Whydidhealwaysofferaglassofsomethingtoeveryonewhocame?Whatobstinacynottowearflannels!InthespringitcameaboutthatanotaryatIngouville,theholderofthewidowDubuc’sproperty,onefinedaywentoff,takingwithhimallthemoneyinhisoffice。Heloise,itistrue,stillpossessed,besidesashareinaboatvaluedatsixthousandfrancs,herhouseintheRueSt。Francois;andyet,withallthisfortunethathadbeensotrumpetedabroad,nothing,exceptingperhapsalittlefurnitureandafewclothes,hadappearedinthehousehold。Thematterhadtobegoneinto。ThehouseatDieppewasfoundtobeeatenupwithmortgagestoitsfoundations;whatshehadplacedwiththenotaryGodonlyknew,andhershareintheboatdidnotexceedonethousandcrowns。Shehadlied,thegoodlady!Inhisexasperation,MonsieurBovarytheelder,smashingachairontheflags,accusedhiswifeofhavingcausedmisfortunetothesonbyharnessinghimtosuchaharridan,whoseharnesswasn’tworthherhide。TheycametoTostes。Explanationsfollowed。Therewerescenes。Heloiseintears,throwingherarmsaboutherhusband,imploredhimtodefendherfromhisparents。
Charlestriedtospeakupforher。Theygrewangryandleftthehouse。
But“theblowhadstruckhome。“Aweekafter,asshewashangingupsomewashinginheryard,shewasseizedwithaspittingofblood,andthenextday,whileCharleshadhisbackturnedtoherdrawingthewindow-curtain,shesaid,“OGod!“gaveasighandfainted。Shewasdead!Whatasurprise!WhenallwasoveratthecemeteryCharleswenthome。Hefoundnoonedownstairs;hewentuptothefirstfloortotheirroom;sayherdressstillhangingatthefootofthealcove;then,leaningagainstthewriting-table,hestayeduntiltheevening,buriedinasorrowfulreverie。Shehadlovedhimafterall!
ChapterThreeOnemorningoldRouaultbroughtCharlesthemoneyforsettinghisleg——seventy-fivefrancsinforty-soupieces,andaturkey。Hehadheardofhisloss,andconsoledhimaswellashecould。
“Iknowwhatitis,“saidhe,clappinghimontheshoulder;“I’vebeenthroughit。WhenIlostmydeardeparted,Iwentintothefieldstobequitealone。Ifellatthefootofatree;Icried;
IcalledonGod;ItalkednonsensetoHim。IwantedtobelikethemolesthatIsawonthebranches,theirinsidesswarmingwithworms,dead,andanendofit。AndwhenIthoughtthattherewereothersatthatverymomentwiththeirnicelittlewivesholdingthemintheirembrace,Istruckgreatblowsontheearthwithmystick。Iwasprettywellmadwithnoteating;theveryideaofgoingtoacafedisgustedme——youwouldn’tbelieveit。Well,quitesoftly,onedayfollowinganother,aspringonawinter,andanautumnafterasummer,thisworeaway,piecebypiece,crumbbycrumb;itpassedaway,itisgone,Ishouldsayithassunk;forsomethingalwaysremainsatthebottomasonewouldsay——aweighthere,atone’sheart。Butsinceitisthelotofallofus,onemustnotgivewayaltogether,and,becauseothershavedied,wanttodietoo。Youmustpullyourselftogether,MonsieurBovary。Itwillpassaway。Cometoseeus;mydaughterthinksofyounowandagain,d’yeknow,andshesaysyouareforgettingher。Springwillsoonbehere。We’llhavesomerabbit-shootinginthewarrenstoamuseyouabit。“
Charlesfollowedhisadvice。HewentbacktotheBertaux。Hefoundallashehadleftit,thatistosay,asitwasfivemonthsago。Thepeartreeswerealreadyinblossom,andFarmerRouault,onhislegsagain,cameandwent,makingthefarmmorefulloflife。
Thinkingithisdutytoheapthegreatestattentionuponthedoctorbecauseofhissadposition,hebeggedhimnottotakehishatoff,spoketohiminanundertoneasifhehadbeenill,andevenpretendedtobeangrybecausenothingratherlighterhadbeenpreparedforhimthanfortheothers,suchasalittleclottedcreamorstewedpears。Hetoldstories。Charlesfoundhimselflaughing,buttheremembranceofhiswifesuddenlycomingbacktohimdepressedhim。Coffeewasbroughtin;hethoughtnomoreabouther。
