinduringthesecrises。
  “Itisthenerves,“saidEmma。“Donotspeaktohimofit;itwouldworryhim。“
  “Ah!yes,“Felicitewenton,“youarejustlikeLaGuerine,PereGuerin’sdaughter,thefishermanatPollet,thatIusedtoknowatDieppebeforeIcametoyou。Shewassosad,sosad,toseeherstandinguprightonthethresholdofherhouse,sheseemedtoyoulikeawinding-sheetspreadoutbeforethedoor。Herillness,itappears,wasakindoffogthatshehadinherhead,andthedoctorscouldnotdoanything,northepriesteither。Whenshewastakentoobadshewentoffquitealonetothesea-shore,sothatthecustomsofficer,goinghisrounds,oftenfoundherlyingflatonherface,cryingontheshingle。Then,afterhermarriage,itwentoff,theysay。“
  “Butwithme,“repliedEmma,“itwasaftermarriagethatitbegan。“
  ChapterSixOneeveningwhenthewindowwasopen,andshe,sittingbyit,hadbeenwatchingLestiboudois,thebeadle,trimmingthebox,shesuddenlyheardtheAngelusringing。
  ItwasthebeginningofApril,whentheprimrosesareinbloom,andawarmwindblowsovertheflower-bedsnewlyturned,andthegardens,likewomen,seemtobegettingreadyforthesummerfetes。Throughthebarsofthearbourandawaybeyond,theriverseeninthefields,meanderingthroughthegrassinwanderingcurves。Theeveningvapoursrosebetweentheleaflesspoplars,touchingtheiroutlineswithaviolettint,palerandmoretransparentthanasubtlegauzecaughtathwarttheirbranches。Inthedistancecattlemovedabout;neithertheirstepsnortheirlowingcouldbeheard;andthebell,stillringingthroughtheair,keptupitspeacefullamentation。
  Withthisrepeatedtinklingthethoughtsoftheyoungwomanlostthemselvesinoldmemoriesofheryouthandschool-days。Sherememberedthegreatcandlesticksthatroseabovethevasesfullofflowersonthealtar,andthetabernaclewithitssmallcolumns。Shewouldhavelikedtobeoncemorelostinthelonglineofwhiteveils,markedoffhereandtherebythestuffblackhoodsofthegoodsistersbendingovertheirprie-Dieu。AtmassonSundays,whenshelookedup,shesawthegentlefaceoftheVirginamidthebluesmokeoftherisingincense。Thenshewasmoved;shefeltherselfweakandquitedeserted,likethedownofabirdwhirledbythetempest,anditwasunconsciouslythatshewenttowardsthechurch,includedtonomatterwhatdevotions,sothathersoulwasabsorbedandallexistencelostinit。
  OnthePlaceshemetLestivoudoisonhiswayback,for,inordernottoshortenhisday’slabour,hepreferredinterruptinghiswork,thenbeginningitagain,sothatherangtheAngelustosuithisownconvenience。Besides,theringingoveralittleearlierwarnedtheladsofcatechismhour。
  Alreadyafewwhohadarrivedwereplayingmarblesonthestonesofthecemetery。Others,astridethewall,swungtheirlegs,kickingwiththeirclogsthelargenettlesgrowingbetweenthelittleenclosureandthenewestgraves。Thiswastheonlygreenspot。Alltherestwasbutstones,alwayscoveredwithafinepowder,despitethevestry-broom。
  Thechildreninlistshoesranaboutthereasifitwereanenclosuremadeforthem。Theshoutsoftheirvoicescouldbeheardthroughthehummingofthebell。Thisgrewlessandlesswiththeswingingofthegreatropethat,hangingfromthetopofthebelfry,draggeditsendontheground。Swallowsflittedtoandfroutteringlittlecries,cuttheairwiththeedgeoftheirwings,andswiftlyreturnedtotheiryellownestsunderthetilesofthecoping。Attheendofthechurchalampwasburning,thewickofanight-lightinaglasshungup。Itslightfromadistancelookedlikeawhitestaintremblingintheoil。Alongrayofthesunfellacrossthenaveandseemedtodarkenthelowersidesandthecorners。
  “Whereisthecure?“askedMadameBovaryofoneofthelads,whowasamusinghimselfbyshakingaswivelinaholetoolargeforit。