Hethoughtlessofherashegrewaccustomedtolivingalone。Thenewdelightofindependencesoonmadehislonelinessbearable。Hecouldnowchangehismeal-times,goinoroutwithoutexplanation,andwhenhewasverytiredstretchhimselfatfulllengthonhisbed。Sohenursedandcoddledhimselfandacceptedtheconsolationsthatwereofferedhim。Ontheotherhand,thedeathofhiswifehadnotservedhimillinhisbusiness,sinceforamonthpeoplehadbeensaying,“Thepooryoungman!whataloss!“Hisnamehadbeentalkedabout,hispracticehadincreased;andmoreover,hecouldgototheBertauxjustasheliked。Hehadanaimlesshope,andwasvaguelyhappy;hethoughthimselfbetterlookingashebrushedhiswhiskersbeforethelooking-glass。
Onedayhegotthereaboutthreeo’clock。Everybodywasinthefields。Hewentintothekitchen,butdidnotatoncecatchsightofEmma;theoutsideshutterswereclosed。Throughthechinksofthewoodthesunsentacrosstheflooringlongfineraysthatwerebrokenatthecornersofthefurnitureandtrembledalongtheceiling。Somefliesonthetablewerecrawlinguptheglassesthathadbeenused,andbuzzingastheydrownedthemselvesinthedregsofthecider。Thedaylightthatcameinbythechimneymadevelvetofthesootatthebackofthefireplace,andtouchedwithbluethecoldcinders。BetweenthewindowandthehearthEmmawassewing;sheworenofichu;hecouldseesmalldropsofperspirationonherbareshoulders。
Afterthefashionofcountryfolkssheaskedhimtohavesomethingtodrink。Hesaidno;sheinsisted,andatlastlaughinglyofferedtohaveaglassofliqueurwithhim。Soshewenttofetchabottleofcuracaofromthecupboard,reacheddowntwosmallglasses,filledonetothebrim,pouredscarcelyanythingintotheother,and,afterhavingclinkedglasses,carriedherstohermouth。Asitwasalmostemptyshebentbacktodrink,herheadthrownback,herlipspouting,herneckonthestrain。Shelaughedatgettingnoneofit,whilewiththetipofhertonguepassingbetweenhersmallteethshelickeddropbydropthebottomofherglass。
Shesatdownagainandtookupherwork,awhitecottonstockingshewasdarning。Sheworkedwithherheadbentdown;shedidnotspeak,nordidCharles。Theaircominginunderthedoorblewalittledustovertheflags;hewatcheditdriftalong,andheardnothingbutthethrobbinginhisheadandthefaintcluckingofahenthathadlaidaneggintheyard。Emmafromtimetotimecooledhercheekswiththepalmsofherhands,andcooledtheseagainontheknobsofthehugefire-dogs。
Shecomplainedofsufferingsincethebeginningoftheseasonfromgiddiness;sheaskedifsea-bathswoulddoheranygood;shebegantalkingofherconvent,Charlesofhisschool;wordscametothem。Theywentupintoherbedroom。Sheshowedhimheroldmusic-books,thelittleprizesshehadwon,andtheoak-leafcrowns,leftatthebottomofacupboard。Shespoketohim,too,ofhermother,ofthecountry,andevenshowedhimthebedinthegardenwhere,onthefirstFridayofeverymonth,shegatheredflowerstoputonhermother’stomb。Butthegardenertheyhadneverknewanythingaboutit;servantsaresostupid!Shewouldhavedearlyliked,ifonlyforthewinter,toliveintown,althoughthelengthofthefinedaysmadethecountryperhapsevenmorewearisomeinthesummer。And,accordingtowhatshewassaying,hervoicewasclear,sharp,or,onasuddenalllanguor,drawnoutinmodulationsthatendedalmostinmurmursasshespoketoherself,nowjoyous,openingbignaiveeyes,thenwithhereyelidshalfclosed,herlookfullofboredom,herthoughtswandering。
Goinghomeatnight,Charleswentoverherwordsonebyone,tryingtorecallthem,tofillouttheirsense,thathemightpieceoutthelifeshehadlivedbeforeheknewher。Butheneversawherinhisthoughtsotherthanhehadseenherthefirsttime,orashehadjustlefther。Thenheaskedhimselfwhatwouldbecomeofher——ifshewouldbemarried,andtowhom!Alas!
OldRouaultwasrich,andshe!——sobeautiful!ButEmma’sfacealwaysrosebeforehiseyes,andamonotone,likethehummingofatop,soundedinhisears,“Ifyoushouldmarryafterall!Ifyoushouldmarry!“Atnighthecouldnotsleep;histhroatwasparched;hewasathirst。Hegotuptodrinkfromthewater-bottleandopenedthewindow。Thenightwascoveredwithstars,awarmwindblowinginthedistance;thedogswerebarking。HeturnedhisheadtowardstheBertaux。
Thinkingthat,afterall,heshouldlosenothing,Charlespromisedhimselftoaskherinmarriageassoonasoccasionoffered,buteachtimesuchoccasiondidofferthefearofnotfindingtherightwordssealedhislips。
OldRouaultwouldnothavebeensorrytoberidofhisdaughter,whowasofnousetohiminthehouse。Inhisheartheexcusedher,thinkinghertoocleverforfarming,acallingunderthebanofHeaven,sinceoneneversawamillionaireinit。Farfromhavingmadeafortunebyit,thegoodmanwaslosingeveryyear;
forifhewasgoodinbargaining,inwhichheenjoyedthedodgesofthetrade,ontheotherhand,agricultureproperlysocalled,andtheinternalmanagementofthefarm,suitedhimlessthanmostpeople。Hedidnotwillinglytakehishandsoutofhispockets,anddidnotspareexpenseinallthatconcernedhimself,likingtoeatwell,tohavegoodfires,andtosleepwell。Helikedoldcider,underdonelegsofmutton,glorias*wellbeatenup。Hetookhismealsinthekitchenalone,oppositethefire,onalittletablebroughttohimallreadylaidasonthestage。
*Amixtureofcoffeeandspirits。
When,therefore,heperceivedthatCharles’scheeksgrewredifnearhisdaughter,whichmeantthathewouldproposeforheroneofthesedays,hechewedthecudofthematterbeforehand。Hecertainlythoughthimalittlemeagre,andnotquitetheson-in-lawhewouldhaveliked,buthewassaidtobewellbrought-up,economical,verylearned,andnodoubtwouldnotmaketoomanydifficultiesaboutthedowry。Now,asoldRouaultwouldsoonbeforcedtoselltwenty-twoacresof“hisproperty,“
asheowedagooddealtothemason,totheharness-maker,andastheshaftofthecider-presswantedrenewing,“Ifheasksforher,“hesaidtohimself,“I’llgivehertohim。“
AtMichaelmasCharleswenttospendthreedaysattheBertaux。
Thelasthadpassedliketheothersinprocrastinatingfromhourtohour。OldRouaultwasseeinghimoff;theywerewalkingalongtheroadfullofruts;theywereabouttopart。Thiswasthetime。Charlesgavehimselfasfarastothecornerofthehedge,andatlast,whenpastit——
“MonsieurRouault,“hemurmured,“Ishouldliketosaysomethingtoyou。“
Theystopped。Charleswassilent。
“Well,tellmeyourstory。Don’tIknowallaboutit?“saidoldRouault,laughingsoftly。
“MonsieurRouault——MonsieurRouault,“stammeredCharles。
“Iasknothingbetter“,thefarmerwenton。“Although,nodoubt,thelittleoneisofmymind,stillwemustaskheropinion。Soyougetoff——I’llgobackhome。Ifitis“yes“,youneedn’treturnbecauseofallthepeopleabout,andbesidesitwouldupsethertoomuch。Butsothatyoumayn’tbeeatingyourheart,I’llopenwidetheoutershutterofthewindowagainstthewall;
youcanseeitfromthebackbyleaningoverthehedge。“
Andhewentoff。